Draco stood in the doorway for a second before growing visibly impatient.
"Well, Potter?" he sneered. "Care to tell me why you're so keen
on keeping me here?"
"I heard about your father." Harry sighed and shifted a bit on the
bed.
Malfoy snapped, "You and every other person in the universe. Don't tell
me you're going to offer a heartfelt apology, too."
Harry shrugged. "I'd be lying if I said I thought your father's death
was a big loss for me. When a person tries to kill me, they're usually right off
the 'Harry's Favourite People' list." Ignoring Malfoy's murderous look, he
nonchalantly continued, "I do think that it's a big loss for you, though,
and I'm sorry that you lost a parent. I know what that's like, at least."
"Everything always comes back to Potter, doesn't it? Think you're centre
of the universe and that every event revolves around you."
"Not usually," Harry said. "But the last few days have been a
little weird." He shrugged again and hastily continued, "Never mind
that, though. Can I ask you a question?"
Draco scoffed, "When has Precious Potter ever asked permission for
anything?"
Harry rolled his eyes. "I'll take that as a yes. Is what The Daily
Prophet published true? They're not exactly known for their impartial
journalism, after all."
Looking annoyed, Draco spat, "My father is indeed dead, Potter. Not that
I want to discuss my affairs with you."
"No, not about that. Did Voldemort kill him? Hermione thought that it
was possible that it was a Ministry cover-up for an Auror or a prison
guard."
"What Granger knows can fit on the head of a pin. No one knows for sure.
It's not as though I was at Azkaban and the Dark Lord didn't exactly feel it
necessary to sit me down for a heart-to-heart chat about Father's death."
Malfoy gave a shiver so small Harry doubted he even realised he'd done it. In a
voice barely above a whisper, he added, "Mother seems to think the Dark
Lord is responsible, though."
"Why?"
"Because a Dementor was destroyed. Consider the Ministry for a moment.
Have you ever heard of them destroying a Dementor?"
Harry shook his head.
"That's because the dunderheads have no idea how to do it. Only someone
with a firm grasp of the Dark Arts would be able to wield that much power."
Harry nodded. That did make sense. "And who has a better grasp on the
Dark Arts than Voldemort?" At the name, Draco gave another little shiver.
"Come on, Malfoy. You work for him now. Try to show a little bravery when
you hear his name."
"Foolish bravery is a Gryffindor trait. I may be one of his followers,
but I know enough to respectfully fear him," Draco said petulantly.
Harry pushed down the little flare of anger that curled in his belly.
"Do you think your father was simply caught in the crossfire or Voldemort
really meant to kill him? Getting rid of dead weight or someone he thought may
be a threat?" He paused. "Maybe you're next." Draco's face
coloured and Harry knew he was getting angry, but Harry didn't care. He thought
even Malfoy should be aware of the things Voldemort would do to anyone in his
way – including a loyal follower.
In a low, vaguely threatening voice, Malfoy retorted, "I'm not privy to
the Dark Lord's private schemes. If he killed my father for a reason, I
certainly don't know it. And even if I did, what makes you think I'd tell you?"
Harry was uncomfortably reminded of Lucius or Snape. He wondered if quiet
threats were something they taught in Death Eater school.
This was getting Harry nowhere. He decided to change tactics and quietly
asked, "Malfoy, do you miss your father?"
"What business is it of yours?" Draco's typically haughty look
reappeared.
"Oh, just answer the question, Malfoy." Harry crossed his arms over
his chest. "You've been watching me sleep, you're a minion of the Dark
Lord, yet you've made no moves to kill me in all that time. Also," he added
pointedly, "you've been talking with me somewhat civilly for fifteen
minutes. You may hate me, but something's going on with you and I suspect it has
something to do with your father. So, do you miss your father or not?"
Draco looked very slightly taken aback, yet still maintained his aristocratic
stance. He slowly replied, carefully emphasising each word, "Never forget
that I hate you, Potter."
Harry winced slightly, trying to squash his memories of Draco from the night
before. Not the same person, he reminded himself. "Yes, I'm aware of
that, Malfoy."
"Perhaps I've been assigned to spy on you as my first mission."
"Hell of a job you're doing," retorted Harry. "I've caught you
in the act twice, found out you took the Dark Mark and had a pleasant
conversation with you."
"Maybe I'm here to kill you, then."
"Go ahead, Malfoy." Harry spread his arms out wide. "Hit me
with your best shot."
Automatically, Malfoy raised his wand and pointed, his hand shaking slightly.
Harry cringed and looked away, momentarily thinking his hunch was wrong. After a
second, Draco lowered his wand. "I hate you," he said, still
shaking. After a moment, he quietly added, "And yes, I miss my
father." Looking defeated, he sank back into the chair at Harry's side and
unconsciously rubbed at his forearm.
Harry gestured towards the place where the hidden mark lay. "Does it
hurt much?"
"What?" Draco looked down. "Oh. Sometimes. Not really."
"What does it feel like when you're around Voldemort?" Off Draco's
look, he corrected himself, "You-Know-Who, the Dark Lord, Lord Thingy,
whatever. Whenever I'm around him this burns." He gestured at his scar.
"Sometimes it hurts so much I want to pass out. I always wondered if it did
the same thing for his followers."
Draco shook his head and glanced at his arm. "Burns? No, it doesn't
burn. I suppose he could make us hurt through it, but it's not as though he
doesn't have a thousand different ways of distributing pain. I can feel his
presence through the Mark more clearly the closer he is to me, though."
"No offence, Malfoy, but you don't seem like the most enthusiastic Death
Eater. Why did you even bother getting the Dark Mark? When did it happen?"
Draco shot Harry a scathing look. "I received the Dark Mark over the
summer. I chose our Lord because of you. Because you put my father in
prison and I wanted revenge. Because I hate every bone in your body. Because I
wanted my father to be proud of me and I knew this is what he wanted. He wanted
his heir to follow in his footsteps and serve the Dark Lord."
"And now your Dark Lord has killed the man you were trying to make
proud. Seems a little worse than putting him into prison when you think about
it."
Draco said nothing.
Harry decided now was as good a time as any to drop the subject of Voldemort.
After all, he now knew where some of Draco's more interesting moles were, so he
felt strange making the other boy uncomfortable, despite the fact that Malfoy
had been trying to make his life miserable since he was eleven. He cleared his
throat.
"What is it, Potter? Have some more righteous pontificating for
me?"
"Not really. Just thought one embarrassingly personal turn deserves
another."
"What are you prattling on about?"
"Well, don't you want to know what goes on when the rest of the world
thinks I'm in a coma?"
Draco snorted. "Why would I care about what goes on in your perverse
little head?"
"Why must you answer every question with another question? Did you learn
that in Death Eater school, too?"
"What?"
"Never mind."
Draco leaned on the armrest, propping his face up with his hand. "Fine,
Potter." He sighed melodramatically. "Tell me what it's like inside
you."
Harry opened and closed his mouth, trying to ignore the implications of that
last sentence. He briefly considered performing a Memory Charm on himself due to
his extreme attraction towards Draco's unusually relaxed stance. God, I'm
messed up.
"You know, while your impression of a large-mouthed bass is quite
accurate, this isn't exactly the scintillating type of story to which a Malfoy
is accustomed." Draco looked peeved.
Pulling himself together, Harry managed a hateful glare for Draco.
"Fine. Voldemort has set up shop within my head," he said bitterly.
"Every time I pass out, I find myself in the Muggle world and have no idea
how to get back here. My parents are still alive, I'm in a mental institution
and you're my only friend. We sleep right next to each other!" And with
each other, he silently added.
For once, Draco had no reply.
"Other than the fact that I have no memory of that life, it's everything
I ever wanted. No evil lord wants to kill me and I have my family. I don't have
a mortal enemy or even lesser enemies that would love to see my head on a silver
platter. There are just a bunch of people who want me to get well."
"That's some dream you're having, Potter," said Malfoy.
"Oh, but here's the catch, Malfoy. This might not even be all in
my dreams. Sure, that's what I've been told, but things I see happening in that
world keep happening in this one. I feel like I might actually be shaping this
world, but I have the same feeling about the other one. Hell, maybe neither of
them is real and I'm stuck on some other plane of existence. It's all very
existential, don't you think?
"Anyway, when I'm unresponsive there, I'm awake here and when I'm
unconscious here, I'm awake there. It's possible that I'll never be able to wake
here again and Voldemort will have taken out one of his nemeses without ever
laying a finger on me. I'm totally vulnerable when I'm passed out."
Draco just stared at Harry, probably disbelievingly.
"You know what that means, don't you?" Harry continued. "That
means if you really want to kill me, you'll have every opportunity to do so.
Next time you sneak into the infirmary, you won't even need me to give you a
clear shot. Feel free to throttle me in my sleep."
Aghast, Draco replied, "Why am I there? Is anyone else there?"
"Other than dead people and my enemies? No. Not that I can tell, at
least. Ron and Hermione aren't there. Dumbledore isn't there."
"Sounds pretty perfect to me."
"Shut up, Malfoy," said Harry in a scathing tone. Yet, a
small smile still crawled onto his lips. "Dra- Malfoy," he
corrected himself, "can I ask you a question?"
"Not like if I said no you'd control yourself."
"Fine. I'll ask, you decide if you want to answer, okay?"
Draco shrugged.
"Do you think you're going to keep following Voldemort? There are always
alternative routes, you know."
"You mean switching sides? Working for Dumbledore and your little band
of goody-two-shoes?"
It was Harry's turn to shrug. "Maybe that. There's always just staying
neutral."
"Little too late for that," retorted Draco, gesturing at his arm.
"Besides, Malfoys don't do neutrality very well." Harry thought he was
probably right about that. Potters probably didn't do neutrality very well,
either.
Almost reluctantly, Harry said, "Just one more thing...."
"Yes?" asked Draco.
"Malfoy, do you think you're evil?"
Draco seemed deep in thought. Finally, he answered, "I don't know."
The two boys sat together in silence for a time. When Draco finally got up
and left, he didn't say a word and Harry didn't stop him.
Alone, Harry contemplated the recent developments his life had found.
Fuck. My life just can't be easy, can it?
Another voice joined the first. Suck it up, Potter. Stop your whining
already!
Harry was struck by how much the second voice sounded like Malfoy. It was
unfair, really. Not only did he have Malfoy here at Hogwarts and in the
hospital, but now he had to put up with him in the back of his head, too. St.
Mungo's might be relaxing, he mused. With or without Voldemort's
interference, Harry was pretty messed up.
Sighing as he snuggled up to his pillows once again, he looked around for a
distraction, but found none. He highly doubted Madam Pomfrey would allow him out
of the infirmary so he could find Hermione or Ron. Besides, he wasn't even sure
what he would tell them. It wasn't as though either would want to hear the
graphic detail of what had happened outside the night before and they probably
would be aghast that he sat here having a somewhat civil conversation with
Malfoy.
That'd be a fun conversation. Hi, Hermione and Ron! You'll never guess
what happened last night! You know that dream world where Malfoy is nice? Well,
now I've seen him starkers! It was really great and I think it's possible that
I'm gay. Or maybe bisexual, I haven't given things a lot of thought. Oh, and
then I woke up here and Malfoy was staring at me and he's a Death Eater! I told
him he could kill me in my sleep! Smashing couple of days, all in all. Harry
rolled his eyes.
He briefly wondered if messing about with a boy in a possibly made-up
universe counted. All he knew is it was nothing like any dream he ever had,
which tended to be more like a swirl of vague images and feelings. This one was
real. He'd felt teeth, after all. Dream people don't act awkward. And Harry had
definitely felt awkward. Dream people didn't sheepishly confess their lack of
experience and they didn't wear shiny pink coats. Harry knew he could never
remember the feeling of hot breath on his neck or fingers entwining his hair
when he woke up the next morning. Whatever it was, it had certainly been
different. He closed his eyes, relishing the memory.
Frighteningly, Harry realised that there were more and more things calling
him back to the other world. He honestly knew he couldn't refer to it as a dream
world, whether or not it was fake. It felt as real as the Wizarding World felt
and he was quickly adapting to life at St. George's. Surveillance footage aside,
Harry's life there felt almost normal. He thought about his father's
laughing eyes and his mother's kind smile. He could hear Sirius's boisterous
laughter.
His thoughts then shifted to the Weasleys and how they had taken him into his
family. How Ron was the first friend he'd ever had. Hermione's words about how
they needed him here echoed in his head. If Voldemort can successfully trap
me within my head, they'll all die. I'll die, too. It's just a fact.
I wonder if I can live in both worlds.
The thought struck Harry so violently that he had to blink a couple of times,
trying to comprehend. If he could live in both worlds, he'd have everything. His
parents. Ron and Hermione. His godfather. Magic. A Draco who isn't a Death
Eater.
I could pretend it's all stopped. Just have to get around the passing out
thing.
Harry was unsure about that part. However, he couldn't dwell on this, as
Dumbledore entered the hospital wing, successfully shaking Harry from his
trance.
Coming up along Harry's bedside, Dumbledore regarded him carefully. Harry was
unsure why the old man seemed so wary of him. Perhaps he thought Voldemort was
using him like a telescope and could see right through Harry's eyes. Presently,
Harry couldn't sense Voldemort's presence, but it was possible that the bastard
had simply become craftier. He couldn't blame Dumbledore for being careful,
though he did resent any suspicion being put on him.
"Hello Harry," said Dumbledore, voice void of suspicion or
distrust. "I must say I'm quite relieved to see you awake today." The
twinkle was firmly in place in his watery blue eyes.
Harry returned the greeting with a serene smile of his own. Two could play
the Cover Up Your Emotions game. "Hullo, Headmaster," he returned
equally cheerfully. "I'm quite glad to be with you this morning." He
wasn't, actually.
"Miss Granger and I have been discussing your...situation. We've devised
a plan that may assist in getting you back to us in whole once again. But we
will need your help."
Naturally, thought Harry spitefully. A bland smile plastered on his
face, he nodded at Professor Dumbledore, encouraging him to continue.
"If you are willing, I believe an Occlumency lesson could provide
valuable information with regards to the cause of this separate reality."
Harry appreciated the Headmaster not calling the alternate reality a
"dream world". "Would you be giving me the lesson?" he
wondered, fully expecting the answer to be no.
Indeed it was. "No, I'm afraid not. I believe since the pathway was
opened while you attended your lesson with Professor Snape, we should try to
recreate as much of the original scenario as possible."
Fantastic. More Snape. Putting on his most innocent face, Harry asked,
"But if this truly is a conduit directly from me to Voldemort, wouldn't
trying this put Professor Snape in danger?"
For one of the only times Harry could remember, Dumbledore looked a bit taken
aback. "I ask you not to concern yourself with Severus. He and I know what
we are doing and he is well-aware of the risks involved."
"I'll do it. When will Snape be here?"
"Professor Snape, Harry. If you feel up to it, I would prefer you
have the lesson in his office tomorrow evening, at your usual time. It will be
Monday night again, after all," Dumbledore added for Harry's benefit.
We'll do it if I'm not unconscious, you mean. But Harry merely nodded.
"Thank you, Professor. I want to figure out what's causing this, too."
That much, at least, was true.
Professor Dumbledore patted Harry's shoulder and said, "Of course you
do, Harry. This will all be over soon. Good-bye." He then exited the
hospital wing, Harry still mulling over the the conversation. If tomorrow was
Monday, this ordeal had been going on for two weeks in Hogwarts time. In St.
George's, who knew? Less, maybe, but he wasn't positive.
Harry thought about the reason for Dumbledore's message. Another
Occlumency lesson. I'd rather eat glass. Harry willed himself to think of
the reasons to save his sanity. We're both means used to achieve Dumbledore's
ends, aren't we, Snape?
He wasn't looking forward to the next day at all.
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