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| Mom didn't tell me much b/c of the headache he was giving her, but she did say that I was his ward. As I got older his feelings for me grew, which he fought b/c he was supposed to just be my caretaker; sort of like a father would. When he let me know of his feelings, I had a really hard time seeing him in that light. She said it scared me and I felt like it was wrong. She also says that she doesn't think I ever really thought of him as a father, but as someone who would just look after me and keep me safe. She says she doesn't think he really had that much to do with me until I was older. Which makes sense to me since he was probably away much of the time. He may have even been married with kids of his own at one time. I don't know. I do know that my aunt and another psychic said something about him losing his children.
Oh! She also said that she thinks he had a really long name and that "Patrick" wasn't his first name. She said his name was something like ___ ___ Patrick___ The ____. (Know what I mean? Like "James Alexander Malcolm MacKenzie Fraser" the Red). When she said that, I laughed b/c just that morning I was channel surfing. I stopped on Roseanne... one of the last lotto episodes I can't stand... and there was a character on there who was introduced as having like 7 names. Lol! ********** That's the only horse I've ever seen Patrick on, too. In two dreams he was riding a white horse, and when I explained one of those dreams to my aunt (during the reading), that's when she pulled the sun card-- which had a white horse on it. OMG! Ok, you are NOT going to believe this but I took it upon myself to do a reading on Patrick yesterday (I hope you don't mind- I will private message it to you when I get a chance to get my notes together) and the VERY FIRST CARD that came up was THE SUN with a man riding a white horse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| From the information that I got from the reading, it seems that he was in a very high position of power and authority (I get the strong sense he was involved with royalty) - a great leader of some sort who everyone looked up to. Very powerful. He was very passive in nature but he was very passionate meaning that his passive demeaner would quickly change into being very fierce at only a moment's notice if needed. He kept things in order.
Now, I know your aunt said that HE looked after YOU, but what I got from the reading I did is that YOU attended to HIS needs like a servant of some sort (which actually makes alot more sense to me than what your aunt said). I also get the feeling that you were one of many women "servants" (for lack of a better word- I don't know what they would've called them back then), that attended to him. I feel that he grew to love you. You stood out to him over all the others. It's almost like he became obsessed with you (not in a bad way- he just loved you VERY much). I get the sense that you loved him too, but you, being a servant, well, I get the feeling that the love between the 2 of you had to be kept hidden because of his position, but he was willing to give up his authority/ position that he had to be with you because he loved you so much, he felt he could not be without you. I don't know if this actually happened that he ended up giving up his position or not, but I feel that he might have so that you could be together because it does say in the cards that there was a "giving up of authority" so he may very well have given up his position in order to be with you. I also sensed that you didn't reciprocate his feelings at first even though you loved him too because it scared you because there may have been severe consequences if the love between the 2 of you was to be discovered by anyone. (I don't know anything about the laws about that kind of thing back then but I think that just by using my common knowledge, that a relationship like that between such a public and powerful figure and a servant would not be looked upon nicely.) He might even have been married at the time. |
| Also, the cards said that you are going to be receiving some very important news which will release uncertainties and end the waiting. Unknown information is finally being revealed to you that makes sense and brimming with truths. (ah, HELLO???? Could that be this reading you are looking at right now??? LOL) Any feelings of insecurity and unworthiness are to be banished from your mind. You are to be reminded of the hard work that is necessary in order to gain understanding. Desire is not enough. Action must be taken.
The last card that was chosen was The Star (which "co-incidentally" depicts a lion on the front much like the lion on the crest that you posted). Follow your heart without fear- don't be afraid. This will be resolved with the best of results- believe in your ability. Your conscious and subconscious minds are working together and merging to bring about a new awareness of the situation that allows you to see this situation in a new light. |
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