| FROM-BB-TO-GG |
| 20January, 2005 (Thur) @ 12:36pm Ever since DarDar confirmed our Wedding Date (09Oct'05), I have been counting down everyday. Yet sad to say, there wont be any Wedding Bells ringing this coming 09Oct. I dun know how I will survive that day to come. Today, I'm still counting down. Juz another 200+ days to go. Everyday now is like a nightmare to me. At times I juz wished I can wake up one day & everything's between us are o'rite again. I wont be able to present my Ideal Fairytale Wedding. It's every girls' DREAM to walk down the Aisle, to get married to their love guy & of coz it's mine's too!! Even through how simple the Wedding might be. HubB, I juz wanna tell u "I missed & loved U lots!!". Sorrie I sms u a good nite last nite, thou I promised U not to. Luv U Always, BB 18January, 2005 (Tue) @ 7:33pm Today's already 3 weeks liao. How time really files. I still missed my DarDar & often thinks of U. Everyday I still yearn to sms HubB "misses & kisses", but can no longer sent direct now. But whenever I feel like sending HubB a sms, I will still write out my lovely dovely msg but instead of pressing the "Send" key, I pressed the "Cancel" button & take this as "SENT" in my mind. Other than David, Jen & Rebecca, nobody else knew of HubB's break-off with me I really dun know how to break this piece of news to all my other friends & relatives & inform them that "MY WEDDING's OFF". A Wedding is supposed to be a happy occasion, but now... :( DarDar, I knew U will never ever read these entries that I have written. But I still hope U will visit Our Homepage one day, & I still want to express my thoughts across. Juz 3 simple words **Wo Ai Ni**. I had invested my heart & soul into <US>. Hearing HubB said that he dun feel any lost at all even after our Break-Up. It made me very hurt. Cos I DO!! Very deeply hurt indeed!! I dun know if I ever have any courage to fall in love again.. When HubB proposed to me on 24Jun'03 @ WildFire, it was HEAVENLY JOY. Now, the Break-Up was like being thrown deep down, down to HELL. Such a heavy FALL. I dun know how long or how much time I need to recover from this FALL. Silly BB 11 January, 2005 (Tue) @ 11:48pm Today's Christopher & Kuen's 1st yr Marriage Anniversary. Sent them an E-Card to wish them a blissful marriage ever. Hoping to see junior Chris & junior Kuen soon, maybe by xmas this yr har? Today's also exact 2 weeks since our broke-off. I tried to keep my promise - my 2nd day totally no contact with HubB. I'm trying to control myself very hard not to. Tough, but I believed I can made true my promise. Today after work, I delivered DarDar's 256MB ThumbDrive to his hse personally. Took Bus#89 in Pasir Ris & then transferred to Bus#86 @ Sengang, finally alighted near HubB's hse & then gotto walk thu the "Mountains" & "Rivers" to reach HubB's hse. I knew HubB wont come down my hse to pick up his ThumbDrive cos he dun know how to face my Mother. So I thought of sending it down instead. Hope he will appreciate my efforts. Luv u always, BB 09January, 2005 (Sun) @ 9:09pm To my beloved DarDar, It's been almost 2 weeks since your break-up. I knew there's nothing more that I can do now to change your mind or anything but juz simply hve to accept this HASH COLD Reality, a decision which HubB made & intend to follow HubB dun wan me to send him any lovely dovely emails/sms/e-cards or even calls. Okie, I respect U & shall not do that anymore. All I can do is to pen down all my thoughts & misses for HubB here, in this little space of ours - Our Homepage which I hve done up specially for US. Actually HubB knew of this Hompage of ours, but I knew he would never "step" in here. It's juz HIM, his character - Everything juz let BB do & no involvement. Today's 09Jan'05, exactly a mth after SS's wedding. I still remembered clearly that night during SS's dinner, we still joking tell LM & Andy that on our AD we need them to be even earlier cos I have to be fetched out by 6am!! :) I was so happy then. Cos I knew 10mths from SS's wedding - on 09Oct'05 - is Our Wedding Day, mine & DarDar. But now it's a day which will never come true. My beloved DarDar broke-off with me on 28Dec'04. Ironically, also a mth but is from my Bday. I have never ask for any Bday present from HubB this yr but juz hope we can FOREVER BE HAPPY for the rest of our life together. Been together for 3.5yrs liao. Nothing to ask for, except for HubB's promise to take care & be by my side whenever. I'm sorrie, HubB. I knew I must have been very wildful, always threw un-necessary temper @ HubB. And all along, HubB has been very patient & tolerate me. Thx, DarDar. I appreciated U. I DO. I'm feeling very heartache now, but I promise myself that I will & have to get over this. Otherwise, HubB will never speak to me again. HubB said, if I can get over this then at least we can still be friends. I believed U. My DarDar is MAN of Honour. I dun know what to write liao. HubB has made clear of his STAND - to break-off with me, to end our still nurturing relationship of onli 42mths. DarDar, I respect your decision BUT I'm firm of one thing: I truly loved DarDar & I will stand by my Belief. Nothing gonna change my Luv for U. I'm very tired already. I dun wan to look for others anymore. U know something, since our break-off I hve lost 2kg. Now I weighs onli 55.5kg today. DarDar always wanted BB to lose some weights, now I achieved it. Silly Luv Forever, BB |
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