| "THE WINDOWS OF MY MIND" Copyright (c) Jan. 2000 Debi Gentry "OH GOD, YOU ARE MY GOD; EARLY WILL I SEEK YOU; MY SOUL THIRSTS FOR YOU; MY FLESH LONGS FOR YOU IN A DRY AND THIRSTY LAND WHERE THERE IS NO WATER." PSALM 63:1 As I walk through the day, I remember many things that my parents tried so hard to teach me. Their love and compassion for each other, and for me and my brother. They some times seems so far away now, but I know they still remains within our hearts today. I just long to reach out and say, "Mom, what do you want to do today" Or " Mom, what is for dinner tonight".... We use to take the whole day walking through down town Kansas City, just window shopping. Dad would drop us off and then go spend the day in the way he wanted to, maybe visiting with other family members in the area. But It was sure a day we always remembered, what closeness we shared. I think the most important part that I miss is, just the little talks that mom and I use to have. Mom was so funny at times...she would laugh so hard that many times it would bring happy tears to her eyes. And other times, she could be very serious! I could always tell she really loved me and my brother with all her heart. She IS my best friend! In the windows of my mind, I know the loss that I feel. I know the hurt and the emptiness I feel so many times. And when I feel that the windows are closing in on me, I look to Jesus for the strength that I need.....the living water if you will. "IF YOU KNEW THE GIFT OF GOD, AND WHO IT IS WHO SAYS TO YOU, 'GIVE ME A DRINK,' YOU WOULD HAVE ASKED HIM, AND HE WOULD HAVE GIVEN YOU LIVING WATER." JOHN 4:10 "BUT WHOEVER DRINKS OF THE WATER THAT I SHALL GIVE HIM WILL NEVER THIRST. BUT THE WATER THAT I SHALL GIVE HIM WILL BECOME IN HIM A FOUNTAIN OF WATER SPRINGING UP INTO EVERLASTING LIFE." JOHN 4:14 I know with out a doubt, I could not get through this nightmare in my life with out the Love of Jesus Christ. Many days I find myself falling and fighting to get up again. Then, I listen.....and look up.....I allow Jesus to take my broken heart. Then I can, rest in Jesus' arms of love and compassion. He holds me tight and gives me His words to hold onto...His life to believe in.....His promises for ME! "...I HAVE HEARD YOUR PRAYERS, I HAVE SEEN YOUR TEARS..." 2 KINGS 20:5 He knows all the tears that we have cried, and He cares about us and the hurts that we are going through. "YOU NUMBER MY WANDERINGS; PUT MY TEARS INTO YOUR BOTTLE; ARE THEY NOT IN YOUR BOOK?" PSALM 56:8 We must always remember, when it gets really hard and we feel so alone.....we DO have a FRIEND! One that will NEVER leave our side..... All He asks us to do, is TRUST HIM! He is our strength through EVERY THING! He wants to walk with us through the good and the bad times. He wants to be our very Best friend! "FOR YOU WILL LIGHT MY LAMP; THE LORD MY GOD WILL ENLIGHTEN MY DARKNESS. FOR BY YOU I CAN RUN AGAINST A TROOP, BY MY GOD I CAN LEAP OVER A WALL. AS FOR GOD, HIS WAY IS PERFECT; PROVEN; HE IS A SHIELD TO "ALL" WHO TRUST IN HIM." PSALM 18: 28-30 The Bible says that one day there will be no more sin and sufferings, and the former things will be passed away. (Nahum 1:9; Rev.21:4) And that the wolf shall dwell with the lamb, the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them. "THEY SHALL NOT HURT NOR DESTROY IN ALL MY HOLY MOUNTAIN, SAYS THE LORD." (Isaiah 11:6-9; Isaiah 65:25) May God be with each one who are going through this heart-breaking time in their lives.. |
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