So in that reading he mentioned my love for roses and him putting up with my affection for rabbits, and on tv that night this woman loved roses – which her husband ‘put up with’ but ended up planting extra for her anyway (which sounds like what Nat told me about Patrick ‘putting up with’ my love for rabbits, and what I wrote about roses in my book) -  and then there was that rabbit in that commercial! And in that backpost I read last night (which was posted an ENTIRE YEAR ago), rabbits were mentioned.  Not only that, but someone pointed out to me that when I told them about my roses and rabbits sign that night, the person who had made that post last year was at a birthday party that day…. and while there they were playing with rabbits.  Lol!

I also find it a little funny that I suspect Patrick might have been Scottish, and I received my sign from a poster on that site who is from Scotland.
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Also… a while back I was watching Ghost Hunters on tv.  When a commercial came on I turned it to LOST b/c I suspected one of the characters was Scottish.  It was on that particular actor’s scene when I turned the channel to LOST and heard him say – “I am Scottish.” And in the scene directly after his, there was a white rabbit inside a cage.

So maybe Patrick really was Scottish.  I’m always thinking he was probably from Wales, but I keep running into signs saying otherwise.  I’ve even had a dream which I think was him trying to let me know he was from Scotland.  And maybe the poster (who said she felt impressed to ask me to visualize baby rabbits leaping in a field during meditation) being from Scotland was another way of him confirming that yes – he was from Scotland.
Anyway---I  think Patrick is VERY PATIENT with me, seeing as I'm always missing his signs.  This is the second time I've come across communication from him via that forum and it took me at least a year to see it.  Lol!  And then there's my second-guessing the signs I do receive.  No matter how adamant I am on not believing the sign, confirmation always hits me square in the eyes.
May 1, 2007

‘Knight Angel for the Truth’
Spirit Drawing:

Last night, when reading through the kids’ last journal that I made years ago, I stumbled on a post I replied to on that paranormal site I frequent. The post was made on May 3, 2005.  Someone posted a painting they did, then asked what everyone saw in the knight’s shield.  It’s funny that my answer mirrors what Nat later told me about Patrick’s feather hat that she and I were always joking about. Lol!
I see a man on a horse. He's wearing a feather cap and fancy clothing. To his right, sort of in front of him, is an old man wearing some type of a robe. Like a robe a clergyman would wear back then. There’s something in his hand, and I think it’s a large staff. All I know is that he takes it with him everywhere he goes.
And I guess it’s kind of strange that I stumbled into this.  I was looking at my scrapbooking stuff to make Mom’s Mother’s Day card when I decided to look through the kids’ last journal that I made years ago.  (It was the only journal with my scrapbook stuff in my armoire, and I had copied and pasted that post into the journal back then).

Also, over the past couple days I said that I wish I had a spirit drawing of him, so I can show my family what he looks like.  I guess this proves how LITERAL spirits are.  I guess he's making due with the feather hat pic from back then?  Lol!  I think it's funny.  What I would love to have is a beautiful spirit drawing of Patrick himself, but I can see the humor in the timing of me stumbling into that old picture.  I give him kudos for coming through in any way he can.  Lol!  He is persistent.

Also.....close to a year ago I guess, I had a quick flash of him in my mind come out of nowhere.  I had just put down my book to go to bed when - suddenly - there's Patrick's face close to mine.  It was very close-up and very vivid. His blonde hair was unkempt and hanging a bit around his face, and his eyes and expression were VERY intense.  I brushed it off at the time, but over this past week especially, it's been on my mind a lot.  It's just so vivid and feels so... well, REAL.  I can see him so clearly.  It's just seeing his face, his eyes looking into mine. And I can't begin to describe the intensity in his features.  I really do believe Mom was right in her automatic writing, when Patrick said I sometimes feared him.  I think he was a quiet, yet very intense guy.  I think there were many sides to him.  I think all of his intensity - which was sooo thick - felt like too much for me to handle and be the recipient of at times.  I don't doubt that he is/was a loving spirit, but I do think being with him wasn't exactly a cakewalk; not just b/c of what life throws at us, but because he was such a passionate man.

But I would give anything to have a nice drawing of that vision mentioned above.  I don't have those flashes often, but this one has to be the most 'colorful' of the little bunch.  It's just so clear and unmuddied.  It's like looking at a photograph of him.  It's almost "cartoonish" looking - if that makes sense.  What I mean is it's very vivid.