| Title: Princess + Princess (one-shot) Author: Malice~Maizer, the Queen of under 18 perverts of the United Kingdom Band: Mana from Malice Mizer and Shinya from Dir en Grey Pairing: ManaxShinya Genre: Romance (awwww) Rating: PG-13 probably Mirror/Archive: Haaaaaaaiiiiiii Dedication: Whoever said Shinya was a 'Girl' but Mana was a 'Woman' Extra note: * cough* * hack* *wheeze * That's what I was doing all through this fic; hope I get better before I go!! Also, I still have no idea how old Mana really is, so I'm going to make a wild guess and put him a little older than Gackt, who is but 3 months older than my sister (both children of '75) so I'm putting Mana at 26-28 A bathroom in a pleasantly sized apaato. A slim pale body in the bath, rhythmically kicking his long legs gently to the music, careful to not spill any water over the rim. A secret smile upon a beautiful mouth, with eyes closed in quiet happiness. A minute passed and the almond eyes lazily opened to the look at the clock on the wall. 6:45 PM, he better get out now or he might be late. Shinya folded his legs and pulled the bath plug. He stood up and carefully got out of the bath. As Shinya stood on the bathroom floor towel retrieved an old blue bathrobe and wrapped it around himself, and as the soft blue enveloped him he had to smile and blush at the reminder of his koibito. A few minutes after standing still, practically glowing with excitement He gave his head a small shake and he opened the bathroom door. As he walked barefoot from the small space from the bathroom to his bedroom he could hear the Television set to a low level and a small bark every now and then, he had left the television on. Puppy loved television, and Shinya wanted a little peace before he started to prepare. Shinya slid open his door and walked in, then carefully closed it behind him, he still needed a few moments peace, and Puppy would only lick his ankles and distract him from his important task. One swift movement, and the elastic hair band he had used to keep his hair back was gone, and he thoughtfully ran a hand through his seek hair as he opened his large wardrobe to stare at his clothes. Hmmm. This was their three-month anniversary, so it was a very special occasion. Both parties had mutually agreed that when their relationship reached the three-month mark they would…Shinya secret smile appeared again, and his face took on a lovely pink hue. It might be tonight, so he better dress well for this special time, a black dress perhaps? He reached into his wardrobe and pulled out three of his best black dresses, and carefully laid them on his bed side by side. The first was 'The funeral dress' which was ankle length and very modest with long sleeves and a high collar, but it had a thigh length slit so it could be worn with his suede boots. The second was 'The lolita dress' It was a sleeveless knee length, with a white lace trim at the hem of the skirt, the chest with extra lace running up the front tied with small black ribbons, the lace underneath was black. The last was called 'The nosebleed dress' (so cleverly named by Toshiya who bought it for him) The top half was like a traditional black corset, with scarlet ribbons tied at the back, the skirt part was very small and very tight, made of lycra and cotton. This was a very tough decision, he needed a professional decision. Shinya opened his door and whistled "Here Puppy!" And a moment later a small dog appeared and raced down the hall and into Shinya's room, where he promptly started to lick his master's ankles. Shinya had to giggle at the ticklish feeling "S-Stop that Puppy! Bad Doggy!!" He laughed, and he picked Puppy up, placing a small kiss on his forehead. "Puppy I need you help," He told the adorable dog "What shall I wear for my date tonight?" 'Nothing will go wrong tonight, everything will be perfect' Mana coughed nervously, and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear. He looked into the kitchen and eyed the food. 'Perfect' he let out a sigh of relief he didn't know he was holding in, and went back to his room, for once not bothering to close the door. He picked out the dress he had laid aside over week ago from the wardrobe, and started to dress carefully. It was a pretty white sleeveless dress that went just over his knees with white lace underneath, with a medium sized bow at the waist, and underneath was a white, long-sleeved shirt, with long lace on the collar and gathered sleeves, which fell just above his slim wrists. He put on a pair of band new white tights, but checked for snags anyway. He glanced at the clock at his bedside table, it read 7:41 PM, and his angel would be due soon. Mana sat at his dressing table and mirror, while hot curling tongs were waiting for him already, he gathered up his long hair with one hand, and with the other, picked up a light blue towel and carefully put it around his shoulders. After a moment of staring at the mirror quietly, he picked up a small curling tong and began the careful process of dividing and curling his hair into soft curls. It was rather strange, the two of them together, but they fit perfectly with each other, like two pieces of a puzzle… ----Flashback, about 3 Months earlier---- Dir en grey were bored. Malice Mizer were bored. 15 minutes later they all were very bored. Shinya was looking at Mana. So this was the famous Mana, 'The doll' Mana from Malice Mizer, the bitch. He was so beautiful, even when he was annoyed and angry. The older man was sitting upright next to the one named Kozi, legs crossed and his hands folded in his lap in a prim manner, blue painted lips drawn into a tight line of annoyance. Every now and then he would say something quietly but sharply to Kozi, who was starting to look a little annoyed at whatever Mana was saying to him. Suddenly he saw Mana jerk his head in their direction, and turned his head to look at the rest of Dir en grey. Their eyes met briefly, but Shinya quickly looked away, slightly embarrassed at being caught staring at the beautiful man. 'Oh no, he must think I'm some sort of a weirdo now…' "This is utterly ridiculous" Mana repeated to Kozi "Why should we have to wait out here with those barbaric children?" he snarled in a rather unladylike manner. "Well do I look like I know? I'm not in charge of this place" Kozi snarled back, he was getting sick of Mana's impatient attitude, the guitarist wasn't usually this bad. Mana usually just sat quietly observing his hands, and he would scowl when angry "And anyway, we get to see them out of their element, so it's fun to watch something interesting happen" "Like what then?" Kozi pretended to consider "I'm not sure if I should tell you, Mana-chan, if you had been paying attention to your surroundings then maybe…" "Kozi.." "Well, if you had been paying attention, you would have noticed the cute but frightfully skinny kid staring at you, I think he's the drummer" Mana blinked in genuine surprise "Skinny kid?" he jerked his chin lightly towards the other group of men, then his eyes met a pair of dark wide eyes, before those beautiful yes looked away, and the pale face began to flush pink. 'What a delicious little piece…' Mana licked his lips delicately. -- Shinya stood nervously in front of the 5th floor's bathroom mirror, before taking out a tube of lipstick and applying it carefully. It was his favourite colour, a deep shade of crimson that gave his lips a fuller and more sensual look. He never really dressed up or put on makeup during a weekday interview, but he always kept some of his favourite makeup with him 'just in case' or to calm his nerves. And Shinya's nerves certainly to be calmed, because they were currently shot to hell. That Mana…he was so strange. Ever since he had caught Shinya staring at him, he seemed to be…encouraging him? He had been staring at Shinya quite openly, maybe giving him the Elevator Eyes, and the few times that Shinya felt brave enough to maybe hold his head high and look back at Mana, Mana gave him certain looks…it was hard to describe to anyone who had not received such attention, but to Shinya, it was rather scary, yet exciting at the same time. Was Mana giving him- "Hello, Shinya" Shinya jumped in shock, he hadn't heard or seen the older guitarist approach because he was so deep in though. He spun around to face Mana, not at all noticing that when he jumped, his lipstick stick had accidentally smeared onto his cheek, and he now looked like he had played with crayons. Mana, of course, noticed. For the first time that afternoon he smiled. From within a small pocket in his skirts he drew out a clean light blue handkerchief with a dark blue lacy trim. He ran half of it briefly under the tap, and then squeezed some excess water out. "You young men today" he said quietly, knowing Shinya was close enough to hear "No self control at all, there is a difference between visual and messy, you know" "…Huh?" Shinya was feeling slightly dumb in the presence of this man, it was as if all of his intelligence and manners had taken a flying leap out of the window, he could feel his face starting to do a slow burn again. "It's not 'huh' Shinya, it's pardon, you should know that, now hold still" Mana gently grasped Shinya's face in his hand, and professionally started to remove the large smear with a careful hand. After a moment, Shinya gathered his courage "Uh, Mana-san?" He began to speak "What are you doing?" "You have a large smear of lipstick on your face, I'm just helping you" Shinya went pinker "Arigato" "It's no problem, Shinya-kun, but I expect you to return the favour" Mana said in his usual quiet voice, but with a very slight smile playing on his dark lips. Shinya looked at Mana and his immaculate face "Huh? Uhm, I mean, uh, you look..Well perfect, and I don't think I could ever do your makeup?!" What the hell was wrong with him?? What was it about this man that made him feel so strange and clumsy? Mana's small smile widened slightly, this boy was just too cute! Finally the last of the stray lipstick was gone, and he used the dry area of his handkerchief to wipe away any moisture. After a few minutes of silence, Mana spoke again "What are you doing tonight?" "….!!!" Shinya stared at him in shock, but he said nothing. "You're doing nothing then? Good" Shinya felt something small being pressed into his palm, then Mana leaned to his ear "Give me a call later" he whispered, and then gave Shinya a kiss on his cheek. Then he was gone, and Shinya, after mentally pulling himself together, looked at what he was holding in his hand. A small white rectangle with blue writing, Mana's address and phone number. 'He's…he's interested…in ME? Oh…Oh Kami…' And young Shinya stayed alone in the bathroom for a while, with a small personal card in his hand, and a blue kiss mark on his cheek. ----End Flashback, Present day---- 'Perfect…perfect…tonight must be perfect….-' Fuck he was nervous! As soon as he was done with his of delicate procedure hair curling Mana went to his cigarettes. He had gotten as far as putting one in the mouth and lighting the filter, but before the small flame could light the cigarette he remembered that Shinya hated the smell of cigarettes. He had aired out his apaato all day to get rid of any residue smell, but this cigarette could ruin a whole day of having a freezing cold apaato. But still… Five minutes later, the bathroom window opened, and a blue haired man stuck his head out before lighting up contently. Puppy had opted for the Lolita dress, and Shinya chose a white, long-sleeved shirt with pointed sleeves to go underneath. He chose his best black platform shoes to match the dress, and a black silk ribbon to stop his hair falling into his face. He had decided to make his makeup simple as usual, and put on his favourite deep crimson lipstick with dusky black eye shadow, but spent and extra ten minutes with his mascara, trying to perfect the innocent, wide-eyed look he knew Mana liked secretly. "Alright Puppy" He told the small attentive dog "I'm going to a friend's house for a while, and I won't be back for a few hours, or maybe tomorrow. So you be a good dog, I don't want to come home to a wreck, Understand?" Puppy yipped attentively, and Shinya smiled "I'm glad we understand each other" With that, he shoulder his simple Vivienne Westwood bag* and left, making sure everything was locked. As Shinya walked the short distance from the apaato building to his car, there was a small gust of wind and Shinya's skirt lifted slightly, and you could just about glimpse something lacy… * For some reason, Vivienne Westwood bags are *very* popular with city-dwelling Japanese kids *PinPon* 'Here's here…my angel' Mana gracefully moved barefoot, save for his tights, from the dining room to the hallway in record time. He glanced at himself briefly in the mirror to check if he still looked perfect, then unlocked and opened the door. His breath caught "Shinya..you look.." "Do I look that bad?" "Iie…you look beautiful" This was no lie, Shinya looked so beautiful and sweet, like a gothic Alice in Wonderland with his beautiful lacy dress and simple white shirt. Shinya went red "Arigato.." Mana held out his pale hand for Shinya to take, he did so and stepped into the spacious apaato. Shinya hung up his bag carefully and started to unzip his boots. He caught a scent, 'Vanilla…' "Mana I didn't know you had bought vanilla candles! How did you know I liked them, that's so sweet!" His koi looked surprised "I didn't know, it's my perfume I'm wearing, to go with the clean and pure look" Mana put his hand on his slim hip and gave a pout "You haven't mentioned my look at all, by the way, and I went to all this trouble" He looked up gazed lovingly at Mana in his virgin-white dress and beautiful blue ringlets " Mana…you look stunning as always, you don't need me to tell you that" The younger man gave a slight giggle at Mana's almost smug look, and, out of impulse, he threw his arms around him and gave him a hug. But he felt Mana stiffen in his arms, and started to loosen his embrace, but then Mana gave him a soft and warm hug, and they held each other for a long time, Shinya stroked Mana's soft ringlets and inhaled his sweet vanilla scent, and Mana just radiating in the drummer's warmth. Mana gently freed a hand, and took a gentle hold of Shinya's chin, and then kissed him passionately, letting out a small sigh when Shinya responded slightly, then gently slid his tongue into his mouth. The two men kissed passionately for awhile, still embracing each other and savouring the hot, yet delicate wet kisses. Finally, Mana murmured, "You know, as much as I love this, we can't just stand out in the hallway making out, or do you want to skip dinner and just go to the bedroom?" Shinya laughed again, and drew back to see Mana giving him a very rare and honest smile, although very small. "I think I prefer to eat first" Still smiling softly, Mana took him by the hand and gently lead him to the dining room. The unusually large room was illuminated with dozens of candles glowing softly around the room, including a simple candelabrum on the dining table, where two plates of hot food where waiting for them, complete with cutlery. "Oh Mana…this is beautiful!! How long did this take you?" Mana only looked at Shinya, he looked so beautiful in this light. He moved to sit down "Not very long, do you like Italian food?" "I love what I've had so far…" Shinya sat as well opposite the guitarist, "This food looks delicious! It would be shame to eat it" "Eat. You're so skinny I could snap you in half like a twig" Mana said pointedly, and Shinya stuck out his tongue playfully " I am not" "Hn" They ate in silence for a while, enjoying the food and each other's company. Mana was famously referred to as "The Silent One" and really was a quiet soul, feeling he would only talk when he thought it was relevant, and Shinya was only a mild exception. Shinya didn't mind as much, just as long as he didn't go a whole date without talking I suppose only quiet people can appreciate the sound of silence, and always try to make their point known. Finally, Mana decided to ask something that was playing on his mind "Did you have a lot of trouble getting away to have dinner with me?" He said carefully. Not really thinking about the question he answered easily, not even looking up from his food, "Not really, Kaoru and Kyo were going on a date so they wanted to finish early, and Die and Totchi went to a bar. They asked me to come with them but I told them I was busy" Mana stopped, and silently put his knife and fork down "And what did you tell them?" "Oh, I just told them I was fixing…my drums at home…Mana?" Shinya had looked up by now, and was slightly stunned to see his koi giving him the blank, glassy stare he gave all but his band mates and Shinya. When Mana looked at Shinya, his eyes were filled with emotions, happiness, love, and adoration, and right now even anger would be better would be better than this cold emptiness. Shinya put his cutlery down, he suddenly didn't feel like eating anymore. "Mana what's wrong?" Mana continued to stare at him blankly, and Shinya started to feel uneasy. After a minute, Mana opened his mouth slightly "Why don't you tell them about us?" He said in such a soft voice it was barely a whisper, but Shinya knew he was trying to contain his anger. "Because I like to keep my private life private" "So you just want to shut me away in the dark is that it?" "No!" "So what's stopping you from saying anything!?" Mana was starting to lose his cool and his hands were moving underneath the table, as if he was twisting something. "It's…well, have _you_ told anyone about us? Have you?" "I told Kozi" "Kozi doesn't count! He was the one who noticed I was looking at you remember?" "Hai" "Well why don't you tell Yu~ki or Klaha?" "Because between them, they have the mental age of a ten year old. If I told them I was in a relationship with the drummer of Dir en Grey they would deliberately go out of their way to make you feel embarrassed, and I don't want that for you" "They have problems with same sex relationships?" "No, just incredibly immature, now stop stalling" Mana was looking Shinya straight in the eye now, and the cold look was still there. Shinya now hated that look. "The…the reason why I haven't told the others is because….it's because…" "Because?" "Because..." Shinya closed his eyes and bit his lip hard. 'Don't make me say it!' It a rather painful memory surfaced again, the slaps, the taunts and the abuse,it just went on and on... "Shinya, I'm waiting" That cold voice too, he hated that too.. Mana felt his heart breaking, why was Shinya ashamed of him? It wasn't as if his Shin was a 'normal' young man with a 'normal' job, and he was just some weirdo chasing him, that was ridiculous, even in mangaka. Shinya was his love, and possibly his lover soon, they complimented each other in almost every way and always got on so well together. Shinya was so beautiful as well, with beautiful short chestnut hair and pale full lips, which looked even more beautiful his Shin's favourite lipstick. Shinya was a little skinny but then, who was perfect? Certainly not him. And he had always made his feelings about the younger man known, and always treated him right...so, was Shinya ashamed that he had a boyfriend? Or a boyfriend that dressed in women's clothing, and we reknowned for being the reigning queen bitch of hell? Mana somehow found himself standing up and walking to Shinya's place at the table, where the young drummer was hunched over his plate, eyes tightly shut.He looked as if he was about to cry. "Shinya..?" Mana let go of the linen napkin he was previously clutching tightly with one hand, he pulled out a chair and sat next to Shinya. Almost instinctively his arms went around Shinya's small waist. "What happened to you?" "It's nothing" he said quickly, but Mana could feel him trembling lightly "Just something dumb that happened in Osaka when i was younger" "Then you won't mind telling me" Mana's voice was gentle, yet slightly demanding, as one of his arms circled Shinya's thin shoulder. Shinya sighed "All right..you know i'm an only child, right? well in Osaka i often stayed with my aunt when my parents went to work, and she had...three sons, my cousins, all older than me. They never ever liked me, as long as i can remember they've picked on me because i was so small and weak, compared to them." I think it was mainly jealousy, really, because to my aunt, i was like the little girl she never got-oh don't give me that look Mana!" Shinya half snapped at Mana's incredulous look "She didn't put me in girl clothes, i did that myself!" "Oh alright i believe you, go on" "Well, my aunt liked me alot, so she always paid me lots of attention, especially when i would come round to stay at the weekends, always giving me big meals and buying me whatever i wanted, and she ignored her sons for me, but i was too young to realise it, they were not, so they used o beat me up, and i was too scared to say anything because i thought no one would believe me" "Well when i was 14 i hardly ever said anything to them, plus i lived on the other side of town, but somehow they found out i liked men...i still havn't figured out how they knew, because i told very few people who i thought i could trust. At first they didn't seem to mind at all, and for a while they were even nice to me! At first i didn't trust them at all, but over the months i slowly started to believe them, and for the first time i thought we all were friends at last...oh i know what you're thinking Mana, but all my life i wished for it!" "Hn, if you say so" "Well, anyway, one night i was coming back from the store, after doing some errandds for my aunt. But when i came back there was no one at her house, so i went home because it still early" "Well what happened?" "I got grabbed, right into an alley and slammed into the wall. There were my cousins...and some of their friends...they started calling me names, like a pretty faggot and a slut, it didn't really upset me at the time because i was in shock, so when i didn't really respond the way they wanted, one of them hit me, and soon everyone joined in I think the only reason why i'm alive or not even permanently scarred is because some people came along and scared them off, they left me there bleeding, but those people helped me to a hospital... When...when I saw my cousins again, I still had alot of bruises and a twisted ankle, and they looked really pleased with themselves, they thought they had taught me a lesson" Tears were now freely sliding down Shinya's downcast face silently "The thing is, I got close to them, I told them about my true self and they betray and humiliate me" "But you've told me you could trust the others completely" "And I DO...but I'm still frightened of what could happen anyway, it sounds so stupid when I say it, but it makes sense when I think about it. My parents...they disapprove of homosexuality and so does everyone else in my family. They nearly disowned me when I joined La:Sadies and started wearing dresses, so I told them it was all part of the act, and if it got out that I was in a relationship with another man...i don't want to lose my family" Shinya broke off and wiped his eyes harshly, tears still ran down his face as he stared sightlessly at the table. Mana was still for a while, his perfect dollike expression not changing, except for his pale eyes, which softened slightly. Wordlessly he picked up his forgotten linen napkin on the table and started to wipe Shinya's face gently. 'Poor Shin, if he ever got cut off from his family it would destroy him' In comparison Shinya was lucky that he hadn't gone through what Mana had, because unlike Shinya, Mana had already been distant from his family even before his true preferences started to show. Still clutching the napkin, Mana held Shinya silently, then kissed him softly on the cheek with his light blue lips. After a few minutes of silence, Shinya buried his head into Mana's slim shoulder again and murmured "I'm sorry i ruined dinner" "It's alright, hell i should be the one apologizing for pushing you like that...but at least i get to hold you in my arms" The older man smirked "Feeling better?" "A bit, yeah...Mana?" "Yes?" "Could i kiss you?" "Go ahead" Shinya lifted his head, and gave Mana a sweet, chaste kiss, which Mana eagerly returned. Mana ran his tongue gently along Shinya's bottom lip, and Shinya opened his mouth to accept him. After what seemed like hours Mana finally broke off the kiss, "Willyougotobedwithme?" He shot out breathlessly. Shinya stared "What?" "I said" Mana took a deep breath "Will you go to bed with me?" Shinya's pale features were starting to flush red again "But what about dinner?" "We can clear that up in the morning, but help me put out the candles first" After they were done blowing out the candles, Mana saw Shinya standing by the door looking nervous "What's wrong? Not have doubts I hope" He grinned slightly as he walked to his koi, and gently took his small hands in his. "No..I'm not a virgin, Mana" "So? I would be unrealistic to expect you to be! I'm not either" "Good, less awkward. But Mana?" "Hai?" "Who's going to be on top?" ----About 10 minutes later---- "Shinya-what's this? *Clothing rustle* "Shinya..Is this..A FRENCH LACE GARTER??" *Giggle* back to fics page |