In Loving Memory Of My Brother Jerry
* Born:February 10,1965  Died:February 23,1990*
These Pages are being Dedicated to a very 
special person, my brother Jerry who Died
at the age of 25 on February 23rd,1990......
May you rest in eternal peace Jerry..

First let me tell you about my brother Jerry. He was what I call
incorigable in every sense of the word. He was Bright, handsome,
sincere, loving, caring, and one of the best daddy's I know.
We always didn't get along but what brother and sister ever do?
He was far from an Angel and did alot wrong in his life but he
also did alot of good too. I will always remember him taking people
in off the streets or giving people on the streets money for food or
whatever their needs were. I also remember his mean and nasty side,
a side that would scare me to no ends, but again we all have that
side in us now don't we? You know I never did realize one very
important factor about life when Jerry was alive. I always believed
that *it would never happen to me* but it did happen and I now
have found out the true meaning of what life is all about.
Life is a very precious thing, it is something to be nourished
and treasured. All of us seem to take life for granted thinking
that we will live forever, but we won't.

When Jerry was alive all I ever wanted to do was make money,
go out and party, and just have a grand ole time. Now that he is
gone I have found that money means nothing to me and the
partying well I have seen that that too means nothing,
I would rather have my brother back.

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss him very much,
but it has been 13 long years since his death and it is now time
to let him go. That is one of the hardest things I have ever done
in my life. To let someone go whether they are alive or passed on
is never an easy thing but I need to do this so I can heal from within.
Healing oneself is also extremely hard. You see Jerry and I were
not even a year apart, my being the elder, and when he died a huge
part of me died right with him. Something that I will never fully get
back but maybe by letting him go so he can rest in peace will some
how help me move on. I sit here and I think about what he would
look like, would he have grey in his hair? Would he have lost any
hair so that I could tease him? Would he be as proud of his four
children as I am? Yes he would be even more proud of them.
Jerry was put here on this earth for a very short time and yet
he taught me the most valuable lessons after he died.
It is funny how you never really know how much you love
someone until it is too late isn't it? I never got to tell him how
very much I love him and I regret that and will for the rest of my life.

I have found that if you find yourself loving someone it is
the most Important thing you will ever do in this life when you
let that someone know how you feel, even if that person you love
doesn't feel the same way at least you told them and you will
have no regrets. So remember to always share how you feel with
each other and never be to proud or scared or even ashamed
to say *I LOVE YOU* because you may never get the
chance to say those very beautifully poignant and
yet simple three words again......

So with that said I am saying Good-Bye Jerry
Until we meet again in heaven. Do me one favor though
Jer Please don't be partying up there too much hehehehe
at least save some for when I get there......
I Love You With all my heart!

Love your *Sis*

The words on Jerry's Grave Stone Say the Following:

Beloved Son, Brother,Husband and Father
Gerald J. Kearney Jr.
February 10,1965 to February 23,1990
With Everlasting Love.....

My Angel In Heaven!

We may no longer be together,
As you're not here with me anymore.
But I still feel you deep in my heart,
Just the same as it was before.
For I could never forget my love,
Or my beautiful memories of you.
And I know that even in Heaven,
You still recall those memories too.
When I gaze up at Heaven to you,
And you look down on me.
Our smiles light up the whole sky,
For all of Heaven and Earth to see.
Our love will always live on,
As our souls will forever be connected.
God made our cherished souls immortal,
So our love for each other, would be protected.
Knowing that you are at peace,
Brings comfort to my sad heart.
And I know God will take care of you,
Now that we are apart.
Until we are together again,
And sharing our heavenly home.
I will always have my Angel in Heaven,
Smiling down on me, and never be alone.

Words Left Unsaid!

I didn't get to say "goodbye",
And all the words I wanted you to hear.
I should have said them when I had my chance,
But I thought that you would always be near.
I ran out of time to let you know,
Just how much you meant to me.
I should have told you, but I thought you knew,
But now I will never know, if you really did see.
When l talk to you in my prayers at night,
I hope you can hear all I have to say.
I would have told you, if only I could,
Have had you back for one more day.
Perhaps there were words you wanted to say also,
That were left unsaid by you.
But I do know that you loved me,
As you knew that I loved you too.
We should always say what we feel in our heart,
As tomorrow may never come.
Speak those words today as you feel them,
And never lose your chance to tell someone

WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME

When tomorrow starts without me, and
I'm not there to see;If the sun should rise
and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,that an angel came and
called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things that
I'd miss come tomorrow,I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting, and so true.
Though there were times you did some things
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't
think we're far apart,for every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
by: David M. Romano
Copyright © David M Romano December 1993

On Angels Wings

I don't know why the angels came,
And decided to take you away.
They must have needed someone very special,
When they carried you on their wings that day.
I wondered how they could take you from me,
And leave me here on my own.
Then I realised your love would live on inside me,
So in my heart, I would never be alone.
God must have had a greater purpose for you,
When He decided your time on earth was done.
He must have wanted you for a heavenly angel,
So you would be able to watch over everyone.
The angels told Him you were so very special,
And could make the world a greater place to live.
So with wings full of love, they took you to Heaven,
And now everyone can feel all the love you have to give.

On A Personal Note
On a personal note, I want to tell everyone that we never
know from one second to the next if the ones we love will
be taken away from us...I didn't know that I would lose my
heart the night that Jerry died and I never got to say good-bye,
never got to say I'm sorry, never got to say
"Hey, I love you" so I ask that when you see someone
you love, just take a second to let them know that you
love them and never ever say or do something that you
will regret and can't take back. You just don't know if
when that person walks away or you walk
away if that will be the last time you will see them,
talk to them, hear their voice or be with them.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and remember,
unless you want to be judged then please try not to judge others.
There is only one person in this world who is allowed to judge,
and that is God.

With all my Love,
Kate

My First Awards for my New Pages for Jerry!! Thank you Lori!!!

Dear Kate,
Congratulations ..... your pages are so beautiful and full of love and
warmth, I am most pleased to present you with my personalized award.
I hope so much you will enjoy it. Again, thank you for sharing this with
me and keep up the great work you are doing.
Love and warm wishes.
Ruth Ann
Wow thank you so very Much Ruth Ann,This means the world to me
and I know Jerry is beaming up there in Heaven!
Love,
Kate