| Could she be his wife maybe?
Rowena: Meaning- Celtic: “The white-haired one.” Old English – “A well-known friend.” - Patrick is royalty, but he’s a ways down in the line. (Ex.– 5 people or so are ahead of him in the royal line, but his family is definitely royalty. He’s ‘of money’). - “She hated the cold.” (It got into my bones it was so cold) |
| Okay, Mom tried a tarot reading on Patrick’s and mine’s PL: The Chariot - Maintaining Balanced Control Completion and triumph. Hard work pays off, and endeavors are crowned with success, which is entirely deserved. You may have had to constantly defend your position in order to get through difficult times, but now you can afford to relax a little and enjoy the rewards; you won’t always need to protect your personality with battle armor. Five of Cups - Negative Effects Unhappiness in a relationship. The sadness and disappointment you feel may be due to breaking up with a partner, and you know that what is hurt cannot be healed by regret. Focus on what remains, rather than dwell on what you have lost. The Emperor - Power The influence of an older person who holds fast to tradition. Indicates protection & support in any venture because the Emperor represents an honest, if domineering, ally. He lives in a dynamic, creative whirlwind powered by the strength of his will, yet his stubborn martial attitude leaves no room for subtlety or the nurturing qualities. Don’t assume an individual with strong qualities has good judgment |
| And this came to her right after:
- When I was telling Mom about how maybe he sort of reminds me of “Dr. MacNeill” and that’s why I dream of him that way…. Mom told me I was totally off. She said that Patrick knows that that is the kind of man I’m attracted to and am comfortable with, so that’s why he comes to me in my dreams as “Dr. MacNeill.” (And I do find it odd that in that ‘cabin dream/possible reunion on the Other Side dream’ I had, that I remember us both thinking - ‘To Hell with what everyone else thinks. We want to be together and so WE will be the ones calling the shots from now on’….. well, that does echo what you said in your reading about us not being allowed to be together. I shouldn’t have brushed off that dream just b/c “Dr. MacNeill” (or someone like him) was in it. No ‘wish fulfillment’ dream would be that deep. I cannot believe it took me so long to make that connection). - When I was telling Mom that I’ve learned to pay close attention to the details/subconscious (like the theme of my fave movies being the lovers separated)… that’s when it dawned on me that the Chariot card Mom pulled had a black horse and a white horse on it. Well… remember how Mom saw a picture in her mind that day of a black swan and a white swan? - I was similar to being Patrick’s ward. My father didn’t die, but he had to go away for a long period of time. He and Patrick may have even been best friends. My father put Patrick in charge of looking after me. She says my father was a rich landowner. - There was a definite age gap between Patrick and myself of around 10 – 15 years. - Our relationship was “sweet.” (Whatever that means…. Ha!) - I loved children, and this amused Patrick. - Just like you said, she thinks we were together for a while. |
| - It's highly likely I was a lady in waiting. (Like a maid of honor like you said. Or something similar to that).
- Patrick was very stubborn and not “affectionate” by nature. Not in touch whatsoever with his feminine side. Meaning, he probably was taken from his family at a tender age to prepare for his role in life. He was a great leader of men, and so was taught from infancy to be strong and above expressing his feelings; to be above even having feelings in the first place probably. He may not have even thought it right to marry anyone, due to his station. (Warfare, etc.) But then I came along and he began to question things and feel things for another person. He thought his feelings toward me were wrong. (I’m sure they were even uninvited). - He was not outspoken until much later, when everything was taken away from him. (Mom says what was taken away from him was me. That we couldn’t be together). (Update: This is contradictory to what she said later… that were married and had 2 kids. Unless.. the separation wasn't permanent but did last many years). - He may or may not have married. If he did, it was because he had to. Also, by the time he was ‘in touch’ with the idea of he and I marrying, it was too late. - I held fast to the conviction that if I couldn't be with Patrick, I didn't want to be with anyone else. |
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