| FROM-BB-TO-GG |
| 14 February, 2005 (Mon) @ 12:03am GG, Happy V-Day. If things were different, 2005 might have been our 4th V-Day. Thou I know there's no celebration for V-Day today for us, & I knew we will not be celebrating any in the future.. But still, I want to tell DarDar "I Luv U Forever!!", irregardless how we might be in the future. FYI, I specially did up a "Valentine's Day 2005" page as a memento of us. DarDar, I want to tell U ~ Last year's (2004) V-Day has been my most memorable one, & most romantic. Thanks for giving such sweet memories. I'll always remember our "Cable-Car V-Day Celebrations" memories forever. Those were my most happiest moments.. BB 11 February, 2005 (Fri) @ 10:25pm DarDar should be starting work today. Sent him a sms this morning & wished him "Kai Gong Da Ji" & "Sheng Yi Xing Rong". How I wished I could be at his office with him, & personally wished Victor & Ivan but I knew there's no chance. Also msg HubB that he might want to ask if Mum wants to visit his office cos I remember Mum told me b4 she had only seen HubB's office once... at least I'm luckier, I have been there twice. Tmr, I will be meeting my AMKSS gang. Time to let them know of my Break-off with DarDar. 6 weeks liao. But I really dun know how to say it out. Till this day, even myself still havent gotten over this FACT... <God Bless Me> BB 04 February, 2005 (Fri) @ 11:35pm If we r still together, today will be our 43 mths anniversary... :) I sms DarDar "Happy 43mths" this morning during my journey to work on the bus#88. I still missed & luved U, HubB. Today after work I pop-by HubB's hse to drop off the V-Day's Gift which I have prepared for him, & also some CNY goodies for MUM. **DarDar, I wan to say "sorry" that we wont be able to celebrate this year's V-Day together. I dun know if we will ever in the future. I have no confidence of us re-united again. I dun think there's any chance, rite DarDar? Unexpectedly, met Aunty Mad. at home. Didnt expect to see her again. She asked abt me "How I'm feeling now"... I dun know how to answer her?? I wish (and still wishing) we could all be celebrating this CNY as a FAMILY TOGETHER... But I knew it's not possible anymore... I wrote a CNY card for Aunty Mad, wishing her an advance CNY. Hoping all her wishes can come true... hoping Wern & Ruth will gift her a baby grand-daughter soon... I knew that will be Aunty Mad's happiest gift of all. Afterall, she always wanted a daughter.. A baby grand-daughter also can lah... :) BB 28 January, 2005 (Fri) @ 11:56pm Was sick today. Went & see Doctor this morning. Doc say I gotten Gastric Flu. So, finally BB's secret is out. Dun know what prompt HubB, he came in & visited Our HomePage today. He has read thu all my past online-entries since 9Jan. Then he sent me a sms & explained to me that the GAME was suppose to be for us & the LINGERIE was FP's Husband asked him to help bid one. DarDar said he "dun appreciate BB spot-check" on him, and tell me not to WRITE THINGS which I'm not sure. I'm sorry. I didnt meant for anyone to see these entries. Here is suppose to be my little hidaway space. I have got nobody to tell these things to, & yet I didnt want to keep to myself. I need this space to express out myself... Now that HubB already knew. I dun think we will got any chance of being re-united together anymore. DarDar ask me to msg him next time if I have got any doubts cos "we are still friends mah"... but I dun know how I to do that. Till today I still havent gotten over HubB. I still misses & luved him as much. I have even make plans to get him a set of Clothing for this year V-Day, thou I knew we wont be celebrating any V-Day together anymore. Thinking back abt V-Day celebrations, it brought back memories. I can still remember our first V-Day (2002), DarDar bought me to eat my favourite salmon dinner followed by a movie << I Want To Marry A Rich Guy>>. Our 2nd V-Day (2003) happened to be on Chris & Kuen's ROM. We accompany thu & witnessed their ROM, followed by a treated lunch. Ironically, it's a the same restaurant where we had our 1st V-Day dinner. Later, as we both were tired so we went home earlier, no celebration that year. On our 3rd V-Day (last yr 2004), it was my most happiest & most romantic. HubB planned a BIG surprise for me. He booked a V-Day Cable-Car Celebration Dinner for us, also "spoilt" me with a BIG bouquet of Ferror Rocher Chocolates(my SUPER super treat har). Really, how I missed those happy times together... Sorry, HubB I knew I didnt appreciated U enough. U r rite to make this choice, YOUR choice.. Your Silly BB 24 January, 2005 (Mon) @ 12:53pm Dun know why, my heart was feeling curious today. So went into Yahoo!Auctions & spot-check on HubB's Buys. Saw that he bought a "Sheer Babydoll with Embroidered Trim Large Size (Sexy Lingerie)" costing S$29.90, & had already received the item on 22Jan (sat). Knowing & been together with DarDar for the past 3.5yrs, he NEVER EVER got me any Lingerie. HubB's a very "natural" guy. Yet today, he bought a piece, a very sexy black one! Besides this, he had also got "The KAMASUTRA Board Game For Lovers!", which offers Lover's the opportunity to explore the sensual and sexual aspects of their body, mind & spirit on a journey to experience ecstasy!! Both these items, whom he gave or played with, I dun know. But this shocking fact really made me felt totally heart-broke! I have lost any HOPE that WE can get back together "One Fine Day". I even got HubB a Polo-Tee & a pair of Cargo Short for V-Day. Thou I knew we wont be "celebrating" this yr V-Day together. I plan to leave the present @ HubB's hse. Today's the saddest day of my life, knowing that HubB has already found someone to "replace" me, someone who can "fit" into the Large Size Lingerie, someone who will play the "KAMASUTRA" Game with HubB... Sad BB |
| To My Dar Dar... Always Yours, BB... |
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