Beauty and the Beast, King of Swords, a crown and roses:
(Some of below are excerpts from emails)

- I am always making fun of the feather hat I’ve been told that Patrick likes to wear. But one day he came to my friend wearing a crown. She was also shown a piece of stained glass with a rose (the rose was part of the stained glass). She didn't see the whole piece - just a corner of it. She also saw a tarot card on top of the glass. It looked like the KING OF SWORDS.

Well… when I was talking to someone else who did a tarot reading for me (just a general reading which wound up being about Patrick) I mentioned how it’s been interesting trying to figure out Patrick’s personality over the years. I mentioned that I thought he was harsh-looking on the outside, but that he really is a quiet, kind person. A gentle soul, but at the same time perhaps very intense. I also mentioned how my mom said she thought that from a young age he was taught to detach from his emotions.  Well, the lady replied back that that sounds like the KING OF SWORDS to a T.  (King of Swords was one of the cards she pulled).

So I think my friend seeing the King of Swords card was a way for him to confirm that that’s what his personality is/was like.

- The last time I was in Austin my niece and I watched Disney’s Beauty and the Beast together.  I hadn’t watched that in forever, and was surprised at just HOW MUCH I still loved watching that movie.  Ever since then I’ve been thinking of watching it here at home, but never could find the time.  

So the day after you mentioned the stained glass/rose/tarot card I thought I’d force myself to take a writing break and watch the movie.  The second I saw the “Beauty and the Beast” title on the tv screen, it made me think that Patrick really might be trying to tell me something.  We already know that he sees me as “Christine” and himself sort of as “The Phantom” from Phantom of the Opera. 

Note: I’ve always felt that Patrick’s and mine’s story is similar to that musical. From the very first time I saw that movie, I sort of felt like Patrick’s/mine's story was a bit like POTO.  Near the beginning they show when Christine is a little girl, and she talks about how the Angel of Music was always there in her dreams, and how she felt his presence and how he was always there, protecting her.  And well… I did see him when I was a little girl, and he was taking care of me – fixing the covers at the end of the bed.
Also, when I was having major doubts about Patrick this past summer, she said that she told Patrick there had to be SOMETHING that would make me believe.  That’s when she heard him say – “Call her Christine.  She will like that.” Lol!  (It took a few minutes for her to remember that Christine is a character from Phantom, and that I’m a huge POTO fan).

Well, I now think that he also thinks of me as “Belle”… (my family always calls me Belle by the way. Lol!  Even my niece told me that while we were watching the movie together)… and himself as “the Beast.”  It makes total sense to me, and I’ll tell you why.

Remember when Mom did that automatic handwriting?  I was never sure that it was all spot-on, but maybe some of it really was. Patrick mentioned:

“I loved you more than you loved me I think, for you sometimes feared me and you know you were most tender and kind to me, despite my crude ways.  You were the flower.  I was the thorn.”

In the beginning of the story, Belle fears the Beast. (Which reminds me of my ‘tent dream’ where Patrick scared the heck out of me). And then there’s the flower/thorn mention in the AW Mom did, and a rose is an integral part to the B&B story.  And remember my reaction when he came as himself in that tent dream and how convinced I was in that dream that he was evil?  Well, that sounds like The Beast to me in the beginning of the story. Lol! Furthermore, what did Patrick show you the other day but a STAINED GLASS piece of a ROSE – just like there is in Beauty and the Beast.  Remember the stained glass in the beginning and end of that movie?
By the way, as I was watching the movie there’s that scene where Belle and the Beast are finally getting along and the Beast says he’s never felt this way about anyone and wants to do something nice for Belle.  Well, I believe it was Mom (and perhaps even you) who said he kept a lid on his feelings until I came along.  And remember when he said he planted roses for me in that past life because he knew I loved roses?  Well, that echoes that part in the movie, where the Beast wants to do something nice for Belle. And then there’s a couple times in the movie where Belle realizes that the Beast and the Prince are one in the same… when she looks into his eyes – just like how I know when it’s Patrick in my dreams because of the eyes.  Remember my ‘staring into my soul’ dream that I had?

So I think the stained glass of the rose and the King of Swords tarot card might have been him trying to convey to me once more… just like he did with my recent dream about Gerry and Target…. what his personality is like. Of course, I could be way off. But if it really did mean something, I think the book I just wrote above is a possibility.
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