My Poems
By Becky Dean

HIS LOVE
As the colour drains from her face
And the last words are said
She melts away to become a free spirit
And floats above his head
As he remembers her, all her love
And all of her dreams
She was full of love and made of love
All she dreamed of was him
As he met her she wanted to be free
And fly like a bird
She wanted to help and be useful, to
Be loved and to love un-blurred
As she grew she was able to help, fly
Love and dream she was a dove
She loved him fully and listened to
Him and all of his dreams
As he remembers her healing love
And promising faith
She waits as he drinks then she turns
To hug him as he follows her.

FADED HOPE
All my life everything I ever wanted
 was to be different,
All my hopes and dreams were to
be special to someone,
All my thoughts had my very own
Romeo and me Juliet,
All I ever wanted was to be popular
 and pretty to someone,
All I needed was to be wanted and
needed by you,
All I wanted was to be famous for
something I did for you,
All of this will never be because
of her she stole you,
All of my wishes were answered
for such a short time,
All I had was a glimmer of hope
that soon burnt out,
All my love was broken like my heart
 when she stole you,
All my passion died and I lost interest
 in everything,
All of me cried and I went numb
when she stole you,
All I felt was the same sadness and
 feeling of unfairness,
All I wanted was to be happy with
you somewhere,
All she had to do was wait, but she
couldn't, wouldn't,
All my life I'll never feel the same
again as I did with you,
All of my shadow went with you
when she stole you,
All of my friends gave sympathy
but didn't know,
All of them didn't realise I'd never
meet you again ever,
All I'd have of you would be memories
 and photos not you,
All you are now is a free spirit, free to
 do what you please,
All you and I wanted disappeared
when death stole you.

LOVE
Love is a drug that makes you high,
Then drops you to the ground
Love distracts you from your work keeps
Your mind on the love you've found
Love is a feeling that overwhelms you,
It feels as though you've been crowned
Love feels like nothing else anyone's felt
Like being made a mountain from a mound
Love is a friend who is there when your
Sad or lonely or just feeling downed
Love makes enemies and friends in strange
Places, new faces by the pound
Love is a part of everyone everywhere
In our souls it is wound
Love leaves a scar so deep it goes beyond
Thought, it can't be bound
Love is a pain that stabs you in the chest
Or a dizzy spell that spins you round
Love hurts so bad, makes you sad
And it keeps coming around

HERE I AM!
Here I am by my self
No one around yet again
Here I am with no one to
Hold me tight
Here I am in front of you
Can't you see me?
Here I am close to tears
To try and hide my fears
Here I am with my aching
Heart and lonely soul
Here I am right in front of a crowd
And you still can't see me?
Here I am my heart bleeding
And my soul bruised
Here I am plain and boring
No one special to care for me
Here I am loving you with all
My heart and still you can't see me?
Here I am come and get me because
I love you but you are blind.

BLUE EYES
I know two blue eyes
Very sexy and divine
I know two blue eyes
Look back into mine
Your lips meet mine
In a kiss so sweet
Your lips meet mine
In a special treat
I look up at the sky
From where we lay
I look up at the sky
As the tree tops sway
Your arm around me
The sun on my face
Your arm around me
In a loving embrace
I look up at your smiling face and
See two blue eyes devilishly divine
I look up at your smiling face and
Know for now at least your mine.

GUARDIAN
Just because you can't feel my presence
It doesn't mean I'm not touching you
Just because you can't feel my help
It doesn't mean I'm not rescuing you
Just because you can't feel my heart
It doesn't mean I'm not loving you
Just because you can't see my light
It doesn't mean I'm not guiding you
Just because you can't hear my words
It doesn't mean I'm not telling you
Just because you can't see my body
It doesn't mean I'm not there with you
Just because you can't see my place
It doesn't mean I'm not near you
Just because you can't feel my arms
It doesn't mean I'm not holding you
Just because you can't see my shield
It doesn't mean I'm not protecting you.

HUGS
You wrap your arms around me
In a big deep hug
You wrap your arms around me
It's a sign you really care
You wrap your arms around me
To save me from the world
You wrap your arms around me
A sign of the feelings we share
You wrap your arms around me
As we walk around the zoo
You wrap your arms around me
Just like that panda bear
You wrap your arms around me
As we go out for dinner
You wrap your arms around me
When there's only one chair
You wrap your arms around me
You're holding me too tight
You wrap your arms around me
I really need some air.

MOON
The moon shines down from above
A symbol of eternal love
Like a peaceful white dove

She makes the night glow
Just to let us know
How far love can go

Shining up there like a peach
Shared by lovers, a half each
While strolling along a beach

Totally devoid of known life
Yet she causes so much strife
Hiccups in the melody of fife

She's been up there forever
And seen many an endeavour
Fail but love never!

She sits up there smiling down
Atop her silver hair a crown
Stardust weaves her gown

Seated on her platinum throne
She rules over every stone
Pouring love into every bone

Reflecting the light of her lover
Who looks like her brother
They were made for each other

King and queen of love and peace
To rid us of all our grieves
Bring happiness so war will cease

Giving their light to guide us through
Taking all our worries to make the sky blue
Helping us til we meet you know who

They cause an eclipse
When they move their hips
To make meet their lips

Stars are kisses a sign of affection
We lay trust in them for our protection
For they hold such an attraction

Although their cousins are bigger
We still find in them many a figure
A spot of hope for a digger

The three of them are inseparable
Give the things that make life bearable
Love, happiness & hope, makes us comfortable.

PSYCHEDELIC DEVIL
You never once look back
So you don't keep track
You like playing with a man's heart
To rip it out & tear 'em apart

You aren't after honey
Just after the money
You really build em up so very high
Then knock em down with a sigh

You strike your poses
And take their roses
But no matter how much they sing
You won't wear their golden ring

You think you're cool
Actin like the fool
You take evil to another level
Girl you're a psychedelic devil.

BLUE
I really thought more of you
But all the time, deep down, I knew
That you would make me blue,

I just thought hoped it wasn't true
That you'd break my heart in two
I thought that you'd be more like glue,

The times you were in my view
Your voice was just the right woo
You sounded just like a dove's coo

Together the time just flew
We had many days of fun too
Everything had a brighter hue

I can't believe you gave no clue
That you'd found something new
Bringing my time with you to a due

Now I feel like a heap of goo
Stuck to the bottom of a shoe
Now that makes me want to spew

But I still have one thing left to do
That is tell you how much I love you
I'll never stop from now til time is through.

MY POEM TO MY ANGEL
I know you are within
Within my heart, my soul
I know I cannot let you go
Go though you must
I want you so bad
Bad it is what I want
I cannot hate you
You it is I must love
We have done so much
Much is still left to do
We may have forever
Forever or just for now
We have a feeling of love
Love that is so special
We now have a history
History is followed by a future
I try to forget
Forget about you
But I still remember
Remember it all.

DEEP INSIDE
I look into your eyes
And I just can't disguise
All the feelings I hide
Away so deep inside
Scared to let them show
So that you won't know
How much I still hurt
Every time that we flirt
I just don't know about
How I go to get you out
From inside my heart
Without falling apart
I know that I must be strong
And this won't last for long
I will soon find another
But will they be a cover
So that I can pretend
That I'm on the mend?

LYING EYES
Every time I look
Into your eyes
All I can ever see
Are the lies
Though I always think
They are real
That what I see is
How you feel
The truth is that
Nothings there
About me you
Really don't care
I really should
Know By now
But I will never
Learn how
To see past the lies
To your soul
And know the truth
Full and whole.

SPIKE'S ODE TO DRUSILLA
From eyeballs to entrails
A dreadful wailing is heard
On and on my heart wails
Oh how this is absurd

How can daft words so upset?
Said by that inane Slayer
Of course I bloody love you, Pet
No I don't want to lay her

What do you mean why not?
She's a pillock I love you more
You want us to do WHAT!?
Love, don't walk out the door

Now to make it up to you
Until you forgive me every hour
You will receive, no not blue
But a blood red rose flower

So please my black queen
Rip out my un-beating heart
And my love will be seen
Time will not tear us apart

WHY?
Why do I feel so lonely
When I am surrounded by people?
Why do I feel so unhappy
When I should be filled with joy?
Why do these tears fall
When my lips are smiling?
Why do these words sound sad
When my thoughts are happier?
Why do you confuse me
When I've solved the riddle?
Why do you hurt me so
When I've gotten over us?
Why do I remember
When I thought I'd forgotten?
Why do I sit in the dark
When the day is full of sunlight?
Why do I feel so scared
When I am full of courage?
Why do I feel so tired
When all seem I do is sleep?

TEARS OF LOVE
I don't care what you say
I still think of you everyday
Ever since you decided not to stay
And I ache for you in every way

Now that I am on my very own
No friends calling on the phone
Also dead is the love we'd sown
And I now feel completely alone

I sit in front of the TV and cry
I think of times recently gone by
From laughter to tears, low to high
Most outstanding is your 3-word lie

I thought it would last forever
I believed we were meant together
Think to hurt you I would never
Yet we are a failed love endeavour

Except now the times have changed
Ensuring both our lives are rearranged
Now Without you I'm going deranged
Fate has everything prearranged

And has surely now got better in store
Although I can't find that newly opened door
I guess your feelings for me were poor
Though I still believe that you're much more

DUSK TIL DAWN
As the sunlight fades from
The darkening sky
And all our hopes start
Flying up high
They appear as the
Points of bright stars
And when we look up
From inside our cars
To see in the indigo
Sky our lady of love
Shining down in all
Her silvery light above
The rhythmic lapping of the
Gentle ocean tide
Growing warm and friendly
Sitting around the fireside
Sleeping under the swaying
Green coconut leaves
As the late partiers
Weary chest heaves
And the glow of
A new dawn
Spreads happiness
Through the morn.

LOVER'S CREEK
Together on a bright
And sunny day
Where lives are lived
Another way
A clear blue summer
Sky overhead
The lush, soft grass
By the creek bed
Under a dappled
Tree where we lie
With the crystal clear
Water nearby
The chorus of little
Birds chirp along
Harmonically in there
Melodic song
Our minds are completely
Carefree
The way that they're
Intended to be

ON THE INSIDE
I'm only crying on the inside
Waiting for the turn of tide
Knowing my wave of emotion
Will cause a bad commotion

I'm only crying on the inside
Wishing I could confide
As they can't ever know
The places that we do go

I'm only crying on the inside
Pretending on my outside
That his gaze doesn't burn
Leaving me hot to yearn

I'm only crying on the inside
All my feelings that I hide
Knowing you feel the same
But you're my friends flame

AWAY FOR WORK
My Bed is comfy here but there's
Something it does lack
I cuddle my soft teddy bears
But they don't hug me back

I want you more and
More every day
That you spend any
Place that's Away

You're there for a reason
You'll come back for me
Don't make it a season
Before each other we see

I need your loving arms
Holding me tight
I miss your sweet charms
Bringing us delight

I guess I'm saying I miss you
If you feel lonely how I do
And find all this also true
I'll see you in a day or two

HURT
How can seeing you again
Still hurt it's been years
Your still living in my brain
Watching as I dry my tears
Wishing to feel that way
Happy even if it pours
Knowing from day to day
My heart is always yours
That's why I don't feel
About these poor fools
Brings me to kneel
As my crying creates pools
Every time that I realise
You're not coming back
To stare into my eyes
A part of me I lack
A small piece of heart
And a little bit of soul
Bring me back my parts
And let me again be whole

HOMETOWN BLUES
I'm sick of this tired little town
It does everything to keep us down
The people in power are afraid of change
Would it hurt to try the strange?
They will never let it be in their day
Scared it might change their way
The town's general opinion is so bigoted
What's here to keep our minds riveted?
Too many teens are getting pregnant
No wonder this town is stagnant
Our minds have no true stimulation
But who's there to receive our emulation
Too many think life is like the TV soaps
That's no location to place our hopes
We could entrust them with the business wheelers
But they're normally a heap of drug dealers
On Weekends the other majority become drunks
Just so its possible to call the men hunks
Although I could just be too critical
I'm just bored, but hey that's typical.

NOISY BED
I want a friend
Who's a little more
Noisy bed so we'll
Do it on the floor
On the lounge or maybe
Against the door
Each others bodies
We'll sexually explore
Staying awake til
Our eyes get sore
Then our way under the
Blankets we'll claw
Cuddled up we'll surely
Begin to snore
Tonight together
We know the score
What tomorrow
Holds is unsure
Perhaps we'll go
For round four

GOTTA BE ME
I'm sorry for running away
I'm not going to do it anymore
I know it's easier to say
I'll face what makes me sore

You never saw me leave
Instead I put on a mask
An intricate web I'd weave
Undoing it all is a big task

I've brought my heart back
From it's well deserved break
I'm going to pull up slack
No longer going to be a fake

If you don't like who I am
Sorry I've gotta be me
If I don't give a damn
Sorry I need to be free.

SOMETHING TO HEAR
I guess, really it's nothing,
Don't know if it's something
You will want to hear,
Or if you really care,
Without having you around
I realise that I have found
I can still be very happy,
Independent, even carefree
I know I'll still miss you
But you did make me blue
I've moved on since then
I can now live again

BURNING DESIRE
You offer me all I want
You are everything I desire
I feel it inside of me
Spreading like wildfire
Smouldering with security
Like coals in the hearth
Continually burning for as
Long as we are on this earth

PLEASURES
Make it romantic
By candlelight
Play soft music

Want to get real wet
Make it deep & hot
There'll be no regret

Natural pleasures
One of life's
Simple treasures

In a nice hot tub
A bubble bath
And a back rub

INTO
Into the night
Into the dark
Away from light
Away from spark

The look on your face
The look in your eyes
I'm not made of lace
I see through disguise

I love you
You make me live
I hate you
You made me die

Away from Night
Away from dark
Into the light
Into the spark

Like never before
But my wounds are
Still yet healing
I've never wanted
Anyone else more.

BEFORE
What have you done to me
I never felt like this before
I was happy being solitary
But now I need something more
This way of life seems empty
Now I know another shore
Sharing my life with somebody
Being there through rich and poor
Keeping each other company
The whole world ours to explore
But you prefer single and carefree
You've gone and closed that door
I won't forget what I could see
Everything I'll one day be for.

UNKNOWN
Like the wings of a dove
And thoughts filled with love
It lifts me up high
Towards the clear sky

To know that there
Is unknown somewhere
Another like me
And together we'll be

CAP'N JACK
Captain Jack is a pirate
Although he's rather daft
It is said that he turned
Two sea turtles into a raft
To get himself off an island
After he drank all it's rum
And though he likes treasure
He likes even more his freedom
Wherever he wants to go he'll go
That's what his ship is you know
He has to set sail for Tortuga
The dread pirate's playground
He wants the Black Pearl
Here his mad crew'll be found
But don't get him drunk
As your sanity may expire
As he will start to dance
And sing round a bonfire
"We’re really bad eggs, so,
Drink up me hearties, Yo Ho!

BREEZE
On a hot summer day
In a nice sea Breeze
Taking time to stray
Spending time as I please
Looking for a place to stay
And put my mind at ease
In a hammock I will lay
Between two palm trees
Sound of waves in the bay
Help me to catch some Zzz's

PAST
In my past there's things
That I've done
Feelings I've had that weren't
This strong
Now past is past and you're
My only one
The way you make me feel
Will last so long
Whenever you're near I know
My life is fun
Just seeing you makes my
Heart sing a song
Pain in your eyes show
Your bad run
I wish I could erase it
Help you along
Instead I'll hold you, kiss you
Call you my hun
Write you this poem to show
We belong
Soon we'll see a day of
Bright sun
Then there'll be nothing
Left wrong

CHAMPION KNIGHT
I dream of you nearly every night
In armour shining so very bright
You are my champion knight
Wrapping your arms around me tight
Makes everything so very right
Thinking about you brings light
Shining through darkest midnight

Even when my legs turn to flight
Spurred by some immaterial flight
You provide strength to stay and fight
Helping me to conquer my mental plight
Guiding me up to a new height
Showing me a future I hadn’t quite
Thought I’d ever be able to cite

STRESSED
I think of slicing
Through my flesh
So sick of fighting
Want to start afresh
All this pressure
Pulling me down
Where’s my pleasure
All I do is frown
I feel so tense
Want to take flight
Nothing makes sense
Are you wrong or right
Just want to hide
This is all too much
I have really tried
But out of touch
Am I a lost cause
Shall I give up now
For you I pause
As you don’t know.

I AM A CAT
I like living in this house
With all its comfy places
To hide, sit, laze or nap
I'd like to tell her that
But no language we share

I try giving her a mouse
And keep rubbing faces
When she sits I lay on her lap
Purring, for I am a cat
Wishing to show I care

BREAKING UP
So very much my heart is aching
And it feels as though it’s breaking,
I know it’s not the only one
Oh! What have I done?
To send you, my love, away
With no thoughts of the coming day
You’ve been vexing and annoying me so
I’d forgotten the reason I don’t want you to go
For all the kindness and love we share
And all the times we’ve shown that we care,
Though I guess we’re just too different
Yet too alike, to share the same tent.

SICKNESS
I’m awake and about
Yet I’m dreaming of knives
Slashing, cutting, cleaving
Taking away many lives
And my nails are growing
Turning into long sharp claws
Scratching, raking, clawing
Removing the world’s flaws

SONG WRITING
I would like to write a song
But I’m afraid it'll be wrong
Be too short or too long
That I’ll sound like a nong
Make the topic a deer’s prong
Or a goose's bridle wing Wong
I'd like my song to win a gong
Then with fame I’d belong
And have fans by the throng
Even I was clothed in a sarong
I still sound... Ding Dong!
Perhaps I’ll stick with Mah-Jong

ISLAND
I dream of living on a sunny island beach
Away from the bustling city crowds reach,
Away from people who act like a leech
And all the nonsense they preach,

I'd rather listen to wild birds screech,
Learn to what the animals try to teach
Listen to the trees and plants speech
Plant the stone and wait for a peach

On my island I'll watch whales breach
Away, all my ills and stress the sun will bleach
Only of this one thing do I truly beseech
Let me live my life on my sunny island beach.

SAILOR
This land has nothing left for me
I'll give my heart to the sea
Find myself aboard a ship
Bound for lands I've never seen

With no wind the ships a bore
We've had no glimpse of shore
At each other the crew snip
Bound nowhere in between

A breeze, a wind, a gale!
We're off again full sail
From a rum bottle I sip
Bound for places I've never been.



 

YOU AN' ME
I see you all the time, everywhere
I go you're always there, unfair
I see you in my mind to me close
Lovingly kind in a big dose
I see you on a cloud or staring
Down from the sky caring
I see you in my dreams you smile
At me and I go high a mile
I see you through a window your
Looking back makes me want you more
I see you hanging in the air
But I know you're not really there
I see you in the middle of a crowd
I look again you're a cloud
I see you in the moonlight standing
Like a hunter your catch is landing
I see your soul and mine
Twisted together they entwine
I see you you're in my soul in my heart
That's why I know we'll never part.

ROMEO + JULIET
When they first laid eyes on each
Other it was a breach,
When they fell straight for the other,
Both knew this was their lover,
They did not care when they kissed,
There was nothing missed,
They did care when her nurse,
Showed it was a curse,
When discovered their love was a hate,
It made him very late,
When on the next day they were wed,
There wasn't a single tear shed,
Then his friend by her kinsman was slain,
His revenge was a pain,
Then he was banished she was to be wed,
Her death, to be, was said,
When he heard he returned,
To join her on their death bed,
When he took the poison she awoke,
By single shot the silence broke.

FOUND LOVE
My head is spinning round
So many thoughts found
My heart is full of emotion
Love, friendship and devotion
My being is feeling very blue
So very confused about you
My instinct doesn't know which way
To go, forwards back or stay
My intuition says you're perfect
Or so it tends to depict
My imagination runs wild
Love, caring and that's mild
My body longs to be close
To take you in a big dose
My soul it is already scarred
Around you they are less charred
My eyes see you the perfect picture
Then everything will blur
My head is spinning round
Love for you is found

WHY LOVE?
Why is the grass green
And the sky blue,
Why is it I fell head over
Heels for you
Why do fish live in the
Pretty little streams
Why is it you that fills
My dreams
Why do clouds float
And birds fly
Why is it that when we're
Together I touch the sky
Why is day so bright and
Night so dark
Why is loving you like
A fun park
Why do shining stars fall
From above
Why is it you that made me
fall in love?

LOOK & LISTEN
Even if you can't hear my tune
It doesn't mean I'm not singing
Even if you don't see my smile
It doesn't mean I'm not happy
Even if you don't see my tears
It doesn't mean I'm not crying
Even if you can't see my mind
It doesn't mean I'm not thinking
Even if you can't see my fears
It doesn't mean I'm not afraid
Even if you don't see my wounds
It doesn't mean I'm not hurting
Even if you don't hear my voice
It doesn't mean I'm not screaming
Even if you can't see my soul
It doesn't mean I'm not alive
Even if you can't see my emotions
It doesn't mean I'm not feeling
Even if you don't see my heart
It doesn't mean I'm not loving
YOU.

SURFER
You’re the one
With bleached hair
From the sun
Which makes girls stare
With your golden tan
And broad shoulders
With every fan
Lead like soldiers

On to the sandy beach
With promises from afar
But you’re way out of reach
Just like a shooting star
The bonfire sparks
As the sunset sky fades
Into the silver topped arcs
Of the surf he wades

Armed with their boards
Every surf fan will march
Cutting waves like swords
To the shore the waves arch
Dropping riders on the sand
Riding in with crazy bravado
Acting aloof once you land
Luring fans like fire’s glow

The moon shines full
Glinting off your gold locks
As palm trees swayingly lull
All the surfers into docks
Now round the fire they listen
As you start to play
The notes of a song that glisten
About some endless summer day

CAREFREE
I see her laughing in the sun
I see her playing having fun
I see her with a race to run
I see her she has already won
I see her blonde hair spun
I see her eating a cream bun
I see her growing beauty stun
I see her she is young

I see her watching the bee
I see her wanting to be
I see her absolutely free
I see her climbing a tree
I see her near the blue sea
I see her drinking Billy tea
I see her looking like me
I see her, she is me

DAYDREAMZ
I gaze into your deep brown eyes
And my stomach fills with butterflies
My hand brushes against yours
Forgotten are my everyday chores
I hear your sweet light voice
So my sensitive ears rejoice
My aura and yours surround
Bringing warmth all around
I watch your strong hands
Create castles out of sands
My thoughts connect to your mind
Our conversation no one can find
I wrap my arms around you tight
Everything just feels so right
My legs start to feel like jelly
But I've a feeling in my belly
I just cannot possibly explain
I'm surely going insane
My feelings for you are more
You've opened a new door.

WHERE IS MY LOVE?
As I go on my way to school
The weather is being so uncool
I'm wondering why I feel so blue
After spending time with you,

Could it be that, that feeling love
Just left out our window like a dove?
The way you now everyday stir
Isn't even near the way you were

Although when I just look at him,
My tummy flips and my heart does swim
In his lovely deep brown mysterious eyes
Stars are formed sooner than the skies

He is his own galaxy in this wild universe
Like that pond in which we immerse
Your eyes that cold blue grey so icy
Just makes my feelings more dicey

You're just not you any more
So I'm going to go out this new door
Because love I just don't know who
But my feelings are no longer for you.

MY ANGEL
Why did you have to look so good tonight?
Just when I thought I was feeling all right
I thought my feelings for you had taken flight

I see you again looking so bright blue eyed
Thinking of us again makes my feelings intensified
When I said I was over you well I guess I lied

But why oh why did it really have to be you
That I fell so madly head over heels into
I should have known it was too good to be true

I know that you caught me but then you let go
I hit the ground and it hurt from head to toe
You tried to help me up but you know it will never do

Have to pick myself up, dust myself off and retry
Need to stop thinking about you and get rid of the lie
Turn it to truth and make these feelings die

The flowers will always bloom again in the spring
Like the sunshine always makes the water sparkling
I will be happy again and my heart will sing

Like the birds, high in the bright blue sky
I need to get up and spread my wings and fly
Let of my feelings for you so that no more I cry.

MY LOVE
I see my love
Playing under the sun
I see her laugh
With the fun

I see my love
Standing under the moon
I see his eyes gleam
With love oh swoon

I feel my love
Is galloping wild and free
I feel my love
Is for every eye to see

I feel my love
Rolling from my breast
I feel my love
Pounding the ocean crest

I hear my love
Singing like a bird
I hear my love
Call so every ear heard

I hear my love
Whispering sweet prose
I hear my love
Like a pungent red rose.

MY FRIEND, MY LOVE
Whenever I feel alone
I just think of you
Then you appear in front
Of me out of the blue
You cheer me up when I feel
Down or just plain mad
By making a funny face or with
A joke you make me glad
With a single touch of
Your strong hand
Everything is right and
Goes as planned

You are my best friend
When others are few
If I'm feeling sad you
Keep me in view
You give advice when
Times are tough
And have a soft opinion
When others are rough
If my world is dark
You bring it light
Because of your love
My world is all right

TELL ME WHY
Please tell me why I still cry
Please tell me why I still remember
Please tell me why it still hurts
Please tell me why I still miss him
Please tell me why I still care

Please tell me why it went wrong
Please tell me why it went cold
Please tell me why it went dark
Please tell me why it went away
Please tell me why he's not here

Please tell me why he took my warmth
Please tell me why he took my happiness
Please tell me why he took my comfort
Please tell me why he took my sunshine
Please tell me why he took my heart

Please tell me why he made me better
Please tell me why it had to be a letter
Please tell me why my life feels dim
Please tell me why I still love him
Please tell me why we are apart

BEAUTIFUL DOVE
Can you mend my heart
And reseal the tear
Put it back piece by part
So it doesn't show wear

Can my heart you ease
With all your love
And bring it some peace
Beautiful like a dove

Can you end my sadness
Scare away my fears
Bring back happiness
And dry my falling tears

Can my song you sing
From being alone
Will you often give me a ring
So we flirt on the phone

Can you tell me true
Do you love me
I think I've fallen for you
Think how happy we could be.
 

TOMORROW
Under the black velvet sky
From the bright starlight
I'm walking along thinking
Hoping everything will be right
Then a cloud moves and
There's bright moonshine
I know that love is there
That it will all be fine
I think of tomorrows that
Will be full of sun
With happiness we'll meet
And spend time having fun.

SKY A
Under the black velvet sky
From the bright star light
I'm walking along briskly
Hoping everything will be all right
Then there's bright moonshine
So I know that loves there
Things are going to be fine
I think of tomorrows that
Will be filled with Sun
With happiness we will meet
And spend time having fun

SKY B
The dark cloudy sky
Rumbles close by
Symbolic of the raging
Storm that's nigh
Like the great surging
Roll of tidal waves
That sweeps over me
Like marching braves.

HEAD SPACE
Give me a special place
So I can clear some space
In my messed up head
So I can sleep in my bed
Without noise in my mind
In the hope I can find
My own lost sanity
And regain my humanity

PRETTY FACE
In my mind
There is a place
You will find
Your pretty face,
Hidden from view
Yet still dear,
For times I'm Blue
I keep you near.

MISTRUST
I trusted you
You scared me
I believed you
You betrayed me
I liked you
You abused me

I wanted to dance
You wanted to drink
I wanted to sleep
You wanted to f**k
I wanted to go out
You wanted to stay in

I needed to be early
You were always late
I needed to know
You wouldn't tell me
I needed someone to care
You didn't give a damn

SUMMER'S NIGHT
I dream of a warm
Summers night
Walking on a sandy beach
In moonlight
He'll bring me red
Roses & love
Sweet kisses & warm hugs
Blessings from above
Snuggling next to
Warm bonfires
Whispering our secret
Shared desires
Sleeping in each others
Arms dreaming
Watching sunrise turn
The sea gleaming
Spending each day
Earning our living
Ecstatic our romantic
Loves surviving

DARKNESS BE MY FRIEND
Darkness Be My Friend
Hide my fears from view
Darkness Be My Friend
Hide what I wish not to be true

Darkness Be My Friend
Cloak whom shouldn't be seen
Darkness Be My Friend
Cloak where I shouldn't have been

Darkness Be My Friend
Show me a better way to cope
Darkness Be My Friend
Show me a brighter ray of hope

Darkness Be My Friend
Reveal to me mesmerizing mars
Darkness Be My Friend
Reveal to me the shining stars

MISTAKES
Laying here in my bed
Sorting through my head
Exorcising loves ghosts,

So my heart is whole
Lusciously clean my soul
To give you all I boasts,

Working out our mistakes
Don't want us to be fakes
Give you the rest of my life,

But I still need to grow
Our lives don't yet flow
Together without strife.

WRITER'S BLOCK
My words are blocked
I form lines
That won't string along
And nothing rhymes
There's words that fit
With no meaning
It gets so bad tears
Start streaming
I feel abandoned
By my muse
But maybe this is all
A fancy ruse
To make me write a
Poem like this
Keeping my thoughts up
Away from his.

KNIGHT
You are my knight in shining armour
Whom I dreamt of again last night
In your arms I find myself safe
When wrapped around me tight
Reassuringly you kissed me
Everything turned out all right

WAITING HERE
I'm waiting here
Watching the rain pour down
I'm waiting here
In my formal gown
I'm waiting here
On a seat down town

I'm waiting here
Wanting to be found
I'm waiting here
Where flowers abound
I'm waiting here
As golfers have a round

I'm waiting here
Under a sky so blue
I'm waiting here
For a love that's true
I'm waiting here
I'm waiting for you.

DEFENCES
How did you get
Past my defences
I don't remember
Letting you in
You stole my heart
Amazed my senses
Everything we did
Never felt like sin
You sent my whole
World reeling
Made me feel things

NIGHTMARES
All the time I was scared
You weren't there
I was all alone, lost and
Full of fear
I needed someone to know
And to hug near
Somebody to understand all
That I hold dear
I searched far and wide you
Were nowhere
Maybe you had forgotten
How to hear
But I've been screaming for
My teddy bear
To take me away from this
Terrible nightmare
But what's this hiding away
Under here it's you
My bear, now I know
You really care

HIDDEN
The walls are growing taller
I feel like I’m getting smaller
I'm looking for a way out of here
But no matter how I look it won't appear
And it keeps filling me with fear

Everything just keeps sucking me down
Smiling always twists into a frown
No one sees me crying
No one hears my lying
Because inside I'm dying

HERE
There's a look in your eye
Saying you only want to be here
But then your lips form a lie
Saying that you don't really care

So I'll just hold you tight
Tell you everything will be alright
That sometimes even a teddy bear
Needs someone to hold them there

All you need to know
Is that while I'm here
There's nothing to fear
That we can't share

I'll never let you go
Together we will
Conquer it all

MORNING AFTER
It's the waiting on these
Days after I hate
Wondering how he felt about
Last night's date
Will it be just the one or will
There be more
It would be nice to just
Know for sure
Whether or not these daydreams
Could be real
Going through this always turns
Into such an ordeal
If only he wasn't so good; cute,
Charming and sweet
These feelings would be
Easier to defeat
Maybe we could end up
Doing it all
Or was last night just two people
Having a ball?

LOW TIDE
When did I start hating
What I see
In the Mirror staring
Back at me?

When did I start feeling
Like a slave
Instead of the goddess
They all crave?

Why do I feel so boring
Plain and dull
I don't remember falling
Into this lull

I remember a fighter full
Of courage and spitfire
Who's this scared stressed
Out little liar

It was enough to be strong
Confident and brave
Just when did I get overwhelmed
By this emotional wave?

SUNNY
I can't believe
I feel this way,
Like I have wings
To fly far away
Somewhere as sunny
As a summer's day,
Except that here,
I want to stay,
In your arms
Where I lay.

WORK
We spend so much
Time at work
I'm sure it's going to
Send me berserk
And all that money
We get paid
Is never enough to
Have it made
And all our hard
Earned time off
Never seems like
It's long enough
To take that exciting
Weekend getaway
Or even just to spend
All our pay
But we'd get bored
If we didn't work
That extra time without pay
Would make us berserk

IT SEEMS
Lately we've been spending time together
It seems you're in my thoughts more often
You like to make me smile by being clever
It seems you're making my heart soften
We both like watching fireworks and stormy weather
It seems you're asking me to sit in the rain
Swords in our hands, hiding in the heather
It seems you're enjoying when we train
More and more we're talking whatever
It seems you're living my future life
Even though we're birds of a feather
It seems you're leading me into strife
               (asking me to be your wife)

JUST
I long for your touch
I miss you so much
Just one simple kiss
Would bring such bliss
The sound of your voice
Reminds me, I'm your choice
And you're my only one
Feels life has begun
It's in the way we feel
Nothing else seems real
I fall for your charms
I just belong in your arms

GEGGY BEAR
I love my Geggy Bear
More than he's aware,
Whenever I start to scare
You chase away the nightmare
No matter what I wear
You love me best bare
Whatever they dare
Apart we won't tear
Be sure that anywhere
You go I'll be there
And in the sun's glare
A day of weather fair
Together we will swear
Forever to be a pair
I love you Geggy Bear
With my every breath of air.

SORRY
On you my eyes have dined
Feasting still, on your behind,
But I have been stupid, so blind
Crazy, going out of my mind
Treated my love, so unkind
After you took so long to find
We are but two of a kind
Hearts and souls entwined
Around, around us they wind
To each other, our love will bind.

VALUE
Life is hard, that's true
It's no reason to feel blue
Feeling like you can't cope
You're probably losing hope
Slow down, breathe deep
You think you're value cheap
Though those that are near
Hold your value dear
Don't let yourself down
It's time to lose your frown.

LAND OF DREAMS
(with Mum)
The day's been long
And things went wrong
But I used my might
To make things right
I am now truly tired
Wanting dreams inspired
I'll read a short story
Full of honour and glory
Adventure, thrills and more
Set in a land of distant shore
A noble king and a daring queen
Where creatures of myth are seen
Falling asleep I forget my ails
To the land of dreams my ship sails
I'll wake up tomorrow
To forget all my sorrow
When the world gets tough
And all seems rough
I can now escape
To my imaginary place.

STUCK
This house feels like a cage
I want to spread my wings, take flight
The rain dampens my spirit and rage
The day was long and now it’s night
I’m still waiting for… something
A visit, a call, a break of routine
Maybe I’m invisible or just hiding
Isn’t this the same place I’ve always been?

FRIENDS
Sometimes we will fight,
Knowing by next week
Things will be alright,
Each other we'll seek
When life is a fright
And things look bleak,
A shoulder for our plight
To listen as we speak,
Or when life looks bright
And party time is peak,
Needing life to reignite
Or find treasure to seek,
Enemies we'll blight
Like goddesses of the Greek
Friends we'll delight
With laughter they shriek.

PIRATE ( I WISH)
I wish I were a buccaneer
Sailing the seas far and near
Uttering my name strikes fear
In the hearts of all who fear

I wish I were a corsair
Sailing under sky fair
Putting on end sailors hair
With tales of stunts I dare

I wish I had a pirate crew
Sailing over ocean blue
Doing all I told them to
Just by my saying go do.

WORLD
She wanted to see the world,
Danger's everywhere she heard
Too much for a girl on her own,
Too strange for them to condone
Why would a girl want to roam?
So instead she stayed at home
Became a good wife and complied,
But inside a part of her died
That it was missing no one saw
She was as expected, nothing more,
It wasn't until she was enticed
That anyone even noticed
Without freedom life was empty
Death made her whole and happy.

DENIES
There's a look in my eyes
I want you to recognize,
It's found under your disguise,
Caused from many failed tries,
Shielded by your lies,
Every time someone pries
All they get is your denies,
They think it's truthful replies.

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