All my life I've interested myself with something I never even give a name to, since all the labels seem to slip off. Tao, God, Chaos, Void, Eheieh, whatever the name, we made it up in our own image.
Or at least part of that image.
So I have fewer beliefs than unbeliefs. I don't even believe that the whatever-I'm-talking-about "is" an object, a thing, a referent to any noun. I have experimented with it as a verb, an adjective, even as various prepositions, and all seem equally true and equally false. So I eventually created an arbitrary formula, "fuck-knows-what", numerologically reduced to "625" and implanted in my chosen name. I feel myself called, summoned, my attention required by "625". I feel myself drawn to explore this mystery, this ever-expanding, always-eluding consciousness. This call I characterise by the given phrase "Kaitwm". Hence my chosen name, Kaitwm.625. My fellow occultists refer to me by the more pronounceable version, “the Kite.” Don’t ask me why the definite article. I asked myself that and he insisted.
With a Catholic upbringing, I grew up accustomed to the possibility of mysticism and miracles. With mysticism reserved for the cloistered, I read not only those but also Buddhist and Hindu-inspired works on meditation and so forth. With miracles reserved largely for saints I went to the Pentecostals to observe them and learn to do likewise. And so I created the first and last Catholic Pentecostal on the block, to the consternation of both sides. And I learned the joy of contrast, of experiencing in myself several contradictory belief systems at once, and cured myself of the illusion of the single right answer.
I've always read widely, and during my studies in philosophy discovered the therapeutic methods of Ludwig Wittgenstein, who (rarely amongst philosophers) sought to "battle the bewitchment of our intelligence by means of language." His asystematic approach to thinking inspired me greatly, even though it hurt to study him.
If these contrasts didn't suffice to shake off the labels which constrict our minds, I explored also Taoist philosophy, via Alan Watts, Bruce Lee and Pooh, which added contrast which destroyed my artificial requirements for spiritual practices and saving the world. Through such means I first experienced the blessed relief of dropping belief systems wholesale.
I had taken up martial arts in the Chinese tradition, inspired by Bruce Lee and his evolving non-system, non-style methodology which he called his Jeet Kune Do. I sought arts which reflected the values he sought, of effectiveness (getting the job done) efficiency (getting it done with the greatest economy), and individual evolution (developing myself as my art, with no masters and no Way). Finding that our mind controls our body, I conceived renewed interest in psychology. Not wanting to embroil myself in belief systems again, I went for what I found to be an effective, efficient, and evolving methodology – NLP (neuro-linguistic programming). I consider it the Jeet Kune Do of the mind.
Emerging from a period of inertia, I reacquired my sense of purpose and sought newer ways to explore the mystery of 625. Some years ago, as part of one of my regular metamorphoses, I chose to take up magic. Spurning such elaborate belief systems as bestrew the magical scene, and which I long ago outgrew, I chose the methodology of chaos magic. I consider it the Jeet Kune Do of magic.
Which brings me to the present. I consider myself no adept, but I bring with me, as my friends admit, the experience of having lived many lives in this one, with several careers and many lifestyles. I’ve had many triumphs and many disasters, and I fully expect to have plenty more in the years which may lie ahead. Some of this you may find useful. I do not lightly enter online debates, simply because I long ago wearied of argument that wins points but not hearts. I prefer instead to hear uplifting accounts of others' accomplishments in the field, and willingly contribute my own.
Taking no-thing as true
taking allthings as permissible
taking no way as way
taking no limitation as limitation
absorbing the useful
rejecting the useless
adding the product of our own Genius
and embodying the PanDaimonAion,
Kaitwm.625, the Kite
