| Today's Thoughts (Debi's Diary) |
| The thoughts of mom and dad were on my mind when I woke up this morning........ How is dad's day going? Is he thinking about his house and going home? Is it just another day that has pasted without much meaning? Is mom hurting this morning? Does she long to "speak" a word and reach for a passing nurse? What does she "see" when she looks around? "DO NOT CAST ME OFF IN THE TIME OF OLD AGE; DONOT FORSAKE ME WHEN MY STRENGTH FAILS. PSALM 71:9 (week of Aug. 13th) |
| All through the day... Your smiles come to my mind... The memories that we have made... The love that you have given to me! I look at your picture... And the tears flow freely... But not of bad... But of Good! I will ALWAYS be greatful to God... For the "blessings" that He has bestowed on me... Through YOU! (week of Aug. 20th) |
| I was your little girl dad... You protected me all my years... You loved me... And at times... you were good at hiding your feelings... Men don't cry! But I knew you loved me... You were always there for me... You never walked out on us! And when you left once... your love for me and mom... brought you back home. I thank you dad... for putting your family first... Above all! God must have been in your heart... You were never selfish... You always put us kids first. Thank you DAD!! (week of Aug. 20th) |
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| I love you! I am thinking and praying for you today! (week of Aug. 27th) |
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| Emptiness has a new meaning now...without you here to talk too! (week of Aug. 20th) |
| Remember... the times we'd laugh so hard that we cried? I DO! Remember... the tears that you cried when I was going through my divorce? I DO! Remember... our shopping trips together? I DO! Remember... when you thought I should clean my room? I DO! Remember... I will always love YOU! I DO! Copyright (c) 2001 Debi Gentry (week of Aug. 13th) |
| Good morning God, Thank you for the bright sunshine this morning.....for the warm breeze blowing on my face. Thank you for the beautiful memories you've given me with my mom and dad. For their strength and devoted love. Be with them this day Lord.... Keep them safe and fill their hearts with your love and trust. Each breath you give... is such a precious blessing Lord. I thank you Father God... For loving each one of us so much! Amen. (Week of Aug. 27th) |
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| I can't wait to see you today. :) I bought you a new outfit mom. It will look really good on you. Remember when you use to buy me new clothes mom? It was so fun! And dad... I got you a pair of new overalls... Your favorite...Big Smith. No matter what I do... it takes me back to a memory... of something that you have done in my life! Thank you! (Week of Aug. 27th) |
| Today I seen the pain on your face mom.... The tears were so heavy... I felt your pain... Your tears broke my heart in too... I will speak up for you mom... My mouth will be your mouth... when you need to speak... My mouth will speak your words... That you can no longer find... I will be here for you mom! (Week of Aug. 27th) |
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| Today mom, I just wanted to hold you in my arms the way you use to do me.....when I was hurting! To just dry all the tears...to make things all "ok" again... That is what I wished I could do for YOU this day! I am here for you mom, today and forever! We WILL get through this, TOO! (Week of Sept. 2nd) |
| Dad...you are still the strongest man I know! You are still who I look up too. You are still my number one man! Only you hold a key that gets into the deepest part of my heart. Your love has been the only love that has ever came close to the "unconditional" love that Jesus has for me! I miss YOU! I love YOU! (Week of Sept. 9th) |
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| God reminds me every day that HE IS IN CONTROL! We must TRUST HIM!! Not to our own feelings and thoughts.... When we hurt, God IS there. When we need help... God IS THERE! He will NEVER leave us or forsake us! One day there will be NO MORE disease! AMEN! (Week of Sept. 9th) |
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| Mom and Dad... I thank God for you every day! For the breath that He gives you both. For the blessings He has given me through YOU! One day I hope to sit and talk with you both and tell you just how much I love you and how much you given to my life! Words will never be able to express just how much YOU have been a blessing in my life! You both loved our family enough to give 100% Thinking always of us FIRST! You have instilled MUCH about "love" in my heart! And it will be there for the rest of my life! Thank YOU BOTH! (Week of Sept. 9th) |
| I love you mom and dad! You are always in my thoughts! You are always in my prayers! I miss you so much! I miss our talks... Your strength... Your hugs... Your "friendship"! One day... we will talk again! Jesus will help us thorugh this! (Week of Sept. 16th) |
| So much has happened in this world.... People have lost loved ones... Mothers have lost children... I thank God that I still have you... Maybe not in a "full and complete" way... But in a way that I can still hold your hand... Kiss your cheek... Hold you close to me... See the smiles on your face... Thank you God for all you have given me! (Week of Sept. 23rd) |
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| Mom... I remember as a little girl... You sitting alone at times...thinking. You seemed to be having such deep thoughts.... What were you thinking about mom? Were you thinking about years that have passed....A moment in time spent with your mother...Sharing beautiful thoughts and reminiscing of your love for her, and her love for you? I rememer you saying many times mom.... That you missed your mom alot. I seen your pain.... But I never understood it....... UNTIL NOW-----MOM! (Week of Sept. 23rd) |
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| Mom... The little things come back to me often... Like when I was sick... you would bring me food and drink... You would clean up after me if I wasn't able to hold it down... You were just always there... Through the good and the bad... You always went beyond your duty... and it never stopped after I left home! Thank you mom and dad for all you have instilled in me... A parents love...I believe.... is the next thing to the love of Jesus! (Week of Sept. 30th) |
| God is GOOD! He gave me YOU! |
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| The Lord has blessed our family much... And the love that He has bestowed within each one of you... Fills the room where ever you go! Even to this day... Gods love shines from within you both! I miss the way things use to be... But I know.... One day soon.... Jesus "will" make things ok... Better then we can ever think now! (Week of Oct. 7th) |
| I will hold tight to Jesus' promises! He will not bring us this far..... And then leave us! He IS in control now and forever! Amen! (Week of Oct. 7th) |
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| I will never forget how much you helped me dad when I had Dusty. You cared about how much sleep I lost. You were always there for me....day or night...and many times through both day and night. I love you so much! Now and forever! (Week of Oct. 7th) |
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| I will never forget how much sleep you lost mom...staying up with Dusty when dad took his rest. The "mothers" love.... can it be comprehended? My Heavenly Father has blessed me much with the love of a mom and dad.....with such compassionate and unconditional love! I LOVE YOU JESUS! (Week of Oct. 7th) |
| Some times it is just so hard. Tears run so freely down my face. The thoughts... the memories... Oh how I miss you! I know I have a almight God...All powerful... And I know He is with me...helping me get through this time in my life....And I thank Him so much! Without Jesus.... This pain would be more then I could handle! The loss would be unbearable! Without His promise... There would be no hope! But one day... He will wipe away all my tears... And we will live without the sin of this world! Oh Jesus come soon! (Week of Oct. 7th) |
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| ....."For I am with you, and no one will attack you to hurt you; for I have many people in this city." Acts. 18:10 Sometimes I feel like we are all alone mom..... but then I realize that that is what satan wants me to feel! But It is NOT ture~! I will focus on YOU JESUS! Nothing in this world has any strength.....or purpose.....or meaning..... YOU are the ONLY one who can give the strength I need! You tell me you ARE with me..... and NO ONE will attack me or hurt me.... I need to let go of all these thoughts.... And KNOW that you WILL be with me in ALL the things I am going through! Lord take my mom in your arms...... Hold her and keep her. Give me strength Lord..... I WILL trust YOU!!! (week of Oct. 14) |
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| Thank you Jesus for all the trials you have "allowed" to happen to me! I WILL trust in YOU! I "know" you are working in my life and others for good. Thank you Jesus! (Week of Oct. 21st) |
| You are so wonderful Lord..... You help me when I feel so alone... You send me joy when I see no way out.... You give me peace... when I just don't understand "why"! Thank you for the thoughts of "YOU".... when down I seem to be falling... Pick me up Lord and set me back on track again? I love you Jesus.... My ONLY hope and strength.... FOREVER! (Week of Oct. 28th) |
| The thoughts of nature send a calming effect on me..... The beauty of your hands..... Your creative powers..... God you are so very awesome! Words can never say all that you are to me! When I get down.... I look into your word... Pray to you.... There are many treasures there. ````````````` Knowing thatYOU have created everything.... Knowing that YOU are a BIG God.... Knowing that YOU are well able to do whatever YOU want to do..... I KNOW I CAN trust in YOU! Lord, Please be with my mom right now... Help her in the way YOU see fit... I put her life in YOUR hands totally! Lord, help me to always do this every day...first thing! (Week of Oct. 28th) |
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| This week mom went to the hospital with a bed-sore that will not heal. And suffering from staph infection also... Just found out that she now has cancer on her face... Lord, keep her and help her not to be afraid! Things might be abit mixed up in her mind Lord.... Give her the peace that she needs.... In some way, show her that YOU are there with her.... And comfort her in the ways she needs right now. ONLY YOU lord can do this. Thank you Jesus! (Week of Nov. 4th) |
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| Tears fill my eyes.... To see my mom hurting like this.... I remember the days of old.... When she would smile so big... Talk of good things.... Talk of Jesus! Her smiles have been fading away... Into this saddened face... One of hurt and pain.... Of confusion and loss. Jesus...One of your little children needs you so much.... I know you are there for her.... I pray that you will hold her tight within your arms of love. I pray for her.... And for your will to always be done! I know that you do not want her to hurt.... And I know that one day...she will not hurt anymore! (Rev. 22:4) (Week of Nov. 4th) |
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| Heaven WILL BE more beautiful then we can even think! And Jesus did it all for us! Thank you Jesus!! |
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| It has been awhile since I have last written much down. Much has happened within the past few weeks. But I know that God is still ALL powerful! He gives me the strength and the power to go on inspite of the hurts and losses that this life can bestow on us. I see it in the beauty of His nature... I see it in His love for me.... In His answering my prayers....... Only God can give the peace and contentment that we need in times of trouble and sorrow. In ANY time of ANY need.... God IS there for us! We need to believe.... and trust...... And look to ONLY Him for the answers! I love you Father God! (Dec. 26, 01) |
| When all others seem so far away.... I know that I can ALWAYS count on YOU! Thank you Jesus for ALWAYS being there for me! There is no other "friend" like YOU! (Dec. 15th, 01) |
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| Accepting Jesus is a FREE gift! :) |
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| Sometimes it helps to write my thoughts down. To go back and read the feelings that I once felt.... To see how God has answered my prayers..... And how He is with me every step of the way... I have sit at Jesus' feet and wrote my deepest feelings and thoughts.... And, I have found it really has helped me! |
| I DO miss you mom! But... I sure don't miss the times I have seen you hurt.... Time when I have seen you cry from such pain you were feeling... I can let go mom... For I know that Gods word IS true.... I will wait for Jesus' return.... And long for that Great and wonderful day.... When we will go to heaven together! You are resting now... Jesus says you are sleeping.... 1 Thess. 4:13-18 (Dec. 29th, 01) |
| Jesus comforts us in our times of need.... He holds us to Himself when we are feeling so alone.... He is our friend when we feel we have not one..... He will never let us down....no never! He is there when we call...... He has the always working 800 number........(Jer. 33:3) All He asks us to do.... is call on Him! Trust Him! Put everything in His hands.... Leave it ALL to Him to work out! (Dec. 29th, 01) |
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| Its been awhile since I have written any thing here. Still holding onto the Lord and His words! Life has its ups and downs. But no matter how bad things seem to get....we ALWAYS have Jesus to hold onto and give our tears too. He will comfort us in all things. He is there when the world seems so hard and so cold! No matter what.... Keep your focus on Jesus! (June 15th, 02) |