...the first step you took?
...the first time you got on that big yellow school bus?
...your first friend?
...the first book you read?
...the first time you shot a basketball, went to dance class, or wore a swim suit?
...leaving elementary school and moving on to junior high?
… how lost you felt your first day of High school?
...how you could never leave your mother's side?
Do you remember...
...the first time someone made fun of you, and you realized what it meant?
...the first time you inspected yourself in the mirror, poking and squeezing?
...the first time you cried yourself to sleep because you were hideous looking?
...the first time you ran a mile, or did a set of 100 crunches?
...the first time someone complimented you on a weight loss?
… the first time someone told you they were worried?
...the first meal you skipped?
...the first time you went down a size?
...the first time you looked in a mirror, but no longer saw yourself?
...the first time you stood up and the room turned black for a little bit?
...the first time you felt your bones, and ran your fingers over your ribs?
...the first time you lost control, and how sore your throat was?
...the first time your friends confronted you, and how you cried?
Do you remember...
...how you lied to them?
...trying to hide, to pull away from everyone?
...the world swirling around, and you so all alone, afraid, and tired?
...the questions what do you have? who saw you? when was your last period?
...when it all came out and your family sent you to the doctors?
...them telling you that you could no longer do things?
...wanting to cry and not being able to?
...the pain you feel now, knowing that nothing has changed?
