Hi group!
Its been a while, but I've finally managed to jump back into the fray and try my
hand at another fic! I've never posted to the group (A Sense of Loss was posted
directly to FFN) and I would LOVE to get your feedback.
Many thanks to JT and AJ for their support, their suggestions and most
importantly, their beta-skills! And JT...thanks for kicking me in the butt to
get it posted. As promised, here it is (albeit late!)
Ok, girls...let me know what you think! Questions, comments, concerns all
welcomed! <gulp>
Aria
The Kiss
A kiss. Mara Jade thought to herself, as she lay face up on the bed, staring at
the ceiling, and wrestling with the decision of whether or not to leave the
comfort and warmth of the sheets that enveloped her.
Not just a kiss, her mind corrected, but a total assault on your senses that
rendered you weak-kneed, robbed you of your own free will and blurred the lines
of reality…
Mara sighed softly and brought a hand to her face to sweep a strand of hair from
her eyes. What no other man had ever dared, she mused, Luke Skywalker had
accomplished in the span of one evening.
One evening… Ten years and one evening…
Her insides spun tightly as flashes of memory from the previous night
intertwined with one another, steadfastly refusing to be arranged in any
coherent order. When had she lost control of the situation and allowed herself
to be swept away by Luke Skywalker? She pondered, once again turning unfocused
eyes to trace the shadows on the ceiling above her. By anyone, for that matter?
Three days ago, her subconscious answered, when you decided against leaving
Coruscant, even though word had already reached you of his impending arrival and
even though your business matters had already been concluded.
She squeezed her eyes shut at the memory. It had been months since she and
Skywalker had been on the same planet together. Months since she had once again
refused his latest offer to train her as a Jedi Knight and months since she had
stormed out of his suite, leaving him reciting his beloved Jedi Code in an
effort to calm himself.
"Why should I go tearing off planet just because Skywalker is making an
appearance?" She had reasoned to herself. And, so, amidst departure
preparations, she had inexplicably talked herself into remaining in-system for
another day.
Or was it when he stepped down from his X-Wing, strands of wispy, blond hair
pointing in every direction as he removed his helmet? Or when his face erupted
in than now famous, Skywalker smile, as he noticed you standing alongside the
landing platform, causing your heart to skip a beat?
Mara shifted slightly, suddenly uncomfortable under the scrutiny of her own
memory.
Or was it when you accepted his invitation to join him in his suite for a bite
to eat and a light workout? The mocking voice within the confines of her head
continued, unabashed.
Or could it have been during dinner, when he brought a taste of his dessert to
your lips, and then followed the offering with a kiss.
Mara's back stiffened against the mattress as another burst of images swirled in
her mind. His sudden, uncharacteristic brazenness…the look of sheer amazement
in his light azure eyes when they finally pulled apart…and that kiss!
That kiss…
A moment of perfect clarity, symmetry and harmony in the Force had created a
single instant during which spellbound eyes closed, personal space disappeared
and lips met, longingly. A kiss that had set in motion a series of events that
neither had anticipated nor ever thought possible.
One by one, he pushed her unspoken protests aside, overwhelming her with his
touch, his caress and with his whispered words of devotion. Whatever feeble
objections her mind attempted to formulate, the onslaught of his kisses managed
to dissolve into thin air, and before she could pull free and assert her
objection, her own lips had responded, begging for more and betraying her to the
man she had once intended to kill.
Mara inhaled deeply and released the breath slowly, reveling in the memory of
his touch and of the feel of his mouth on her lips, her neck, her shoulders…
And when impassioned kisses were no longer enough, she recalled, Luke Skywalker
had pressed the length of his inflamed body against her own, wordlessly
transmitting his arousal, causing her to melt into his embrace, and allowing him
to lift her off her feet and carry her into his bedroom.
Once in the confines of his bed, Mara's body seemed to move independent of her
conscious mind, unquestioningly acquiescing to the demands of Luke's own body,
which took her spiraling to the heights of pleasure. Undoubtedly, the intensity
of his passion had taken her by surprise, but it was the depth of his emotions
that had truly touched her. The sudden realization that he had kept the secret
of his affection locked away hit her like a thunderbolt, momentarily paralyzing
her. Stunned, she reached up and cradled his face in her hands to see a look of
torment in his blue eyes that sent a bolt of pain cursing through to her heart.
He rested his forehead against her own and she could feel him tense against her,
awaiting her rebuff and silently cursing his decision to expose his feelings
once again.
Instead, Mara found herself reveling in the warmth radiating from him and in the
feeling of love and desire he had kept hidden from her for so long. These were
feelings that she had never experienced and that she had long ago, convinced
herself she would never have any use for. Just one of the many useless
entrapments she had been taught she must discard for the sake of her Emperor.
Tears slipped silently from behind closed eyes as emotions threatened to
overcome her, causing her body to trembled slightly beneath him.
Astounded by the reaction of the woman in his arms, Luke brushed her mind
softly, soothingly, and kissed her tears away. Then, for the duration of the
evening, he endeavored to demonstrate to her the full measure of his love with
any means at his disposal.
Mara Jade turned slowly to glimpse at the face of the man lying next to her. In
the comfort of sleep, his face appeared childlike and serene. She watched as his
bare chest rose and fell steadily and marveled at how unthreatening he appeared.
Luke's strength in the Force resonated throughout his body, yet pulsated beneath
deceptively fair looks and bright blue eyes that still managed to regard the
galaxy with a sense of wonderment and awe. The universe at large admired and
respected the Jedi Knight, but it was the latter qualities that endeared him to
the people closest to him. Even herself.
Mara Jade had spent a lifetime avoiding any semblance of intimacy with any
sentient being. The Emperor had demanded it, and her profession had made it a
necessity. And so, she had lived her life convinced of the fact that she needed
no one, keeping everyone at arms length and dismissing the romantic tales
depicted in holo-novellas as meaningless fluff meant to fill the minds of women
that had nothing better to do with their time. The notion that a single man
could reduce her to a trembling, quivering mess was as abhorrent as it was
alien.
Now, years after the Emperor's death, she had innately continued to strengthen
the self-imposed armour that had once kept her alive. Only now that she was
free, it simply served to alienate her from a galaxy that had gone on with their
lives, no longer drawing the line so clearly between traitorous Rebel and
dutiful Imperial citizen. What had once made her strong and resilient, now only
reaffirmed her position as an outsider and an outcast. The Empire had crumbled
at the hands of Luke Skywalker and it was at his hands, that she had come to
realize that solitude did not necessarily translate into strength. Luke
Skywalker was a loner, but he was not alone. He was surrounded with a circle of
family and friends that loved and cared for him and he was stronger for it, not
weaker. Now she was struck with the realization that she had been gravitating
closer to that circle for years…offering support, taking part in the
camaraderie, and edging closer to its center…to Luke Skywalker himself.
She let her gaze follow the length of his body and once again allowed her memory
to drift to the events of the previous night. In one evening, Luke Skywalker had
ignited a spark that had awakened feelings she never knew she had. His fingers
had trailed a blaze down to her very core and his lips had followed suit,
sending currents of pleasure throughout her being. They had moved as one,
touching, exploring and allowing their force senses to resound as a single,
living entity. And when the painful burning of his entry caused her to gasp
aloud, he slowed his own inflamed body and refocused his attention to other
parts of hers until the waves of desire within her matched his own. Ultimately,
she pleaded shamelessly for him to finish taking her, once and for all. She
clung to him, breathlessly encouraging his slow, fevered thrusts and delighting
in the tortured moans that escaped his lips until her sighs turned into screams
of delirium that echoed throughout his suite.
And so, as the moon traversed the Coruscant sky, Luke Skywalker and Mara Jade
completed the last of the concentric circles that had characterized their ten
year relationship, and had become one.
Yes, Luke Skywalker had taken her breath away, and she knew instinctively that
he had not only made love to her, but had left the imprint of his soul on her
very heart as well.
The recollection of intimacy caused her to fidget uncomfortably once again and
she raised her head to glimpse out of the window a few feet from his bed. The
faint light of dawn had begun its ascent and with it, the re-emergence of her
defense mechanisms began screaming for her body to move away. Ignoring the
demands of her subconscious, she slid closer to him, seeking the warmth of his
body and losing herself once again in the smell of his skin. Measuring her
movements carefully, she extended her fingertips to brush his hair out of his
eyes and watched as he inhaled deeply. Her conscious mind continued to sound the
alarm, yet her body refused to obey.
Then suddenly, Luke Skywalker stirred. He reached out sleepily, and moved to
pull her into his arms. Mara almost jumped out of her skin and reached for the
edge of the bed to propel herself up, but she was too late. Murmuring something
unintelligible, Luke wrapped his arms around her and pressed her to him. Mara
lay perfectly still, silently praying that he wouldn't fully awaken and found
herself settling her head beneath his chin, laying her face against his chest
and almost immediately, falling back asleep.
to be continued....
Alright group!
JT has given me the go ahead and so, here's part two! As always, I'd love
your thoughts, comments and concerns!
Many thanks to JT, for her beta-skills and nudges of inspiration! AJ, hurry
up and stop swilling the 'caine so that you can give me your invaluable two
cents worth, girl!
The Kiss
by Aria
Chapter Two
Mara Jade's unconscious basked in the warmth of the arms embracing her and
relished in the feeling of love and security that it never knew it craved. Her
slender arm, which encircled Luke's chest tightened, and her leg reached across
and draped itself over his thigh, her knee tucking between his legs. She then
nuzzled her face beneath his chin and sighed contentedly.
Luke Skywalker tightened his own grip in response and softly caressed her
unknowing mind, whispering his heart-felt desire to have the moment extended,
but all the while bracing himself for her inevitable emergence into
consciousness, and the fallout it would unleash.
A few moments longer, his mind pleaded, as he placed a kiss on the top of her
head, just a few moments longer.
He and Mara had forged a tenuous relationship that had gradually become more
comfortable, if not always peaceful. For years, they had unconsciously
gravitated towards one another, only begrudgingly admitting their friendship and
oftentimes, not even admitting as much. Their time spent together was usually
born out of necessity, and not out of personal choice, and the realization of
that fact had recently come to grate on Luke more and more. On occasion, he had
even caught himself measuring the passage of time by how long it had been since
he had last seen or heard from her.
Luke couldn't deny the gratification he derived from being her company, even
when their collaborations resulted in an argument, as they usually did. There
were times when he inadvertently drove Mara to fits of anger, and he found
himself unconsciously enjoying her discomfiture, if not always certain he would
survive the experience. Other than the members of his family and a few close
friends, Mara Jade was the only other person in the galaxy who treated him with
a healthy dose of irreverence that sometimes bordered on outright disdain.
Oftentimes, her treatment of the Jedi Master in the presence of his students had
raised many an eyebrow and did little to endear her to members of the Academy,
not that Mara cared in the least what his students thought of her.
What few realized is that the Jedi Master had come to appreciate Mara's
diatribes at his expense, having grown increasingly more uncomfortable with the
reverence and worship most of his students lavished on him. Simply put, Mara
Jade made him feel again, and he had just begun to understand that those
feelings were leaning in a direction other than friendship.
The point was brought home further when he realized that his insistence on her
completing her training no longer stemmed from his sense of duty, but rather
from his desire to have her by his side.
Not any way for a Jedi Master to behave, he admonished himself.
Neither was last night, came the unsolicited answer.
He knew he had crossed the line. He would pay dearly for his transgression, of
that, he was certain. Mara's friendship had been hard-won and in a matter of
minutes, he had thrown caution to the wind and jeopardized one of the most
important relationships in his life.
Reckless! His old master's raspy voice rang in his ears.
He absent-mindedly wrapped a tendril of red-gold hair around his finger and
brought the lock to his lips, kissing it softly. He then ran his fingers through
his own hair and glanced down at the woman in his arms. That she had responded
to his advances had been a shock to his system. That she hadn't run him through
with his own lightsaber, had been nothing shy of a miracle, but he had a
sneaking suspicion that his luck was about to run out.
What came over you, Skywalker? He asked himself as he closed his eyes,
attempting to catalog the events in chronological order.
She had been at his assigned landing platform when he arrived on Coruscant,
filling him with a sense of joy that he had found difficult to conceal. He
battled with his heart momentarily and finally succeeded in slowing its pounding
to a measured beat. Slowly, he forced his body to conceal its reaction to her
presence and forced some semblance of casualness to his voice before suggesting
they meet in his suite for dinner and a workout.
The evening was spent filling each other in on the tidbits of their time spent
apart. Knowing that Mara averted any conversation in which training Jedi was a
large part, he was content to sit across from her and listen to the details of
her various business ventures. In all actuality, he had done little listening.
Instead, he found himself mesmerized by the movement of her mouth as she
formulated the words of her discourse. He sat hypnotized by the way her lips
alternately came together, pursed and formed a smile as she spoke.
He awakened from his state just long enough to serve the dessert but then, had
impetuously reached across the table with a fork full of sweetened fruit and
brought it to Mara's mouth. He watched, entranced, as she caught a piece between
her lips and savoured it, rolling it in her mouth slowly. And in an instant, he
had lifted her chin and kissed her, sweeping the tip of his tongue over her lips
provocatively. Before either of them knew it, they were on their feet, locked in
an embrace, deepening the kiss and allowing the rest of the galaxy to fall away
in a tailspin.
A legion of Imperial stormtroopers could not have pulled them apart at that
moment, as Luke held her to him and withered away her defenses with a barrage of
kisses. His tongue luxuriously caressed hers, slowly exploring the contours of
her mouth then tracing the curve of her ear down to the lobe before taking it in
his mouth and sucking on it gently. Each one of her sighs encouraged him further
and further until their kisses were no longer enough. Seeking the warmth of her
body, he crushed her to him, pressing his erection against her, groaning deep in
his throat as her hips responded in kind. Then, he was lifting her off her feet
and carrying her to his bed, never once detaching his lips from hers.
He had opened his heart up to her last night, allowing her to sense his emotions
and she had absorbed the knowledge unquestioningly. In return, Mara Jade had
entrusted him with her body and the realization that he was her first, had sent
his heart soaring and further deepened his feelings of protectiveness.
Luke sighed and brought Mara closer to him as the recollection of the events
brought his body to a fevered pitch once again. He shifted, and Mara pressed
against him once more. The inadvertent moan she elicited from him in response
caused her eyelashes to flutter open. Instantly aware of her surroundings, Mara
lifted her face and gazed into a pair of expectant blue eyes whose owner held
his breath, and then offered a faint smile.
"Sithspawn, Skywalker!" she spat out, as she brought her hands to her
face and bolted to sit upright and turn away from him. Alarm bells went off in
her mind once again, making her head swim. Instantly, barriers went up and walls
were reconstructed to shut out his presence.
"Redundant," he whispered softly. He sat up and placed his hand gently
on her shoulder, trying in vain to keep the situation from deteriorating any
further.
"Mara, please look at me," he asked softly, "let's talk about
this."
"There's nothing to talk about, Skywalker," she countered, keeping her
back to him and gathering the sheets more tightly around her. She hadn't run
screaming from his bed, and in that realization, Luke Skywalker found some
solace.
She moved to stand but was held in place by the weight of his body on the
opposing corner of the bed sheet. She turned, speared him with a glassy-green
glare and tugged, hard, in frustration. The offending sheet gave way, and she
rose, walking to the floor length window that looked out over the Coruscant
skyline. She placed her forehead against the pane and welcomed its coolness
against her skin. Her mind whirled and the flashes of memory from the previous
night assaulted her, demanding entrance and acknowledgement of their existence.
Resigned, Luke watched her silently from the corner of his bed. He could sense
her turmoil, and the urge to join in on the onslaught of her own mind pressed
ardently against his own. His heart constricted painfully in his chest and his
insides churned, but he resolved to keep his mind clear. He dropped his head
onto his chest and sighed heavily.
Calm. Tranquil. Serene.
He felt as if his last chance at love and happiness hung in the balance. It
stood against his bedroom window - hair set ablaze by the morning light, her
body draped in the linen coloured sheets, leaving her shoulders enticingly bare.
The same shoulders whose freckles he had linked with his fingertips, tracing a
path which he had immediately followed with his lips. The same sheets that had
enveloped them both as they had kissed, stroked and caressed each other to
ecstasy.
What have you done, Skywalker? His mind asked. In one evening you've managed to
destroy a friendship ten years in the making!
He brought his hand to the nape of his neck and craned his head from side to
side, trying to soothe the muscles sore from Mara's grip. The events of the
previous evening would not have taken place without her consent, he realized.
She had been willing, and while she had not opened her heart to him, her body
had responded to his lovemaking repeatedly.
His mind drifted back to the moment his body entered hers…her breathless gasp,
the tightening of her grip around his neck and his sudden realization that this
was her first time.
Her first time, his mind repeated.
It would have been obvious to anyone who knew Mara Jade, but Luke Skywalker had
never given the matter much thought. Save the Emperor, Mara had never allowed
anyone close enough to establish a friendship, much else develop a romantic
relationship. Her life had not been designed to accommodate a romance. No man
had ever held her in his arms, whispered sweet nothings nor pledged his devotion
to her during sleepless nights. His heart leaped in his chest, the implications
of that pouring into his mind.
Neither had he, he realized. Instead, he had acted on impulse alone and had
physically overcome her barriers. He had won over her body. Now, he had to
capture her heart.
His mind snapped back to the moment at hand, and his eyes narrowed against the
streaming light that now shone in an elongated stream, across his bed. He
brought his hand to his face and with thumb and index finger, squeezed the
bridge of his nose.
Resolved, and focused anew, he looked up and saw Mara, still standing, her
forehead and hand resting against the window. He pulled his pants off the floor,
slipped them on and willed his feet to move towards her.
"Mara," he said softly, bringing her out of her own reverie, "I'm
sorry."
She turned to face him, initially astonished by his apology, then allowing her
anger to seep into her consciousness.
Immediately, Luke was aware of his mistake. "What I mean to say is...I'm
sorry that you're sorry. Not that it happened," he stammered.
But Mara had already turned away and had begun collecting articles of clothing
from the floor, quickly dressing herself.
"Mara," he entreated once again, "Please don't shut me out like
this."
"Look, Skywalker," she started, struggling to keep her voice low and
even, "It was just one night. It doesn't change anything between us."
Her attempt at dismissing what had transpired between them sounded hollow in her
own ears, but she pressed on. "Let's just forget about it."
Luke Skywalker crossed his arms over his chest and set his chin in determination
before regarding the red-headed beauty before him. While collecting her
belongings, she had worked herself into quite a state and she now huffed angrily
while fastening her belt to her hip. She then spun and surveyed the room around
her, taking inventory of her possessions. This would not be the time to convince
her of his sincerity, he realized. But he desperately needed to buy time…
He crossed the distance between them and gently placed his hands on her
shoulders, turning her to look at him. She tensed in his grip but did not pull
free.
"Mara, promise me something," he said, as he took a step back away
from her, "promise me that you won't go tearing off planet without telling
me."
"Skywalker, the mere fact that you're able bodied enough to stand here in
front of me is proof enough of my good will," she spouted between clenched
teeth, "don't push your luck!"
"Please, Mara…" Luke whispered.
"Fine!" she spat back, hands resting on slender hips. Her mind
continued screaming for her to get out, but her body remained frozen in place.
"I believe in what happened between us, Mara," he offered, taking her
hands in his own and turning serious, "but I know you don't."
"And why should I?" she shouted, wrestling her hands free and turning
to leave.
"Exactly!" he agreed, startling her, "You were right when you
said that one night didn't change anything, but maybe a few nights will."
His last words stopped her in here tracks. "Why you egotistical, misguided,
self-appointed relic of a Jedi…" she began, turning to face him, not even
attempting to hide the look of anger and disbelief on her face.
"A date, Mara!" He spat out, holding up his hands to keep her from
advancing and possibly grabbing him by the throat. "Dinner, a holo-show,
you name it! All of it, some of it…your choice."
Floored, Mara cocked her head to the side and regarded him sternly. "Let me
get this straight, farmboy," she questioned, eyes ablaze, "You want us
to go on a date?"
"Yes," he whispered softly, "a date and a chance to get to know
each other away from…from all of this." He gestured wildly around them
with both hands.
I must be losing my mind, Mara thought to herself, if I'm even considering
another one of Skywalker's crazy propositions. Sighing, she glanced at his face
and was suddenly taken aback by the expression she found there. Dejected, but
still holding out hope that she would change her mind, Luke stood before her
chewing on his lower lip like a little boy.
"No attempts to drag me to that God-forsaken planet where you train your
devotees?" she asked, fighting the urge to reach out and caress his face.
Luke shook his head somberly.
She crossed her arms over her chest and tilted her head in mock exasperation.
"Alright, Skywalker. Though I don't know what you hope to accomplish with
one date!"
And then, she was gone, leaving Luke standing amidst the disarray of his
bedroom, pondering his next move.
"Another date," he countered, smiling meekly.
To be continued…..
Chapter Three
Mara Jade ran along the polished stone floor of the building and threw herself
through the door of the awaiting lift. Once inside, she circled the perimeter
like a caged feline, muttering curses at Luke Skywalker, at the Force that
linked them, and at the universe at large. Mostly however, she cursed at herself
for agreeing to see him again.
"A scant few years ago I wanted to kill that man!" she spat out, as
she continued frantically circling the tightly enclosed space around her.
That man… the voice inside her head repeated. The same man who kissed you
senseless last night. The one whom you let seduce you…undress you…make love
to you. The one you clung to and whose name you bellowed shamelessly.
Mara stopped circling and buried her face in her hands, furiously trying to make
sense out of the situation she found herself in. Instinctively, she touched the
tips of her fingers to her swollen lips and traced them. Looking down at her
body, she became aware of how sore her legs and inner thighs were. She closed
her eyes and exhaled a slow breath. She could still feel his hands on her skin,
his weight atop her body and the taste of him on her lips. Her inner muscles
tightened at the memory and she winced slightly from the pain.
Sithspit! She had hated him at one time! She had made it her life's goal to put
an end to his! And yet, through a series of events that she didn't fully
understand, they had forged an uneasy coexistence that had solidified into a
friendship. A friendship that had been easier for her to deal with since she had
killed his clone and fulfilled the Emperor's last command. They had worked
together periodically since then, side by side, and she had learned to
understand the man, if not his role as a Jedi, and the self-destructive paths it
often forced him to travel. Still, months would often pass her by without any
word or mention of Luke Skywalker.
Then there were those times in which she felt an almost unbearable compulsion to
make contact with the Jedi Master. Out of the blue, her mind would drift to
thoughts of him. Thoughts that would permeate her very existence, and she could
scarcely formulate a coherent thought until she had spoken to him and satisfied
the unfathomable need to hear his voice and briefly catch a glimpse of his face.
Even though parsecs separated them, the timbre and resonance of his gentle voice
served to calm her…reassuring her even when she wasn't aware of her need to be
reassured. Within the confines of the lift, Mara Jade could not think of another
single human having had that kind of effect on her…ever!
She was jerked from her memory by the sudden stop of the lift at top level and
she stepped out, her body weaving in and out of the foot traffic. Her green eyes
were an empty stare that could barely fix on a single face, or on any detail of
her surroundings. By the time she had reached her own suite, she had run through
a thousand excuses she could employ to get out of their date. And yet, she knew
it would be no use. Luke Skywalker had set his mind on something and unless she
was prepared to blast out of Coruscant and break her promise to him, she would
just simply have to go along with it…for now.
"It's just one date," she whispered to herself tiredly, and prepared
to set about her day.
***
By early afternoon, Mara Jade has checked her comm unit at least two dozen
times. She hadn't heard from him, and that in of itself was enough to set her
mind into a fury of activity. Under normal circumstances it wouldn't be like
Luke not to contact her. Not unless…
"He's changed his mind," she whispered, a knot forming in her stomach
as she ran the last set of diagnostics tests on the Fire's navigational system.
"He's had time to think about what's happened and he's changed his
mind!"
Her hand hovered over the communication console for a moment, her mind racing.
An increasingly large part of her wanted nothing more than to call for a
departure clearance and blast herself off planet, effectively putting light
years between them. Giving in to her rapidly mounting anger, she moved forward
in her seat, then caught herself as her comm unit went off, echoing through the
cabin.
"Blast him!" she shouted, throwing herself back against her seat in
frustration. Skywalker's timing was as impeccable as ever. Her heart, however,
began thudding louder in her chest and her pulse thundered in her ears.
"Jade, here."
"Mara?" His voice filled the cabin and she had to fight to regain her
composure.
"Yes, Skywalker. Who else would it be?" she answered hotly.
Ignoring her outburst, Luke pressed on. "Have you given any thought on what
you'd like to do tonight?"
"Been busy, farmboy. It hasn't crossed my mind at all." She responded
tersely.
"Then we can figure it out as we go along, I guess. I should be finished
here in a couple of hours. Meet you at your place?"
"Fine," she spat out, more strongly than she had intended and quickly,
cut off their connection.
Silence once again hung around her. Mara Jade sat alone in the cool darkness of
her ship's cockpit and drew her knees close to her body. She was nervous,
apprehensive and suddenly…happy. She wrapped her arms around her knees and
pulled them closer to her, rocking slightly. The feeling was alien, but not
unappealing. And for a moment, she allowed herself the luxury of enjoying what
she was experiencing. But only for a moment…
In the next instant, images of her time spent in the service of her beloved
Emperor began their assault and her mind slipped easily into default. Palpatine
had possessed her. Not just her body, but her mind and spirit as well. Her
innermost thoughts were an open holo-book and the safety of her own mind could
be breached whenever he wished. Now the thought of another man in her life…another
force sensitive man… turned her blood to ice. Luke Skywalker was Darth Vader's
son!
She has seen glimpses of Vader on occasion. Whereas she had known what to expect
from the Emperor, Vader had always seemed an enigma to her. His mere presence
exuded barely contained raw power. Power she could feel, but had never seen.
Power she knew had been passed on to his son. Suddenly, she was struggling
against the mere thought of allowing Luke Skywalker within arm's distance ever
again.
"Only one date," she whispered once again, releasing her legs and
straightening them out in front of her "Any delusions he's managed to
formulate should disappear after tonight! Even Skywalker is not that
dense!"
And with a new sense of conviction, she made her way out of the cockpit and
headed towards her suite.
***
Luke ran his hand across the series of clothes hanging in his closet for the
third time and stepped back, trying to come to a decision. It had never occurred
to him to have to dress to impress anyone and so, his attire reflected his
trade. All black and worn almost threadbare. He had always considered black to
be dignified, classic and most of all…easy to coordinate. Mara, on the other
hand, had almost made a career out of chiding him about his wardrobe and its
lack of variety and he desperately wanted to start this night off on the right
foot. He ran his hand along his damp hair and readjusted the towel at waist.
For the first time in my life, I want to make an impression on a woman, he
thought. I'm in my late thirties for star's sake, and I've no idea what I'm
doing!
He checked his chrono and reached for a shirt and slacks. If he hurried, he
could manage the purchase of a new tunic, a set of pants and still make it to
Mara's on time.
Provided nothing out of the ordinary diverted his attention.
Who am I kidding? He asked himself, out of the ordinary describes my entire
existence for the past twelve years!
And now he was attempting to court Mara Jade! Sprinting towards the door, he
decided to add insane to the list of adjectives describing his life.
Chapter Four
She could feel his presence approaching her suite long before he arrived.
Strong, vibrant and just a bit nervous…but overwhelmingly hopeful, just like
the man himself. Unmistakably Skywalker! Vader might have been a strong presence
in the Force but his son was nothing short of a beacon! He broadcasted his
emotions openly for all to see most of the time, even when his face belied any
expression, which was seldom.
Mara glanced at herself in the mirror and smoothed out the skirt of her dress.
All the while she was getting ready, she had in mind exactly what she would
wear. The simple, yet classic tunic and pants would suit the occasion perfectly.
It was only at the last minute that her fingers had stopped at the teal-colored
dress hanging towards the back of her wardrobe.
The dress was elegant, formfitting, and revealed a bit of cleavage. And the
color set off her hair, or so she'd been told once. She held the dress up to her
and twisted her torso to examine herself from each angle. She found that it
flattered her figure and bordered on the provocative. Oh, hell! Why shouldn't
she cause the Jedi Master some discomfort tonight? He had certainly been the
source of many uncomfortable moments in her life!
Mara took a look in the mirror one last time and readjusted the neckline of her
dress, all the while wondering why she even bothered checking her appearance.
She would bet her ill-gotten fortune that Skywalker would be sporting his
signature black ensemble tonight. The man was as predictable as a hot day on
Tatooine!
Until the moment he kissed you! Her mind whispered. You didn't see that one
coming, Sister!
She shook her head slightly and forced the memory from her mind. A simple lapse
of judgment brought about by curiosity, she told herself. That was it! Curiosity
as to what lay beneath the black clothes and calm demeanor.
And behind the crystalline azure eyes and a heart-melting grin, her mind added.
But you didn't expect to find what you did, did you? Passion and a depth of
emotion not ever alluded to nor often displayed. Not since Callista, that is!
The memory of that reunion just after the Eye of Palpatine exploded into
oblivion came back to her in spurts. They had clung to each other, sobbing in
between kisses and breathless reassurances. Mara had turned away, unable to bear
the exchange of emotion between them, even as Leia and Han looked on,
mesmerized. Why had she felt the need to distance herself from that scene? Why
had she been unable to withstand the sight of the woman who was then the source
of his newfound happiness? He was her friend, was he not? And if anyone deserved
to be happy, it was Luke. He had sacrificed so much, so often.
Before she could formulate an answer, she felt his presence reverberate
stronger, closely followed by the sound of her door chime. She sighed and stole
one last glimpse at her reflection before heading towards the door.
The first thing that caught her attention was the flash of color. There he
stood, his back to her, wearing a shirt of ocean blue with black piping that
matched his black pants and boots. But the full impact did not hit her until he
turned around and smiled. Blue eyes twinkled in perfect coordination with the
color of his high-collared shirt. His hair had been trimmed too, and though
shorter in back, his bangs still dipped below his eyebrows a bit, adding to the
boyish quality of his appearance.
She smiled involuntarily at the man before her. Transparent as ever, Luke
Skywalker had obviously put some effort into his appearance for their date. Her
heart warmed at the realization before she quickly reminded herself of tonight's
mission to discourage his delusions. She gathered her composure and toned down
her smile, offering a wan expression in its place.
"May I come in?" he asked, catching the edge of her change in
demeanor.
"Sure, Skywalker. I'll be ready in a moment." She tried to keep her
voice flat and void of any enthusiasm, but her pulse began to beat a little
quicker. She took in a deep breath as he walked by her, and then she quickly
disappeared into her bedroom, leaving Luke alone to glance nervously around her
suite.
Mara studied her expression in the mirror once more. Get a hold of yourself,
Mara Jade! She whispered to her reflection. It's just Luke! You remember him,
don't you? Unsophisticated, Jedi Code-reciting, accident prone Luke! As loyal as
a Wookiee, and as annoying as a Jawa!
She had to find a way to affect disinterest, if not disdain, for at least a
couple of hours! But how? Seeing him again caused her mind to flood with
memories that she found almost impossible to control.
The taste of his kiss, the feel of his tongue seductively caressing hers, the
warmth and strength of his arms as he carried her to his bed and held her firmly
against him. Even the pain of his initial entry had been dulled by the sheer
ecstasy of the feel of him inside her, hard and thrusting towards climax. His
eyes had silently pleaded for her to succumb to him and she had, allowing her
body to explode with waves of pleasure, over and over again.
She looked down at her hands and noticed that they trembled almost
imperceptibly. I can't look into his eyes, she resolved. That was the key! Those
blue eyes that acted as a portal to all of his feelings, while at the same time
appearing to see right through to the depths of her soul. It was disconcerting,
to say the least. Especially now that they had…
"Mara?"
"Blast that man!" she whispered to herself, then ran her fingers
through her hair and stormed out of the bedroom.
"I'm ready, Skywalker. Let's get going."
As she breezed by him, he caught his first real glimpse of the clingy dress and
the sleek curves it helped emphasize. He took a deep breath, and found it
permeated with her perfume. Instantly, the scent invoked scenes of the night
before to begin playing in his head. The way her body had molded to his, the
soft swell of her breasts pressing against his chest and the sound of her
breathless voice whispering in his ear. He knew then that he would have to call
upon his Jedi Code more than a few times if he was to make it through the
evening without attempting to steal at least one kiss.
***
Luke had chosen a rather upscale restaurant that was out of the way but not so
hidden as to be characterized as discreet. He didn't want them to attract
attention but didn't want to seem as if they were going to extremes to avoid
being seen together either. Mara seemed to approve of his choice, or at the very
least, didn't offer up any disparaging remarks. Luke interpreted that as a good
sign and mentally recorded a point in his favor.
As he suspected, he and Mara received the customary glances from the other
patrons as they were escorted to their table. A few of them whispered together,
but no one stared outright and they were left to eat their dinner in relative
peace and tranquility.
Luke managed to keep the conversation on superficial matters of mutual interest
throughout their meal. Her business ventures, his continuing role as mediator
between this Core World and that one, all the while noting Mara's reluctance to
look him in the eye.
They also talked about the latest modifications Mara had made to the Fire's
navigational systems and weaponry, and ultimately, about his sister's tactful
yet persistent insistence that he expand his role in the political arena. Soon,
Mara appeared well at ease even though she still seemed unable to meet his gaze.
"I think it's a good idea, Skywalker," Mara surmised, between sips of
her wine. "It would get you away from that Gods-forsaken jungle planet once
in a while. Not that my opinion means anything."
"I'm not a politician, Mara. You know that," he responded. "And
actually, it does, you know," he added, moving forward. "Quite a
bit."
She did her best to keep her expression blank, "Does what?"
"Matter. Your opinion, that is." He smiled, looking up from behind his
bangs and Mara caught a glimpse of those brilliant blue eyes. Quickly, she
diverted her attention back down to her plate.
"Hmmm."
That makes two! Luke thought to himself, smiling inwardly. And the evening was
still young! If he could just keep the mood light, friendly and non-threatening,
he might just be able to gain some ground with this woman who had suddenly
become the center of his universe.
It takes a trillion grains of sand to make a desert, his Aunt Beru used to tell
him. He didn't know exactly why his Aunt's motherly advice came to mind at this
moment in time, but he knew the phrase fit. Mara would not be won over easily.
***
By the time they had completed their dinner and left the restaurant, Mara had
all but forgotten her initial discomfort. They had conversed easily, just as
they had in the past, and Luke had thus far, not made any romantic overtures to
raise her hackles. She had no way of knowing just how much difficulty the Jedi
Master was having maintaining his distance.
Once outside, he casually suggested they walk back instead of taking motorized
transportation. And so they did, leisurely stopping here and there to glance
inside storefronts and listen to the different types of music emanating from the
various restaurants and cafes along the way.
Mara was amazed at how comfortable she felt in Luke's company and had begun to
wonder whether it might not be possible to maintain an amicable relationship
with the Jedi Master, given the events of the previous night. They might not be
able to undo what had taken place, but that didn't necessarily mean they
couldn't continue to be friends. Surprisingly, she found that the thought
unsettled her.
She stole a sideways glance in his direction as he examined a number of crystals
displayed in a store window, hands clasped behind his back. Maybe he, too,
realized the impossibility of a deeper relationship and had settled on salvaging
what was left of their friendship instead of forcing any further romantic
involvement.
She was perplexed to find that the thought offered her little comfort. Instead,
it brought about a pang in the pit of her stomach. She winced inwardly. He
hadn't laid a hand on her all evening. They had walked side by side but not
necessarily close to one another, and she found herself hoping to have the
evening extended rather than having it end after a couple of hours, as she had
originally anticipated. As friends, they had always been comfortable with one
another, and Mara knew in her heart that she didn't want to give that up. So why
did she suddenly feel so empty inside?
The streets and storefronts had begun to crowd as Coruscant's nightlife began in
earnest, and they had to maneuver the sidewalk with some difficulty as more and
more life-forms spilled out onto the streets. Luke reached for her hand and
gently pulled her closer to his side as they picked up the pace.
"Come on, Mara. There's something I want to show you."
Amazingly, she didn't resist and her fingers wrapped comfortably around his
hand.
I've seen it, Farmboy! her inner voice quipped, but she kept her silence and let
him guide her along.
In a matter of minutes, Mara instantly recognized the building, if not his
motivation for leading her to his sister's place of residence.
"Skywalker, isn't it a bit late to be making a social call?" she asked
him sarcastically.
He offered her a broad smile, and she felt her knees weaken. Luke entered the
code that allowed him access to the building's inner set of lifts which ran
along the structure's center. Once inside, he again punched in a series of
numbers. This time, she immediately recognized the code that would lead them to
the Penthouse level where the Organa-Solo family had their suite.
Already annoyed and quickly losing her patience, Mara folded her arms across her
chest and squared to face him.
"Look, farmboy, I don't think this…"
"Shhh!" he whispered, placing his hand on her arm. "We won't be
disturbing anyone. They won't even notice we're here!"
She speared him with a look laden with skepticism and let out a sigh. What
manner of scheme was rattling around in that blond head of his? And why did she
always find herself going along for the ride?
The lift doors opened and she stepped out onto the courtyard, surrounded by the
octagonal shape of the walls that composed the first level of his sister's
suite. Mara had been in the Organa-Solo household several times in the past, but
had never stepped foot onto their courtyard. She had always assumed that it was
where the children's play set might be located. Instead, she found that it
contained an elaborate greenhouse, whose transparent structure was partially
clouded and speckled with beads of moisture.
Mara turned and gave Luke a wide-eyed glance.
"Go ahead," he whispered, smiling slightly at her surprise. "Step
inside."
She pushed the sliding glass door to one side and let the chill and dampness of
the air surrounding her caress her face. All around were plants, vines and
topiaries of every species and variety. Some she recognized, others looked
completely alien to her, but the effect was no less extraordinary. She took a
few steps, surrounded by greenery on either side and let her fingertips brush
against the dew-soaked leaves and multi-colored blooms. Every tree and flowering
plant had been manicured to perfection and had been landscaped in intricate
patterns. Plant life had long ago vanished from Coruscant and most structures
did not allow for the space or the equipment to maintain a garden of any sort.
Yet Leia Organa-Solo had obviously gone to a considerable amount of trouble and
expense to keep a lavish, indoor garden.
"It's a moisture farmer's dream come true," she heard Luke whisper
behind her. Mara turned to face him, reawakening from the delight of the sight
around her.
"I don't think your sister would appreciate us trampling through her garden
in the middle of the night, Skywalker," she whispered back.
"Oh, I don't think she'd mind much," he grinned. "Besides, it's
not her garden. It's mine."
Her head snapped up and she stared at him, her mouth hanging slightly open.
Would wonders never cease?
"You did this?" she asked incredulously.
"Well, I must admit that my expertise was limited to choosing and planting
the seeds. I researched the nutrient needs and amount of moisture required for
each plant too. But it's Threepio and the children that do most of the pruning
and landscaping, much to Threepio's chagrin, I'm afraid! Still, it's something
we enjoy doing together whenever I'm around and can find the time."
She nodded silently, amazed at how much she didn't seem to know about this man.
Of course, upon further reflection it made perfect sense. Luke Skywalker had
grown up on a desert world, completely void of any greenery and had spent his
early life coaxing moisture from an unrelenting sky. It would stand to reason
that he would be fascinated by plant life.
"Most of the plants have some medicinal uses; others are only rumored to
have them," he continued as he walked a step behind her, motioning to one
side or another.
He nudged past her and motioned for her to follow. "Here, look at
these!" He pointed over to a small cluster of bulbs grouped in an
out-of-the way corner and encased in a protective cover. A humidifier was
attached and hummed softly as it sprayed a fine mist at various intervals.
"What are they?" she asked, dropping to one knee to get a closer look.
"Cyandria bulbs," he answered as he knelt next to her. "They
reportedly sprout one of the most exotic flowers in the Core Worlds.
Unfortunately, they're exceedingly fickle and only bloom under very specific
conditions. I haven't had much success as of yet."
"What are they used for?"
"Nothing," he answered, his face just inches from her own.
"They're just beautiful, I guess."
Locking eyes with her, he began to lean in, slowly. She felt his breath on her
cheek and her pulse quickened in response. Suddenly conscious of his close
proximity, and appalled at her body's apparent willingness to betray her again,
she rose abruptly.
"Then why bother?"
Luke pushed out a sigh and reluctantly rose to his feet. "Does everything
have to have a measure of value, Mara?" he asked softly.
"It all just seems like a total waste of time and energy, Farmboy. Not to
mention expense!" she retorted, walking away and heading towards the exit,
her fists clenched in anger. What was happening to her? She had almost lost
control back there and allowed him to kiss her.
Stick to the plan, Jade! She whispered to herself through clenched teeth. A kiss…
They couldn't share another kiss! Yet, in the very next instant, she
subconsciously wet her lips and released a sigh.
Dejected, Luke followed her quietly, as they made their way back out onto the
streets of Coruscant, walking silently towards her suite. Though the streets
were no less crowded than they had been an hour before, he didn't once reach for
her hand. It was an omission that she quickly noted then inwardly admonished
herself for doing so. Various glimpses at his face did not give her any clues as
to his mood and so she forced herself to look straight ahead and continue
walking. What did it matter? The evening was almost over, and she had
accomplished what she had set out to do. Or had she?
Did you set out to hurt his feelings? Her mind questioned. He shared with you
something that obviously means a great deal to him and you took the opportunity
to criticize him.
I didn't ask to be introduced to his hobby! She asserted without any real
conviction. But in the wake of her initial anger, her heart began to ache with
guilt and she felt her stomach tighten just a little.
As they neared the entrance to her building, Luke pressed for the door to open
and allowed her to step inside but did not follow suit. His cheeks and the
bridge of his nose were pink from the chill in the air, but otherwise, his
expression was serene.
"Goodnight, Mara," he said, smiling warmly. "Thanks for your
company tonight. I enjoyed it."
For a moment, her breath caught in her throat. She had expected him to escort
her inside before curtly bidding her goodnight and storming off. Instead, his
gentleness in the face of her rather rude behavior suddenly filled her with
shame. Her insides began to spin tightly and she barely had enough time to
swallow the lump in her throat before he turned and began walking away.
By the time Mara had found her voice, Luke had turned the corner and had
disappeared from sight.
***
Luke Skywalker lay in his bed, staring at the ceiling above him and releasing a
calming breath. He let his mind drift back a couple of hours and could once
again feel the fit of her hand in his. It belonged there, he asserted. Of that,
he was already certain. Now he had only to convince Mara of that fact.
He tried to capture the memory of the elusive scent of her perfume as she knelt
by his side, surrounded by plant life, but he found it difficult to focus.
Instead, his brain insisted on replaying the scene as it should have taken
place. In his mind's eye, he had brushed a lock of red-gold hair from her face
and managed to capture her lips in a soft kiss. He smiled and drifted off to
sleep.
to be continued...
Chapter Five (PG)
Mara sat, her bare legs extended and resting on the small table in front of her,
and watched the black velvet sky unfold over Coruscant. She had long ago given
up hope of getting any sleep, having spent the majority of the night tossing and
turning in bed, before making herself a cup of hot chocolate and ruminating on
several accounts on her data pad. Unable to concentrate on that task, she once
again tried to close her eyes and slip into a restful, if not deep, sleep.
Instead, she found her mind sliding determinedly into its continued analysis of
the evening's events, exactly at the point where it had left off an hour or so
before.
Time and time again, she attempted to redirect her thoughts to something other
than the night in question. Time and time again her mind fell back into
replaying bits and pieces of their conversation, before automatically
fast-forwarding to the greenhouse and the memory of Luke Skywalker's face so
close to her own. He had been close enough for her to feel the warmth of his
body and smell the clean scent of his aftershave. Or could it have been cologne?
She didn't know for sure, but the smell had stayed with her. As did the memory
of the hopeful look in his blue eyes as he leaned towards her, before she stood
upright and all but sprinted for the exit.
What was I supposed to do? she asked herself disgustedly. Let him kiss me again?
To what end? She let out a sigh of frustration and set down her cup.
To lose yourself in his kiss and feel the warmth of his arms around you again…
To run your fingers through his hair and allow him to plant soft kisses along
your neck and shoulders. To hear his gentle voice whispering sweet words of love
and devotion and, for a single moment, to believe them to be true.
She kicked the table aside angrily with her feet and stood to look out over the
Coruscant skyline. She had been awash in confusion in the aftermath of their
lovemaking but why now, after she had successfully thwarted his advances, did
she still feel such a sense of bewilderment?
Mara stepped out onto her balcony and let the night air gently whip her red-gold
mane around her face. The breeze felt cool against her skin and helped calm her
temper. Taking a deep breath, she resolved to think the matter through logically
and dispassionately.
She began with the indisputable; Luke Skywalker had offered his friendship when
no one else in the galaxy had dared to. On more than one occasion, he had risked
his life to save her own and had done so against the advice of those who
considered her not worth the risk. His faith in her ability and trust in her
judgment were often the only constants in a life that held little else by way of
stability. True, she had little patience for his Jedi Master rhetoric, but also
knew that it came from a well-intentioned place and from a desire to see her
fulfill her potential as a force-adept. When was the last time anyone had cared
enough about her to be concerned with her potential? With any aspect of her
being, for that matter?
Mara stared out beyond the scattering of bright lights that dotted the black
background of night then sighed and wrapped her arms tightly around her. Then
there was the way he made her feel. Closing her eyes, she slowed her breathing
measurably, focused her attention inward and thought about the moments spent in
his company. Safe. Calm. Protected. Luke Skywalker made her feel… loved.
Begrudgingly, she allowed her thoughts to drift back to the one night spent in
each other's arms and to the memory of his wordless confession. Her mind
immediately recoiled against the revelation, but not before her heart began
thudding audibly in her chest.
"He loves me," she whispered tentatively, trying the words out. She
opened her eyes and once again stared out into the night's sky, a soft smile on
her lips. She didn't allow herself to continue the analysis of their
relationship, opting instead to languish in the knowledge of that one, simple
fact.
"He loves me," she repeated out loud. "Me. Mara Jade."
Suddenly, her smile waned, replaced by a stern look of consternation and her
mood began to darken considerably.
"The Emperor's Hand," she continued through clenched teeth, her eyes
beginning to cloud. "Former Imperial assassin."
Mara Jade turned on her heel, walked back inside her suite and once again cursed
the day she ever set eyes on Luke Skywalker.
***
Leia Organa Solo walked out of the large conference room, quickly distancing
herself from the other participants, her long, white skirt swirling around her.
Her mind was still reeling from the bits and pieces of information she had
gathered in the minutes prior to the Senate meeting. It hadn't taken long for
news of her brother's dinner date with Mara Jade to reach her ears, nor those of
the other members of the Senate.
Picking up her pace, she entered a waiting lift and headed towards her private
chambers, two guards in tow. She could simply throttle Luke for allowing her to
be caught unawares by the gossip! Not only had they been seen dining alone at a
secluded table for two, but it was rumored that they had been spotted walking
hand in hand, through the streets of Coruscant as well.
What is my little brother up to now? she asked herself, shaking her head. And
why am I always the last to find out?
With a slight nod and backwards glance at her escorts, she passed through her
chamber's doors and closed them behind her, grateful for the peace and solitude
the next few minutes would afford her. She had deftly side-stepped the remarks
which had alluded to the possibility of a budding romance between the two by
reminding her audience that Luke and Mara had often worked together on behalf of
the New Republic, and that any collaboration, was probably tied to such matters.
Yet, for some unfathomable reason, she could find little comfort in her own
explanation.
Leia sat at her desk, unable to focus on the stack of data cards before her.
Instead, her attention was drawn to the group of holos of her family, neatly
arranged before her. The one of her smiling brother, blue eyes twinkling, with a
laughing Anakin on his shoulders caught her attention and she stared at it
pensively for a few minutes. They were so much alike, Luke and Anakin. Her
youngest son had seemingly inherited many of the qualities she attributed to her
brother. Both were honest, loyal, idealistic and soft-spoken, but also possessed
of a strong will and a determination that knew no boundaries.
The fact that she and Luke had been robbed of a youth spent growing up together
still angered her at times. For their sakes, and perhaps for the sake of the
greater good, they had been separated at birth and whisked off to live separate
lives. During introspective times such as these, she was reminded of just how
difficult such a childhood must have been for a boy of Luke's spirit and
sensitivity.
Leia had been blessed with a life of privilege and affluence, and raised in the
beautiful and culturally rich Core World of Alderaan. She had been reared at the
feet of a distinguished and respected Senator, whose family pampered her and
lavished her with the finest education and with the ability to explore any
career opportunity at her disposal.
By stark contrast, Luke had been relegated to a life of hardship and struggle in
the barren wastelands of the farthest Rim World in the galaxy. The poor moisture
farming couple that had taken him as their charge were scarcely able to provide
him with bare necessities and, in an effort to protect him from a birthright
they feared, continually discouraged his dreams and aspirations.
True, his aunt had loved and nurtured him, but his uncle had been a stern and
often times merciless disciplinarian. Leia had been appalled at the extent of
Luke's hardships, both physical and emotional, and she had been overwrought with
guilt at the treatment he had endured so early in life.
Shortly after the battle of Endor, she and Luke had spent many evenings talking
about their childhoods and exchanging personal stories of a lifetime spent
apart. In those moments of whispered confessions and relaying of bits and pieces
of their personal history, the bond they already shared had deepened
considerably. In the years that followed, both had settled into their roles as
brother and sister, acting very much like two sides of the same coin. To those
that knew them best, the fact that they were related initially came as a
surprise, but upon further reflection, the revelation made perfect sense. Luke
and Leia had become the closest of friend from the moment he had burst into that
prisoner cell on the Death Star so many years ago.
Even when parsecs apart, Luke's presence was always part of her consciousness,
and she depended on it as much as she relied on her own judgment in times of
crisis. In times of sorrow, his soul cried out with hers, then comforted her
spirit and infused her with renewed strength and hope.
So it was no surprise that, try as he might, Luke Skywalker had not been
entirely successful in concealing his deepening loneliness from his sister, and
there were times when Leia's heart physically ached for him. Callista's sudden
departure had left him emotionally devastated and while he had done his best to
hide his pain, Leia knew that the wound ran deep and had left him scarred.
Months later, when it was clear to all that Callista would not be returning,
Leia had repeatedly attempted to pull him away from Yavin and bring to him
Coruscant to spend some time with her and the kids. Luke had gently turned down
all of her entreaties, choosing to remain secluded on Yavin and suffer his grief
alone. When he emerged, she had immediately noted the change, and had often
wondered if it wouldn't have been better for Callista to die aboard the Eye of
Palpatine.
On the surface, Luke's loneliness would have defied explanation. In a vast
galaxy of sentient beings there was no shortage of women who would have leapt at
the chance to be courted by the Jedi Master! What the galaxy didn't take into
account was Luke's heritage, his strength in the Force and the responsibility
that came with that gift. In addition to which was Luke's well-ingrained
dependence on the Force itself. It nurtured him, fueled him and coursed through
his body as easily as water flowed through a stream. Any woman would have to be
unnaturally self-assured not to be discomforted by a husband who could sense her
every intention long before she had acknowledged it herself.
"My brother is definitely not for the faint at heart," she murmured,
smiling to herself.
Then there was the matter of his over-protectiveness, Gamorrean-headedness and
general predisposition for trouble and injury. No. Her brother certainly was not
without his faults and she defied anyone she knew to have a go at dealing with
him without losing their patience and screaming at the top of their lungs.
Save for…
Mara Jade.
Leia stopped in her tracks as if caught by a stun blast, her eyebrows knitting
in confusion.
Mara was strong, independent and a force to be reckoned with! However, by all
accounts, she barely tolerated her brother. Mara wasn't the type of woman who
made attempts at disguising her dislike of most people, and she wore her
contempt for Luke like a badge of honor for all to see. Even in Leia's presence,
her disdain for him remained thinly veiled and could be felt pulsating just
beneath the surface.
Leia knew that the friendship between Luke and Mara was precarious at best.
Their arguments were already legendary, and Mara Jade was known to be the one
person in the galaxy who could make the Jedi Master lose his temper in a
nanosecond flat. Popular opinion seemed to indicate that the problem lay in
their vastly different political philosophies. After all, he was the hero of the
Rebellion and the New Republic's first in what was hoped would be a long line of
Jedi Knights. She was a former agent of the Empire and a member of the Emperor's
court. It was only natural then that disagreements would arise.
But what if all that tension didn't stem from a personal dislike but rather,
from an attraction neither could own up to? Leia wondered. Memories of her and
Han's early courtship immediately sprang to mind and she smiled inwardly,
already aware of having stumbled upon the matter at hand.
Leia could already feel her own sense of over-protectiveness kicking in. Mara
was definitely not the type of woman she had imagined for her sensitive brother,
even though she was certain that Mara's service to the Empire was now a part of
her distant past. Perplexed, she sat down and began her preparation for the
following round of negotiations with the Trade Federation, but not before she
made a mental note to have a talk with her brother when the opportunity
presented itself. If Luke were to court Mara, there were a few things he needed
to know - for his own safety!
***
Five minutes into his third meeting of the day and Luke Skywalker was once again
reminded of the numerous reasons he disliked Coruscant and its political
infrastructure. This meeting, in which he was to serve as mediator between the
Sullustans and the people of Firrerre, had already started off on a sour note.
The galaxy had been without Jedi for a generation. Just long enough for their
role as peaceful negotiators to have been forgotten and the assertion that they
serve as judge and jury be firmly entrenched in its place. Luke had patiently
attempted to explain his role as a Jedi, and that of his students, as
ambassadors of peace whose single role was to suggest peaceful resolutions
between worlds in an effort to avoid violent and destructive conflict. This was
apparently an alien concept to the Firrerreans, who repeatedly demanded that
Luke and his Jedi Academy interfere - with brute force if necessary.
Luke bowed his head as both parties continued their heated debate, and called on
the Force to bring him a measure of peace and tranquility. He hadn't needed
further proof of it, but he resolutely knew that he was ill-equipped for a life
in politics, regardless of Mon Mothma and his sister's insistence that he spend
more time in the New Republic's capital and immerse himself in the political
arena.
At the rate these negotiations were unfolding, Luke knew it would be nightfall
before he'd be able to go about his business. He'd attempted to contact Mara via
comm unit repeatedly throughout the day but had found little time to eat, to say
nothing of being able to find a moment alone in which to carry on a
conversation. And so, a sense of urgency continued to nag at the edges of his
consciousness and his fingers began to drum nervously on the table in front of
him.
Patience. He had to learn patience!
Luke Skywalker knew that the chances of that were nonexistent. If he hadn't
already mastered the ability to be patient, he wasn't about to do it now. Not
when his heart and mind continued their dual assault on his senses, overwhelming
him with the certainty that he and Mara belonged together and that she alone
held the key to his happiness. He was just as certain that the time he had to
convince her of that fact was quickly running out. If Mara decided to blast off
planet, it could be months before he'd be able to track her down again.
He opened his eyes and leaned back in his chair, once again tuning in to the
charges and accusations being flung back and forth. Silently, he prayed for a
break in negotiations, if not for a quick resolution.
***
"Well, if it isn't the beautiful Mara Jade!" The man on the screen of
her holo-unit bellowed, an oily grin splitting his handsome dark features.
"We finally end up on the same planet it seems!"
Mara's expression darkened as she recognized the image before her. The man on
the screen could have been mistaken for either an actor on a holo-drama or an
apparel model for one of Coruscant's high fashion designers. His sharp features
were perfectly chiseled and were off set by a crop of long black, wavy hair
which he wore swept away from his face and tied at the nape of his neck. His
demeanor was that of a man who was proud of his good-looks, and not in the least
bit afraid to flaunt them.
She had known Gavean Trent for several years and had spent the majority of that
time avoiding his company for reasons too numerous to recount. As a prominent
member of Karrde's organization, she had been forced to establish business
relationships with a variety of distasteful mercenaries, pirates and smugglers -
ranging from the unethical, to the repugnant. Yet none could match Trent's
reputation for double-dealing, underhandedness and sheer corruption.
A ladies' man, who rivaled Lando Calrissians' most infamous exploits, Trent had
made a small fortune separating the galaxy's wealthiest inhabitants from the
majority of their credits. Repeatedly, he had been able to romance all manner of
female species and encourage their participation in shoddy business ventures and
rich-quick schemes. In truth, such investments did little more than to line his
own pockets and allow him the luxury of a lifestyle that fooled many into
believing him to be a man of good business sense and financial acumen.
He was clearly a man living on borrowed time, but his looks, charm and wit
enabled him to continue embarking on his many smuggling operations just under
law enforcement radar. His dealings were restricted to the fringes of the
established network of trade organizations that the New Republic currently
supported and endorsed, but he was always on the lookout for the proverbial foot
in the door with the new government, and Mara knew that in addition to desiring
her as one of his many trophies, he also considered her to be his opportunity
into the Republic's large and profitable door.
"Don't bother asking how I knew where to find you, Jade," he continued
before she had a chance to reply. "Just like you, I have my sources."
"Trent, to what do I owe the displeasure?" Mara responded, cocking her
left eyebrow and doing nothing to conceal the irritation in her voice. "I'm
a busy woman."
Gavean Trent stroked the shadow of his beard and smiled conspiratorially.
"So, I've heard, Jade. So I've heard. Too busy to stay in one place for
long, which is why I'm so surprised to find you still in Courscant."
"I've personal business to attend to, Gavean," she responded, ignoring
his obvious attempt at conversation and already growing tired of the exchange.
"Then I suppose you'll remain in system long enough to attend the Trade
Conference as well, yes? I'm certain Karrde would wish for his most trusted
second in command to be present for such a fortuitous event."
"Trade Conference?" she repeated absent-mindedly. Talon had made no
mention of his desire to have her present at the conference and she didn't have
to wonder why. For years, Talon's organization had worked side by side with the
New Republic, to the benefit and profitability of both sides. In that regard,
she and Luke's crisis management missions had guaranteed that Karrde's
organization was always first in consideration for any New Republic's ventures.
Especially those ventures requiring a low profile and a high degree of
confidentiality. An appearance by her at the Trade Conference would simply be
considered a waste of valuable time. Much the same as her decision to remain on
Coruscant, she realized.
"I've better things to do with my time, Trent," .she responded,
feeling quite certain she knew what his next question would be.
"Well, then perhaps I can still persuade you to accompany me." He
smirked. "You know, maybe arrange for an introduction here and there"
Mara lowered her head and smiled. If only men weren't so predictable.
"Thank you, but no."
"What ever happened to professional courtesy, Jade?" he asked, his
voice taking on a defensive tone.
"Nothing, as far as I know. It still exists…among professionals, that
is."
In the next instant, Gavean Trent was left staring at a blank screen.
***
"Hutt!" she whispered hotly, immediately after breaking the link.
Mara pushed her chair away from the communications console and flung her head
over the back of the chair. She had managed to put Gavean off for the present
time, but she knew him well enough to realize that he could not be dissuaded so
easily. Not for long, anyway, and especially not now that he knew where to find
her. She'd rather throw herself out of an air lock before she'd let herself be
seen in his company at a Trade Conference - or anywhere else, for that matter.
"Let Talon deal with that space slug when he arrives," she murmured,
"unless he wants to see his second in command imprisoned for putting an end
to that miserable rodent's life!"
Still, Mara knew that the change in her mood could only be partially attributed
to her conversation with Gavean. She would have loathed to admit it, but she had
hoped the incoming call would have been from Luke instead.
Frustrated with herself, tired from her sleepless night spent pondering their
relationship, and now, newly aggravated by the knowledge of Gavean's presence on
Coruscant, Mara made a snap decision.
She quickly changed into her workout clothes and headed for the gymnasium,
hoping that an evening spent engaged in strenuous physical activity would help
her clear her mind a bit.
***
As soon as Mara slipped in through the gym's double doors she felt it, and for a
split second, she allowed the warmth to spread over her, making her senses
tingle. She had become aware of him just in time to allow her to slip back out
again, unseen, but too late to avoid being detected by him.
Taking a deep breath, she let the doors hiss shut behind her and forced herself
to begin walking past the gym's main equipment room and onto the indoor atrium
and mammoth sized pool that were located to the rear of the structure.
As she neared the swimming area, she could hear the sound of splashing water
echoing off the walls and noticed that except for the light streaming through
the panes of the transparisteel ceiling, the aquatics room was dimly lit. Also
detectable, were the sounds of intermittent breathing, punctuated by sporadic
groans of exertion.
Luke Skywalker executed laps with precision, even if his underwater turn at
lane's end was a bit shaky.
Mara stopped at the edge of the pool, arms crossed and waited for Luke to make
his way back to the end of the lane where she stood. As he neared her, she took
a moment to surreptitiously glance at his torso and watched, enthralled, as the
muscles in his back and arms rippled and strained with each stroke. He used his
strong legs to kick at long intervals, allowing his upper body to bear the brunt
of his effort.
When his hand finally touched the wall, he stood, swept the hair from his face
and smiled broadly. Mara felt her mouth go dry and her knees grow weak in
response.
"Hey there!" he exclaimed, finding it difficult to conceal his
happiness at the sight of her. "Care to join me?"
Frozen in place, she watched as he grabbed a hold of the ladder's railing and
propelled himself up and out of the pool. Drops of water rolled from his face,
hair and shoulders and made their way down the contours of his body. Mara
couldn't help but to follow some of those droplets as they traveled down his
chiseled chest, past his trim stomach and disappeared into the waist of his
swimming trunks. The trail of dark blond hair which began just beneath his navel
captured a couple of those streaks of water and held them, before they too,
joined the rest and rolled out of sight.
Finding it difficult to respond, Mara shook her head and fixed her eyes on the
railing he was leaning on.
"Can you swim?" he asked innocently, mistaking her silence for
residual anger stemming from the previous night.
"Of course I can swim, Skywalker!" she all but shouted at him, anger
helping her find her voice. "I didn't come here to swim. I came to get some
exercise!"
"Swimming isn't exercise?"
"Never mind, Skywalker!" she spat out. Why did they always have to end
up bantering like this?
Luke picked up his towel which hung from the rail and began drying off, roughly
running if through his hair all the way down to his feet. All to no avail, Mara
thought to herself. His wet trunks still clung to his mid section in an assorted
mix of bumps and wrinkles that made her cheeks flush.
When he had managed to remove all of the cascading water, he swung the towel
around his neck and lifted his head to smile at her. Mara once again fought to
gain her composure but was convinced that Luke noted none of her discomfort.
Part of his charm, she thought to herself.
"Don't you ever run a comb through that?" she questioned, pointing at
his hair whose wet ends stood out in every direction.
In response, Luke bent over slightly and shook his head violently, spraying her
with a mist of water.
"There!" he said triumphantly, as he raised his tousled head and
broadened his smile, "I guess I'm just a low maintenance type of guy!"
"Tell that to someone who hasn't had to traverse the galaxy to get your
butt out of trouble, Farmboy!" she countered, but she couldn't hide the
smile from her face.
Luke took notice of her change in mood and watched as the smile brightened her
face. Gods, she was so beautiful! The familiar ache in the pit of his stomach
returned once again and his mind raced to find a way to keep her with him.
However, other than a swim, which she had already refused, he was at a momentary
loss as to what to suggest.
Glancing at the group of chairs arranged at the far side of the pool, he
gestured to them shyly.
"Sit with me for a while?" he asked nervously, watching her face and
doing his best not to reach out with the Force to brush her senses and get a
feel for what she was thinking.
"Skywalker, I've matters to attend to," she answered without any real
conviction. But he was already making his way to a group of loungers and
arranging them next to one another.
"Just for a minute, Mara," he all but pleaded, gesturing up to the
skylight. "This is the best part of the day."
"Its early evening, Luke," she corrected, taking her place on a
reclining lounge chair he had set next to him.
"Exactly," he murmured.
She watched him fold his towel and place it beneath his head, and marveled at
the simple pleasures that still seemed to amuse him.
She then turned her attention to the sky above and watched as the impending
sunset caused a cascade of colors to appear in the evening sky. Deep, burnt
russet tones swirled with fading blue hues in a kaleidoscope of shades
reminiscent of watercolor paintings. As the invisible sun dipped lower in the
horizon, the colors deepened then turned opaque as night descended and a billion
tiny stars appeared above them.
Mara hadn't noticed, but Luke had rested his arm on her lounger, instead of his
own and she could now feel the warmth of his skin next to her own. Again, her
mind screamed for her to move away a little, but her body disobeyed and she
remained perfectly still, enjoying the feel of his close proximity.
"I want to see them all," he whispered, not taking his eyes from the
view above, "If I could only get out of Coruscant, that is," he added
jokingly.
"The job of a Jedi Knight is never done," she responded smiling.
"No. But that's not what I dreamed of becoming as a boy."
Mara turned her head and gazed at his profile, examining his expression
carefully, but she remained silent and allowed him to continue.
"I just wanted to fly."
Mara smiled. His revelation was nothing new. She had watched him fly and had
seen the way his spirits lifted whenever he found himself behind the instrument
panel of ship. No matter the type of ship and no matter the circumstances, at
his very core, Luke Skywalker was a pilot and always would be. But this was the
only time he had ever confessed it to her.
"They why…" she began to ask.
"Did I become a Jedi?" he interrupted. "Because it was my
destiny, Mara, and because I had a gift that enabled me to make a
difference."
Mara began to brace herself for another one of Luke's discourses about
fulfilling her own destiny, but it never came. Instead, he continued to scan the
night's sky, his right arm slung carelessly above his head.
"I don't regret my decision, even if I do wish I could get out there
more." he continued.
"I could always drag you with me on a couple of trade runs, Farmboy.
That'll help you appreciate a home in one location," she blurted out before
she could catch herself.
She glanced at him nervously but he simply smiled and nodded.
Suddenly, he pointed to the sky above and raised his head to peer closer.
"There's one!" he exclaimed excitedly.
"One what?" she asked, squinting her eyes. Then she saw it, streaming
across the darkness of space, leaving a glittering trail in its wake.
"It's probably just as asteroid that broke loose from…." But as she
turned to look back at Luke, she saw that he had shut his eyes and that his lips
were muttering something unintelligible.
"Luke Skywalker! You're not actually making a wish on that piece of falling
debris, are you?" she asked incredulously?
He finished his silent offering and turned to face her, a sheepish grin on his
face.
"Haven't you ever wished for anything, Mara?" he asked, rolling over
on to his side to face her, his head resting on his hand.
"I buy whatever I want, Skywalker!" she retorted, looking into his
blue eyes that were now, so close to her own.
Luke inched closer, a soft smile on his lips. "What of the things credits
can't buy?" he asked softly.
"Such as, Skywalker?" she quipped, feeling her cheeks growing warm but
refusing to pull her gaze away from his.
"Peace and harmony," he responded, as he reached out and placed his
hand on hers, softly caressing her knuckles. "So that my sister's children
can have the opportunity to grow up without having to experience the pain and
anguish of war."
Their foreheads gently touched and Mara was no longer able to hold his gaze. She
looked down at their hands instead and tried in vain to keep hers from
trembling. Instinctively, she closed her eyes and allowed her subconscious to
take over, no longer trying to think of something trite to say in response.
In the silence that ensued, Luke dipped his head to once side and gently covered
her mouth in a soft kiss. When she responded by pressing closer to him, he
followed it quickly with another, which he deepened slightly. Mara felt her
chest heave in a sharp intake of breath and tried to dull the ache that was
begging for his touch. Slowly, she pulled her lips away.
"And for yourself?" she asked almost inaudibly, separating herself
from him by mere centimeters. "What do you wish for, Luke Skywalker?"
"To have you in my bed every night for the rest of my life," he
whispered ever so softly, the words moving past his lips faster than he could
stop them. It was what had been in his heart, and he hadn't had the presence of
mind to censor himself. Immediately, he began choking down the intense panic
that cursed through him as he felt her anger spike in response.
Too shocked to reply right away, Mara Jade pulled her hand back roughly. A look
of sheer terror was etched on her features and her green eyes blazed with
uncontrollable rage. Suddenly, she felt the pieces all fall into place, and her
body shook with unrestrained fury.
"So that's it, Skywalker?" she screamed, standing over him and trying
with all of her might to keep the tears at bay. "That's what you've wanted
all along? All of your Jedi rhetoric, all of your efforts to get me to that
over-grown wilderness of a planet were simply an effort to have me as your
concubine?"
Luke jumped to his feet. His mouth opened and shut in shock but he couldn't
formulate the words that would make her understand.
"Mara…" he managed to whisper, despair freezing him in place.
Tentatively, his senses stretched out to hers. Intense anger and frustration
flowed from her freely, but in its wake, Luke could feel disappointment too and
could almost hear her heart crying out in pain.
Mara recoiled at his intrusion and quickly threw up her defenses. "Don't
hold your breath, Skywalker!" she spat out, kicking the lounger aside and
leaving Luke to once again ponder whether he was predestined to spend his life
alone.
The sense of urgency he had tried so desperately to contain, now threatened to
overcome him, but he knew better than to tear off after her. Instead, he sat
back on the lounger and covered his face with both hands and waited for the
inspiration he knew would come.
To be continued…
Chapter Six
"R" Rating
Luke could feel her anger tail away from him as Mara distanced herself further
and further from the gymnasium. He continued to track her presence through the
Force in the hopes that he would feel her rage dissipate, if only marginally,
but it only continued to escalate until he felt sure that every Force adept on
Coruscant could sense her fury.
He ran his hand through his damp hair and sat back down, letting go of a sigh of
frustration. With a single sentence, he had managed to give Mara the impression
that his attraction to her was merely physical, and while there was no denying
the effect her physique had on his vital signs, he knew that his attraction was
based on much more than that.
Luke Skywalker was certain that beneath Mara's thick armor was a girl too scared
to follow her heart. Her desire to prove her worth at every turn made it near
impossible for her to express any affection or tenderness. To Mara, anger meant
power and strength, and she used them both as a shield against any other emotion
that threatened her independence. Unfortunately for Mara, she had already
dropped her guard on several occasions and although it hadn't happened often, it
had served to convince Luke that she had a heart and soul worth fighting for -
and fight he would.
"Your body can't lie to me, Mara," he whispered, letting his body
relax and resting his head back on the lounger to stare out at the night's sky.
"And neither can your heart."
He closed his eyes and tried to extend his senses to her once more. Suddenly
alarmed, he leapt from the lounger and sprinted towards the door, towel in hand.
Mara was leaving Coruscant.
***
Mara ran towards her suite as fast as her long, sleek legs could carry her,
alternately swiping locks of hair from her face and wiping tears from her eyes.
Slowing to turn a corner where she thought she would be alone, she threw her
back against the wall and let herself slide down it, comm unit in hand.
"Coruscant flight control," she bit out, her voice breaking,
"Jade here. Requesting departure clearance code for the Jade's Fire,
docking bay 2986-B, at 2100 hours."
As she waited for confirmation, she drew her knees close to her body and rested
her chin on them, trying to catch her breath, regain her composure and slow the
rapid-fire beating of her heart. After a couple of minutes, she gave up on the
effort and allowed the tears to flow freely. She tucked her chin onto her chest
and began to sob uncontrollably. She found it almost inconceivable, but her
heart ached physically, sending shards of pain to the very core of her being.
She placed both hands on her chest and pressed hard, trying in vain to stop the
anguish she felt.
How could she have misread him so? Ten years she had known this man! And even
though their one night of lovemaking had revealed a side of him she had never
seen, she had still believed him to be a gentle, well-intentioned man. Her anger
mounted anew. Luke Skywalker, with all of his boyish good looks, was a man like
any other and years spent alone on Yavin after Callista's departure would have
certainly wreaked havoc on his libido.
How could she have been so stupid? She had merely been an outlet. A substitute
for the woman he could never have, she now realized, and the realization caused
her heart to constrict even tighter in her chest.
"I should have killed him," she whispered hotly, wiping the tears from
her eyes with so much force that she left angry, red tracks on her lids and
cheeks. "If not seven years ago when I had the chance, then the night he
gathered courage enough to kiss me."
After a few long moments, she received her departure clearance. She managed to
calm herself and began determiningly making the trek back to her suite. She
would be off system in a couple of hours and in that fact, she found an
immeasurable amount of comfort.
As she exited the lift, a strange sensation began nagging at the edges of her
consciousness and her danger sense prickled the back of her neck. It gripped
her, slowing her gate and alerting every nerve in her body. She continued
walking to the entrance of her suite slowly, expecting for someone to pounce on
her at any moment. She looked around her as she walked and fingered the blaster
at her side nervously. Everything was not as it should be and yet, she could
hear nothing and detect no one around. She unsnapped her holster and gently
gripped her blaster, slowing her pace even further as she came closer to the
recessed door of her suite. At the last minute the presence revealed itself,
confirmed a half a second later by her own eyes.
"Luke Skywalker, if you've ever feared for your life, you'd do well to do
so now!" she hissed angrily at the man before her.
Luke stood still clad in his swimming trunks, back resting against her door,
arms folded at his chest and glared back at her, unshaken by the threat.
"Mara, I need you to hear me out," he stated calmly, suddenly appalled
by her disheveled appearance. Her eyes were swollen from crying and bright red
streaks marred her cheeks. His heart melted, but he resolved to remain unmoved.
If he were to convince Mara of anything right now, it would be best to meet
strength with strength.
"Leave, Skywalker!" she spat, squaring her body and lifting her
blaster to chest level.
Luke shook his head slowly, not breaking eye contact and held his breath. The
sight of him shook her to her foundations and she could feel her anger slipping
away from her, even as her mind bellowed for her to pull the trigger, if only to
stun him and watch him fall to his knees.
Not saying a word, she reached for the access code panel and punched in the
series of numbers that opened her door. She then walked past him, roughly
bumping his shoulder with hers in an effort to push her way in. Luke followed
her silently, then watched as she unbuckled her belt but continued to hold the
blaster in her hand.
They stood in the center of the common room, face to face, neither daring to
utter a word as the silence hung heavy around them. The sight of her, so much
affected by their misunderstanding pulled heavily on his heartstrings, and he
had to fight the urge to rush towards her and pull her into his arms. Of course,
the blaster she held squarely in front of her might have made that task a bit
difficult to execute, but at that moment, he would have gladly risked his life
if it meant that he could convince her of his sincerity.
He let the moment pass, prompting Mara to be the first to speak.
"You self-absorbed, manipulative son of a Sith!" she whispered through
clenched teeth, barely containing her rage. "I will not be a replacement
for someone else, Skywalker."
Luke's eyebrows came together in confusion then snapped up suddenly as the
realization of what she was saying began to dawn on him.
"Callista?" he asked tentatively.
It had been several months since he had thought of Callista at any great length.
Years since he had spoken her name aloud and even longer since he had stopped
wondering what had become of the woman who had once held his heart in her hands.
Standing in front of Mara now, he found it difficult to believe that he had ever
thought himself in love with the woman who inhabited Cray's body.
"Yes, Skywalker, Callista!" Mara shot back, forcing him out of his
reverie, contempt lacing her words. "You remember Callista, don't you? The
woman who you found it necessary to scour the galaxy for? The one who caused you
to turn your back on your family and friends? The one who drove you to hide out
in that jungle-moon you call a planet for months on end?"
Her eyes began to sting with the threat of fresh tears, and the hand holding the
blaster shook slightly. She no longer cared whether or not he knew that she had
taken note of his self-imposed sabbatical or of the changes Callista's departure
had had on him. Her anger spiraled inside her like a dust storm, eclipsing any
other emotion and affecting her ability to think clearly.
"Mara, its been years…" he began, shocked by the fact that Mara
could have ever been affected by his relationship with Callista. Even more
surprising was the thought of Mara being jealous of a woman who had disappeared
from his life so long ago.
"Years," she repeated mockingly, green eyes blazing, "which would
dissolve into thin air if she were to walk in here this very minute,
Farmboy."
Again, an awkward silence filled the room. Afraid to put his feelings into words
again, Luke decided on another way.
Slowly, while still holding her angry gaze, he took a step forward and reached
for her empty hand. Mara took in a deep breath; her right hand was damp with
sweat and she readjusted the blaster into a more comfortable position. In her
heart, she knew that she was no more capable of killing him now than she ever
had been, but her anger and humiliation continued to brew inside her, preventing
her from giving in. She continued to hold the weapon in place until its barrel
lay pressed against his chest.
Gently, he ran his fingertips down her left arm until he reached her hand then
grasped it, palm outstretched, and placed it against his chest just centimeters
from where the barrel of her blaster pointed.
"Look inside, Mara," he whispered, his voice barely discernable,
"what do you see?"
Mara closed her eyes and focused on the feel of his heartbeat beneath her palm.
Like the pull of a strong magnet, she let herself be drawn in by the warmth and
comfort radiating from his soul. Pain and heartache filled his heart as well -
there was truth there too, she realized. And in the midst of it all, she could
see…herself. His presence cried out to her and she found herself almost
powerless to resist. Unconsciously, she lowered her blaster until it fell from
her hand and tears began to flow from her eyes once again. In a single step,
Luke bridged the gap that separated them and gathered her in his arms, cradling
her head beneath his chin.
"I'm sorry," he said softly, kissing away the tears and abrasions on
her face. She leaned in to him and wrapped her arms around his waist before he
led her to her sofa and sat her down, keeping her pressed tightly against him.
"I'm so sorry, Mara," he repeated, running his fingers through her
hair, trying to pull back her thick mane from her tear-stained face.
Mara wrapped her arm around his bare mid-section and rested her head on his
chest, releasing a sigh. She was exhausted now, both physically and emotionally.
Her shoulders continued to tremble slightly but she found an immeasurable amount
of comfort in his embrace. She released her anger in a short exhale of breath
and closed her eyes.
They sat in a tight embrace for a stretch of time - neither saying a word. His
heart and soul were still open to her and she allowed the emotions that flowed
from him to soothe and calm her while keeping her own emotions safely guarded.
She silently chastised herself for having doubted him, but she was still
thoroughly confused and discomforted by the new twist their relationship taken
and her mind would still not allow her heart to override the barriers that were
firmly in place.
Afraid to speak, Luke simply took pleasure in having her in his arms once again.
He placed a couple of light kisses on her forehead then nuzzled her face softly,
but was overly careful not to have his affection be misconstrued as overtures to
make love - even if his body thought differently. Mara buried her face further
under his chin and the feel of her warm breath on his collarbone caused goose
bumps to form up and down his arms.
"And if she did come back, Skywalker?" she asked, so softly that he
wasn't sure he had heard her at all. Luke took a minute to respond, unsure of
what to say or how to say it. A life with Callista was simply no longer an
option.
"Things are not the same," he responded just as softly, "I'm not
the same."
Mara nodded her head imperceptibly. "No, you're more accident prone than
you ever have been," she answered; suddenly wishing she hadn't asked but
unable to keep her curiosity from getting the best of her.
Gathering a deep breath, he found the courage to continue. All the while
offering a silent prayer that he wouldn't ruin the moment with his fumbling.
"I couldn't be convinced of it at the time," he added, "but her
decision was the right thing to do…for both of us." He held his breath
and waited, but Mara didn't stir. Encouraged, he released his breath and rushed
in with both feet, in typical Luke fashion. "Besides, there's…someone
else now, I think."
Mara tried, but couldn't keep the smile from her face. She might have been
sexually inexperienced, but in situations such as these, where verbal sparring
was the weapon of the day, Luke was most decidedly outgunned. "You think,
Skywalker?"
His cheeks flushed bright pink and Mara could feel the heat from his blushing on
her skin.
"Well, I'm not sure how she feels about me," he answered meekly,
sounding more and more like schoolboy.
Mara's smiled widened, enjoying the sophomore undertones of their conversation.
It was a lot nicer than fighting, she realized and as always, she enjoyed having
the upper hand.
"So, what is she like, Farmboy?" she asked, a little embarrassed but
willing to continue their game for a while longer.
However, her heart began to hammer in her chest and her mouth went dry when he
lifted her face to his and gazed at her longingly.
"She's the most amazingly beautiful woman I have ever met," he
whispered, looking into her eyes, "Strong, resourceful, intelligent…"
he finished, his voice trailing off. Mara lowered her eyes and stared at the
dimple in his chin. What had started as a game now took on a different meaning,
and she found it impossible to hold his gaze.
Swallowing the lump that had formed in his throat, Luke pressed on. "She
takes my breath away, Mara, and I lay awake every night just trying to figure
out a way that I can earn her love and trust."
His lips were now a fraction of a centimeter from her own but her eyes remained
downcast. Luke caressed her cheek with his fingertips and raised his lips to her
forehead, but didn't kiss her. Instead, he rested his cheek on the top of her
head and resumed speaking, his voice husky with emotion.
"But the odds aren't in my favor, I'm afraid," he whispered, causing
her to suddenly glance up to meet his eyes, which were now a dark, impenetrable
blue.
"There isn't anything I wouldn't give her," he went on, "and yet,
I have nothing to offer her. Nothing but a life of hardship and the residual pay
of a former X-Wing fighter pilot."
He sighed, and her heart felt as if it would burst in her chest. "Not
merely enough to win over a woman so beautiful and so deserving of a better
life."
Mara blinked and tried to keep the tears from slipping past her lashes. Luke
Skywalker, hero of the New Republic and Master of a new order of Jedi - who was
worshipped and adored by an entire generation of sentient beings, didn't
consider himself worthy of her love. For the first time in her life, Mara Jade
was moved so deeply, that words failed her.
She reached up and wrapped her arm around his neck, pulling his face towards
her. She placed a soft kiss on his cheek, then another on the corner of his
mouth. Once their lips had met, neither had the will nor the desire to pull
away. As their kisses deepened, both eventually slid to lie side by side on the
wide couch, entangled in each other's arms.
With each passing kiss, Mara could feel herself growing increasingly
light-headed. Luke parted her lips and she welcomed his tongue which caressed
hers languidly. He savored the feel of her against his bare chest. His body
craved to press her tighter against him, but he feared sending her the wrong
message again. So, amidst their passionate kisses and sighs of pleasure, Luke
concentrated on keeping his hands in check and his desire from overtaking him
completely.
Mara's hands were not so idle. She ran her palms down his muscled chest, and
slowly around to his back, luxuriating in the feel of his smooth, warm skin. She
then entangled her hands in the hair on the nape of his neck and let the silky
strands lace between her fingers over and over again. Unwittingly, her hips
gyrated against his thigh and he could feel her hardened nipples grazing against
his chest. By the time they finally paused for breath, Luke's body was near the
breaking point. His erection pressed painfully against his swimming trunks,
begging for her touch. He placed a light kiss on her nose and gently coaxed her
to lay her head on his chest, hoping for an opportunity to dampen his body's
reaction to the woman in his arms.
Mara complied and snuggled into his side, but disappointment and frustration
were etched on her face. Her body was inflamed with desire. She yearned to feel
his strong hands on her…stroking, caressing, teasing. Wanted to feel his body
atop hers. Craved to feel his hardened shaft pulsating deep within her.
Gods, was she losing her mind?
'…to have you in my bed every night for the rest of my life.'
She had fled like a frightened Bantha when he had spoken those words, yet now,
her body responded with an ache she found difficult to ignore and his heartfelt
admission no longer seemed so threatening.
She concentrated, and forcibly brought her pulse to match his own. Reaching out
tentatively with the Force, she allowed her senses to mingle slightly with his.
His presence caressed hers lovingly and silently transmitted all of the emotions
he had never before been able to put into words. Mara closed her eyes and
settled comfortably in his arms, leaving herself open to receive the expressions
of love and affection that emanated from his heart and soul.
Luke smiled inwardly. Her heart was still closed to him, but he knew without a
doubt that he had gained some ground. It was a small victory, but one that
lifted his spirits and filled him with boundless joy and happiness.
In a matter of minutes, both drifted off to sleep.
To be continued…
Chapter Seven
The persistent beeping of the incoming call resonated throughout Mara's suite.
It was a full thirty seconds before a disoriented Mara disentangled herself from
Luke's embrace and in a sleep induced state, made her way to the comm center.
Her hands fumbled on the access panel before she was able to strike the right
key. When she finally managed to do so, Gavean Trent's handsome face instantly
appeared on the screen.
"Sleeping in, Gorgeous?" he asked, his smile revealing a set of
perfectly white teeth.
Mara tried to focus her vision and wipe the sleep from her eyes. "Why in
Hoth would you be calling at this ungodly hour, Gavean?" She asked,
irritated by his sunny demeanor, "haven't you got anything better to do
with your time?"
She stretched her limbs sensuously, then caught a glimpse of the man still
sleeping on her sofa. His right arm was slung over his head and his right leg
had slipped off the couch altogether. She could also make out tufts of blonde
hair peeking out from behind a couple of the cushions. Mara smiled softly.
"Take a look at your chrono, Mara. Its mid morning!"
Gavean had continued talking but Mara had stopped listening. Memories of Luke's
sweet admissions the night before flooded her mind as she watched him sleep,
just feet from where she sat. A warm feeling enveloped her and her smile
widened. Unconsciously, she wrapped her arms around herself and sighed.
"Mara…?"
Still no response.
"Mara!" Trent all but yelled into the comm unit, his curiosity peeked.
Mara Jade was not easily distracted, no matter how early in the day. Something
was diverting her attention. Or perhaps, it was someone…
"What is it?" she bit back, annoyed at having been pulled out of her
reverie.
Trent skewered her with a quizzical stare. During the last couple of days, he
had heard the rumors making their way throughout the former Imperial City of
Coruscant. Mara had been seen dining out with the New Republic's Golden Boy,
Luke Skywalker. He had initially brushed aside the comments, attributing them to
idle gossip. After all, the two had already worked together on a number of
missions - always in a military capacity - and had developed a reputation as one
hell of a team. Personally, however, their relationship was known to be volatile
and adversarial.
That didn't come as a surprise to Gavean. He had known Mara for a number of
years and knew her to be fiercely independent. Her only loyalty, it could be
argued, was to Karrde and his organization. Still, glancing at her now there was
no escaping the realization that there something definitely different about her.
An air of peace and tranquility flowed from her, even though her hair was a
tangled mess and her cheeks were flushed.
He made a mental note to investigate the matter further before continuing. He
needed Mara to get access to the New Republic's administrators if he was to make
the break into the Core System's trade organization. Even if she was unwilling
to render him any assistance, she was still his ticket to convincing Karrde to
put in a good word on his behalf. One way or another, he needed Mara Jade.
From the sofa, Luke Skywalker listened to the conversation intently, straining
to catch every word being said. More importantly, stretching his senses to
register and interpret every nuance of Mara's voice.
Gavean Trent. Where did he know that name from and why was he calling Mara this
early in the morning? An odd feeling made its way through his body and settled
in the pit of his stomach. As the conversation continued, the feeling
intensified. Soon, jealousy and anger intertwined and rose within him to color
his neck and cheeks.
Ruefully, he reflected on just how quickly things seemed to change in his life.
The death of his foster parents, the destruction of the first Death Star and the
beginning of his journey to learn the ways of the Force now seemed like a blur
to him. Just as quickly he had completed his training, confronted his father,
learned that Leia was his twin and battled for his life aboard the second Death
Star.
The emergence of his Jedi Academy had come on the heels of the fall of the
Empire and the establishment of a new government. Since then, his life had been
a long series of wars and battles for the control of a galaxy that had been
without any justice or order for a generation. His body and spirit bore the
scars of his continuing struggle to right the wrongs his father and Palpatine
had unleashed on a thousand worlds - unspeakable horrors that had led to the
suffering of millions of sentient and non-sentient species.
And now here he was, fighting to control feelings of jealousy and possessiveness
over a woman he had known for almost a decade. In fact, he felt as if his
chances for love and happiness hung on the words being spoken a few feet from
where he lay, pretending to be asleep. A conversation, he noted regretfully,
that he had no business eavesdropping on in the first place.
He marveled at how his life continued to take him by surprise.
Mara concluded her conversation, abruptly cutting Trent off for the second time
in just as many days, and Luke released a sigh of relief. She had mentioned
Karrde's name and so, he reasoned, the call had been of a business related
nature.
Gathering her composure, she made her way back to the sofa and sat on the edge,
reaching out to sweep a strand of hair from his face. Luke opened his eyes,
smiled and admired the woman sitting next to him. The sun streaking through the
windows caught strands of her hair and set them ablaze. He reached out and
wordlessly pulled her gently down to lie beside him.
Ten years, he reminded himself yet again. How had her incredible beauty escaped
his notice?
"I'd love to just lay around here with you, Jedi," Mara whispered,
looking down as her index finger traced a line down the center of his chest,
stopping at his stomach, "but I've business to attend to."
He reacted instantly to her touch and Mara pulled her hand away, slightly
embarrassed by her brashness. Since when had she felt comfortable enough with
Luke Skywalker to caress his body like that?
Luke brought his lips to the top of her head and whispered into her hair,
ignoring her bashfulness. "I've a couple of matters to attend to myself.
Not the least of which is to review the new list of addendums to the Firrerrean
peace accord. Still," he added, "I'd much rather stay here with
you."
"You'd have better luck striking up a treaty between the New Republic and
the remnants of the Empire, Farmboy!" Mara responded chuckling.
"Meet me for lunch later then?" he asked meekly.
Mara pulled her head away and glanced at her chrono. "That's only a couple
of hours away, Skywalker. I need to put in a full day of work on these accounts
and transmit some status reports to Karrde before the trade conference. The man
doesn't pay me to sit around Coruscant and keep you company!"
"Dinner then?" Luke asked undeterred, his face erupting into that
heart-melting grin that sent the butterflies in her stomach aflutter. He lifted
her chin with one finger and rested his forehead on hers.
She smiled, but kept her gaze downcast. There was no resisting Skywalker when he
was like this, she'd discovered. It was one thing to bicker and banter with him
when he was spewing his Jedi philosophy at her, but when he was Luke - just
plain, Farmboy turned Rogue Squadron pilot - he was damned near irresistible.
She wondered just how many women he had made feel the same way.
Mara looked up from behind her lashes and raised one eyebrow at him, doing her
best to affect an air of doubt and indecisiveness she didn't really feel.
"C'mon, Mara," he whispered, moving her hair aside to reveal her neck
before planting a kiss on the soft skin beneath her jaw. Her skin erupted into a
series of goose bumps and she made a half-hearted attempt to break away from
him, laughing as he tightened his grip with one hand and ticked her ribs with
another.
She struggled a bit harder, trying in vain to control her fit of laughter but
Luke managed to grab a hold of both of her hands in one of his own and continued
his assault. They both writhed, giggled and tried to outdo the other for several
minutes before a winded Mara mockingly brought one of her knees to his crotch.
Competition, it appeared, would always be at the heart of their relationship.
"You win!" he conceded, releasing her hands and holding his palms up
in a show of defeat.
"I thought so," she responded just as he brought his arm around to the
small of her back and pressed his lips to hers in a feather light kiss. He
followed it with another, softly taking her upper lip between his own and
nipping at it gently.
"Say you'll have dinner with me, Mara," he entreated, his blue eyes
boring into hers, pleading for her give in.
This time, she didn't look away and simply nodded in agreement. As she stood,
she offered him her hand which he took and brought to his lips.
Once on their feet, they continued to gaze longingly at one another, their hands
intertwined, neither knowing what to say, but both relieved that they had
resolved their latest argument. After what seemed like an eternity, Luke placed
a kiss on her cheek and made his way to the door.
"1900 hours?" he asked, taking a moment to glance behind him. Mara
stood where he had left her and nodded again, smiling softly.
Luke grinned from ear to ear and exited her suite, his heart so full of joy he
felt sure it would burst. He was a block away before he noticed the strange
glances he was getting from alien and human alike. Looking down at himself for
the first time, he was shocked to discover that he had been making his way in
nothing but his old pair of swimming trunks and little else.
***
"He was what?" Leia Organa Solo screamed incredulously at her husband
who stood before her with the look of a man on the brink of a fit of laughter.
"That's what I hear, Sweetheart," he responded chuckling so hard Leia
had a hard time making out the words, "Kid was seen bouncing out of her
apartment in his skivvies in broad daylight!"
Leia's mouth hung open and she shook her head disbelievingly. "Han, it
couldn't have been him," she argued, turning away and taking a couple of
steps to sit on the couch, "It doesn't even sound like Luke!"
Han cocked his head at his wife and tried to cover his grin with his hand.
"He's a grown man, Leia," he reminded her softly, "he's a right
to a little diversion if the woman in question is amenable."
"Not that part, you old Pirate!" she scolded him, "the part about
him walking around in his underwear!"
"Well, wasn't exactly in his underwear. More like his swimming trunks or
some such thing," he clarified, waving his hand in the air dismissively.
Han watched as Leia processed the information. Leave it to Luke to get his
sister this up in arms about one thing or another. Still, he had to hand it to
the Kid. If he had managed to bed Mara Jade, and survived the task, he was
certainly due another medal for bravery in the line of duty. It was his apparent
lack of discretion that had surprised Solo. That was certainly not like Luke.
Grown man or not, Han knew Luke to be modest and reserved - if not about his
flying ability, then definitely about his private life. It had been months
before the family had been informed that Callista had left the academy and even
then, Luke had refused his sister's repeated invitations and had chosen to
remain working on Yavin.
He sat on the arm of the sofa and looked down at his wife who was still having
difficulty digesting the information. He couldn't be sure which part of it
bothered her most - the fact that Luke was finally emerging from his
self-imposed reclusion after the Callista debacle without her help, or that it
had been Mara Jade, and not she, who had helped him do so. Either way, the Kid
was in for some serious flak from his twin and of that, Han Solo was certain.
"This has gone far enough," he heard Leia mutter, her arms crossed
determinedly. He knew that look all too well. "It's time I had a talk with
my little brother."
Han let out a sigh and shook his head. "Sweetheart, leave the man alone.
Isn't it about time he joined the land of the living?"
His brother-in-law had been the galaxy's "go to guy" for too long and
in Han's estimation, the kid was more than overdue for some recreation - even if
it did come by way of the most dangerous woman in the galaxy. Hell! In that
regard, it appeared both were ideally suited for one another. If nothing else,
both of them had been born lacking the self-preservation gene.
"Han, you don't know Luke the way I do," Leia tried to reason with her
husband, setting her hand on his knee. "He's a kind, gentle man! A woman
like Mara Jade can't possibly appreciate such qualities!"
Han Solo took objection to his wife's comment. Luke was like a blood-brother to
him, but arguing about it with her wasn't going to get him anywhere so he
shrugged his shoulders in response and contemplated the situation. Luke was a
man like any other and as such, was just susceptible to charms of a beautiful
woman - Jedi or not. And they didn't come more visually striking than Mara Jade.
Besides, if anyone could tame that spitfire, it was Luke. His Brother-in-Law
could talk residents of Hoth into buying ice cream if the mood struck him.
"He may be just the kind of man she needs, Leia. The all mighty Empire is a
thing of the past and the galaxy doesn't have much need for former Emperor's
Hands, y'know!"
"Besides," he continued, raising his palm before his wife could
interrupt, "she and the Kid work well together."
Leia's eyes widened and she threw him a questioning glance.
"I know, I know…so they argue and fight like Hutts most of the time.
Point is, sweetheart, they understand each other."
"I don't know, Han…"
"Look at it this way," he concluded, reaching out to pull her head
against his thigh and caress her cheek, "who else could put up with either
of them for long?"
Leia pulled back from him roughly and stood to glare at her husband in mocked
disbelief. She hated to admit it, but he was starting to make sense. Even so, it
was best she have a talk with Luke regarding the matter. Deciding to court Mara
Jade was one thing, but a Jedi walking around the Galaxy's seat of government in
his underwear was quite another.
***
Another long day of negotiations, and the Firrerreans were no closer to settling
their discord with the Sullustans than they were the week before. A group of New
Republic officials, along with a tired and frustrated Luke Skywalker exited the
meeting chamber and exchanged glances. Time was running out and if no agreement
could be reached, chances were that the Firrerreans would be taking matters into
their own hands, as it were. Already they had intimated as much, and true to
form, the Sullustans had responded in kind. Of course, both sides were in
agreement over one thing: the new government was not doing all it could to do
right by either side.
Luke squeezed the bridge of his nose with his thumb and index finger and exhaled
a rush of air from his lungs. This was not where he needed to be, he told
himself. He was needed at the Academy, where he could unburden Corran from his
rigorous schedule of all-day classes and surround himself with people whom he
understood and whose questions he could answer.
But what of Mara?
He knew that a herd of rabid Banthas couldn't drag her to Yavin IV under any
conceivable circumstance, though he was sure she'd learn to enjoy the peace and
quiet that several secluded spots on that planet could afford. If she could only
get past his group of devotees, as she called them, and their philosophical
discussions.
"Missing Yavin IV?" he heard a female voice ask.
Luke looked up to see his diminutive sister leaning against one of the massive
black stone pillars decorating the Imperial palace's mezzanine. His face lit up
by a bright smile but he could immediately see that the gesture was not
returned. Instead, his sister's eyes remained locked on his, her head tilted to
the side, and a conspiratorial expression was etched on her face.
"Trouble?" he asked as he neared her. He could sense nothing of the
sort from her but knew that something had to be amiss for her to appear out of
nowhere in the middle of the day.
"For you, maybe, little brother," she responded, reaching up and
pulling him down for a kiss on the cheek. "Especially if the rumors I keep
hearing are true."
Luke looked down at his twin and couldn't help but break into a smile that
extended from ear to ear. Leia didn't have to ask another word. The joy that
emanated from him spoke volumes and her own heart swelled in response. No matter
what her opinion of Mara Jade was, it warmed her to see her brother so happy.
Immediately, the irritation she had felt earlier melted, and she hooked her arm
around his and began to lead him out of the building and to a place where they
could talk quietly.
***
"I wasn't in my underwear, Leia!" Luke told her for the third time in
a row, exasperated by her questions, "I was wearing my swimming
trunks!"
Brother and sister sat side by side on a courtyard bench overlooking the
government center. Luke dropped his head into his hands and sighed in
frustration.
"We'd had an argument," he continued, "and I rushed off after her
to straighten things out before she could…"
"Blast out of Coruscant?" she finished for him. Typical Mara, she
thought to herself. She also thought about the number of times one or the other
had run off after a disagreement. This whole matter should have come as no
surprise to her, she realized. The signs had all been there; she had just been
too busy to notice. Suddenly, she felt guilty for not having taken more of an
interest in her brother's life.
"Don't, Leia," he whispered, wrapping one arm around her shoulders and
squeezing her against him, "It's not up to you to take care of me, you know…even
if you are the oldest."
Leia looked up at her brother and smiled. It had never been determined what the
order of their birth had been but if behavior were any indication, it was almost
a certainty that Leia had been the first born. The over protectiveness she felt
for her brother had been a constant in their relationship before they even knew
of their parentage. Her assumed status as the older sibling had become her trump
card, and their own private joke.
"I'm older, that's why!" she would assert whenever they disagreed over
anything.
"But I'm bigger," would be his reply.
Now, she looked at her brother's face and was filled with the hope that his
happiness would last. Knowing the both of them like she thought she did, if the
process of falling in love didn't kill them, they might have a chance at a
long-lasting relationship.
"Just promise me you'll be careful," she pleaded, resting her head on
his shoulder.
"What's there to be careful about?" he asked, wrinkling his brow.
"I'm dating a woman, not going off to battle."
"She tried to kill you once," Leia reminded him, "or have you
managed to forget that's how you met in the first place?"
"She still is," he answered sheepishly, a huge grin on his face
"she's just using a different method!"
Leia pulled away from his embrace, mouth agape, "Luke Skywalker! You've
been hanging around Han too long!"
***
For the next couple of weeks, Luke and Mara settled into an easy routine of
early afternoon lunches, various dinner dates and almost nightly work sessions,
during which they would both settle in one of their suites and work quietly,
side by side, stopping only to order dinner and have it brought to them.
It was the work sessions that Luke enjoyed most. Though very little was said
between them, just being in her company made him as happy as a Jawa in a droid
parts bazaar. Once in a while, he would reach out and impulsively caress her
cheek, forcing her attention away from her data pad then pull her in for a kiss,
before she would push him away good-naturedly and go back to her work. If it was
a good night, and their work was done, he'd succeed in leading her out to the
balcony by the hand and wrap his arms around her while they stared out at the
night sky. It was these moments filled with kisses and gentle caresses that were
the most cherished by him and they sustained him on the days when her demeanor
was not quite as agreeable.
Then there were the little things he did to brighten her mood, like arranging
for her favorite dessert to be brought to the suite while they worked. Or the
various and sundry parts he'd show up with for the Jade's Fire to improve its
performance, navigational system or handling. Mara Jade didn't spare herself any
expense when it came to her ship, but Luke always managed to come up with
something she hadn't thought of.
Once, he'd even shown up with a beautifully wrapped box of green gem-studded
hair clips, which he stated, would look beautiful against her red-gold hair. She
was amazed that Luke had taken notice of the way she continually pleated her
hair behind her head as she worked, only to have it eventually fall out of the
braid and back onto her face again. The mere thought of Luke Skywalker trouncing
around in a ladies' accessory store was enough to send her into hysterics and
for a moment, she was afraid she had hurt his feelings.
But his universe had righted itself when she had shown up at his apartment the
following evening, wearing the clips, along with a dark green top to match.
Luke's smile lit up the entire room and she was once again taken aback at how
easy it was to please this man who ostensibly, held the power of the galaxy in
his hands.
During their nights out, Luke would always contrive to walk instead of taking a
transport so that he could extend their time spent together. Of course, Mara was
aware of his tactics and of the motivation behind it, but she allowed him to
have his way nonetheless. On occasion, she'd even concede to him holding her
hand as they walked, especially if the streets appeared relatively empty and
quiet. While walking back to their suites, Luke would coax her to a window
display or some such curiosity, only to pull her into a darkened corner or alley
way and steal a kiss. Mara would pretend to be appalled by his behavior and try
to pull away from him but deep down, she secretly waited for those moments with
a great deal of anticipation.
When she allowed herself to reflect on their newfound relationship, Mara had to
admit that she was enjoying herself immensely. No other man had ever paid her so
much attention - not without wanting something in return. More importantly, she
liked how his whole universe seemed to revolve around her, and her alone. Mara
Jade was used to commanding attention, but usually it was through fear and
intimidation, never from simply existing. It was a feeling she was beginning to
appreciate.
Then there were the intense moments when his soft kisses, which always started
as innocent signs of affection, deepened and immediately sent her body into a
flurry of mixed emotions. There was no denying her lightning quick reaction to
his touch and she had to fight to control the overwhelming desire to simply go
along with the demands of her body and heart, and ignore the apprehension of her
rational mind.
It was during those tense minutes when both their hearts thumped loudest in
their chests, and their bodies melded together seamlessly, that she could feel
Luke's hopes soar. In the battle that ensued between her heart, body and mind,
it was her mind that always won out, forcing her to break away from his embrace.
His disappointment was almost palpable but he never failed to defer to her
wishes. Instead, he'd cradle her loosely in his arms and sigh contentedly,
forcing his body to cool down.
As their slow courtship continued, both were oblivious to the continued rumors
and heated debates regarding their alleged relationship. The topic of
conversation might have been on the lips of every life form inhabiting the
galaxy's government center, but nobody was foolish enough to dare approach
either of them about the matter.
If the inhabitants of Coruscant had a new rumor to keep them entertained, the
Senate and other governing bodies were paralyzed with worry and trepidation as
the news spread and gathered momentum. Having their hero and resident Jedi work
alongside the unscrupulous Mara Jade for the benefit of the New Republic was an
acceptable, if not always desirable, circumstance. However, the mere thought of
a possible romantic attachment between the two, struck fear into the hearts of
many and invoked visions of a disastrous and imminent fall from grace for the
Jedi - and for the rest of the galaxy.
There were many who reasoned that his sister, the Chief of State, would never
allow for such a union to take place. Still, there were just as many who
questioned if the former Princess of Alderaan would have the ability to deter a
Jedi with such a powerful command of the Force from doing anything he set his
mind to - even if that Jedi was her twin brother.
***
As the Trade Conference date approached, Mara's workload increased. The fact
that she would not be in attendance didn't spare her the task of preparing the
summary reports that would be required if Karrde was to negotiate intelligently
for the most profitable routes and wealthier Core systems' business. That Talon
would arrive on Coruscant just in time to attend the event while she had done
the Gamorrean's share of the preparatory work did not upset Mara in the least.
The fact that Talon entrusted the information gathering side of their operation
to her suited her beautifully. Besides, she considered herself better designed
for the surreptitious fact finding side of their organization than she was for
the glitzy, smooth-talking show that Karrde would have to put on in order to
negotiate with the oily politicians and business owners that attended these
conferences.
What she was beginning to resent was the fact that her increasing workload had
kept her away from Luke for several evenings. She would have rather take her
chances in a Sarlacc pit than admit it, but she had become accustomed to his
warm and comforting presence, which seemed to envelop her in a protective cocoon
whenever he was nearby. She had even come to miss his pleas for a kiss here and
there, and his passion for late evening walks to his greenhouse, where he would
labor and fuss over those Cyandria flowers that Mara knew for certain, would
never bloom.
Still, it amused her to sit and listen to him rattle off plant-life facts and
weave in stories of his childhood spent on Tatooine. They were small tid bits of
a personal history filled with the cuts, scrapes and mishaps of most kids and
their adventures at that age. But they were also the tales of a young boy, an
outcast, who spent his days daydreaming about becoming a pilot, while being
misunderstood and ridiculed by his friends and caregivers. It was a childhood,
she reflected, much the same as her own.
Simply put, she missed him deeply.
She had even found herself expectantly looking around as she worked, hoping that
he would show up with his blue eyes full of mischief, to whisk her away for a
couple of hours. Unfortunately, the peace negotiations he had been mediating had
also added to the time they were forced to spend apart.
Two days! She reminded herself. Two days and the conference would be over and
her life would return to normal. What she suddenly realized was that now, normal
meant sharing her life with Luke Skywalker.
Mara shook her head and cast the notion out of her mind. She had work to
concentrate on, reports to compile and…
"Blast it!" she spit out through clenched teeth, looking at her
chrono. Talon would be arriving in an hour and she had agreed to meet him at his
docking bay for an update on several late changing accounts. Mara chastised
herself for her carelessness. It wasn't like her to miss appointments or have
details slip her mind so easily. Then again, it wasn't like her to while away
her time thinking about a man, either.
Irritated, she slammed her data pad closed and rushed out of her suite. If she
hurried, she could still catch him before he was cleared by customs. Thankfully,
with Talon, customs checks ran longer than the tails on a T'wilek!
***
As she neared the Custom's bay, a lone figure distanced itself from the crowd
and began making its way to her. Gavean Trent's large frame undulated as he
walked, his long legs rounding to the side as he took each step. There was
cadence of self-reliance to his gait that had always rubbed Mara the wrong way.
Had she still been in service to the Emperor, she would have arranged for
Trent's disappearance - and the galaxy would have been the better for it.
Instantly, she could hear Luke's words in her head. That's the dark side
talking, Mara!
Mara folded her arms before her and stood squarely to await him to make his way
to her.
"Just what do you think you're doing here, Gavean?" she asked. In the
past week, she had seen Gavean Trent enough times to last her a lifetime.
"Red!" he exclaimed, reaching for her hand, his smile widening.
"What a pleasure it is to see you…again!" His dark eyebrows arched
and Mara felt a pull at the pit of her stomach. The man simply repulsed her.
She kept her arms folded and glared at him, "Cut the Bantha fodder, Gavean.
I don't see any wealthy widows in the near vicinity, what brings you?"
"Actually, gorgeous, I should be asking you the same thing," he
whispered, leaning in slightly, "I don't see the vaulted Luke Skywalker
anywhere so, ah, what brings you here?"
Mara's heart skipped a rapid beat, but she maintained her demeanor. The gears in
her mind, however, were spinning furiously.
"Speak Basic, Gavean!" she seethed, " What are you talking
about?"
"Why, my dear," he continued, bowing his head even lower to whisper
seductively into her ear, "the word is out all over Coruscant! From
Emperor's Hand to Skywalker's concubine, they say. You certainly don't skip a
beat, do…"
Mara's closed fist connected with his windpipe before he was able to finish the
sentence. His body bowed forward from the waist and he fell to one knee,
clutching at his throat as he did so and gasping brokenly for breath.
Numerous pairs of eyes turned their attention to the scene before them just as
Mara began patting Gavean's back.
"You really should stay away from the cuisine here, Trent!" she
shouted over his retching. "It's not for those lacking intestinal
fortitude."
She helped him to his feet, fixed him with an angry glare and pushed him towards
the exit. Halfway there she issued another shove into the center of his back and
watched him stumble out of the double doors and into the corridor.
Her head was swimming as she turned to walk toward to custom's waiting area.
'Skywalker's concubine,' her mind repeated, 'from Emperor's Hand to Skywalker's
concubine…'
She could feel her face flush hot and she was convinced all eyes were still on
her as she tried to steady her gait. She looked down at her hands and noted that
they trembled with barely contained anger.
'Not his friend, nor his work partner but his…concubine! The whole of
Coruscant, and by now the galaxy at large, considered her Luke Skywalker's
concubine!'
There was a time when Mara Jade commanded respect and compliance throughout
Coruscant - if not through the strength of her own reputation, then certainly
through her intimate connection to the Emperor and his great power. The Empire's
finest assassin had her position firmly entrenched in the upper echelons of the
government's military as her Lord and Master's most secret weapon. Now, she was
simply being referred to as Skywalker's concubine…his whore.
It was too much to be assimilated at once.
Talon Karrde caught a glimpse of flaming red-gold hair and instantly recognized
his second in command through the crowd.
"Mara!" he shouted, raising his arm and trying to weave in and out of
the bodies. She looked up at the sound of her name and spotted Talon, impeccably
outfitted, making his way to her.
She took in a deep breath and stood erect, silently thanking the gods for the
crowds that would afford her a couple of extra seconds to compose herself.
Talon finally reached her and with a lopsided grin, took her arm and began
leading away from the throng of people.
"So," he asked, pulling her closer by the arm. "What's this I
hear about you and Skywalker?"
To be continued...Just one more chapter!!!
Chapter Eight
Rating: NC-17 (for darned sure!)
Talon Karrde had seen Mara angry plenty of times in the past. Hell, if you hadn't seen Mara Jade angry, he reasoned, then you'd never seen Mara Jade. This time, however, he was taken aback.
In a matter of seconds, her eyes had gone from green to a blazing dark foliage
hue that rivaled the forests of Endor, and her face had tripled its blush to a
shade of red almost in tandem with her hair. Mara shook where she stood, fists
and jaw clenched, and glared at him intently. Her eyes were glazed over so that
Talon was certain she was not looking at him but through him. His
second-in-command, it was clear, was fighting for restraint with every fiber of
her being. Instantly, he turned her away from him and looped his arm around hers
to guide her out of the Custom's Center and away from the eye of the public.
"Alright, so it's not true," he said, throwing up his arms once they
had reached the safety of her suite. "Mara, you know this city has always
been awash in gossip and innuendo. Ignore it, and it will likely die out."
Talon crossed his arms in front of his chest and watched as the most trusted
member of his organization furiously pace her common room, head bowed and eyes
downcast. She stopped at his words and speared him with a look that would have
frozen half a dozen species in place with fear.
"So," he said slowly, "it is true."
Mara swallowed hard and turned on her heel to look out of her floor-length
window, not muttering a word. Sweat beaded on her forehead and her hands felt
clammy and cold. Talon watched her closely but maintained his silence. It had
been his policy throughout the years not to become involved in the private lives
of his employees and even though he thought of Mara Jade as a friend, he
resolved to keep to his policy - for the time being.
A part of him had been anything but shocked at the reports of Mara and
Skywalker's liaison. There had always been a certain something between them - an
understanding of one another - that he had never seen between Mara and any other
man. Skywalker's placid and calm demeanor was a perfect counterbalance to Mara's
volatile and hostile nature.
Mara walked over to her desk, gathered a few disks and unceremoniously handed
them to him. "I'll be in contact with the rest of the information
soon," she stated, as coolly a she could manage.
Talon regarded her for a few seconds then nodded and let himself out of her
suite. If this whole matter had to do with Skywalker, he was afraid the young
Jedi was in for some very unpleasant moments. Still, Luke had managed to handle
Mara when her most fervent wish was to see him dead. Having survived that, any
other encounter with an angry Mara should be as easy as picking off womprats
with an ion canon.
***
Mara's eyes stung with the threat of tears and she gritted her teeth in an
effort to keep them at bay. She was almost hyperventilating now. Her chest rose
and fell faster and faster as her breathing became quicker. Finally, unable to
withstand the urge any longer, she let the tears spill from her eyes with a deep
sob. They burst forth and she wept openly, burying her face in her hands.
'Skywalker's concubine...' her mind replayed over and over again.
Another phrase interwove itself and kept slipping into her mind at frequent
intervals.
'To have you in my bed every night for the rest of my life.'
Fittingly, it was not the populace's assertion that she was sleeping with a man
that bothered her. That it had been intimated that she belonged to a man was
what felt like an affront to her sense of independence. Her private life, and
how many men she chose to share her bed with, were nobody's business. If the
whole galaxy was convinced that she seduced a different man every single night,
then let them think so. That was a far cry better than to have them believe that
she was at the beck and call of one man. And to have that man be Luke Skywalker
was simply the load that broke the Tauntaun's back.
Had Luke known about the rumors spilling from the mouths of Coruscant's elite
and still continued his nightly visits to her suite? She asked herself, staring
out of her window through hazy and unfocused eyes. Had the populace at large
whispered conspiratorially as he contrived to parade her through the streets of
the city, holding hands? Had they snickered and mocked her as he maneuvered her
into dark corners for a surreptitious kiss or two?
'Skywalker's concubine!'
Her tears flowed heavier now, embarrassment merging with her rage.
Forgotten were the nights spent wrapped in his arms as they watched the stars
make their way across Coruscant's night sky. So, too, were the stolen moments
filled with kisses and whispered confidences they'd exchanged during the past
few weeks. She had let her guard down she now realized, as the tears continued
to fall down her cheeks in a hot, steady stream, and she was paying the price
for her carelessness.
But why? What had caused her to lower her defenses against him, of all people?
Her thoughts struggled wildly to wrap themselves around the issue at hand, while
at the same time, trying to arrange it so that it all made sense to her.
Unfortunately, her spiraling anger acted like a prism under which reason
refracted, skewed, and offered little by way of clear insight.
Luke Skywalker had simply taken advantage of her only weakness, she concluded.
His overtures had unconsciously appealed to her curiosity and she had given in,
seduced by his gentle words and soft caresses.
It could have been anybody else, she now reasoned. It could have been a handful
of Governors or Administrators who had taken a liking to her during her service
to the Emperor. Most had been kind, if misguided, older men who were as blind to
Palpatine's rotting core as she had been.
It could even have been any number of officers in the Imperial Navy, she now
recalled. Strong, physically imposing Commanders and Generals who barked out
orders with conviction and cut striking poses in their naval 'grays' and
knee-high combat boots.
It could have been Talon, before she had come on board as a member of his
organization and had simply run a few jobs for him.
Her mind continued to rummage through the list of men she had encountered - men
that she had thought of as appealing but had never considered seducing. Men who
had propositioned her but that, for one reason or another, she had refused.
It could even have been Gavean Trent, if only he hadn't been continually
campaigning for her assistance with…
A sudden glint appeared in her eyes and she wiped the tears from her cheeks with
the backs of her hands. If the galaxy was convinced that she was Luke
Skywalker's plaything, then there was only one way to stack the cards against
that widely held belief. The anger which previously frothed within her, now
cooled to a simmer, and her heartbeat slowed considerably. Action had always
been Mara's strong suit and now that she had a plan, her mind began its low
descent from the peaks of white, hot anger into something a little more
manageable, if no less dangerous.
She moved to her communication console and punched in a series of codes.
"Pick me up at 1800 hours for the Trade Conference, Hotshot," she
barked into the screen as soon as Gavean's face appeared. Then just as quickly,
she signed off and sat back to contemplate the details of her assault.
***
Luke luxuriated in the feel of the hot water running down his body and rolled
his head from side to side slowly, trying to ease his tense muscles. No matter
how many hot showers he'd had in the course of ten years, he had never gotten
tired of the sensation of warm water cascading over his skin.
He was exhausted, hungry, and exasperated from the rigors of mediating for three
nights in a row. Mostly though, he missed Mara so much that his body ached. They
had communicated via messages left at each other's suites, but had been unable
to find five minutes to spend alone together the whole time they had been apart,
and tonight, though he'd be resting at home, she'd be off attending the Trade
Conference.
He had been surprised to receive her message telling him of her change of heart.
He knew how much Mara despised such events and the disingenuous conversation of
the people in attendance. However, he also knew that Talon's organization, and
her job within that organization, were first and foremost in her mind and so
when she let him know of Talon's request that she be present, he decided not to
question her on the matter.
Luke Skywalker exited the shower stall and dried himself off quickly, letting
out a breath. He then wrapped the towel around his waist and stood in front of
the mirror. He finally had an evening to himself and for that, he was immensely
grateful. Still, he'd gladly give it up if it meant he could spend just a few
minutes with Mara instead.
He glanced at his reflection and smiled, a thought formulating in his head. Even
in a conference room full of people, at least he'd be able to see her again, his
mind offered teasingly. Maybe, he though excitedly, they might even be able to
steal away for a couple of minutes, if only to exchange a private word or two.
Maybe even a quick kiss.
In a matter of minutes, Luke's spirits had lifted considerably. He shaved,
fought to comb his hair away from his eyes, where it always seemed to end up,
and dressed in his best 'blacks.' Mara would definitely not be impressed by his
attire, he thought as he stood in front of his bedroom's mirror, but she would
certainly be surprised by his unexpected appearance.
He strapped on his belt to his waist, secured his lightsaber sheath strap to his
thigh and bolted out of his suite. If he was to catch a moment alone with Mara,
the opening cocktail hour would be the best chance of the evening. There was
just one stop he needed to make.
***
Leia Organa Solo moved expertly around the room exchanging a word here and a nod
there with various traders and world representatives. Although her attendance at
the New Republic's Trade Conference was ceremonious at best, her presence always
served to add an air of decorum and elegance to an event that was often lacking
in both. Mon Mothma watched the Chief of State make her way through the crowd in
the meeting chamber's foyer and smiled approvingly. Leia Organa Solo was a small
woman, yet she radiated strength and determination, giving pause to almost
everyone she met.
As she continued to exchange polite pleasantries, a warm presence caught Leia's
attention and briefly brushed her consciousness. Leia turned to see her brother
enter the room, blonde hair shimmering under the glittering lights, dressed in
his formal black attire, and she immediately locked eyes with him. As she did
so, the room's volume of conversation increased to a steady buzz as many of the
guests turned to comment to one another and watch the Jedi Knight walk slowly to
his sister's side.
Leia smiled brilliantly and accepted Luke's arm, which he offered along with a
kiss on the cheek. She would have liked to believe that he had come to keep her
company in lieu of Han's absence, but common sense told her that his appearance
had a lot more to do with Mara Jade than with her. Still, she was glad for his
company and let him know it by squeezing his arm gently in response.
She watched as he slipped a small box into the pocket of his tunic but was
interrupted by Talon Karrde's booming voice before she could inquire as to its
contents.
"Madam Chief of State," Talon greeted her formally, taking her hand
and holding it momentarily between both his palms, "and Master
Skywalker," he continued, shaking Luke's hand, "How kind of you to
grace us with your presence."
Luke and Leia both smiled at Karrde's highbrowed façade. After years of
missions and countless exchanges of information, the three had been on a first
name basis for quite some time. However at such an event, where business trade
routes were in heavy competition, Karrde made sure to give the impression of
just the right amount of detachment from the two best-known members of the New
Republic.
"Who are you trying to kid, Talon?" Luke whispered good-naturedly, as
he vigorously shook Karrde's hand.
Talon smiled and smoothed his beard, "Best to keep up appearances, wouldn't
you say?"
Luke resisted the urge to tease Karrde by casting doubt on his almost assured
acquisition of the most coveted routes, choosing instead to focus on the
identity of the beings swirling around him.
He was about to forgo his pride and casually inquire as to Mara's whereabouts
when a hush fell over the room. So deep was the silence that ensued that all
three turned their heads anxiously, looking for the cause of the sudden cease in
conversation. Leia spotted her first, and her hand instinctively tightened
around her brother's arm.
Mara Jade stood at the entrance of the room in a stunning black low-cut column
dress that showed off her delicate skin. Her hair had been swept back away from
her face in a cascade of curls that fell down her back.
Luke beamed at the sight of her and his joyous smile seemed to light up the
entire room. Just as he stepped forward, he felt the pressure of his sister's
grip on his arm increase, jerking him back in place. His brow furrowed and his
smile instantly disappeared when Gavean Trent stepped out from behind Mara and
wrapped his arm around her waist, leading her into the crowd.
In the next few seconds, every pair of eyes shot from Luke Skywalker to Mara
Jade and back again. As the muted sound of voices increased steadily, Mara
lifted her gaze and caught sight of Luke's wide-eyed stare. Her step faltered
momentarily. She covered up the misstep by slightly picking up the skirt of her
dress and continuing to walk, effectively steering Gavean away from the shocked
trio before them.
Keeping her forced smile in place, Mara fought to strengthen her mental barriers
and stiffen her resolve. Luke wasn't supposed to be in attendance this evening,
and she hadn't accounted for his presence in her well thought-out plan. As a
matter of fact, she hadn't considered his reaction at all when the inevitable
news of her appearance with Gavean spread. Instead, she had simply decided to
depart from Coruscant after the conference and leave the whole matter of their
relationship behind. In time, she had convinced herself, the experience would
gain perspective. Until then, she had a job to do and a life to return to, one
without Luke Skywalker and the romantic overtures which had exposed her to
ridicule.
Leia glanced at Talon, whose face was still transfixed with shock, then looked
up at her brother. Luke blinked in disbelief then held her eyes for a moment,
before releasing a breath and nervously surveying the room again. His heart
pounded wildly in his chest and he felt the rush of blood go up his neck to
color his cheeks. Leia reached out to feel his presence, but he gently rebuffed
her attempt. He was desperately trying to maintain his composure and could not
afford to divide his efforts by communicating with his sister.
The melodious chimes indicating the end of the reception reverberated throughout
the room and Luke began to lead his sister, followed by a confused Talon Karrde,
to the meeting chamber. As he did so, he reached out with the Force to look for
Mara, only to have her unceremoniously shut him out. Any discussion of the
perplexing turn of events would have to be postponed until the first
intermission.
***
The multitiered meeting chamber was filled to capacity as the delegates from the
many different Core Worlds presented their business needs and then listened as
the members of the New Republic's sponsored Trade Federation offered their bids
in competition against each other.
Luke and Leia had taken their seats in their assigned semi-circular booth and
listened as the negotiations intensified while the more desirable routes were
presented. Luke Skywalker had already pinpointed Mara and her guest's location
and had repeatedly glanced over to her in an attempt to catch her eye.
For a man who had been rigorously trained not to rely on appearances alone, Luke
Skywalker was having an increasingly hard time maintaining his decorum. Mara had
communicated her decision to attend the conference, at Karrde's behest, but had
not mentioned being escorted by Trent at all. The omission bothered him greatly.
His mind worked furiously for a solution to what he was sure was not what it
seemed. Had Karrde instructed her to accompany Trent to the conference? And if
so, to what end? Luke had heard enough about Trent's reputation to know that the
majority of his business ventures were of the Rim World variety. Was he now a
member of Karrde's organization? Had Karrde made a move to expand his business
by incorporating Trent's less profitable routes? Try as he might, Luke was
unable to see the benefit of that decision.
He glanced in Mara's direction again. She sat stiffly against the cushion of her
seat while Gavean's arm rested carelessly over the back of her headrest. It was
painfully clear that she was uncomfortable and doing her best to maintain the
appearance of friendliness, but why?
And why was she so adamantly blocking him through the Force? Surely she'd know
he'd understand any professional reasons she and Karrde might have for them not
to appear as a couple at an official function, at least not yet.
Talon sat far below them, alongside the heads of competing trade organizations,
listening intently and pouring over the information on his data pad. When it
came time for him to speak, Mara and Gavean both edged forward in their seats -
Mara in an effort to appear engrossed, and Gavean in order to glean what routes
he might be able to talk Karrde into allowing him to service.
Talon's strong and confident voice filled the arena and his handsome and
striking figure held the female attendees spellbound while he outlined his
organization's structure and purpose. For Luke, however, the words faded into
the background as he continued to analyze the situation from every conceivable
angle. It was to no avail. Mara must have her reasons for appearing with Gavean
Trent, he told himself in an effort to soothe his discomfort. He'd trusted her
with his life on more than one occasion. Now it was time, he decided, that he
trust her with his heart.
***
As soon as the overhead lights of the arena intensified, signifying the first
intermission, Luke and Leia were instantly surrounded by individuals clamoring
for a moment of their time. Leia smiled courteously and graciously responded to
each greeting while Luke simply stood by her and shook a few hands. Leia could
sense her brother's distress but hoped he'd have the patience to wait until the
evening had concluded before approaching Mara. Regardless of what transpired
between them, she trusted her brother to retain his demeanor. Mara's temper,
however, was legendary and it would do neither of them any good to have a public
display of anger where all in attendance would witness it.
Mara glanced off into the distance and caught a glimpse of Luke and his sister
hopelessly surrounded by dozens of dignitaries, traders, and public officials,
and decided to make her move. She slipped past Gavean and exited their booth,
pulling him behind her by his shirtsleeve.
"I'd like some fresh air, please," she spat out in what sounded more
like a command than a request.
Gavean nodded and began escorting her out of the chamber and toward the closest
exit. He would have preferred to be introduced to the Chief of State and her
brother, but he was certainly not going to turn down an opportunity for a few
moments alone with Mara Jade. Whatever he had said to her at Customs that
afternoon had set her off like a proton torpedo, but it had apparently also
caused her to reconsider his previous advances.
Whatever the reasons for her change of heart, Gavean intended on taking
advantage of the situation.
By the time Luke was able to disentangle himself from the throng of beings
blocking him and his sister in place, Mara had exited the building altogether.
He lowered his gaze, focused his mind and quickly scanned the room but could not
locate her anywhere inside the massive chamber.
Before Leia could dissuade him, Luke made for one of the exits. He hurried past
guests and onto the street, barely avoiding a hovercraft or two. Once outdoors,
he closed his eyes and reached out to her once again. Instinctively, he opened
his eyes and looked up towards the top of the building. He could scarcely catch
her dissipating presence but knew she had traveled to the rooftop of the
government center.
Luke Skywalker smiled inwardly and re-entered the building, heading for the
lifts that would bring him face to face with her.
***
Mara held on to the railing and let the strong wind whip her hair out of the set
of clips that had held it in place. She took a deep breath and tried to quiet
her mind and body. Everything about being on this rooftop now felt strangely out
of place.
It had been on this very spot that Luke Skywalker had given her his father's
lightsaber. It was a gift that was to set in motion the beginning of her new
life as the former Emperor's Hand. It had also marked the beginning of the long
and winding road that she and Luke would travel together. A road that had led to
an invaluable friendship - the first in her life - and ultimately, into his arms
and into his bed.
She felt the moisture well up in her eyes and turned her face into the wind,
eyes wide open, and allowed the tears to be blown back and away from her cheeks.
"Credit for your thoughts, Red," Gavean offered sardonically.
Mara turned to face him and, for the first time, carefully studied his features.
Gavean Trent was admittedly a very attractive man. His dark good looks were
masculinity personified and he exuded virility and strength, if little else.
Whatever Luke Skywalker had made her feel, a man like Gavean could make her feel
as well. A kiss, after all, was the same as any other.
Forcing her body to inch forward, she leaned in to him and slowly brought her
face toward his own. Gavean did not waste a single moment in reaching out and
roughly pulling her into his arms, crushing her mouth under his.
Mara brought her hands against his chest and for a second, recoiled away from
the fury of his attack. Hesitantly, she allowed his demanding tongue to enter
her mouth and waited for a reaction from her body. It never came. Instead her
mind began screaming for her to pull away.
***
Luke Skywalker dodged the crowds that gathered in the lobby and, stepping in
sideways, squeezed his body into a lift just as the doors had begun to close.
He reached into his pocket, pulled out the small rectangular box he had
concealed there and pried open the top. Grinning, he touched the object gingerly
with his fingertip then closed the lid and let his head fall back on the cold
metal of the lift's inner wall to begin counting the seconds before the doors
would hiss open.
When they finally did, he bounded out and in a couple of steps, rounded the
corner. A lightning bolt of shock coursed through his body the instant his eyes
focused on the kissing couple. His body screeched to a halt and the box fell out
of his hands, hitting the floor with a small crack and splitting open to toss
its contents onto the ground.
Luke Skywalker stood, bolted in place, and unable to move. His jaw clenched jaw
shut and his hands closed into tight fists.
Mara had felt his presence, but not in time to disentangle herself from Gavean's
strong hold. She pushed back from him with both her hands and turned to see Luke
standing just a few feet from her, his eyes an icy-blue hue, and his neck and
face beginning to flush furiously.
Mara's mouth opened and closed and her breath caught in her throat as she tried
to whisper Luke's name. Unshielded, his heartache seared her senses and along
with the betrayal he now felt, screamed its distress through the Force for all
to hear. The sheer intensity of the pain that emanated from him hit her all at
once, causing her to stumble back a step, and she found herself rendered
speechless by its raw power and strength.
His eyes bored into hers and held her gaze steadily, begging for an explanation
to what he had just witnessed. When none came, disbelief washed over his face
and his eyes began to cloud over.
For his part, Gavean Trent stood frozen in place and watched the scene unfolding
before him, unable to speak. He would have taken the opportunity to bed Mara
Jade had it presented itself, but he wasn't foolish enough to believe the
opportunity worthy of risking his life, and the mere sight of the barely
contained Jedi standing before him caused his knees to buckle with fear.
Luke Skywalker swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat and with a
resigned nod of apparent understanding, turned on his heel and disappeared from
sight.
Mara Jade felt the impact of his barriers slamming shut against her and against
the galaxy at large, and her eyes blinked hard in surprise. She stood in place
for another moment and tentatively reached for the presence that had been a
constant in her life for the past ten years. In its place, she felt the vast
void of the Force swirling around her as if she were the only living being
within its confines. The wind that had whipped around her now seemed to pierce
right through her body as the solitude descended upon her mind and spirit.
Unconsciously, she reached out with her hand and struggled to reach him, but was
greeted only by the sound of the wind whispering ominously.
Suddenly cold, she wrapped her arms around herself and lowered her eyes to the
ground before her feet. Taking an unsteady step, she kneeled to retrieve the
object Luke had let fall to the ground. She picked up the delicate Cyandria bud
in her trembling hand and held it in her palm. The sunset-colored petals ruffled
violently under the winds that batted against them. Mara rocked back on her
heels and held the bloom to her chest, weeping silently.
***
Luke Skywalker was out of the Government Center and away from the city streets
before the chimes echoed through the meeting chamber once again. Leia and Talon
both looked at each other across the ocean of seats and exchanged worried looks.
Neither Luke, Mara, nor Gavean had reappeared after the short intermission. Leia
shrugged her shoulders and offered him a wan smile before taking her seat and
redirecting her attention to the negotiations which were about to resume.
Leia could almost hear Han's voice inside her head. 'Luke can take care of
himself, sweetheart!' She sighed, smoothed out the wrinkles from the skirt of
her gown, and decided to garner whatever bit of comfort she could from her
husband's words.
***
Gavean let out the breath he was holding and watched as Mara kneeled on the
ground, clutching the small flower to her bosom.
"Well, that was an uncomfortable moment!" he shouted with false
bravado into the wind. He readjusted the collar of his tunic and walked a couple
of steps to where Mara sat. He reached over and placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Shall we continue where we left off, sweetheart?" he offered her.
Mara shrugged off his hand and, in an instant, grabbed him by the front of the
shirt and pinned him to the railing behind them. Gavean reached to his side and
held on for dear life, his neck craning to view the heights from which she now
threatened to throw him.
"You ever lay a hand on me again, Trent," she spat out, "and
there won't be enough of you to scrape clean."
***
Mara leaned against the outer wall of the gymnasium building and slipped off her
high-heeled sandals, rubbing her reddened toes and the balls of her feet. In the
past hour, she had scoured every place she thought Luke could have possibly
sought to seclude himself, while desperately trying to keep despair from
overtaking her altogether.
Luke Skywalker had not only been shielding himself, he had seemingly yanked his
presence away from her so that not even a trail of him could be felt anywhere.
Without the warmth and comfort of his Force print within reach, the void that
descended on her heart and soul felt like an endless precipice, a cold chasm
through which she continued to fall without ever hitting bottom.
She struggled to focus and in the absence of his Force identity, used reason to
discern where he might have gone. She had checked his apartment suite first,
then had spoken with Ground Control, expecting to be informed of his sudden
departure to Yavin IV, but had been surprised to hear that he had not requested
a clearance.
She had been to Coruscant's library and checked the private reading room he had
reserved there, only to find it empty and dark. The government center's central
courtyard and the gymnasium had been dead ends as well.
Slowly opening her palm, she looked at the tiny flower bud she had carried in
her hand.
The greenhouse…
Mara slipped on her shoes and rapidly made her way to the Solo household. When
she reached the building's inner lifts, she called the Force around her and
willed her mind to remember the set of codes that would give her entry. As each
digit was recalled, she punched it into the pad and smiled when the access
panel's light flashed green and the lift began to move upward.
The intense humidity of the greenhouse's interior was soothing and she carefully
tiptoed around the greenery, holding her breath. Unable to use the Force to
detect his presence, Mara had to rely on her vision alone, and the darkness
within was almost impenetrable.
As she neared the corner where the Cyandria bulbs were planted, her eyebrows
knitted tightly in confusion. Peering closer and straining to focus her eyes in
the dark, she noticed that the bulbs' protective covering had been pulled off
and that each of the blooms was in varying stages of wilting. Several had
already succumbed to the lack of nutrients and additional moisture they required
to survive out of their natural habitat and had folded and collapsed.
Mara's face contorted in grief as the symbolic gesture of Luke's actions became
clear to her. Her heart tightened painfully in her chest and the despair she had
fought so hard to keep at bay burst its barriers and smashed against her
consciousness with its full impact.
Mara fell to her knees and contemplated the consequences of what she had done.
The only acts of kindness and affection that she had ever experienced had been
at the hands of Luke Skywalker. In his arms she had come to know love, security
and tenderness. In their friendship she had found a solid foundation with which
to build a new life and which had given her the strength to shed her past and
forgive herself for the atrocities she had committed on behalf of her emperor.
He had gently courted her, wooed her and allowed her to experience the simple
pleasures of life once again. He had accepted her as she was, flawed and
misguided, and had given her what no one else had dared to - his unconditional
love.
And yet, she had found it necessary to push him away, both physically and
emotionally, withholding her growing affection for him in order to protect her
stubborn pride. She had returned his devotion by taking all he had bestowed upon
her and throwing it back in his face, effectively casting aside the only man who
she could ever love.
Luke Skywalker had given her his soul, and she had given him nothing in return,
save a broken heart.
And for what purpose? To conserve her reputation as the cold, steel-willed
assassin who would never conceive of returning the love of the most deserving of
men.
She looked down at the delicate wilting flowers through the flow of tears and
thought about the events of the past several weeks. The life she had so
convincingly believed she wanted to return to now meant nothing to her without
Luke Skywalker to share it with.
'To have you in my bed every night for the rest of my life.'
Taking a ragged breath, she reached over and replaced the protective cover over
the plants and wandered out of the greenhouse and into Coruscant's empty
streets.
***
Not even the inky darkness of space, with its billion points of bright light,
could offer him the solace his heart ached for. Luke Skywalker sat in the
cockpit of his old X-Wing fighter, still docked in the landing bay, and stared
out at the night sky.
The cockpit of this old, weathered ship, with its cracked leather seat and faded
instrument panel, felt like home to him now. He lowered the canopy and stretched
his legs before him, taking a deep breath and letting his mind drift back to the
places the smell of his ship would take him.
Most young children slept with their arms wrapped around stuffed Ewoks or
Banthas. As a toddler, Luke Skywalker had slept with miniature fighter models
beneath his pillow. Now, the cockpit of his own beloved ship acted as his
security blanket. It enveloped him in a cocoon filled with the smells and sights
he loved best. Save one - Mara Jade.
He had promised himself he would not spend a moment's time in examination of the
twists and turns of their relationship. He had taken a gamble, he reasoned, and
he had lost. Time to fold the Sabbacc cards and go home. Time, too, he told
himself, to begin to come to terms with the fact that perhaps he was meant to
spend the rest of his days alone.
The odds had been stacked against him from the very beginning. For all of the
adulation the galaxy bestowed upon him, he knew who he was. More importantly, he
knew what he was. A farmer turned fighter pilot, with a powerful yet frightening
birthright. He was Jedi Knight still struggling to understand his role in the
universe but who, by all accounts, had little to offer a woman by way of comfort
or lifestyle.
Mara Jade had made a new life for herself, denounced her past and had accepted
the fact that the Force would forever be her ally - if she chose to perfect the
use of it. She was also a stunningly beautiful woman who could command the
attention and devotion of just about any man in the galaxy. Apparently, she had
done just that.
He tried to keep the vision of her in Trent's arms from overtaking him once
again and fiercely squeezed his eyes shut. It didn't help. His insides spun
tightly and his stomach lurched forward as a wave of nausea washed over him. The
familiar stinging he felt preceded the couple of tears that streaked down his
face and he slammed his open palm on the throttle in frustration.
His mind tried desperately to override the pain and anguish he felt in his
heart, but it could not do so convincingly. Mara had felt right, his soul wanted
to shout out against all logic. She had felt right in his arms, in his bed, and
in his life. He didn't care much that he had been her first, but he was
heartsick at the notion of not being her last.
Resolutely, he opened the canopy and stepped out onto the ladder, taking each
rung one by one. He couldn't remember the last time he had done so, always
preferring to fling himself from the cockpit and allow his body to slide down
the ladder with only his hands gripping the sides. He turned away from his only
possession and began walking back to his apartment.
***
Still shielding himself from everything and everyone, he slipped into his
darkened suite to an excited and jubilant Artoo, who issued a series of
high-pitched beeps and whistles from his power station in the corner of the
common room at the sight of his master.
Luke ignored his astromech's pleas for attention and slipped off his boots while
still standing. He then picked them up with one hand and made his way to the
floor-length window where he and Mara had spent so many nights in each other's
arms.
His whole apartment felt empty and strangely vacant without her. He could still
smell the lingering scent of her perfume and feel the swirling remnants of her
presence surrounding him. He could almost hear her calling out his name.
He pushed himself away from the window and walked to his bedroom, head lowered
and boots still in hand. As he did so, the decorative lights over his bed's
headboard sprang to life, bathing the sheets in soft light and illuminating the
figure lying beneath them. Luke Skywalker looked up disbelievingly.
Mara Jade lay awake on his bed, her red-gold hair spread out over his pillow.
His heart skipped a beat and his breathing stopped as his eyes poured over her
naked body, sensuously outlined by the thin, linen-colored sheets.
Mara too, held her breath. Her red-rimmed eyes scanned his face for any hint of
a reaction and her heart felt as if it would leap into her throat at his
slightest move. She deserved to be flung out of his apartment, naked as she was,
but her heart held out the hope that Luke Skywalker wasn't totally and
irrevocably lost to her.
Her fears were temporarily subdued when, in one lightening-quick step, Luke
crossed the distance between them and gathered her in his arms, sheets and all,
and pressed her to him with all his might. Mara wrapped her arms around him and
desperately clung to his body, burying her face in his neck. No longer
restrained by her old notions of love and affection, Mara's body shook as her
sobs racked through her and tears spilled uncontrollably.
Afraid of his reaction once his initial shock wore off, she resisted his
attempts at pulling her face away from the crook of his neck to look into her
eyes. Mara continued to cling to him as if her very existence depended on
keeping him pressed to her, and her ragged sobs increased in intensity.
No sooner had he seen her lying in his bed, than he had dropped the mental walls
he had built during the last couple of hours and allowed her access to the
confines of his heart. Still, his unspoken assurances did little to soothe her
present state. Instead, they reminded her of all she had almost lost, including
the man who was now so readily offering it all to her anew.
"Shhh, my love," Luke whispered into her hair, as he ran his quivering
hand down the back of her head, trying to comfort her. "Talk to me,
Mara."
Mara shook her head against his shoulder and continued her desperate crying,
unleashing years of pent-up emotion and refusing to be pulled away.
Luke tentatively probed her mind and found it open and receptive to his touch.
Tortured images and raw feelings wove in and out of each other and swirled in a
raging storm of despair. Above it all, Luke Skywalker sensed her paralyzing fear
that she had lost him, and for the first time, he understood that for all of her
indications to the contrary, Mara Jade loved him deeply.
His heart pounded so hard in his chest that he could hear its deafening rhythm
in his head, almost drowning out Mara's sobs. Slowly, he maneuvered to unbuckle
his belt and unfasten his holster while still keeping Mara pressed against him.
He then slipped out of his tunic, one shoulder at a time and flung it away from
the bed. He tenderly began pulling the sheets away from her so that he could
join her beneath them and gasped when his skin came into contact with hers. He
felt her nipples harden against him and could immediately feel his erection
begin to throb with desire. Mara, too, took in a sharp breath then released it
as he lay back against the pillows, taking her with him.
Luke alternated kisses and caresses with whispered reassurances, rocking her
slightly in his arms. After what seemed like an eternity, Mara's body began to
show signs of exhaustion and she fell, depleted, across his chest. Luke gently
lifted her face to his own and gazed at it lovingly. Her eyes were all but
swollen shut from crying and her face was blotchy and red, but her overwhelming
beauty still held him spellbound.
He smiled warmly and lowered his lips to cover her own. Mara drank in his kiss
and immediately opened her mouth and allowed his tongue to languidly caress
hers. She put her heart and soul into the kiss, trying to transmit what she knew
her words could not, and sighed heavily when she felt his acceptance of her
anguished apology.
"Oh, Luke," she pleaded, her voice hoarse, "I …"
The words caught in her throat and she struggled to gather a breath. "Make
love to…"
Both her request, and the sound of her calling him by his first name, caused his
body to react instantaneously. Before she could finish her sentence, he rolled
her over onto her back and bestowed dozens of soft, hot kisses on her face and
neck, simultaneously brushing aside locks of hair that were plastered to her
cheeks.
As he moved down her body, he cupped a bare breast in his hand and brushed the
pink, soft nipple with his thumb before wrapping his lips around it, teasing it
with his tongue. As it sprang to life, he kneaded her breast eagerly and sucked
harder, causing Mara to gasp with pleasure. He repeated his ministrations on her
other breast as she threaded her fingers through his silky soft hair and
whispered his name repeatedly.
He moved slowly down her body, planting kisses down her stomach, past her
bellybutton and to the insides of her thighs. Mara parted her legs, writhing in
ecstasy and pressed her fingers into his shoulders. Placing a kiss atop the
sprinkling of strawberry blond hair first, Luke parted her swollen labia with
one hand and caressed the delicate folds of skin with the tip of his tongue.
Her body shot upward as he continued to tease the crevices of flesh within her
and taste the increasing bursts of warm moisture that sprang forth, before
moving his lips slightly against the sensitive bud of skin at the center and
taking it gently into his mouth.
Mara's body began to convulse and her insides tightened, yearning to feel him
inside her. Luke moved up her body to once again suckle on an erect nipple and
then slipped two of his fingers within her, moving them in and out of her molten
core. Her screams echoed throughout the suite, and her fingers dug deep into the
skin of his shoulders as her body spiraled out of control with the force of her
orgasm.
Luke's own erection, still constricted within his pants, ached painfully against
the fabric as he held Mara against him and felt the waves of pleasure crashing
over her. He lifted his head and brought his forehead to rest against hers,
holding her head with both of his palms and showering her lips and cheeks with
gentle kisses.
"No," he heard her sigh against his cheek, as she wrapped her legs
around his torso and sought out his hardened shaft. "Not enough." Her
body craved to have him inside her, to become one with him again, and to feel
his seed spill out within her.
Before he could respond, she ran her hands down his sides and began unfastening
his trousers and pulling them down past his buttocks. His erection throbbed in
her grip and a deep groan escaped from his lips as she pumped it with her hand,
running her slender fingers along the length and smearing the bead of moisture
over the swollen head with her thumb.
Luke's hips thrust against her as his tongue plunged into her mouth and began
emulating the same motion and rhythm her hand had initiated. Mara sighed and
moved to cup his scrotum in the palm of her hand, squeezing him gently and
sending his desire into the stratosphere.
He snaked his hand between them, and holding it over her own, ran his hardened
penis along the wet, petal soft skin before plunging into the depths of her with
a tortured moan. Mara arched her back, thrusting her hips toward him, and felt
her inner muscles clamp down as he began to undulate within her at an increasing
pace. She was immediately light-headed and her mind felt devoid of any rational
thought as her body relished in the feelings of intense pleasure Luke's
lovemaking invoked.
With each new thrust Luke endeavored to bury himself deeper within her, working
towards the inevitable climax and spurred on by her moans and lust-filled pleas
for him not to stop. As he reached his crescendo, he hooked one arm behind her
knee, tilting her hips upward and with one final thrust, sent them both over the
edge, spiraling into simultaneous orgasms, sending his seed exploding into her
depths.
Gasping for breath, he collapsed in her arms and buried his face in her neck.
She quivered beneath him and ran her fingers through his damp hair. Both were
covered in a thin sheen of sweat that had immediately begun to cool in the
aftermath of their lovemaking. Luke rolled onto his back, gathering her with
him, and held her tightly in his embrace as she wrapped her arms and legs around
his body and tried to gather oxygen into her lungs.
He heard her whisper-soft voice inside his head and suddenly his heart soared
and his soul rejoiced.
'For the rest of my life?' He asked gently through the Force.
Mara smiled and nodded her head against his chest while she caressed his face
with her fingertips, tracing the line of his jaw.
'In your bed every night for the rest of your life,' she answered, and reached
up to seal the promise with a kiss.
Finis