them." With a tear running down my cheeks, I turned to go to the other room. The waffles were blueberry. It had hit me once again, that my dad was getting worse..... to some, this may be just a "silly" little thing..but to a pervious caregiver.....it was a red flag! And a major tug on the heart strings! I continued to watch him eat from a room that was adjacent to the kitchen.
It is like he is in his own little world. How it sent a flash back of when my mom was sitting there at the same table, eating her breakfast. The same motions, the same child -like looks. Oh how it is breaking my heart! I then, just
glance through the other rooms, while wiping the tears from my eyes. The front room use to be so decked out with beautiful nick-nacks. Many beautiful live-flowers with beautiful smells. Each nick-nack had its own story behind it. And mom would share that story with anyone who would listen. The curtains in the door way, were stitched by moms own talented hands years ago. Her love was always spread so thick in this house. And everyone knew how much dad and her loved each one of us.
Where did those days go? How I miss the love that was shared here when we were all here at home together. But watching dad now, it draws my mind and heart back over the past that I once had seen with my mom.
There must be a way to keep the peace in my life, in my heart during all of this. How can I find that peace? Where do I look for it?
I know there is one, who promises us "peace"..... during the storms. And this
is sure a big storm in my life. But Jesus says, He will calm the storms of our lives.
"HE CALMS THE STORM, SO THAT ITS WAVES ARE STILL." PSALM107:29
He will give us a place of refuge. "AND THERE WILL BE A TABERNACLE FOR
SHADE IN THE DAYTIME FROM THE HEAT, FOR A PLACE OF REFUGE, AND FOR A SHELTER FROM STORM AND RAIN." ISAIAH 4:6
And He also says that if we keep our minds stayed on Him, He WILL give us peace. "YOU WILL KEEP HIM IN PERFECT PEACE, WHOSE MIND IS STAYED ON YOU, BECAUSE HE TRUSTS IN YOU." ISAIAH 26:3
"PEACE I LEAVE WITH YOU, MY PEACE I GIVE TO YOU; NOT AS THE WORLD GIVES DO I GIVE TO YOU. LET NOT YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED, NEITHER LET IT BE AFRAID." JOHN 14:27
So I can have peace within my heart and soul? How I thank God for that!
When these storms of life come rushing down on us...we must always go to Jesus. He is the only one who can give us the strength and peace we need to overcome the storms!! We must not focus on the problem...the hurt for our
loved one, but know that Jesus is with us and He is helping us through it all.
And when we have those days that all we want to do is cry, go to Jesus! He will wrap His love all around you. And He will give you every thing you need to get up and start again.
" I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME." PHILIPPIANS 4:13
"AND THE PEACE OF GOD, WHICH SURPASSES "ALL" UNDERSTANDING, WILL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND MINDS THROUGH CHRIST JESUS." PHILIPPIANS 4:7
YES! I am sad at times. YES! I am hurting at times. But NO! I don't have to go it all alone! I HAVE JESUS! Who WILL give me the strength and peace I need for each new day! And HE WILL...... GIVE IT TO YOU TO! We just must keep going to Him for the answers! And KNOW, He WILL give us peace within!
