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I think that if he formulated the Dr. Neil thing, he most likely formulated the entire dream. I think that dream was more meant for you to remember your feelings and the circumstances not the cabin.

I think that’s probably true. I do think it’s THE MESSAGE of the dream that’s the most important. That SOMETHING was keeping us apart, and that we were sick to death of it.

And I don't think he lived there with you. It was a place for him to come see you. So he could keep you safe and know where you are. That's my feelings on that anyhow.

Now-- if I was his ward like Mom said, that would make total sense out of the place he had built for me. Something like that (his act of building a place for me) would not have to be secret, and he could come and go as he pleased without people getting too suspicious.

And I do think that his being ordered to ‘look after me’ by my father/whomever feels right. I could be way off, but from the first time Mom said that - it felt right. I just don’t think I was a servant and… hey, wait a minute… maybe the “giving up of authority” was related to that. That he no longer looked to me as being just his ward that he was put in charge of.

Another reading on PL:

Before I respond to your email, I just wanted to let you know that this morning I did 2 more readings asking what your relationship to Patrick was in your PL. I asked if you were indeed married. Now, while shuffling the cards, one card, again, flew out of the deck and landed in front of me. It was the 4 of Staves upside down. That card has a picture of two lovers toasting their love in front of a castle. Now, right side up, that card indicates a new marriage, BUT it was upside down and when it appears upside down, it says, "The desire to put down roots but elusiveness in doing so. Wanting stability. Frustrations and disappointments with love". After I did the 2 readings, I couldn't get a definite answer on whether or not the 2 of you were married so I asked the cards to give me ONE card that would answer my question of whether or not you 2 were married and it was the Ace of Cups, upside down. That says, "Emotional disappointments. Disillusionment with love. Sadness and melancholy." So I am still thinking that the 2 of you were not married. Put those 2 cards together and they pretty much say the same thing.

Here are some other things I picked up in the 2 readings I did........................

I am beginning to think that your mom may have been right when she said that Patrick built that castle for you to impress you because a lot of his cards actually said "Using wealth to manipulate others. A need to control situations from behind the scenes." So that echoes that he used his wealth to impress you by building you a castle. I knew that it was definitely a gift for you but I wasn't sure why. I thought it was so that you 2 could have a place where you could meet in secret but I don't think I had the full picture. I think your mom was right- he did build it for you to impress you BUT I also think that it also was like I said too, a place where you could meet in secret. So not only did he build it to impress you, but it was a place for the 2 of you to be together away from everyone else.

Also, a lot of the cards mentioned "secrecy" as well as "time to move on but unwillingness to do so". So I am still thinking that your relationship was secret and the time to move on has to do with your relationship ending. If you 2 WERE married and he died of old age, then there would be no need for the 2 of you to move on would there? Every reading I've done on the 2 of you mentions you 2 being torn apart, and time to move on but not wanting to do so, etc, etc. The readings also said "Stagnation and fear of change. Resisting transformations. Adherance to the status quo. The need to move in a new direction but not wanting to do so. Rigidity". That to me, is referring to him having to do what his family needed him to do and that was to marry someone else (or something along those lines).

>>>But wait a minute… just had a thought… if I really was a servant (still not sure about that) and our relationship was hush-hush… which is understandable… why would we ever be engaged? People whose relationships are a secret don't get engaged. Royalty don't ask peasants to marry them.

Well sometimes symbols are not literal. So maybe the engagement ring meant to show me that you 2 were committed to each other, not necessarily engaged. By the way- I have to tell you that the part about you being a servant was one of the parts where I felt Patrick was taking over my thinking. When I said "because you were a servant" when you said you just couldn't understand why the secrecy, that's when he started to come through. If I remember correctly, I actually started to type something like "It would be most inadvantageous for a man of my nobility to be seen with the likes of a servant". Now, do you think *I* talk like that? NO. I don't even know if "inadvantageous" is a word! lol. (it was something like that anyhow). I know you have doubts about being a servant but I really do feel that you were. Maybe you started out as being in his care but as you got older, you were "put to use" as a servant? And you asked me if I saw what you were wearing when I saw you in my visions- well you didn't look royal or high-up that is for sure. Your hair was long and it was pulled back in a long braid and you were wearing a plain looking dress with a flowery pattern on it with like a white apron-type thing around the front. You just looked like an average girl to me. When I see Patrick, there is NO doubt that he is high up. I mean his clothes are FANCY! lol. Yours were not, not even your hair- it was just a simple braid down your back.

By the way, I've been meaning to tell you this but I keep forgetting. Ever since you and I have been writing back and forth everyday again, I think Patrick has been sneaking in some visits to me hoping I won't notice. LOL! The other day, I thought for sure that I saw him in my mind's eye and I was wondering what he might want. Well, I went to go out to have a cigarette, and you are not going to believe this (and nothing like this has EVER happened to me before)- I HEARD A MUSIC BOX PLAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I knew right then that it was Patrick. lol