What is in a name
I dont play the sue me game
If it is me you want to blame
Remember I dont have money cus I'm lame
This is my very first fic
Lemon, POV and Some Angst
NC-17
4x5 and 3x4
Plot: Wufei, Quatre and Trowa find themselves in a whirlwind of lustful emotions.
The Crying Sunrise
by Markanovanlink
I look at the digital clock on the dresser next to the bed that I am lying in. 4:35a.m. is what my one opened eye sees. I sigh when I listen to the noise that woke me up. It is a soft crying sound coming from the other room. I hear the sound of someone opening a door and walking down the hallway, then silence. As I begin to close my eyes once more, I hear the sound again. The crying is choked by deep suffocating breaths. The crying is very low but I hear it as if I was standing next to that person.
I don't know why I got up. It is really none of my business. What they do in their bedroom is their business not mine. So why am I getting up to go to the door of their room? As I walk down the hall, I realize that the door is half way open. I stand up against the wall at an angle so I can see the whole door. The door is old just like the rest of this ugly cabin we are hiding in. Hiding like cowards. We should be fighting not hiding. The crying , I hear it again. This time it is just a lot of sniffs. What can he be possibly crying about? So weak. How can I be this weak. I am standing in front of someone else's room door trying to wonder why someone is crying. Not only weak but nosy. A voice in my head finally says "Don't get involved." So I walk away from the door and head back to my room when I hear someone behind me.
I turned around only to see a figure walk out of the room and down the hall towards the front door of the cabin. I follow the figure silently and slowly. Once outside the figure runs towards the woods. Why am I following him? Hell, why is he running like he lost everything in the world?
When he stopped running I hid behind a tree and watched him. He fell to his knees in the muddy grass and started to cry again only this time the crying was hard and loud. I should go back to the cabin and let him have his time alone. But I stay. The sun is beginning to rise and he still is crying. The first rays hit his small body with bright colors which bounce off his pale skin. His hair reflects the suns rays in a bright yellowish white. I run my eyes down his flawless back. He must be cold with out a shirt on. He is only wearing lose white pants. He finally starts to shiver. I just want to run over there and put my arms around him and tell him everything will be okay, but I don't know that because I don't know what is wrong with him.
Why am I worried about him anyway? I don't have feelings for others. I don't want to, but I feel something. He is the only person who seemed to care about me. I know he cares about the others but I am not use to having someone care about me. Right now he needs someone to care about him.
I began to unbutton my shirt as I watch him crying. He doesn't hear me come behind him and put my shirt around him. He stops crying to look at me. Why is there fear in his eyes as he looks at me? He drops his head saying, "Thanks."
"No problem. So why are you out here so early?"
"Just wanted to see the sun rise."
"Crying?" I hold his face in my hands and look into the tear filled aquas saying, " Do you want to talk about it?" He looked down again and then up to my eyes and then closed his eyes. His lips moved forming a soundless name. I knew whose name it was. "Trowa?"
"Yes."
"So what is wrong?" He puts his head down into his tiny hands and starts to cry again. Why does he cry so much? I am never really around the others much, but when I am or if we are on a mission he is always so emotional. So emotional that it makes me feel something, but a soldier is not suppose to feel anything. But Quatre makes me feel something everytime he gets emotional or something. Right now I feel like I should put my arms around him. I wonder what it is like to feel someone's embrace. I never had anyone hold me when I was scared or alone. My life was full of obedience and training never really love but respect, my family was big on respect. The only time I felt someone touch me was if I was being punished, interrogated, or examined by doctors.
Once I was touch on the cheek by Her. Then I didn't appreciate Her, but now I wish I could relive my life just so I can tell Her how much I really cared. But I didn't know how to show care then.
Today I will try. I put both arms around Quatre's small shoulders and pull him close to me. He tried to pull away but gave up because I wasn't letting go. He placed his head on my chest and sobbed silently. I began to run my fingers through his golden hair trying my best to comfort him. He is so warm against my body. His hot tears run down my skin giving me a strange feeling in my spine. I hold him tighter to me as he puts his arms around my waist. His hands touching my back. I bite my lip to keep form moaning. Why do I feel so strange?
Quatre stops crying and moves his body up so that his head is up under my chin. I lean back so he can be comfortable but I end up on my back. Cursing to my self Quatre picks his head up to smile at me. His skin is flushed from crying but his eyes are clear. He is so beautiful. What the hell am I saying?! He is a boy! I am a boy. Boys don't think other boys beautiful. Well straight ones don't, oh boy! I feel my face turn a shade darker as he looks at me.
I guess I was staring. "What!?!"
"Nothing you look like you are embarrassed or something."
"Me embarrassed, hmp."
"Sorry."
"So are you going to tell me what made you cry," I began to wipe a left over tear trail from under his bright aqua eyes with my thumb "but if you don't what to talk about..." Quatre had cut off my sentence when he swung his head against my neck and chest crying. All I could do was hold him. What if Duo saw us like this? Me laying on my back on the ground with my arms around Quatre. I would never hear the end of it. Duo would blow it out of proportion. I can hear all the jokes he would have everytime he saw me. In a way I kind of like laying here with Quatre on top of me. What am I saying I not that way right? I don't like boys that way but I cant stand girls. I only feel emotional when I'm around Quatre. Maybe I feel something for him. Sometimes all I do is think about Quatre, praying that nothing happens to him in this war. What is it that I feel for him?
"I thought he loved me." Quatre's words hit my neck with hot breaths that made me feel tingly. "He told me he could never love me. I wish I never told him that. I wish I didn't. I wish..." His tears began a new trail going down my neck.
"Quatre you don't really know him. How are you so sure you love him?" With that Quatre looked at me puzzled. Well it is the truth, I thought.
"Do you know what it's like being in love?"
"I don't know."
"Well I have these feelings for him that are so strong that they make me think about him all the time and want to be with him all the time."
"Kind of like Relena."
"Well she is more bold than I, but I do take no for answer." With that we both laughed a little but his happy smile seem to vanish.
"Quatre, I would like to confess something to you."
"What is it?"
"Well I not sure how to say this but I think I am in love with you if what you are saying is true. Wait don't say anything just hear me out. You are the first person I have known in a long time who seemed to cared about me. I feel something for you. Everytime I am around you I don't feel so alone. Your smile makes me realized there still a reason to fight this stupid war. I never knew my feelings for you were this strong until I held you in my arms. I know you love Trowa and I am not asking you to love me but I do want you to know that I do love you because I feel that I will always think about you and want to be with you."
I feel tears in my eyes as I close them. Please Quatre don't say anything. Please don't. I don't know why I blurted all that out like that. Oh Nataku if only I was stronger. I just feel so alone.
"You don't have to." Damn! Must have said it out loud. Quatre looked at me and smiled, "Life is to short to hold in all of our emotions. Wufei have you ever been kissed?" What the hell! I don't believe He is asking me if I ever been kissed. I turn my face from his in order to keep him from seeing me turn funny colors. I hear him say, "It's okay," as he ran his hands over my face turning it so I could face him. I look at his beautiful eyes as they seemed to get closer to mine. I froze as his lips touched mine. Is Quatre kissing me!?! I feel his hot tongue run slowly over my lips. Then He stopped and looked at me. I must be in shock because I can't move or say anything. "Wufei?"
"Huh."
"Are you all right?"
"Huh?"
"Wufei are you all right?"
"Oh yeah. Quatre, why did you do that? Don't you..."
With one finger over my lips he cut my sentence off saying, "lets go back to the cabin I am cold." He pulled me to my feet and place his arm through mine. We said nothing as we made our way back to the cabin. But I had two fingers on my lips the whole trip. I guess that is why he was smiling the whole way. I just couldn't believe he did that. Didn't he love Trowa. I mean I don't want to be a substitute, but I do want to know what it is like to be with Quatre.
As we reached the cabin, Heero and Duo were getting into the jeep. Heero looked at us and told us that they were going to town to get some supplies and they would be back in five hours. Duo told me that Trowa had taken my bike to go to town but he promise to bring it back safe and sound. Duo looked at me and Quatre and started to say something but Heero had pulled him by his braid into the jeep and sped off. Quatre waved his hand until they were out of sight and grab my arm pulling me into the cabin and locked the door.
Quatre smiled at me and told me he wanted to show me something. I nodded and followed him. As we walk into his room, I suddenly remembered he and Trowa sleep in this room together. I looked around the room and saw two beds instead of the big bed I thought was in here. Maybe Duo and Heero have the room with the one big bed. I was about to add two and two together until I felt Quatre's hands push me on one of the beds. Quatre's hands were on my face as his lips went for mine. This time I wasn't in shock when he did it. His tongue run along my cheek up to my ear. While he sucked on my ear he whispered, "Let me make love to you."
"What about Trowa?"
"He not here is he?"
"No he is not, but I don't want you to do anything thing that you will regret. What if he changes his mind?" I really didn't want to get hurt.
"He won't change his mind. Trowa told me he can never love anyone like me. I need someone to love. I can't survive in this war without something or someone to fight for. Time is to valuable in a war. You take love where you can get it. Since you are giving it to me I am going to take it. Now that I know you love me I need you to help me make up for the lost time I spent going after Trowa when I should have been going after the one who really loved me. Will you let me begin to love you?"
"Quatre, I never," never made it from my lips as I felt his lips against mine. I could feel his tongue pushing its way through my lips. I parted my lips so I could feel his tongue against mine. He broke the kiss and started to push me against the bed. I laid on my back as He got on top of me. I felt his tongue everywhere. I felt so hot. I never in my whole life felt this way before. Oh Nataku. Oh Quatre. His tongue was sliding down my chest and over my nipples. I felt his hands on my hips. He was pulling down my pants. I gashed when I realized what he was doing.
"Do you trust me Wufei?" I panted a yes to him as he began to slowly pull my pants down my legs. When he went for my boxers he licked my ear and told me to trust him. Now I am naked on a bed looking at Him remove my shirt from his body and any other garments he might have had on. I couldn't tell him I was scared. I can do this. I am a Gundam Pilot. We are afraid of noth.... oh his hands what is he doing. I almost shriek when he put his hands on my inner thighs. I feel so hot there. I feel a burning feeling between my legs. On Nataku what is wrong with me? I feel my body shake as Quatre sucks and bites at my neck. His tongue traveled down my chest again but this time it goes all the way to my navel. I almost screamed when he dipped his tongue in my navel. His tongue went down even further until it touched the burning feeling between my legs.
"Quatre!"
"Do you want me Wufei?"
"Yesss!"
"How bad?"
"Really gotdamn bad!!!" I felt myself scream out as Quatre's lips surrounded that burning. I clenched the sheets and tried not to thrust into his mouth. I could feel him sucking me and moving his tongue all over. I never felt like this before. Hell I never did this before. I could feel my body tense up as I screamed out Quatre's name. Everything went white until I felt his fingers on the back of my neck. I looked into his eyes as he began to speak but I didn't hear. He got closer to me and kissed me I could taste my self as I sucked on his tongue. He moved from my mouth and started to suck my ear as he repeated what he said.
"I want to be inside you." He put his hands in my hair taking the black rubber band off. After playing in my hair for sometime he reached over me and picked something up off the dresser. He looked me in the eye and said "trust me." I couldn't see what he was doing because he put all my hair in my face. After a while, I felt a wet finger pushing in me. As I was about to get up to get away, I felt a hand hold me down. Quatre looked at me again and said "Trust me Wufei. Just relax." So I did what he said. I could feel the finger slid in again but deeper this time. It hurt like hell when he put in three fingers. "This will hurt at first but trust me." I nodded as I try to fight the tears in my eyes. He was pushing his hardness inside me. Oh Nataku this really hurts. He was going really slow and deep. I felt a shock run through my body. He hit something inside me that made me get hard all over again. All I could do was moan. Quatre must have heard me because he started to move in and out of me a little faster hitting that same spot that made me moan even louder. I could feel his hand start pumping me as he increased his thrusts in my body.
"Oh Nataku!!!" I felt myself explode in Quatre's hand just he went for one final deep thrust that caused him to explode inside me. He collapsed on my chest. I rubbed his back because he was breathing harder than me. He soon got up and eased out of me and took me in his arms.
"Are you okay Wufei?"
"Yeah." His arms became tighter as he put his face in my hair. I can hear him say thankyou in my hair. I felt so safe in his arms. I thought nothing could break this perfect moment, until the door to the room opened up.
"Quatre, I am sorry about earlier but I had to think so I..." Trowa stood at the door with both fists balled up tight and one emerald green glaring at me and Quatre.