I always forget things, like I learnt piano for 6 years, and today I don't have a musical instrument. The ones that didn't break are with my children. I need to get at least a touch sensitive keyboard, and one day before I die, another piano. I would like to get various other instruments too, and I have some skills on those.
Music is the essence of my soul. My soul vibrates to gentle soft caring music. Other music with sensitive words encourages me. Strong music motivates me to get on with it, and music with rhythm is for dancing or private things, although that is best interspersed with soft interludes. Without music, I am lost.
I rode my bicycle to TAFE every day for 3 yrs. It was fun. The bike is dead at the moment.
I cook well, yet I have lost the desire. I need someone to share the cooking.
I need someone to chop my firewood for me. Yes, I might be able to do it myself. I need someone to paint the back of the shed, the gutters and facias. My ladder is not long enough for this job. Nor do I have the funds for paint. I don't even have money to put fuel in the lawn mower, and I discovered that I love the mental privacy of lawnmowing. There are a few other repair jobs.
3 things broke my second marriage up. My husband didn't believe I wasn't having an affair, loss of trust. He didn't believe I had not volunteered us for yard duty at the scout hall, loss of trust. My best friend started dying, and he was the cement that held the marriage together. He and I had the best marriage that never was, no there was no physical. My husband told me when we first met, I love you, I don't like you. We did make friends over the years. We both gave 101%. Why so open? Because if you are not right, you will hide things, get nasty. If you are right, we will hit it off, and from the first day, we will both just gel and constantly please each other. All will be right.
Be warned. I am the world's best kept secret. This is not just any lady. If I sold it someone would be very rich. I have never sold it and never will. In private, only the hopeless have complained, because you can't teach a block of wood. Behind closed doors, the right gent will be more than satisfied.
IF YOU ARE DAMAGED, I will be the best friend, helping you through until you are healed, and you will be able to find your ideal lady very quickly. I have watched this happen several times. Blessings seem to come to the sincere after meeting me too. Maybe this is because I wish them the best, or maybe nature just knows their need.
When I love, I love totally and unconditionally. I have loved a number of times, and I have been loved totally a few times too. The love I have experienced has been worth experiencing. This is why I will not settle for less than the best. I was raised fit for a prince, and the only one I knew of wasn't good enough for me. I rebelled and today I live like Cinderella, in rags and poverty.
This suits me for now, because those who are no good will just pass me by. I have a high libido, which I can control.
DO NOT PLAY MIND GAMES WITH ME, in any way, shape or form. I don't play games, and they will rebound on you. I can scare the pants off the best, and have brought the odd gent undone. The really sad part is, that if you are really suited to me and play mind games, you will lose me before you ever find that out. One or two have done exactly that, and in my heart I cry, because I know there is no going back there. The damage is done.
Although I don't make it obvious, I do have the brains to see through some tactics, and I just reject.
I will not wear the latest thing, that a gent doesn't take a lady out. You do that and you will lose me. Is it worth the risk?
CONTACT: I ring or SMS people often. This does not mean I am in love. I ring or SMS because I care, and I expect lots of contact from a friend. If I don't get enough contact, I will dump even the best meaning friend.
I will tell you I love you, not because I am in love. I will tell you because I love things about you, as a caring friend. I am scary, because I will make you feel loved, even as a friend.
And that is me, oneladybrijit.
Enjoy, or go your own way, your choice.
