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Also, I really really really hope this doesn't sound rude or mean but can you possibly ask Patrick to come to me only when I ask him to? (like if you want to know something, I can call him to me). He is just is sooooooooo happy to be able to talk to you through someone (that someone being me, lol, which of course is very understandable) that it seems that he is here all the time the past few days wanting me to pass messages along to you and honestly, I love that I have been able to help you and Patrick out with everything but I just can't have him following me around all the time because as I said before, when there is a spirit around me, I tend to feel a bit anxious because I can sense their urge to want to communicate and it can get pretty distracting. I REALLY hope that doesn't sound mean or rude but I just would rather him come to me when I ask so that way I am prepared you know

Email excerpt:

Anyhow, you wanted me to let you know if Patrick is still bugging me- no, he's not. He left me alone yesterday but I forgot to tell you that he wanted me to send you a picture of a white bunny rabbit. (this was when he wanted me to send you the roses too, I just forgot about the rabbit but it keeps popping into my head so I thought I'd better let you know). :)

Mom’s cards/My cards.

In the car Mom also heard Patrick saying (to me) “M’Lady. M’Lady.” She says he said it over and over again. Lol! She said he has his own greeting for her, only she can’t hear it perfectly. It’s a different, longer form of address.

She also did a reading on Patrick. One of the cards was 5 of Cups, just like I got for him – in his PL I think. His cards were saying that being overlyemotional isn’t helpful to him, and that he needed to let go of the past and focus on what remains. She said he is being VERY IMPATIENT and it’s like he’s in mourning right now. She said he was devastated that I left, and that all this communication with me that has been going on lately is like opening a door to a flood of emotions for him. It’s making it even harder for him to cope. I told her how surprising and sad that is, but she told me that he HAS to wade through it though, b/c it’s a growing process for him. She also said that he gets very frustrated with me sometimes, b/c I overanalyze. (Who, me? Lol!) She also said she tries to block him b/c she feels like I won’t believe anything she says.

But she said he’s devastated (Mom’s words not mine) every time I incarnate and leave him behind. He hates when he “loses the connection.” She says he just doesn’t understand that his pages are filled, and mine are not. I HAD to come back, and maybe a lot of his own growth can’t happen unless I’m here and he’s there, ya know? She said he’s feeling a great sense of loss, but that he has no choice but to go through the emotions of this.

And isn’t this strange. A few times I’ll ask Patrick to let me know he’s around by the tarot cards I choose. Those times I’m not really interested in the meanings of the cards, but look for a PICTURE/SYMBOL on the card to jump out at me. A few times I’ve gotten Queen of Pentacles, which has a bunny rabbit and little pink flowers. (I just realized that this morning, about the little pink flowers echoing what you saw in your reading the other day with the bunny).

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ps- I think you will find that you have psychic abilities too now. ;)

One card I kept getting yesterday was Page of Cups, which talked about psychic ability. Lol! (People are always telling me this, but that's not surprising considering how 'in tune' members of my family are with the spirit world - and they don't really embrace or show much interest in it either).

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And I agree with your mom- I definitely think that Patrick communicates with you through dreams.

I think so, too. Remember how Mom said Patrick mentioned a loch/lake and that my aunt said he told her to tell me – “We know why we love lavender?” Well, I’ve had a few dreams where there’s a loch with mountains rising in the distance. And right below me, growing on the hillside, is lavender. I’ve had 2 or 3 dreams like that.

(My sunflower sign)