2004 UPDATE
     Recently I was watching an old movie at home on DVD alone.  It was a rather sad movie, but I have watched lots of sad movies before, but this time it did a number on me and I started crying - actually sobbing very loud.  Just me all alone sitting there and this one line hit me so hard.  It was " life is like a bowl of cherries".  You are probably asking what in the heck about that made me sob almost to hysteria and to this day I have no idea.  I will give it some more thought and write more later. 
     Actually I know why I cried so hard.  Because I realized that my whole life is a big disappointment.  Nothing I have done in life has turned out the way I thought it would.