What Does He
Want From Me
I sit here and
ponder life's complexities.
Trying
desperately to answer questions that at times seem far beyond my
ability to comprehend, much less answer.
What does He
want from me.
Funny this
started out to be a question about a special friend, and when I
looked again, it hit me.
What does He
want from me.
I quickly
replaced the "he" in the question with He.
I took an
introspective look within me.
What really does
He want from me.
I can easily
tell Him what I want from Him.. but really...
What does He
want from me.
For if I do not
know what my Lord wants from me, then how can I know what is the
purpose for this life of mine.
Why does He use
me so, always pulling at me yet never telling me my purpose.
Yet I hear it
echo out of many mouths of friends.. a gentle "thank
you".. a stronger "I care".. and yet an even
stronger "I love you"...
Is this my
purpose?
I look back on a
life, one that seems so separate now.
One filled with
meaning, fraught with lots of mistakes, of bringing up babies, of
caring for foster children having babies, yet being almost babies
themselves.
I smile. It
gives me some comfort.
I look back on a
lot of misery, of desperation at times, not knowing where the
next meal will come from or how to pay bills with nothing, yet I
see my Lord, each time smiling on me and giving me what I need at
the time.
Is my cross one
of caring too much.. for at times it can be very heavy. How does
one stop caring...
How does one
turn their heart "off".
What does He
want from me?
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