This is just to show that not only as a drummer can I play drums...I can also write songs and Lyrics (insert Drummer joke here). this is also to show people (Ah hem...ERNEST) that people here in Tennessee can ALSO use big words...(haha just kidden dude.) Most of these lyrics may not make sence to you..but they do to me...hell I lived them. I'll even include the storys behind the songs..so here they are....oh yeah..and if anybody out there is even thinking about stealing the words...they are copywritten....and I'll sue your ass!!! (I need the money)
I close my eyes and embrace, The visions of yesteryear... Rip the pain from my soul to cry one last bloody tear... A drug induced euphoria made me a demon with angles' halo... While the real me kicked, clawed and screamed in a grave that's not so shallow... I can see it.....I can feel it...Thought you could see it..Can't you feel it?... A tortured love inside of me, my feelings for you so real. you pour your heart out for someone else, then come to me for the kill...A drug induced euphoria made you an angle with demon's wings...While the real you changed day by day... Your soul in pain still screams....I can see it....I can feel it...Thought you could see it..Can't you feel it...(how much I loved you..I'm in hell...I hope you die...how much I loved you I'm in hell...I hope you die................................)I lay awake and think of the good...you, all the bad days...I close my eyes and laugh to myself..until the vision fades...An impotant life affair, you play it as a game...in my mind the serpents rise..A slient scream in pain...A day in heaven, A week in hell as two lost souls stand by...they watch the lifeblood drain from me and inside you just want to cry.....I can see it....I can feel it...Thought you could see it..Can't you feel it?..I can see it...I can feel it....Can you see it?..you won't feel it.
I..can..Hear them knocking at my door..What do they want?..every night the same old thing..My mind to taunt..Creeping up behind me..don't turn around..I can hear them (I can hear them)..My mind spins round and round...In my world I'm in my own little world...but it's ok..everybody knows me there...in my world I'm in my own little world..but I'm afrade..everybody knows me there.....Can..you..see them standing over there..look in the mirror..Blood is streaming down the walls my eyes are getting clearer..feel the touch apon my leg, claws dig in, it hurts.. laughing laughing all around my face drug through the dirt..In my world I'm in my own little world...but it's ok..everybody knows me there...in my world I'm in my own little world..but I'm afrade..everybody knows me there.
Her music box plays for me, From within its black encasement, A song as dark as my soul, A song so nearly as ancient.. Is there death in the hearts of mortals? Is there death in her hands for me? She braids her hair in sorrow's velvet, Paints her lips with the black of sleep.. Quietly she'll watch my eyes turn grey, With smoke..I burn up inside.. Silently she stares from the next room And cries while I'm eaten alive.. A bed of iron and red satins, Turned covers await me tonight.. She'll sleep alone just like the last time, And drown in tears til the first light.. Writhing in pain, Not a word in my throat.. Somehow I think She really knows.. She gives me all Wrapped in whispers and lace.. signed in her Blood and carved in stone.. The gift of solitude.. (She gives me) The gift of solitude.. (She gives me) The gift of solitude.. (She gives me) The gift of solitude
I wrote this song as a "part 3" of a Trilogy of songs we were doing in ToyBoxX about a Vampire falling in love....Just like all the great vampire stories
Part 1 is The Craving (Recorded by and Played us, ToyBoxx)...The Vampire finds a beautiful victim...Daggar wrote this one.
Part 2 is Over Again...Also written by Daggar (Never Recorded but Played live by us, ToyBoxx..all this song was is The Craving played acoustic with no drums and Chuk playing 2nd Guitar and Me playing Bass...the Vampire figures out his victim is the reincarnation of his lost love...(Daggar also wrote Over Again when he met and fell in love with the woman he is now married to)
Part 3 and the one written by ME is also based in truth in love (Never Recorded or Played by ToyBoxX or any other band I was in...Until now...(and is very much based on Anne Rice's Lestat from her vampire books) ...I wrote this song for Amy, the woman that I met..fell in love with after my divorce from April and hoped would have been my wife.....It's the kind of a song with the words having a dubble meaning....one meaning is the Vampire trying to convince the woman he now loves to be with him as a vampire forever by weighing the good and the bad....the other meaning is ME trying to convince the woman I loved by using twisted meanings to the words that only she and I knew the meaning to to be my wife by weighing the good and the bad......BUUUUUTTTTT we know how women are evil and men are stupid...she decided that she couldn't be with me because she didn't want to risk changing her life to be with the likes of me hahaha...and I decided that I couldn't take it anymore not having the woman I loved unless she wanted me to have her......anywho... here is
(with you by my side)... Could you give up heaven to hold me and face all the hell in my eyes?... Forever our souls to embrace... can you love the father of lies?... (with you by my side)... Will you endure forever to have me, with moonlight as our only friend?... The sunrise never to kiss you and our love never to end... Would you trust in my hands to warm you, in day as you lay by my side?... Everything you knew forgotten but across the night we will fly... Could you give up the taste for living and kill for the taste of love?... In my arms you would still be human but the world will die in your eyes... (with you by my side)... I offer you forever, A choice I never had... I want to take on the world... But only with you by my side... with you by my side... The Craving for life will haunt you, over and over again... But in my heart I will keep you... We bleed but we're still not alive... One drink of me is forever... Deny and you're life will end... But I won't go on without you... I'll have to face death again... Will you take on forever to have me, With moonlight as our only friend? In shadows I reach out to kiss you... But out love never to end... (with you by my side)... Oh yeah I offer you forever, A choice I never had... I want to take on the world... But only with you by my side... with you by my side... Will you give up this moment? Will you give up this life? Just take my hand forever... our love will come to no end... I offer you forever... A choice I never had... I want to take on the world... but only with you by my side... with you by my side...
FEEL ME IN YOU......I've had my heart crushed times before..I thought about love, Didn't want no more...Then I saw you smile at me through dim light...I felt the power of the full moon night.....I close my eyes, I can feel you on top of me, I close my eyes, I can feel you bleeding me, I close my eyes, I can want you wanting me, I close my eyes, Feel you haunting me....I see the shadows dancing in your eyes, I watch them tell all the others lies...When I dream your touch it runs through my soul and breaks the ice around my heart so cold...I close my eyes, I can feel you on top of me, I close my eyes, I can feel you bleeding me, I close my eyes, I can want you wanting me, I close my eyes, Feel you haunting me....I close my eyes, I can feel you on top of me, I close my eyes, I can feel you bleeding me, I close my eyes, I can want you wanting me, I close my eyes, Feel you haunting me....I Close my eyes (FEEL) I close my eyes (ME) I close my eyes (IN) I close my eyes (YOU)...I wake up with a smile on my face, I want to go back to the dream zone space...I roll over 'cuz this feels so wrong..I close my eyes and finish Dreaming Dawn...I close my eyes, I can feel you on top of me, I close my eyes, I can feel you bleeding me, I close my eyes, I can want you wanting me, I close my eyes, Feel you haunting me....I Close my eyes (FEEL) I close my eyes (ME) I close my eyes (IN) I close my eyes (YOU).
you can't hear me... but you know me... you can't even hear me scream your name.... My obsession... Prized Possession... I lurk invisible, was life a game?... I never left you... (tell me why)... I can't forget you... (love bleeds)... we were so beautiful... (love dies).. my heart was dignified... (tell me why)... I never left you... (tell me why)... I can't forget you... (we bleed)... We were so beautiful... (we Die)... My heart was pacified... I still need you... and I feel you... I'm the chill that's running down your spine... I talk to you... while you're sleeping... the things I think could make a dead man live... I never left you... (tell me why)... I can't forget you... (love bleeds)... we were so beautiful... (love dies)... my heart was dignified... (tell me why)... I never left you... (tell me why)... I can't forget you... (we bleed)... We were so beautiful... (we Die)... My love was pacified... I want to run my fingers through your hair.. and to show you I'm still here.. my heart bled for you as the knife went by.. but can some one tell me why.....we.....haAV....TO......DIE!!!!!!!!!......DIE!!!!!!
Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, Somebody's gonna need me... Someday, somebody's gonna want me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... To all the women that said that they loved me... To all the women that took my heart and threw it away... For all the times that you lied and deceived me... There comes a time when we all have to pay... You may have smiled as you said "you're not worth it"... Well now I laugh as you hear what I say... see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have NOW!!!!!!.. Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, Somebody's gonna need me... Someday, somebody's gonna want me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, Somebody's gonna need me... Someday, somebody's gonna want me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... And to the woman that says that she loves me... And to the woman that took my heart and hid it away.. It took some booze and a cheap motel room... To spill my guts and let my soul crumble away... And now I smile when I think about you... You touched my heart in places I thought unknown... Now your mine and I'm yours we both scream soul mates... We both have loved and both have lost.. sometimes life is great... see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have.. see what I have NOW!!!!!!.. Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, Somebody's gonna need me... Someday, somebody's gonna want me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... Someday, Somebody's gonna need me... Someday, somebody's gonna want me... Someday, somebody's gonna love me... today, somebody she loves me... today, Somebody she needs me... today, somebody she wants me... today, somebody she loves me
I'm gonna start putting up songs that I have done....I guess you can call it my solo project.....when you download these songs just right click on it, save as...and make sure you listen to it using WinAmp....if you use windows media player it will sound like shit....they are all in .mp3 format but they are also .zip files......just download'em...unzip'em...and ENJOY. This is all just me...words, music..the whole SHBANG!!! my solo project...hey I have to find a way to put my feelings into music someway..and this is it........download this and let me know what you think.........I'm going to be doing a whole CD...and it will be free (SCREW THE RIAA and their suing of people that download music)...I will put up all the songs here to be downloaded and a cover for you to download...I have even thought of a name for my SOLO project...check this out.....EVIL PETTING ZOO.....and maybe if ToyBoxX do get back together we can add these songs and mix the ToyBoxX feel to them and make them our own..as of now...please..enjoy EVIL PETTING ZOO.....remember...Netscape users, Right click "save link as" IE users, Right click "save target as"...DO IT...NOW!!!
EVIL PETTING ZOO SONGS (Haunting You, The Darkening, Dreaming Dawn, Phade, Someday-Today)