I had my first appointment today. I didn't see the doctor. I just saw the nurse to get my history, blood pressure, weight (UGH!), and Vitamins. Those Vitamins are HUGE! Since I'm so far along already, I have to go back tomorrow for my first real OB appointment. My blood pressure was high, and the nurse said he'll probably say something to me about it, and I've gained 14 pounds (YIKES!), so I have a feeling he'll say something to me about that, too. I guess we'll see tomorrow. My due date is September 17th.
I had my OB appointment today. It was so wonderful hearing that heartbeat! I was beginning to worry a little because I don't feel much movement. I do feel it, just not the hard kicks and punches that I remember having before. Maybe it just isn't time quite yet. And I have to keep in mind that it was two babies last time, not just one. That obviously makes a difference. He said everything looked and sounded good, and that he anticipates a healthy baby. It's too late to have the genetics testing, he said, unless I want to terminate the pregnancy if something is wrong. And I don't. I would think it's a little late for that, too. I gained ANOTHER pound! So 15 so far. He didn't say anything about it, though. My blood pressure was normal today, too, so I didn't get chewed out for that, either. I just need to start watching what I eat from now on. I get to have an ultrasound next week! :o) The doctor doesn't seem to think I'm as far along as I am. I do know the exact dates, but if he wants to give me an ultrasound, I'm all for it! I'm anxious to see the lil feller. Maybe we can even see what the sex is. The kids insist it's a boy. I wouldn't mind having a little boy. I wouldn't mind having a little girl, too, though. So....I guess it doesn't matter. I just hope it's only ONE baby this time. That's all for today!
I had the ultrasound today. There really, truly is a little baby inside there! :) I'm still in awe. Ashley and Josh met me at work and followed me there so that they could come with me and watch the ultrasound. Caleb didn't go. I wish he would have. The baby was so active that the technician asked me if I had eaten a lot of suger before I came. The only thing I had today was a turkey sandwich with mayo and a pudding cup. It must have been the pudding. But that was at lunchtime, hours before the ultrasound. The baby was so active that she had a hard time getting measurements and pictures she needed. I was worried throughout that we wouldn't get to find out the sex, and all of us had really gotten our hopes up that we would find out today. But finally, after she got all of her measurements and pictures that she needed, our little angel revealed to us that she is a GIRL! I'm so excited!!!! We have a hyperactive little girl! hehehe I'm excited to decorate the nursery now. Ashley, of course, was very emotional. When we were on our way to the car, Josh said we're not having a girl. That lady was wrong. That wasn't a leg she was pointing out, that's my baby brother's "unit." EEKS! He doesn't care what he says! I hope he isn't disappointed. He says he isn't, but he was sure counting on a little boy. When Caleb came home, and I showed him a cute little pink outfit that I bought on the way home, he said that since she turned out to be a girl, she'll just have to be a little tomboy, because she WILL be a Cubs fan. But what's being a girl have to do with enjoying or not enjoying sports. She can still be prissy and feminine and enjoy baseball with her brother. I can't guarantee that she'll like the Cub's, though! I have no girl's names in mind. The kids had me in the mindset that this baby was a boy, so we've been thinking over boy's names. I do have a couple in mind, but I need to check and see how popular they are. I don't want something that is so popular, like Joshua and Ashley's names were, that there winds up being 5 or more in their classes or sports or dance teams. On Ashley's last dance team, there were three Ashley's and there were only 6 girls on the team. hehehe And Joshua's....well, there are always about 5 Joshua's on every team and in his classes. Caleb is different. He is even known at school by only his first name, because he's the only one. I like that. So does he. But so far I think I kinda like the name MaKenzie. So unless we think of something we like better, I think she will be MaKenzie Elizabeth. The middle name has to be something from the Bible since I have a Joshua and Caleb from the Bible, and Ashley's middle name is Marie, which is Spanish for Mary. So we have to go with tradition and the first or middle name will need to be from the Bible. MaKenzie might not stick, though, since the boys keeps calling her Big Mac! Grrrrr I WOULD have to have a couple of commedians for sons! But I love 'em just the way they are. As soon as I can get the scanner up and running, I'm going to post the ultrasound pictures.
I had a bit of a scare this week. On Monday I was hurting so bad that I came home from work early and went in to see my dr. He said my pains were just ligaments stretching and were attached to the labia, causing those pains. So I was relieved! But then he told me that on the ultrasound I had, it shows excessive amniotic fluid around the baby, which might be a problem. I have to have another ultrasound on Tuesday the 30th. He said the amniotic fluid may very well be normal when I have the other ultrasound, and there is no use worrying yet, but I came home and looked up what it's called (polyhydramnios) and I can't help but worry. It doesn't sound so good. She is kicking a little harder, as of today. I keep looking down to see if I can see the kicks or feel them with my hand, but she stops when I do that. I'm anxious for the kids to be able to feel the kicks. I can't put the ultrasound pictures on this site because I can't get the scanner hooked up right. I think I need a new cord thing, so I'll try again this weekend.
This will be my last entry in the diary. On Tuesday, May 30th, I went to the hospital to have the ultrasound, and it showed no heartbeat or movement. She had died sometime the week before, at 21 weeks. On Wednesday, May 31st, I went to the hospital to have labor induced, and on Thursday, June 1 at 5:01 a.m., I delivered our little angel, Mackenzie Elizabeth. She weighed 12 ounces, and she was 9 inches long. Her little body was perfect in every way. She was such a pretty baby with many features of her brothers and sister. We miss her, but we're all so much richer for having had her in our lives, even if only for a short time. She was such a tiny little being in body, but the love she filled us with is unmeasurable. Please visit her Memorial Page.
