| i dont believe in god there, got that out in the open so where did i come from? the same place all babies do where will i go when i die? the same place where everything on earth goes when they die - back into the earth granted i might be in a large, air-tight, marble box which will not properly allow my body to go back into the earth, but ill be down there i used to believe in god, but it slowly stopped making sense to me all of my questions couldnt be answered to my satisfaction, and eventually, i came to the realization that there was no god i have to admit, this revelation made me a little sad i mean, realizing that i would never see my uncle david again, realizing that once this life is over - thats it...these are not "happy" thoughts compared to those that i had back when i did believe in a higher power after i stopped believing, i heard people question why people would ever stop they would say, "why would you take such a chance?" or "if there is no higher power, no better place once you die, what is the point of living at all?" or other statements of the like but i couldnt disagree more i still continued (and try to even today...) live my life the same way, adhering to the "10 comandments" as i tried to do when i first learned what they were but i still follow them, or live a "moral" life not because i desire to go to heaven, or fear going to hell, but because that is just how i want to live i try to be a good person, id even go as far as to say that my role model is jesus christ -- or at least the legend that he has carried on through the years i dont believe he was the "son of god" or anything, but he certainly was a great man who stood for a lot of great things, not a bad person to look up to so, i may not believe in god, but the way i think of it, if i happen to be wrong, and there actually is a god, he will see that i have lived a good life he will realize that as humans, we make mistakes, and i certainly made one as far as the whole "believing in him" thing went, but other than that, i didnt do anything that would deem me worthy of burning in a pit of eternal fire based on how i live my life, if there is a god, and i dont get into heaven, but people who have lived "worse" lives than me only they did believe in god - if they get in and i dont, i gotta say, this doesnt sound like a heaven that i want to be a part of, or a god that i want to worship there actually is a spiritual philosophy that makes sense to me i have always attributed this to some anonymous native american tribe, probably because of what i have seen on tv - and we all know how reliable of a source that is but maybe it is a combination of different things i have heard in my life, but here it is i believe that all life is sacred while i do not believe that living things have a "soul" per se, i do think that all life is on the "same level" that means that the life of a pretty little kitten, or a human, or an oak tree, or a jellyfish...they are all precious, all valued, all life.. i dont think that a human is any "better" than a dog for example i mean, we are more evolved, we have developed the ability to walk on our hind legs, and our thumbs have developed to where we can build things and open doors etc but we are no "better" than dogs when it comes down to it so humans arent on their way to "heaven", but we are headed to the same place as all other life, so we should treat all life with respect ok, ive killed bugs before, picked dandelions, i guess i dont follow this rule as strictly as i make it sound, but i think it is a very good way to live i dont believe that all this life was tied together by a supreme being, but it is a form of spirituality to me so does that still make me an atheist? my problem with the word, is that it tends to carry negative connotations i had a friend, seconds after she found out i was an "atheist", tell me "...an atheist?! but i always thought you were so nice!" not sure how i was even supposed to take that also, "atheist" maybe also implies that i have no set of "morals" or "beliefs" that i use to live my life i already discussed my "spirituality" in this (HUGE paragraph), but one would assume that i do not have anything like that once i am labeled "atheist" so, once again, i do not believe in god if you want, you can join the club of people who are "praying for me", or you can tell me that i am going to hell - ive certainly heard that one before who knows, maybe theyre right? maybe ill even see most of them there...? |