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"Only In Dreams"
You can't resist her,
She's in your bones.
She is your marrow, and your ride home.
You can't avoid her,
She's in the air.
In between molecules of oxygen and carbon dioxide.
Only in dreams,
We see what it means.
Reach out our hands,
Hold onto her's.
But when we wake
Its all been erased.
And so it seems, only in dreams.
You walk up to her
Ask her to dance.
She says, "Hey, Baby I just might take the chance."
You say, "Its a good thing that you float in the air.
That way theres no way I will chrush
your pretty toenails into a thousand pieces."
Only in dreams
We see what it means.
Reach out our hands,
Hold onto hers.
But when we wake
Its all been erased.
And so it seems, only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
Only in dreams.
"Bowl Of Oranges"
The rain it started tapping
On the window near my bed
There was a loophole in my dream
And so I got out of it
And to my suprise
My eyes were wide and already open
Just my nightstand and my dresser
Where those nightmares had just been
So I dressed myself and left then,
Out into the grey streets
And everything seemed different
And completely new to me
The sky, the trees, houses, building,
Even my own body
And each person I encountered
I couldn't wait to meet
Then I came upon a doctor,
Who appeared in quite poor health
I said, "There is nothing that I
Can do for you you can't do for yourself."
He said, "Oh yes you can,
Just hold my hand, I think that that would help."
So I sat with him awhile,
And I asked him how he felt
He said, "I think I cured.
No in fact, I'm sure of it.
Thank you stranger, for your therapeutic smile."
So thats how I learned the lesson
That everyones alone
And your eyes must do some raining
If your ever gonna grow.
But when Cryin' don't help,
You can't compose yourself,
It's best to compose a poem.
An honest verse of longing
Or a simple song of hope.
Thats why I'm singin':
Baby don't worry
Cause now I've got your back
And everytime you feel like crying
I'll try and make you laugh
And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,
Then we'll wait for it to pass
And I will keep you company
Through those days so long and black.
And we'll keep working on the problem
We know we'll never solve,
Of Love's uneven remainder,
Our lives a fraction of a whole.
But if the World could remain within a frame
Like a painting on a wall
Then I think we'de see the beauty, then.
We'de stand staring in awe,
At our still lives posed,
Like a bowl of oranges,
Like a story told
By the fault lines in the soil.
woo hoo.
6-7-04 Liz quacks:
hello, people. I'm in the library at the college. I have nothing to do. Kirsten is checking her e-mail and Jordache is sitting next to me! LOL! Hes a weird one. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Anyway, he cheated on me back in 7th grade so I broke up with him and went out with Jacoby. lol. Good times. He also cheated on Aimee with Allison Keith. What an asshole. He has really fluffy hair. I'm in an odd mood. Kirsten and I are going to meet Trula at Kirsten's house and we are going to play board games!!! I love board games. Psylem has a show tonight up in Olympia at some bar. I hope that goes well. Umm... Caleb has drug class until nine and then is coming over to Kirsten's. Hopefully Trula and Kirsten and Caleb and I can play Cranium. I got it for my birthday a few years ago and haven't gotten to play it yet. I think on Friday Kirsten and Caleb and Chris and I should play Cranium at Kirsten's and like stay the night there. Kirsten thinks it would be fun. I highly doubt Chris will want to though. Speaking of Chris, for all those who know anything about what has been happening lately, Chris and I are back together and we are fine!!! YAY! Wow, anyway. Last night he asked me if I talked about him a lot on here. I had to tell him the truth so I said no. I'm not sure why I don't talk about him much though. Maybe its because I don't have a butt-load to say... not sure. I hope Kirsten hurrys. I'm bored. I'm going to continue to type until shes done though. BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I'm going to go to my live journal. LOVE TO ALL!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5-3-04 Liz quacks:
today was mondo exciting! I got a ride to kirstens and then we went to goodwill. i got a new shirt and kirsten got three pairs of socks and a shirt. umm... everyone is camping. trula came and met us at chicagos and then we went to burger king. george was working and he gave us food and toys. the toys are cool. we all got one. we talked about religion and cults and then came back to my house. we played uno. i love uno. i play uno alot now. wow. anyway, i hope it doesn't rain and i hope its nice cause i want to go to a park or the river and play uno tomorrow. thats what the three of us are doing. we are playing uno. whoa now. my life is TOO exciting. i need to calm it down a bit...
4-29-04 Liz quacks:
today is thursday. i haven't written in a week. i have nothing to write about but i have nothing better to do either, so here i am typing about nothing at all. trula is going to go get kirsten and then they are coming here. abra is here right now. shes such a lame-o. shes asleep in my big chair in my room. shes been asleep for about 2 and a half hours now. i tried waking her but it got me no where. uh... yeah. this weekend is going to be fun. im getting my nails done tomorrow with rachel because she is going to prom and i just want to get mine done. saturday im uh, hanging out at the beauty college with rachel and abra because rachel doesn't want to sit there alone while she gets her hair put up all pretty like! it should be exciting. im supposed to be going to the youth fair to work from 1:15-5:30 on saturday also but i really don't wanna so im not going to. either friday or saturday abbie, kirstan, trula and i are hanging out. that should be memorable! anyway, im gonna go and try and get abra to wake up. i need to straighten her hair. oohh... YAY! ok. bye.
4-22-04 Liz quacks:
Yeah, so... umm, choir and band are going to state tomorrow. i don't wanna go. this is gonna suck. i'm also supposed to make cookies tonight and i don't know what kind. grr... i need a life. i was supposed to go to open mic tonight but abra went home sick at lunch... :( poor her. GET BETTER ABRA!!! anyway, but yeah, i don't wanna go tomorrow. i wanna sleep tomorrow. i have to be on the bus by 7 am. this means i have to get up at like 5 or 5:30. :( ahhhhh. whatever. i'm gonna go sulk. have fun.
4-19-04 Liz quacks:
I stayed home from school today and I have nothing to do. I'm bored. Umm... Lately I've been having alot of fun! Saturday i got my eyebrows waxed and then we went to this party out in Adna. The actual party was stupid, but Psylem played, which was cool. Aimee was getting all mad because i wouldn't scream with her. lol. Besides just hanging out with new people, I met a guy through all this. His name is Chris and he is great. Anyway, I don't really have anything else to right about. I'll hopefully update again soon. Love to all!!!
4-6-04 Liz quacks:
gah. Im bored. its my spring break and umm... theres not really anything to do. I've hung out with Abra and Dave everyday so far. Its fun and all but we can never find anything to do. Dennys is getting so boring. No offence, Abra. I mean, I know there is nothing better to do, but its still not much fun. Anyway, I hope Saturday will be fun! I like Seattle. I want more than just three of us to go though. I mean, there are five seats. We could take 2 more. We should! Anyway, i really hope we find something a little better to do tomorrow... I'm gonna go now. See Maureen? I told you I had nothing exciting to write about! I hope you're satisfied!!! lol.
3-28-04 Liz quacks:
Im sorry, Jayson.
3-25-04 Liz quacks:
Is it logical to say someone is being mean to you when you won't even look at them? I'm not really sure, but I guess some people feel that way. I think that saying that you like someones shirt and junk and them not even acting like they heard you is a little more mean. Oh well. Whatever. I'll get over it. I mean, its not like we hang out and it doesn't seem like he considers me a friend. Anyway, I'm going to bed soon, so yeah... I'm done.
3-23-04 Liz quacks:
When people come to the website that talks about whats going on in my life and those around me, then they should actually want to read it. If you aren't interested in what I have to say then don't come here. It makes no sence. My life may be "pathetic", but the fact that you read about it and then inform me that it sucks must mean that yours is worse. Get a clue. And yeah, Tiffany, Rachel does have a point. The fact that you are 18 and live with your parents and try and have sex with 15 year olds is much worse than my life. You really should realize that. It's called "statutory rape" and he never would have gone for you in the first place. You have so much anger built up... I feel bad for you. I mean, if my life was like yours I would probably be angry too, but I would do something about it instead of sitting around all day and hanging out with my "hick" friends that smell bad and chew.... EWWW! Anyway, hope you have fun reading about my "pathetic" life! Have a good one. ;)
3-21-04 Liz quacks:
so, josh is coming over and i hope abra is too. she wasn't sure though. im bored. i need a life...
3-20-04 Liz quacks:
This weekend so far hasn't been all that horrible. Last night I went with Ben, Josh and Steven to a show in Olympia at the Java Flow. It was ok fun. Rachel was there so I hung out with her a bit. Then when it was over Jason Peterson walked me to Lily's. We hung out there for awhile waiting for Lily to get home and when she did we watched the Spice Girl's first concert or something. THEY ARE SO RAD! anyway, Jason was picked up by Kris, who wound up hanging out for a bit but they left after awhile. Jake, Vernon and Jerry were with Lily and they all stayed the night too. Figuring out where everyone was going to sleep was confusing, but was finally solved. There was a tickle fight and some other amazingly entertaining things that went on before the night was over. Jake's impressions were great. We all woke up around 9:30 and Vernon had to go to "work". Jake, Lily, Jerry and I all walked to the bus stop and rode downtown. I had this super-awesome gravy! OMG!!! It was green vegi-sausage stuff... YUM! We went shopping and I got a cool book and a gangster duck. He has an ax, just like any REAL gangster would have. Hes spiffy. Anyway, my mom finally drove up and got me and I came home. I talked to Abra for awhile & then went & cleaned my room... again. So Corene is supposed to come over today and stay the night. Rachel might too, but she wasn't really sure. Anyway, thats all... im gonna go now. Have a nice evening with the ones you love!!!
3-14-04 Liz quacks:
Hey People!!!! I'm bored. It's Sunday and there is nothing to do. RAHHH!!! So I went to the matrix last night. It was ok... uh, I have nothing to write. If anyone has any suggestions they should totally TAG THE TAGBOARD and give me ideas!!! You should do that anyway... ok. Love ya!!! bye.
3-12-04 Liz quacks:
Wow. I haven't written in awhile. Well, Reid has been bugging me about it for some time now and I feel that I should. Alot of things have changed in my life lately. Jayson and I broke up, which I feel is a good thing, and at the moment I'm happy about it. I don't really have much to write about. I haven't been up to much lately. I started going to shows again, which I stopped doing while I was in a relationship. I didn't really have much of a life while I was with someone. 5 months is quite awhile. I mean, in highschool. Theres a couple at my school that has been together off and on for 5 years now. I can't even imagine. I mean, I guess a really serious relationship would be fun and stuff but, I don't know. I thought that was always what I wanted, but I guess when you are fighting constantly then you shouldn't just hold on because its what you've grown used to... I don't know. Anyway, I hope I will be happier now! Good luck to me, and everyone else who has ever been in a similar situation! Love to all!!!
1-13-04 Liz quacks:
Hiya people. I'm happy! I'm not sure why, but I am. I think Nick thinks I'm really weird. Oh well. He fell off his bed which makes me even MORE happy. Anyway, Nick is desperate. People, please. He needs one. He hasn't a girl FOREVER! Give him a try. He can be a nice guy, when he wants to be!!! lol. Anyway, good luck, Nick! I wonder if anyone will actually call. Hmm... love to all!
1-11-04 Liz AHHHHHHs:
I HATE IT ALL!!! I QUIT!!! fuck it...
1-4-04 Liz quacks:
Okay. my website wasn't put together so that people who don't like me can talk shot to me with other peoples names. If someone hates me or any of my friends and has the guts to talk crap then I think they should have the guts to look me or my friends in the eye and say it to us directly. Drama sucks and I'm not going to help people make my life harder. Whoever this is should really get there facts straight before you talk shit. Rachel and I aren't sluts... a slut is a prostitute, slob and impure. Neither of us are impure, espesially compared to some of you that wrote on the tag-board in the last few days. We are not pussys... a pussy is a cat. If you really want to compare us to the feline species thats fine, but I don't think its nessasary. We are not whores... as we have already covered, rachel and I are not prostitutes! I really don't understand you guys. Whatever though. If you really want to call us these names thats fine, but you will no longer do it on my website. I hope no one has a problem with this. If you do, you can talk to me in person. Love to all...
12-9-03 Liz quacks:
I haven't written in forever. I like that people think Rachel and I are lesbians, I really do. The thought just warms my heart. Oh well. Christmas is over and 2004 is just around the corner. This break really sucks. The only fun part was shopping and going and seeing Mona Lisa Smile. It was such a good movie!!! Anyway, it is now 9:20 and someone was supposed to be here about 3 hours ago... whatever. I hope other people had a better time in the past month than I have. Love to all...
12-9-03 Liz quacks:
Colette is such a fucking whore, and she lies too. I don't see how anyone could find her attractive... in any way. EWWWWWWW! She's DIRRRTY! Anyway, I'm bored... I wanna sleep... sleep is good!!! I hope this weekend is fun!!! My pink dress and Jayson's white Tux with top hat and cane are going to be AWESOME!!! YAY! Good times... hopefully. Lots of pictures! Anyway, I got burned from tanning today. I hurt... :'( Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed. Love to all... except some fucked up people who suck ass and need to die!!! *cough*cough*nate*cough*
12-2-03 Liz quacks:
Hey people. I'm bored. I think I will go to sleep now... I really didn't type much but I don't care... byyyyyyyyye!
12-2-03 Jayson quacks:
Ha Rachel, I'm the second person to type on Liz's site... AlriIiIiIiIight! Why the hell are you not in my band anymore, Travis? Is it because we don't practice, because we do. We put riffs together with words and shit all the time. Fine, I'll find someone else... *tear* Alright, signing off.
11-26-03 Liz quacks:
So... I'm gonna go see Elf tonight! YAY! How exciting. Anyway, when do the Lakers play the Kings? Hmmm... I wonder... Anyway, if anyone knows the answer they should definatly let me know A.S.A.P.! ttel!
11-21-03 Rachel quacks:
Yea, so im totally badass. i get to type on here. and none of you get to! haha. SHOUT OUT TO THE ZIZZLE. haha, anyways... me, zack, lizzy (haha) and JAYDOGG.... are all going to the XMAS ball. so ya, im down. party hardy, rock and roll, drink a yo. smoke a bowl. yea ne ways. . so venito thinks hes punk now. i talked to him about it today. what a loser. zacKy got his job back! isnt that great. well not that any of you guys that come on here know who he is, or who i am ... hmm, ne ways liz still has snow in her yard. we are gonna go build a snowman. ha, ne ways. liz wants to go dancing over where jaydogg is. she has apples in her trees. isnt that cool, im gonna go pick them and make a apple pie. does that sound sexual? well, it should. i love eliz and she loves me and were gonna do it. haha, not really. well anyways, i dont know if tiffany comes on here anymore but i just wanted to tell you that i said something to you on your voice mail that came out totally wrong and im sorry if you took it a bad way, i didnt mean it like that. so anyways,jaydogg and lizz are totally weird. i think jayson looks like a weiner, and elizabeth looks like a bun. haha im funny, not really. this is really fun, i like typing just crap on herre. well im going now. i love you jesus.
11-19-03 Liz quacks:
It snowed today! I want it to snow more!!! IT WILL NOT BE 98 DEGREES AT CHRISTMAS TIME!!! Anyway, I'm bored. I have nothing to do. This week is going by sooooooo freaking slow! GAH! Anyway, I'm going to go. Jayson, I think you should start eating more. I'm worried! ;) Okay! Talk to ya'll later! love to all!!!!!!
11-16-03 Liz quacks:
Jayson gets ungrounded tomorrow! YAY! hehehe! Anyway, I have nothing to write about so I'm going to go now. Talk to everybody later. Love to all!
11-13-03 Liz quacks:
Jayson is grounded! This is dumb... AHH!!!
11-12-03 Liz quacks:
Happy birthday to me!!! I'm finally 17! YAY! Anyway, another year has gone by and very little has been accomplished! I need cake! AHH! I wish Jayson wasn't grounded anymore. The only thing I have to do is read! How exciting! Anyway, I'm going to go now. "A very Merry Un-Birthday to YOUUUUUUUU!"
11-10-03 Liz quacks:
Today I had to sing in an assembly for Veterans Day. I wasn't sure about alot of the words and I couldn't find some notes but whatever. Anyway... I'm bored. I want food. We have none. Its ok. I'll find something. Anyway, I'm gonna go now! Love to all! Even the psyco imposter man/woman thingy! Oh and Travis, whats up with your favorite girls name?
11-7-03 Liz quacks:
Hey people! Jayson and I have been going out for one month now! How exciting!!! Anyway, I'm bored. Gotta go! Love to all!
11-5-03 Liz quacks:
So this imposter person is mean... :( Whatever. I've been cut off. I have to do my own laundry now and I no longer get rides anywhere. At least my money supply is still ok! I want winter break to be here soon. I can't wait! Anyway, I'm tired, hungry and annoyed. I'm going to go eat and do some laundry! CLEAN CLOTHES!!! YAY! W.M.L. bye...
11-3-03 Liz quacks:
The countdown begins! I'm almost 17. Wow. I guess its not really that big of a deal but I'm glad its almost here. The older I get the more I can do. Not that my parents really say no to me now, but still... anyway, I'm bored. Tiffany, you need to call me! I'm not sure why. We haven't really talked in awhile. Friday doesn't count!!! So it doesn't really seem like Travis likes hanging out with people very much. I mean, I know he hangs out with people and I know he sees some people at school and whatnot but its not like he hangs out with us on the weekends anymore or anything. Its kinda sad. I'm sooooooo freaking tired!!! I wish I had lived in the 80's for a longer period of time. I mean, less than 4 years! Thats nothing. I wish I had been born in like 1970 or something. That way I could be a teenager in the 80's. Hairbands and awesome clothes!!! That era was so cool! Its not fair. GAH! Anyway, I better go. Love to all!!!
10-30-03 Liz sighs:
shitty day. no clue why. toe hurts. want to cry. wow. that rhymes or something. gah. so. feel bad. pissed people off. sorry josh. sorry jayson. was being bitchy for no reason. :'( also feel bad for pushing garrett... be better tomorrow. love you all.
10-29-03 Liz quacks:
Halloween is almost here. I hate school. BLAH! Anyway, I feel dizzy. I need sleep!!! I had an AWESOME day. I want Jayson to come back... he just left like a half an hour ago and, well... anyways! I better go. Love to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXCLAMATION CRAZY!!!
10-25-03 Liz quacks:
I'm bored. Last night was REALLY strange! I don't know. I'm bored. I wanna do something! AHHHHHHH! Anyway, I'm going to go. If I actually have something to write about later I will write more... later. Love to ALL!!!!
10-23-03 Liz quacks:
I'm bored. I wanna go do something but I'm not sure what. It's not like my options are unlimited, I mean Jayson is in Las Vegas, Josh is hanging out with his girlyfriend and Rachel doesn't know if she wants to go to open mic night tonight. I have a take home quiz for math that I need to do and I have french homework. Something exciting needs to happen in my life. ahhh...
10-20-03 Liz quacks:
I wanna hang out with people this weekend! Like Lily and Jerry, and Jake and KC, and Aaron and... whoever else! Or at the least I wanna hang out with Lily! Anyway, I better get going. Nick will be here soon and once my mom gets home we are go get Jayson. He leaves me tomorrow so I wanna hang out with him. Love to all!
10-19-03 Liz quacks:
Hey, people!!! I'm so happy! I love my life and everyone involved... well, almost. Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing ok! Everyone needs to get along and get over themselves!!! That would be great. Not that it would ever happen, but it would be pretty cool. Anyway, love to all!!! Happy DAY!!!
10-10-03 Liz quacks:
Hey, people! Hows everyone doing? I'm great. I'm not failing too many classes and as a whole my life is a hell of alot better than it has been in quite some time! Sorry about all the drama, everybody. I don't want people to fight. It makes me sad. I know much of it was my fault and I'm sorry for that. I love you guys and I hope everyone is happy! Love to all!!!
10-?-03 Liz quacks:
HOLY CRAP! It's over. I'm fine and it's not a big deal anymore. Why can't you all just leave it alone? It's none of your business anyway. I understand standing up for your friends and everything, but come on. That goes for all of you. Both sides!!! Well, I've had a good weekend and I don't want that to be ruined over stupid stuff thats now in the past. Everyone, be happy!!! Love to all.
10-4-03 Liz sighs:
wow, the other day wasn't much fun. i flipped, and it was uncalled for. :( I'd like to say i am sorry to the person that was aimed at. you know who you are, as do everyone else. jayson flipped on the 2nd also!!! hahahaha! i made a funny. anyway, sorry again to everybody and good luck. ttyl.
10-2-03 Liz fucking freaks out:
this is way fucked up. you don't fucking do that to someone. i don't understand how you can fucking do shit with someone and two weeks later not give a fuck about them. maybe my friends were right when they said that i really meant nothing to you and that i was being used. "it was only when he felt like it." there was never going to be anything more. i should've fucking listened in the first place or stopped while i was ahead. what they say is true, guys are all fucking ass fucks. i really don't get why someone would want to do that though. wouldn't it bug them... i mean to have that hanging over their head the whole time. knowing that they were just "having a good time" with that other person. "it would feel immoral", my ass. if it would then why did it fucking happen. its a load of complete bullshit. "i don't think that you can have a physical relationship with someone without it getting emotional" or whatever the fuck you said. Thats way fucked up. if you want things to be over why not talk to me about it? why do i have to hear it from someone else? AHHHHHHHHHH! i fucking hate guys right now. well, not all of them. a few are ok. you know, the ones that don't lie to me and don't completely fuck with my head. "i hate angie. she really hurt jayson and led him on." where the fuck do you get off judging others for "leading people on"? if they held hands once or twice and she flirted with him and changed her mind about liking him, its not right, but its none of your business. you should just shut the fuck up, seriously. with what has happened between us, you should fucking knock it off. and whenever you actually get up the courage to fucking talk to ME about this, you should probably do so. i don't fucking feel like freaking out on you in front of a whole load of people. i mean, at least no one on here will have any clue who i'm talking about... right? ;)!!!
9-28-03; around 9:40 pm Liz quacks:
my stummy hurts. ooouuuuchhhhhh!!! GAH!!!!!!
9-28-03; around 1 pm Liz quacks:
yeah. so this sucks. today isn't the greatest day of my life. oh well. i'll get over it. it seems so hard though. hope everyone else is having a nice time. at least i didn't get in trouble for last night. that information makes no difference when it comes to something like this, though. its a totally different situation. people that are open with everyone make things so much easier. they shouldn't hide whats going on... with anything.
9-28-03;around 10 am Liz quacks:
Holy fucking shit! Last night was interesting! AHHH!!! I hope no one got into too much trouble. That would suck. Good luck, everyone. Tony, thats not fair!
9-26-03 Liz quacks:
Centralia sucks. why do they get early release and Chehalis doesn't? It makes no sence. i hate school so much. today has been great so far. Jessica came over and ate lunch with me because Tabatha is sick and Rachel has inhouse. other things are really cool about today, too but I'm not going to go into detail about those. my hair smells like chocolate. its kind of weird. oh well. i want to hang out with Cole today... i hope it all works out. happy weekend, everybody!!! love to all.
9-25-03 Liz quacks:
i feel so gross. being sick sucks. you can't go do anything and staying home all day isn't quite as fun as it should be. books get boring and tv is even worse. i've only been out of school for two days and i want to go back. i hate this. tomorrow will be better though. the weekend only brings good things, right? well, at least i hope it does. Cole isn't grounded anymore and can hopefully hang out tomorrow! tomorrow is also our homecoming. Garrett's birthday party is saturday and he is turning 17 on sunday. i hope these next few days aren't crap. good luck to all.
9-23-03 Liz quacks:
update.
9-21-03 Liz sighs:
too much drama. highschool is seriously retarded. this petty stuff is a load of bullshit. everyone makes mistakes and everyone does stupid things, but just because people make mistakes and do stupid things doesn't mean that any friendships have to be completely ruined over them. EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES. i'm not JUST talking about me and whats happened in the past or even recently, i'm talking about everyone everywhere. in highschool if somebody says something and someone takes it the wrong way, or if someone hears something from someone that might not even be true then people turn their backs on one another. i'm not saying any of this to get anyone to make any comments at all, and if people don't really want to be friends with me because of the mistakes i've made, then thats fine. it's their choice to make. I just felt that i should clear it up. i'm sorry that i've made mistakes. everyone has, and will continue to. no one can help that. it's never going to change. good luck to all, with their remaining friendships. have a nice night.
9-18-03 Liz says softly:
is there even anything i can do? is there even any point in trying? if there is, someone should let me know. lily needs to call me SOON... and mo, you need to come home... now!
9-15-03 Liz quacks:
I MISS COLE!!! BE UNGROUNDED NOW, COLE! Anyway, I miss Lily, too. I want to hang out with her. A walk in Olympia sounds nice right about now. I want to do something. Heather, get ungrounded also. Why is this happening? Everyone is in trouble. Anyway, I'm bored and I want to go. love to all...
9-14-03 Liz quacks:
My hair is soft. I bought some new stuff today. It's sooo exciting. Anyway, today was a pretty good day. Mostly lazy then I got mexican food. YUM! I ate too much though, so now I feel gross. My mom needs to use the internet soon so I better get off. love to all...
9-13-03 Liz quacks:
My brother is finally back!!! I'm so happy. but I'm not. Its a Saturday night and I'm stuck at home. My mom isn't even home tonight. How pathetic is that? I have less to do than she does. THIS IS FUCKING STUPID!!! Fuck this. I'm going to bed soon so I don't totally explode...
9-12-03 Liz quacks:
I'm bored and my face hurts... goodness!
9-11-03 Liz says softly:
today was another crap day. i didn't go psyco on anyone, i was just really tired. i stayed up to late last night. i went to school and all was fine unil 6th period. we had to do stadiums. i think i wanna sleep this weekend. sorry i don't want to go camping, guys. i just don't feel like it. oh look, its sunny outside. that makes me wanna sleep. people should call me or stop by so i'm not lonely tonight. talk to everyone later. love to all
9-9-03 Liz quacks:
today was on of the shittiest days of all time. i have no clue why, it just was. my whole day was full of crap. i haven't felt this helpless since... i don't know when. anyway, i hope i feel better soon. people should actually call me so i feel better. no one ever calls me anymore. i don't want to whine, but i feel unloved...
9-8-03 Liz yawns:
I'm so sleepy! Today was a good day. Tony and Ricky showed up at my school today and then we went to Ricky's house. We hung out there for awhile then Heather and I went out to Winlock. Cole is such a nice boy. Hes fun to hang out with. HIS CARPET IS AWESOME!!! Heather and I are going to paint his room. I'm so excited! Anyway, thats all that really happened today, I have homework, and I want to go to bed, so I'm going to go now. Talk to you all later. Love...
9-3-03 Liz quacks:
Today was actually ok for the first day. I had fun. I'm getting out of A.P. History because... well, it sounds like I actually might have to try in that class. Plus I didn't do any of the summer reading. I think we had to read like four books or something. I don't know. Anyway, I'm dropping that but the rest of my classes are just fine. Stupid people are in my weights class so that kinda sucks. Anyway, after school I hung out with Tiffany, Heather, Jayson, Travis and Josh. Then Tony showed up... Way to go, Tony, for getting your license... with Jacob. They left and so did Heather. We drove around for awhile after that. I was later threatened to be cut up, Jayson tried to do cookies which just didn't work out, and Josh and Jacob FINALLY got their hat back. Anyway, all in all it was a pretty good day. I hope everyone else had a good day today! I will write more later.
9-2-03 Liz quacks:
So tomorrow school starts. FINALLY!!! I've been waiting for what seems like forever. My schedule sucks. I have Mr. Ryan first period with A.P. US History/Government, Mr. Day second with choir, Mrs. Baarspul for French 2, Mrs. Williams for English, Mr. Baumgartner for Adv. Algebra, and for 6th period I have Ms. Davies for Light Weights. I guess its not that bad. I have no problem with any of my teachers so it really shouldn't be a problem. I also have second lunch with everyone so I don't need to get a schedule change. I hope I do well this year. I'm planning on actually doing my homework and stuff so I shouldn't do to bad. Anyway, I had a pretty good day, Tiffany is psyco though. She called me up at 7 this morning and told me she would be to my house at 8:30 to get me. We wound up going to her house and spending hours watching movies. I finally showered at like 1:45... I felt so gross! Anyway, then we hung out with Garrett, Josh, Jayson, Ali, Cole, Travis, and Chrystal. That Cole kid seems pretty cool. Hes an awesome person to talk to. Its extremely easy for some reason. So, like I said, I have school tomorrow. Its sucks. School is to early in the morning. We start at like 8:10. Its retarded. We should start at like 9 or something. Anyway, I better be going. I need to eat and talk and get ready for tomorrow! Love to all!!! (i love pepperoni)
9-1-03 Liz quacks:
September is finally here! Oh goodness, I'm so excited. I wish school was tomorrow though. I'm so bored. So yeah, confusion definatly reached it's max today. Oh well though. Whatever happens, happens. Good luck at school to all who are attending tomorrow. I would also like to say that I'm EXTREMELY sorry to anyone I woke up this morning at 6:30 or somewhere around there! Love to all! (I love the Ninja Turtles!!!)
8-31-03 Liz steams:
My tummy feels better now! I'm glad I don't feel like shit anymore. Well, at least I don't feel like shit for that reason. You know what I really hate? When people lie to me. I don't understand why they don't just tell the truth. If they had origanally told the truth, then they wouldn't get caught and then I wouldn't feel like shit. When they lie to me it feels like they don't think they can be honest with me. They obviously don't trust me and don't care enough about me to be completely honest. Whatever though. It just kinda pisses me off. Maybe today though I can get the truth out of them. I'm not sure, but I will definatly try. Anyway, hope everyone's summer has been awesome. Only 3 days left! AHHH....
8-30-03;11:59 PM Liz says softly:
my tummy hurts. I need someone to comfort me...
8-30-03 Liz quacks:
So lately I've been pretty happy. Things are actually not that bad. I wish my life would be better and that things would go exactly the way I want them to, but who doesn't? School starts on Wednesday! I can't wait. I still need to go shopping though. I have no clothes. I also need make-up. I wonder where mine went. Grr... it makes me soo angry. Nathaniel probably stole it and wears it or something. I wouldn't put it past him! ;) Anyway, I hope everyone has had an awesome summer. Mine has been interesting. I really don't have anything to write about so... I will write later. Love to all!!!
8-27-03 Liz yells:
Holy crap!!! My stomache hurts so bad that my back hurts. I also feel like I'm going to throw up. I don't really care if none of you want to hear this. Don't read it then. And Rachel, I know we are ok now but please stop going to MY website and complaining about what you choose to read. No one is forcing you. I'm aloud to "quack" and "cry" about anything I want to on here. I don't care who likes it and who doesn't. I try not to say to many names when I'm complaining about people and what they are doing thats making me mad and if you figure out who I may be talking about at the time and it bugs you, thats just to bad. Anyway, onto a lighter subject... last night was fun. Ryan is not a good person to get drunk. Never again, thats all I have to say!!! Sorry Josh for whatever the heck I did that has pissed you off to the point of you not even wanting to talk about it with me. And Jayson, I didn't say anything to her about you and who you have done what with. If you don't want to believe me then its your choice but stop being stupid about it. You could at least listen to what I have to say. I'm so glad that you don't even trust me! You give me so much credit. Anyway, the last couple days of my summer will hopefully be fun! I hope I can work out these problems with you guys. If I can't then I'm really, really sorry. Good luck to everyone with everything. Love to all!!!
8-19-03 Liz cries:
So I feel like shit. I know I shouldn't and many people have told me I have nothing to feel bad about. Its not my fault, right? But that doesn't change how I feel. I know someone doesn't really care what happened and everything but it doesn't matter. Actually, yeah it does. It makes me feel even worse. I hate this. Why do these things always happen to me. I know I'm being dumb and everything, feeling sorry for myself and searching for sympathy but I have nothing better to do. And I've been through a bunch of unneeded crap lately. I think I have a right to feel sorry for myself. Anyway, I need to go shopping soon. I don't have any clothes. Heather wants me to go with her on Friday but I don't know if I want to. I don't want to go to Olympia again this year. I really want to go to Portland. They have so many more options. Or maybe go to Seattle!!! That would be fun. Anyway,I better get going. Josh, Jayson and Garrett are here now. Love to all!!!
8-16-03;12:45pm Liz quacks:
So yesterday wasn't a total waste. I wound up hanging out with Aaron Brown and Adam. Then we met up with Ben and Nick, and Travis met us at the library. I don't know. We really didn't do much. Adam tried to break Travis' bike. That was pretty interesting, then they stole my advil and ate them like candy. I don't know, I guess they do taste pretty good. Anyway, thanks for talking to me yesterday, Travis. I really appreciated it. So I really don't have anything else to say, since I've been updating alot more now. Love to all!
8-16-03;12:06 am Liz quacks:
what do i do now?
8-15-03 Liz quacks:
Today is crap day. It hasn't been all that horrible or anything, its just been a whole lot of crap. Its windy and cold outside but its not raining. If its going to be windy and cold it should at least rain. I love the rain. It makes me happy. I'm not really sure why, but it always has. This week has been pretty fun. Its fair week and so far I've gone to the fair twice. On Tuesday I had my forth drive and I failed it. It sucked. I really hate that bitch, Mrs. Hall. Shes so evil. I went to the fair Wednesday with Jayson and Garrett. We met up with Travis and Amber Vinson. That was fun. Amber and I hung out all day and I wound up staying at her house. Jayson and Travis snuck in and they stayed the night too. The next morning we woke up and went to Sharies around like 9:30, then we all went back to Amber's and took showers and got ready for the looooooong day ahead. Travis went to his friend Win's party so he didn't really hang out much with us on Thursday. Jayson, Amber, Maureen, Katie and I all went to the fair together. We got bracelets but I had run out of pills so we had to go get them at my house. Aaron, Amber, Maureen, Maxx, Ryan and I were all going to go to my house and get some for me but when we were leaving the fair Amber's car was being towed away. She called her mom and was all freaked. My mom brought me my pills and we went back into the fair. We went on rides and I ate way to much food. Ryan kissed one of my friends, which was pretty interesting. I don't know. As a whole, this week has been ok. I'm starting to understand why people do what they do, even if it does seem stupid at the time. I want to appologize to anyone I have pissed off lately and I also want to say I'm sorry to anyone I keep bugging about making up their mind and figuring out what they want. Of course I still want more, but I should be happy with what I have right now. Things will change, hopefully soon, for better or worse, whichever happens to come my way. They say patience is a virtue, and maybe it is. Starting today, I'm going to leave people alone about making decisions. They are their decisions to make, and should be made on their time. Good luck to everyone, with everything. Je t'aime!!!
8-9-03 Liz quacks:
So last night was Jayson's birthday party. That was a whole lot of fun. I'm so glad I didn't get drunk. A few people did, no names, and they were pretty bad. Puking and crap. Oh gosh... anyway, staying up until 6 and waking up at 8 really isn't to bad. I'm actually quite awake. So Tiffany spilled her drink on Rachel, by accident of course, and Tiffany wasn't very smooth about the whole situation. I guess Rachel like heard Tiffany and Ali yelling to each other about how cool it was and whatnot. Anyway, tonight should be fun. I can't wait to like hang out with Adam and everybody. They are such cool kids. Well, to all of those people who actually read this, I'm sorry its not very interesting. I love you all though. Hope you've had a fun weekend so far. I know I have. lol! Love to all!
8-7-03 Liz quacks:
So its Jayson's birthday. His party is tomorrow and so that will be fun. Yesterday was a good day. I talked to some people about some pretty important things and got most of it straightened out. I still have a few things to work on but for the most part, I'm content. Anyway, today I was looking threw a drawer of mine and I found baby pictures of Adam and his brother Lucas. Lol. The pictures are so cute. Adam was a cutie... even if he was fat and had a pumpkin head. I'm bored. Garrett is on his way to pick me up but he is taking a really long time. Ali gets home tonight so thats pretty exciting. She sounded so sad last night on the phone. Tomorrow evening is Boonfest... Ben's band thingy. It sounds pretty cool. Good luck to all involved. Anyway, I better get going. I'll write again soon. Love to all!
8-6-03 Liz quacks:
Yeah so, my life is hell right now. Some people are so dumb. I don't understand. They say one thing one minute and turn around and say the complete opposite the next. Today, or really it was yesterday since it is 1:25 at the moment, Jayson, Roger, Tiffany, Garrett, Josh and I all went to the park. We found 4 puppies. They are so cute. Jayson is keeping two of them and we think we may have found homes for the other two. I really hope so. They are so sweet. Aaron Penland makes me sad. He gets so angry. I know this isn't a little tiny thing that he is getting mad about but still... its so sad to see him so upset. Also, my Maureen is sad too, which really makes me upset. Why can't things be a little more simple. So that Aaron Brown kid is totally cool. He and I should hang out more. Adam is also an awesome kid! I like my friends. Tiffany and I need to go to the Penny Candy store tomorrow and buy some yellow and red gummy bears... only if she feels like it though. I would understand if she didn't. Anyway, my last drive is next Tuesday so I need to practice driving. Well, I'm going to go to bed now. I PROMISE I will update again soon. Love to all...
7-23-03 Liz quacks:
It turns out that today wasn't my last day of drivers ed. I have two make-up days and I also have to go in another day to take my final. For the next 3 Tuesdays I also have drives. I HATE EVERYTHING!!! boys suck.
7-23-03 Elizabeth quacks:
Yesterday I took my first drive. It was so scary. I think Mrs. Hall was afraid. I guess I gave her wiplash an estimated 57 times. Shes so crazy. I swear, shes nuts. Today I have my last drivers ed class. We are taking the final today. I don't think I will do to badly but I don't really know the parts of the car. Last night Tiffany, Garrett, Josh, Travis and I all went to the Centralia Highschool. Tiffany let Josh, Travis and I drive her car. It was fun. She has a stick and I'd never driven one before so I thought I was going to kill it, but I didn't. I wanna go to the penny candy store today and buy yellow gummy bears! I'll write again soon!!!
7-21-03 Liz quacks:
July is almost over. I can't believe it. It's all going by soo fast. These last couple days have been a blast. I made a couple new friends (Tiffany and Ali) and experianced a few new things. I've come to love yellow gummy bears and almost threw up at the sight of spongebob. Its been great! Drivers ed is over on Wednesday but I will still have two make-up days. I have my first drive tomorrow and I think I'm going to fail. I'm so nervous. Why do I have to take it with Mrs. Hall? Shes evil, I swear! Schaffer park was fun last night... but it could have been much better. I wish I had a yellow gummy bear right now...
7-17-03 Liz quacks:
Umm... I really have nothing to write about. I've been doing the same thing for the past week now and so if I continually write about that, I think it may get a little boring. But I will anyway. Rachel and I have been hanging out with people like Nick Treat, Travis Sweetingham, Jayson Watterson, and we hung out with Aaron Penland yesterday. Tonight I'm going to open mic night just like every other week. Rachel and I might meet some guys we know from Cathlamet there tonight. We haven't seen them since the sunday after the 4th of July. That should be exciting!!! Anyway, yeah. I have nothing else to write. bye
7-14-03 Liz quacks:
Lily, I wasn't looking for sympathy, I was just stating the fact that the activities I have been taking part in aren't all that exciting.The last few days have been quite fun though. Rachel and I have been hanging out with Jayson Watterson and Travis Sweetingham. What fun boys! Rachel and Jayson are so cute and should definatly go for it. I'm not sure what "it" is but "it" should definatly take place between the two of them. Lily, I still have your b-day gift! I feel like such a crappy friend. OMG! I got my hard copy of my permit today! Its so gross. I look like crap. I hadn't showered yet that day and my hair is a huge mess. Enough complaining though. I'll write again later.
7-10-03 Liz quacks:
LILY IS FINALLY 18! YAY! So I haven't written for awhile. Sorry guys. I really haven't had time. My computer doesn't let me do this kind of stuff and my mom rarely lets me use her's. The 4th was a blast. Rachel, Jessica and I went to Long Beach. It was so much fun. We got cool hats and had our pictures taken. We also met this guy that looks freakishly like Bam Margera. It was exciting. I put red streaks in my hair yesterday. I haven't been doing anything lately except hang out with Rachel, who now has her License. My life sucks. Oh yeah, Jessica, Rachel and I also went camping. Jessica and I had ALOT of fun with that. Hope everyone is having a better time than I am. Good luck to all... See you tonight.
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