Date : Sunday, July the 7th, 2002. I just learn to discover to rewrite and redo my homepage, althought it isn't much, but it's great fun to do it again, plus i get to add my journal and write more stuff here! To whoever who is reading now, this is the inside of me, and my daily life. Well, it's 6.06 P.M. now, and I'm sitting down here on the computer, checking out the names in this homepage about demonlogy. I am to choose a suitable demon name to represent me, for the new game Warcraft 3. Yesterday, me, Roy, Terrence, Ziet, Lam and Ang went to play Warcraft 3 in this cafe called Omaha. We usually go there to play LAN games, like Warcraft3. We kick ass, when we co-operate to beat the other four players who also regularly hang out at that cafe. I too did some testing playing on the Human race, because that me and Lam discuss about tactics to play the Human race, and when i finally tried it out, it rocks! It's one of deadly race to play,if you do play in certain steps. Then, also did some calls to some resorts at Redang, to ask about price of the rooms. Redang is a expensive place to travel, but I heard that it's a great place to be for the beaches and the babes. Well, I'm trying to make this Redang trip a successfull one, so everything must be ready and done by tonight. Thinking of having a meeting for all those who wants to go to Redang! Choon lam asking me to go to cafe to trying out some tactics, and wants to promote the new team for warcraft 3. Wondering what is Lik Chen doing now, haven't call her yet. Later, have to go to Jon's place to watched some DVD, thinking about The Skulls! Oh yeah, Peter, my vocalist is back from australia. We went out to a mamak store, and chat about his life and adventure in australia. Sounds like he's having a good time there, and his girlfriend is as white as ever, but she's nice! Think that's all for now? Or could there be more? Maybe I will update my Journal page later!.
Date : Monday, July the 8th, 2002. Just go back from Jon's place, after having some nice thing to do.Then, I happend to pass out, which i miss the Mamak section, and did not talk about the trip the rest. I got 8 missed call, because the phone went on silent mode. One from Lam, one from Jolyne, one from Foo's House and one number I can't make up who is it. Just went to the mamak to get some drink and food, boy am I so thristy. I hope Vincent calls me tomorrow, because I have to go down to K.L., find out about this 'Terminal Putra' to get the tickets to Terranggu, and also to renew my passport. It's now 3.13 am, and I'm supposed to get some sleep. Jolyne is swearing at me, I think she's abit pissed off. I don't think she believed I passed out, does she means she does not trust me, saying that I make up excuses? Oh man, how better can it be to make someone believe what you actually say. Why would she think I want to ffk? Does she think I get pleasure or joy seeing another in despair? You know people always wants to get the explanation when you start to really do the wrong things, hardly, i can say, hardly someone will ask you "Are you okay, what happend? What didn't you come?" and when you explain what's going on, they only start being nice. First come violent, rudeness, swearing, and lots of that, then only starts to concern,care, ask question and all the nicest thing you can think of. Some kind of test? like First you get the ulimate curse of all time, then if you are brave enough, or if you speak the truth, in the end, everyone loves you! Some sort of a fairy tale? Or maybe it's just a test of life?
Date : Wednesday, July the 10th 2002. Just got back home after a long trip! Alot of things happend yesterday and today.  Well, yesterday my dear pet sister, Hui Mei called me up to ask me to go fetch her to her ex-school, to collect some money from her ex-boyfriend. Well, she is afraid to go there alone, so she asked me along to go there. Being a nice pet-brother, I agreed to go. We went there, pick her money and then went to KFC to eat. She spend me eat, after doing her a big favour, and we sit down there and chat about friends and our life. Wish that time didn't pass so long, having one of those 'nice moments'. Okay, after that, I send her back, and I went to Wolf's place to jam. Well, he asked to go down to KL and hang out, so I agreed. We went to to KL, park my car at the illegal park space, and went to our favourite bookstore, Kinokuniya. There was of course some favourite books on the shelf, and I couldn't decide which book i wanted to buy. There is this Rolling Stone Hardcover Book, which is filled with paintings and drawing of famous musician and actors. What really impress me is the front cover of Jimi Hendrix's portrait. There was another booked, by Dave Mckean who happens to be my favourite artist, has produced a 300 pages of comic book, which I was interested earlier. That book is a must have if you're a die-hard fan of Dave Mckean, because the book is filled with all his artwork, and he is the writer this time! Of course, I could choose to buy another Sandman Novel book, to complete my Sandman Novels, but then, I could not make up my mind, and I walk somewhere else to ease my mind, and trying to decide which book I should go for. Anyway, in the end, I did not really buy any book on that day, and we decided to head home after Wolf visited his friend working in KLCC. The most unlucky thing is, when we reached to the place where we parked our car earlier, we discover that the car is missing. I was freaked out at that point, but Wolf ask me to calmed down, and ask the people who was guarding the parking lot nearby. He say that he say the DBKL came over, and towed some car away. Our guess was that my car was towed away, because of illegal parking. How bad luck can I get! My car was towed away and we're in the middle of K.L. So, we went home, taking the LRT back to Amcorp, while waiting for Wolf's girlfriend to pick us up. I can't get just go home without the car, so I decided to stay overnight at Wolf's place, lie to my mother that I was doing something at my friend's place, then tomorrow morning we have to go down to Cheras to pick it up. We did that the next thing in the morning, having to pay about 60 MYR, and I still have this 300 bucks of ticket to pay for. Hopefully tomorrow that I could reduced this price, to maybe half or lesser, so I would not pay so much for it. Sigh, what luck I have on that day. I hate Tuesday, it's always bad luck for Tuesday. Well, today after getting my car, we went to see some comic store and music store in KL, hoping to find some good comic to read, or some second hand CDs for sale. In the end, we went back to Taman Tun, to visit another comic store, and went to Subang to eat. Another thing, that we're comfirmed to perform a gig in Thailand on 13th July, which is this Saturday. That's right, I'm going to Thailand to play Bass for Spunky Funggy! We're gonna be there for 2 weeks, and be playing the old and new Spunky Funggy songs! I feel so damn bluddy lucky to be one of the person who gets to tour with the band at Thailand. Oh well, I'm still pissed off with the fact that I can't really organize trips and stuff, and people would be mean to me if I didn't able to do it right. It was like this, I'm organizing a trip to Redang, so me and my friends can chill and hang out at the nicest beach around Malaysia. But then, I got things a little bit slow, due to the fact that I wanna comfirm cheaper and better places in Redang, not to mention houses that we can rent in Redang. I was asking my friend who knows friends in Terrenganu to help out, asking price and suggestion to the cheapest possible place that we can crash in. Well, finally I got the news on Monday itself, so only that day I comfirm all the price to go there, the hotel we're gonna stay in, how and when we are going and things like that. In the end, it was cancel due to that my friend's girlfriend had to go for some operation, and he wants to be there for her. I hope she's okay with everything now. That's like okay, and then another female friend of mine doesn't really want to go because she feels that she would not have fun, if her other friends are not going. If she's not going, another girl will not go too, and that lead us to 3 guys and a girl. She can't go because her mom would disaprove of having 3 guys and a girl going. That lead us to 3 guys. What the hell man, 3 guys? So I decided to cancel the trip. But, then one girl came up to me telling me the plan sucked and suggested my friend can do better. Fuck you lah, this isn't about the competition! It's just something I want to do to chill out, but then you come running to me complaining about it. It's something I really do for the first time, and I did it because I wanted to go to beach with someone. Just that, bring friends along might have been fun too. Okay, so I admit I do wanna enjoy the nice beautiful beach with her, and the friends are to make excuse to let her parents to approve her to go. Well, I trying to kill two birds with one stone, but I'm could be sometimes selfish. Maybe, all this planning gets me to trouble, and problems. I wonder that sometimes must we really do some to live up to other people's expectation? I am very into the idea of punk, but then, why do I get angry sometimes at this kinda of things? Maybe this is life I guess? One thing I don't like is, I tend to have temper now of these days, and I don't like it a single bit. But, this is gonna be me for life? Can I change? Will change do me any better?
Date : Thursday, July the 11th 2002. What is love to you? How do you know when it happens? Wolf says that a person who knows how to explain what love is, that person does not understand love. Instead, he create this term of 'love' and stand with his term. Me? I don't know, I just know like I felt it, or maybe not. Could it be like it hits you on your head, suddenlly you're not shy or afraid to announce it to someone you really like, like you suddenlly ask the person to take all risk and go with you, maybe like you can say things that you never say it before, or maybe it's the time where you become so sincere, so honest, and so brave, that you dare announce it to everyone! I felt that, I felt that! FUCK MAN, it's so weird, it's feels like everything was so steady, and I feel like I'm ready to take on the world with her. But then, I start question it again, is that just a suddenlly reaction of me doing something too sudden? Did I not think about it, before I act? Sigh, I really do, I really feel sincere at that time today, feeling so honest, feeling so brave to dare announce I have feelings for her, I have something for her, I like her alot. But then, it feels like shit if it really does not returned. Maybe it's bad, but it's really something for the first time in my life, I have never feel such way before. I wonder, when will it happen again. Don't really feel like writing so much today, really confused. Oh yeah, if you ever like someone, but wasn't sure whether she's really into you, and another girl comes along in your life. Fuck the other girl,okay, just be strong and have faith in the girl you like. If not, don't regret!
Date: Sunday 14th July 2002. The time is nw 3.12 a.m. and yesterday and today is quite normal day to me. Yesterday I didn't do much, expect that I went out with Li Shan at night, the girl I have not seen for quite some time. We went to Sri Hatamas, played a few games of pool and chat about stuff, updating on how are we doing. Well, today I woke up abit late, about 1.30 p.m. Went to the airport to send Hui Mei! Well, yes, she is once again not in Malaysia, and I gonna miss her again. Then, went to Wolf's place to hang out and jam, talk alot about life and things to do. We decided to go Thailand to play on gigs on the 12th or 24th of August. That will be next month, and I'm have to skip 2 weeks of class if I'm going to perform. Oh well, sometimes in life, we gonna make sacrifice some things. Well, one thing's for sure. Today I make up my mind. Maybe I was so close to being together with someone, and yet it's back to start, but then I think I did a mistake, and I have learned from it. No point to really think so much about it. Instead, go on and continue with where I have stopped, and do more things to continue or regain what I have lost. I might not get what I want like I used to, but heck I have to try, and at least I know whether I really gonna get it or not. I think it's really time that I'm still not giving up anything, because she's worth it. She's someone I would really want to be with for lifetime, and I really do have the confident in doing so. I know this is just maybe crap or easy say than done, but I must earn and gain what I just say. It's gonna take time to prove what I just said, but one day, it will come. And I told her that I have vision of me and her being together enjoy the best things in life, and that I will do my very best to make it come true, no matter how long it takes. I feel like talking to her right now, just wanna hear her voice today, but I guess she's sleeping. Yeah, I miss her alot. Sorry, today's got alot of all this mushy stuff, but I'm really feeling like it today! Good Day Journal!
Date : Tuesday 16th July 2002. It's 1.30 a.m., I'm watching the old movie, Double O 7, World is not Enough. Kinda long movie, about 2 hours actually. Now of these days, the movie are getting longer and longer, which means our money more worthy for movies! Notice now all that the directors and producer are making lots of movies, like Lord of The Rings, Spider-man, Harry Potter, Star Wars, and maybe upcoming movies. Well, it is pretty cool to have so much movie, and I think maybe this is the next step of movie evolution? Or am I just talking alot of bullshit? Well, 2 days agp I crash to my friend's party, just for the food and then went off to practice with Wolf. Chong didn't come for jamming again, so it's just me and Wolf, digging up some new tunes or riffs for ideas. Today, my classmate from Indonesia just came back, and I join them to talk about our class and stuff. Their house, has been break in. Nothing has been stolen, thought. At first, we thought it was the college who did such an act, but then in the end, they figured out that it was a  break-in, after discovering footsteps at the ceiling. Well, luckily for them, important stuff are in my place, so I guess nothing much was stolen. Well, becareful out there, robbery now take place alot! Even my Dad was robbed! Then later, I took them to 1 Utama, to hang out and see Karman too. Then later, me and my friends just went to play another session of Warcraft 3, and still, I cannot beat Ziet. I have no idea why, issit that I making too much mistake, or just that I'm not too good enough? Nah, don't really want that to bother me for the rest of the day. Feel like reading something today, maybe go I read up something. Nothing much today, so that's all for now. Boring eh? Well, this is life. Hahaha!
Date: 19 July, 2002. I'm right now in the cybercafe, Omaha, updating my journal. Just then, Evonne came and visit me. Me, Jon and Faai been talking about her coming to visit Faai, but i was so shocked that she came and visited me. We update on each another on how things are and then I came to a conclusion that, can I still trust her? She seems so quiet, or maybe she doesn't talk so much when we just met. Could I still become friends with her? I'm having a dilemma here. Me, Jon and Faai like going against her no matter how, but after quiet some time, don't tell me we still go against someone for so long? Maybe she could have change, or maybe she still haven't. But is it right for us to go against her, when she might be trying to matter how to make friends with us? I know she lied to me, and she breaks Jon's heart. It's been so long already, and people sometimes make mistake. She make mistake, I make mistake....everyone does. Sigh, at one moment, I lost someone that is quite cool and close to me. Yes, I used to like her, but sometimes she's like a sister to me. So many things has been change, but can't we forget the past and just move on? I used to think that it was her fault for all this problem, but now, I don't feel that way anymore. Maybe I'm too soft hearted when comes to girls? I could be blamed as a traitor among my friends to support something we go against. So, where do I make a stand? Well, now at least I'm still playing my Warcraft 3, and enjoy life while I still can. Oh well, maybe some day something might come up, and I hope I will be okay!
Date : 25th July, 2002. It's been almost a week since I updated my Journal. Well, what's new is that my class has started! I had my photography class, which requires me to buy a brand new camara, 35mm SLK camera. I'm quite interested in this subject actually, I can take photos that I want, transform it into a piece of art. Like Dave Mckean, I can really do stuff like his work! Well, then I have to study Typography too, which it is so broad, it can be also a piece of art. But then, I have to do alot of research and reading in order to know this subject well enough. Then, I get to learn how to draw human figure and portrait, next week. So it's gonna be a little be tough for me! Yesterday I had my Creative Class, which teaches me how to open up my mind and think of more creative or crazy ideas. Our assignment is to find out all sort of infomation about Sight. Hmm, I wonder what kind of assignment is that. Well, Dipa, Gary and me was practising 2 songs yesterday, and actually it gives alot of tension, but it was aslo fun! We're planning to perform on the July Intake Orentation Nite, where Dipa, Gary, Ka Wyn and me are going to do an acoustic set. We call ourself 'House of 28', because we practice at that house, where Dipa and Belly currently stays. I'm going to sing, and it's gonna be the first time I'm going to sing. So, wish me luck, and rock n roll!
Friday July 26 2002, 5.25 PM. I had a bad day today. I went for Student Council Meeting, where I had a job earlier to collect items for the next Orentation week for the july intake. I was aslo incharge of the games, but I only help out it the games, where Prem was suppose to create all this games, and he say he will be incharge of it. So me and Nic, was just supposed to help out in the games, and waiting for Prem to tell us what he needs and what we could help. I didn't bother much, because I was more into collecting the items for the orentation week. Just then, Benny was asking how the games going to be like, when me and Nic did not know what to say, cause Prem didn't really tell us what's going on. Then he scold us for not knowing the games in hand. I was like thinking that I was supposed to do the items right? Anyway, Benny scolded Nic, Adry and me, suspecting that we did not do alot of work, but he didn't really know the real truth. Anyway, I wasn't really cool about it, and I attend class after the meeting, and I still have to do my job. After that, I went to my car, knowing that my car alarm went off. Then, there is a piece of note saying that my car alarm is bugging the whole neighbourhood. How was I suppose to know that my car alarm went off? Oh please man, when someone gets angry or mad, then tend to find someone to blame so they can ease their mind. Well, my piece of advice, before you're pissed off about something or heard something unpleasant, try to know the truth before you say something. Cheers!
Date : 30th July 2002, Tuesday. Hello Hello, Tuesday is like a bad luck day to me! Hopefully I don't get any problem or trouble later. It's only 2.57 A.M. and I'm talking to my dear pet sister, Hui Mei. Saturday was a nice day for me! I was 'smsing' Lik Chen, until she ask me to go for Lunch. Hehe, brought her to IKEA's cafe, where they make nice Poached Salmon, and Swedish Meatballs. Nice food, with wonderful girl with me, what can I ask for more? Anyway, that time, I didn't check how much money I had, but luckily it was enough for lunch and petrol. Well, I had ex-classmate reunion dinner at this place called MegaGrill, serving  western food, which is quite nice! Should try it sometime when you're free! It's at Taman Megah, if you are wondering where is it. I didn't know Drisha and E-Chieh are into the underground rock scene. They heard of Spunky Funggy too, and they are surprised when I tell them that I was playing for them! Haha, cool, I didn't know my ex-classmates are into this things! They are my classmates during my A-level in Taylors, if you are wondering! Then, Sunday I didn't go out, just at home relaxing and hogging on to the computer! Later at night, after long hours chatting with Lik Chen (hehehe), I went over to DIpa's place to practice for this upcoming Orentation Nite. Everytime I go there and jam together with them, it's always something nice and wonderful to do! I would never really get bored with this guys when both of them combine to play their guitar while I was screaming away! Monday is a new begining of a new week. Mr Lee, my photography lecturer is one heck of a man. He gives a long dull lecturer about the types of film, the process of developing a film, the equipment and chemical to develop it, and his friend smile. Imagine an old bald man with having only 4-5 teeth in his mouth. Well, at least I met Ka Wyn today. Then, bad news strike when Sheena called and say that she would not rent a drum set for my upcoming performance. So, it's gonna be me, Gary and DIpa. sigh, and we have to change some songs. Hopefully we can play 3 songs, cause Sheena is like asking me to play either one or two songs, or at least 10 minutes. I think 3 songs can fit in 10 minutes, no? And acoustic sets doesn't really take a long time to set up anyway! Oh man, I don't know how is this gonna turn up, but hopefully everything is going to be okay! Yay, Hui Ni's coming back to K.L. tomorrow! Must go out with her, miss her so much! That's all I got to write, come back for more! ......
Date: 31 July, 2002, Wednesday. It's 3.01 am, and I'm stay up late just to write something here before I go to dream realm. Just came back from Wolf's place, and recorded some tunes. It's kinda catchy, and my first time recording! Boy, do I make alot of mistake, but it's cool to check where I go wrong and where I should add more stuff to it! Wish I have that tape with me now, so I can keep it for memory! Second is, I brought myself the camera! SLR 35 mm  NIKON F80, cost about RM1830 with UV filter, tripod and a stoopid looking bag! The manual is bloody thick, so I think I'm going to spend alot of time reading it, before I actually can go on photoshooting! And if any of you people love Punk Rock or the 70's, listen to The Clash! Way cool band, one of the earliest punk Rock band from UK! Should I stay or Should I go! And finally, it's the final day of July, which means half a year has pass, and I'm still alive, muahahahhaa! Long Live the Kok! Okay, that's all for now, I going to bed.
Date: August 2st, 2002. It's Friday, 3.39 a.m. and I'm still widely awake! Yes, finally Spunky Funggy is going to Thailand on the 7th of August. which is this Wednesday. Lots of preparation to do, and still have to write a letter of excuse! Just now, me, Wolf and Chong sitting down at SS15 mamak stall, where me and Wolf always hang out when we go to SS15, to discuss about the Thailand trip. Wolf looks abit concern about the Thailand tour, consider that he needs to find at least 300 Ringgit in about 3 days. Monday we are going to buy the ticket, and we're off on Wednesday. Which means, that I must practice abit for this few days to know some old Spunky Funggy songs and some new songs too. Oh yeah, we haven't go the time to jam, hopefully we are going to jam soon. Tomorrow is the orentatio, but we did not get to play at all! Due to miscommunication, Sheena thinks that my band are not playing, and I thought we're going to play without the drums, ending up that we don't get to play at all. What a mess, and I feel so terrible about it. Oh well, at least today at class I did a good presentation! This time, I really put up a good talk and a well explaination. Now, all to do it's some work, lots of home work, and some drawing, camera testing, back packing and sleep. Can't write anymore, don't know what to say. In the end, always there is my princess who will be my sunshine for today. Cheers, Lik Chen. =) That's all I got to write, tune in for more!
31 August 2002, Saturday 12.30 P.M. Also Malaysia's Independence Day. It's really been a long time since the last time I wrote my Journal! Well, that is because I have complete my tour to Thailand, and I'm back! There's so much thing to tell, so much people I met, so much new things I have discover and see Thailand for reall! So for those people out there who is peeking every detail of this journal, I will be doing a special Thailand Journal Trip, contains everything I wrote in my small cute messy little journal plus alot bunch of coloured and black/white pictures ( if i can get the scanner). Well, it's quite a wild time, but it was worth to go! Anyway, back to college with so much assignment pilling up and things to follow up. Oh yeah, tonight Spunky Funggy is going to play at No Black Tie, 9 PM, to end the Thailand Tour. Wish us good luck, honestly, I have not seen Wolf since the last day we depart from the LRT. There are also two people from the Thailand Punk Scene here, Sophie and Odd. I hope everything is allright and hope they are enjoying their time here! Well, I just found out that Mountain Dew can keep a person awake for 24 hrs, maybe useful for those people who wants to burn the midnight oil! =) Cheers!
8th September 2002. I have been sick for 5 days, taking panadol like sweet, having weird and strange dreams, long hours of sleep, mood swings, funny feeling, weird things in my mind and crazy thing I'm might be doing. I feel like shit, you hear me? SHIT! OH GOSH...SOMEONE HELP ME? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! Anyway, I'm going to end the journal here, cause that everyone else has their own blog or journal, which has become a trendy thing. Due to my stupid ways of idealism, i think I going to do something else. Do forgive me for the usage of rude words, this are merely metaphore of how i feel right now. Good day! THE END!!!!!!!!!
Run Away from all your boredom,
Run away from all your whoredom and wave
Your worries and cares, goodbye
All it takes it's one decision,
alot of guts and a little vision to wave
Your worries and cares, goodbye!

29/09/2002
Make Me Sad,
Make Me Mad,
Make Me Feel Alright?

And you don't seem to understand,
A shame you seemed  an honest man,
And all the fears you  hold so dear,
Will turn to whisper to in your ear,
And you know what they say might hurt you,
And you know it mens so much,
And you don't feel a thing,

I am falling,
I am fading,
I am drowing,
Help me to breathe,
I am hurting,
I have lost it all
I am losing,
Help me to breathe.

Listen to Duvet by BOA.

10 October 2002
What has happend to me?

Take things like a pinch of salt!

I think I'm still a little prince

Yay, 2 more days to 20, and I'm still little!

1 of November 2002
Heloo, Welcome back! This is the year 2003! A new year, a new mind, so maybe i can start to write something new for a change!
Well, let's start by thanking Anna, for inspiring me to write again after so long! Secondly, I finally found the Swatch Watch that i been search for 2 years ago. This is a very colour and nice watch, with unique design on it! Says here, it's the 1997 Valentine's Day Swatch Watch, which I intend to give it to Marianne! But, it wasn't available anymore in 2001 in any of the Swatch Watch outlet, so I got another design for her. You know what? I finally found it, at a watch shop in Central Market! The best part is,it comes with a special casing, an apple casing! Apple recently has become one of my favourite fruit recently! I just been doing a painting of green apples. I think I'm to find apples really interesting, that's why maybe I went crazy over that casing! Wow, two favourite stuff in one, what else can you get?
I'm into fine art, doing painting and drawing. Starting my first few class of fine art next month! Going to record my first album this year too! Got a painting studio this year too! What else? ermmm.... maybe i wil try to get a PS2? Hahaha, and celebrating for more that one year for being single. Maybe my first time learning time to make chicken soup for someone who is sick! Allright, good night people!

4 of January, 2003
An Apple a Day, Never keeps the Orange Away.

Sadly, sometimes things can work the other way around.

Life always seems to be a little different.

It is no how you see what's infront of you, but see beyond that.

Sometimes, it might look like the orange always kicks the apple away.

For a good reason?

Never too good to be true, till I found you.

Life goes on, where there's begining, there's always an end.

Nothing last forever, but no one say forever is time.

Patience, one day it will bring great rewards.

15 May 2004
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