We spent a
half a month absolutely terrified just to find out its nothing.
And now
well its weird. After the initial
Thank God reaction, we both sort of felt like wed lost something, I guess.
I guess I
was getting used to it figuring out whatd have to happen, Lyria told me,
finally calm. Its sort of like I was
well, you know and then we lost it.
At the time
I didnt know (or really care) what she was talking about, so Id just pulled
her close and whirled her around. I sort
of know what she meant now, though. Like
I said, its weird.
And I dont
know why, either. Wed talked about it
again and if she *had* been, we were going to get married & set up house
and all. Maybe that was part of it, that
we were going to be married. Maybe it
was more something else. Like the idea
had sort of sunk in. Anyway, shes not,
Im not going to be someones parent, and for that Im practically dancing with
glee.
A
year and six months today. Wow.
Dont think either Lyri or I expected wed stay together this long. Anyway, much planned so
more later on how that turns out.
You started
looking into who youll be playing Quidditch for next year? Hed asked, lounging in one of the squishy
chairs.
Im not
playing Quidditch. Im going to be an
Auror.
You know
Lyrias already studying for her NEWTs?
Yeah, and
nagging me to do the same, but they *are* kind of important if I think Im
going to be an Auror. So I might
actually look at the books before I take them.
So on the
Auror thing, Ive applied to the program and should hear in mid-April or so.
~Later
Ah, the
rewards of good planning. But yet spending time with Lyria has a
tendency to make my brain hurt lately.
She was
snuggled up next to me and I was just thinking that I liked it in fact, I decided I liked it so much I could do it every
day.
Which
immediately make me stop and panic.
Did I want
to marry her? Live with her? Could I live with her and not marry her? Probably not, her fatherd
likely kill me.
It was only
the second time Id had that sort of a thought, though. It probably wasnt time to panic yet.
What are
you thinking? She asked after a
minute.
I hadnt
even noticed she was awake; contrary to all the myths, its usually Lyria who
falls asleep afterward. About you. I love
you.
She rested
her head against me. I love you too
suddenly gotten introspective on me?
I
snorted. Wouldnt go *that* far. I was just thinking we never expected to last
this long, I fibbed a bit.
But we
did. And so far so good, save a few
skirmishes.
I kissed the
top of her head. Especially
lately. Have I finally grown up
enough for you? I teased.
She looked
at me. Dont grow up, Sirius. Never. Stay just exactly like you are everyone
needs someone like you.
I just
pulled her closer for a few minutes before we made ourselves presentable and
parted for the night.
I have made
a big giant life altering decision over the past week and some.
I think Im
going to ask Lyri to marry me. Not right
away or anything, we could be engaged for a while and I think thatd be good
for us both. But I guess Im just really
scared to lose her with the war, and I want us to stay together. Permanently.
See, I
thought about what I wanted and eventually figured out I was describing us
being married while avoiding the word. So Im over it and Im going to ask.
Soon.
Well, as
soon as I can make myself ask.
Letters are
arriving for students who applied for Auror training, and for the first time in
my life I think Ive got a case of nerves, because Im feeling rather sick.
So far three
people have been rejected, so Im hoping that no news is good news right now
~Later
Another
batch of letters, but Lyria went and made me promise not to open mine until we
open them together. Its definitely a
girl thing. But I agreed and now Im
going nuts.
~Even Later
I GOT IN!
So did Lyri,
but thats not as important because shes brilliant and all but if we get
married Im going to take care of her anyway, but I got in!
Training
starts really soon after graduation, actually, but I reckon they need all the
help they can get. Provided, of course,
acceptable grades for my NEWTs, otherwise they just
revoke it and youre left hanging. But I
know Ill be able to handle it, even potions, I did on the OWLs
after all and I didnt even study.
So it looks
like Lyria and I will both be Aurors
I should
never, never have let slip to Prongs that Im going to ask Lyria to marry
me. He told
Besides,
shes probably going to say no. And even
if she doesnt, itll be a while before we actually *do* get married, so we
dont need to be making plans or anything.
Furthermore,
every time I try to make plans to ask her I nearly crap my pants and
deliberately get myself detention so we have to postpone.
Im trying
to convince myself asking on our two-year would be cute but I dont think itll
work because well both be too involved in our training by then. I think Ive got to ask now, soon, before I
lose the chance. Too much could go wrong
if I wait that long.
So tomorrow
in Hogsmeade I think Im going ring shopping.
Im going to
be sick.
I went and
bought it today, all by myself.
Anyway, its
white gold with a round cut diamond and sapphire side stones. Not that I much care but at least Ill be
able to sound smart about it. Its
pretty, as far as jewelry goes, and for some reason I thought of Lyria when I
saw it. So now I need to figure out how
& when to ask her, because now that Ive got the thing I swear its burning
a hole in my pocket.
Its still
in my pocket.
I *finally*
did it today I reckon its probably the 29th now, though. Its got to be pretty late.
Anyway, I
blindfolded her and brought her up to the roof.
Theres a flat area, on top of the
You really
dont want us to be found, do you? She
teased lightly.
I smiled
despite the feeling like something was braiding my intestines. I really dont. The basket was sitting nicely on top of a
deep red blanket.
Sirius
this is really, really sweet.
It gets
better.
You hope.
I had to
laugh. I dont even mean that this
time.
Not that
youd complain.
No, cant
say I would. But I reckon wed better
wait until after dark if you want dessert.
I winked.
Lyria
laughed softly and kissed my cheek. I
wrapped an arm around her companionably, and we had a whole little picnic on
the roof until just after sunset.
Theres
something else in that basket, I tried to sound casual but my voice rather
wobbled. Damnit.
Siri are
you alright?
I just
nodded, not speaking this time.
She gave me
a peculiar if you say so sort of look and obediently opened the basket. The closed ring box was there, right in the
center in the bottom of the basket. She
pulled it out. Sirius? And this time it was her voice that wobbled.
I leaned
over and opened the box. I want you to
marry me, Lyria. Please. I mean it doesnt have to be right away like
Lily and James are doing, but it could be if you want, but I dont want to lose
you and theres a war going on and all, and if you say no Ill understand but I
really want you to be my wife someday
I realized I was babbling but couldnt seem to stop myself.
Lyria leaned
over and kissed me, cutting me off. Yes, Sirius.
I blinked, then gently took the ring box from her. Can- can I put this on you?
She nodded,
watering up a little bit, and I slid the ring onto her finger. It fit perfectly, and I mentally congratulated
myself on an excellent guess. I love
you, Lyria.
I love you
so much I thought you didnt want to get married.
You said
you didnt either, I pointed out.
Well thats
because I thought you didnt want to, and I didnt want you feeling like you
had to, and youre right, I dont think we should right away.
Well I
didnt want to. At least I didnt think
I did but I thought about it, and I kept thinking to myself how I could be
with you the rest of my life, and eventually I figured out I was describing a
marriage without using the word. I love
you, I know I love you, and while Im *really* glad you want to wait a little
bit, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Lyri.
A single
tear escaped her. Thats the sweetest
thing youve ever said to me.
We snogged a little bit, but nothing more than that, then
stayed up talking until we realized it had to be past midnight, when I
carefully helped her back down into the building and we went back to Gryffindor
Tower. For once it was just a perfectly
polite kiss good night while I waited for her to fall asleep, then slipped back into my own dormitory. Where
And now, Im
going to bed because Im finding it difficult to see straight.