September 30, 2003
	Why did today take so long?  And why did I promise someone I would quit purging with them...cause in the end I only let them down.  So I feel even worse...didnt know that was possible!  Oh but it is!!!  I also found out i have a paper due tomorrow...am I working on it now?  nope...should i be...yes!  Do I care?  NO.  I dont care about anything anymore...its really random. I used to care so much about things like school and friends, now I would rather eat...or not eat, depending on my ED behavior of choice.  Currently...Binging...like no tomorrow...I hate it...a lot!  Why cant I be normal?  Oh wait...normal huh, interesting, I forgot.  I am so bitter and angry today.  I dont know why...nothing happened, at all.  Maybe that is it.  Or I have lots of tests tomorrow...and I dont care. Do EDs make you stop caring?  Damn it...this makes no sense...i cant sound smart...I cant make sense...I am going to finish my binge...                                                             Have a nice day!