What is in a name
I dont play the sue me game
If it is me you want to blame
Remember I dont have money cus I'm lame
This a fic I wrote years ago.
NCS, Torture, Angst and Violence
NC-17
1x2, 1x3, 1x4, 3x4 1x?
Plot: This is a really dark fic about Heero raping Quatre while he was drunk.
What will Trowa and Duo do when or if they find out?
“Talk”
‘Thoughts’
//Flashbacks//
So Innocent
by Markanovanlink
"Heero stop it! I said no! Heero let go of my arm. Heero!! You have had way to much to drink."
"So have you!"
"But I'm not the one forcing myself on anybody."
Heero got real angry at the last thing Duo said. So angry that he back slapped Duo hard enough to bust his lip. Duo put his hand to his face and wiped away the blood on his face just as Quatre entered the room.
"Duo you're bleeding! Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm okay." Glaring at Heero. "Hey you're back from your mission early, any problems?"
"None. The place wasn't under heavy guard. So what happened to your lip Duo?"
"Nothing Q, don't worry about it. I leaving right now anyway. I don't have time to chat, see you both tomorrow."
"Where are you going?"
'Away from Heero.' After narrowing his eyes at Heero Duo turned towards Quatre with a hugh smile on his face. "On a mission. See ya."
Duo walk out of the door waving at Quatre and flicking off Heero. Quatre saw this and turned to Heero to see what had really happened to Duo, but Heero got up and left the room before Quatre could say anything.
Quatre sat on the couch in the big room an eyed the empty bottles of liquor. One of the bottles had a dark green sheen to it. His eye traveled down the green glass bottle's body noting the curves on it. Closing his eyes he saw what made his heart jump. 'Oh Trowa. I miss you already. I hate the war because it keep's us apart. I love the war because it brought us together. Oh Trowa, all I do is dream about you. I wish you knew how much I love you. Why is loving you so wrong?'
Quatre was so far gone in his thoughts that he didn't notice when Heero came back into the room. Standing over him, Heero stared at Quatre while he slept on the couch. 'Damn Duo for making me hit him. Damn I just wanted it to be just the two of us. Damn Quatre for coming home so early from his mission. Damn Quatre. I never noticed how cute he looks sleeping like that. I wonder if he is a virgin. He acts so innocent all the time. Maybe he is not as innocent as he looks. I see the way he is always looking at Trowa.' Heero cleared his throat and said, "Quatre?"
Quatre's eyes fluttered open as he yawned in reply. "Oh I am sorry, Heero. I didn't mean to fall asleep like that. Is there something I can do for you?"
"Yeah. There is." Heero pick up new alcohol bottle and handed to Quatre.
Quatre eyed the bottle with confusion and looked up at him. "Heero, um I don't drink."
'Always so innocent.' He thought to himself. "Sorry. I just want to talk."
"About?"
"Are you a virgin?"
Quatre face fell blank of all expressions. He couldn't understand why Heero would ask a question like that. "Why do you want to know that for?"
"Just because I do. Well are you?"
Quatre's face turned a shade of red as he nodded his head to Heero's question. Heero just looked at Quatre while he drowned the entire bottle of alcohol down in one gulp. Quatre felt uneasy because Heero was staring at him strange. "I gonna go to bed now. I had a long day. I'll see you in the morning. Goodnight."
Quatre got up and went to his room. A strange feeling in his gut told him to get away form Heero. He didn't know why he felt so uneasy when Heero asked that question. He knew Heero must have been really drunk to even ask that.
Quatre went about taking off his clothes while someone looked through the keyhole of his room. Heero watched as Quatre took off his clothes and put on some long loose white pants. Heero watched as he stood infront of his bed and fell to his knees. Quatre sat on his knees talking in some foreign language Heero never heard before. He bowed down so that his hands and fore head touched the ground. He bowed five times before getting up to turn off the light. Heero wondered what it was Quatre was doing. Then it struck him. 'Quatre was praying. So innocent. So sweet and a virgin.'
Heero waited until he thought it was safe to go into Quatre's room. He stood over Quatre's sleeping form. The moon light hit Quatre's body giving it an angelic glow. 'Tonight I fuck an angel.'
Heero brushed Quatre's golden locks out of his face and stared at Quatre's mouth. He thought how sweet those lips must taste. This was the perfect night to find out. Heero knew for sure that Trowa and Wufei would not be back until tomorrow night and Duo. He didn't care. Duo said he would be back tomorrow. That meant that Heero had Quatre to himself all night long.
Heero went into his room and filled a bag up with certain items. He came back into Quatre's room and took out two pair of handcuffs. He handcuffed each of Quatre's wrists to the bed frame. Quatre didn't wake up at all. 'I could fuck you in your sleep and you would never know. How the hell have you lived this long being a gundam pilot? I wonder how do you wake an angel?'
Heero got on top of Quatre and started to kiss him when Quatre started to wake up. The word "Trowa" slipped from Quatre's lips as he woke. As he opened his eyes, Heero got off of him and went to his bag to get something else. Quatre watched as Heero left the bed and tried to free his hands. He couldn't believe that Heero had handcuffed him to his own bed. Worst of all Heero was kissing him. 'What is he going to do to me?'
"Heero!"
"Yes Quatre."
"Why am I handcuffed?"
"So you don't get away."
Quatre felt his eyes water from fear as Heero walked closer to him. "Heero please don't do this."
"Quatre, Quatre, Quatre. I know you are a God fearing boy. I know that you do stuff so you can remain pure in your God's eyes. I know that God fearing people sometimes do stuff that can't be forgiven. But somehow they keep on living with this strange notion that their God is a forgiving one. So it is easy for them to forgive themselves of all the crimes they committed. But in the end they all go to or experience hell. Just like you will tonight. Quatre you destroyed a whole colony. You almost killed your best fri... no let me rephrase that, the love of your life. Don't you believe you should atone for your sins? Or have you and your God forgiven them?"
"Heero, I have not forgiven myself nor do I expect for Allah to forgive me either. But I do know that I have to atone for them. The only way for me to atone for them is to give all that I can of myself. The part of me that loves, cares, and understands. I can only atone for them by doing good by others and my heart. I know I can never be forgiven for my sins, but I don't go around and think I haven't done anything wrong. Any punish or hell you can give me won't come close to the pain and hell in my heart for the things I done. Heero don't do anything you will regret because it will only hurt you in the end."
"Quatre how do you do it? How do you get people to forgive and feel sorry for you?"
"That's not..."
Heero slapped Quatre across the face yelled at him to shut up. Then Heero pulled out some duck tape and began to tape Quatre's mouth shut. Heero had the tape running from the front where his mouth was to the back of his head.
"Tonight you will atone for your sins by giving up the very thing that keeps you from being damned. Which is your sweet innocence."
Heero bent over Quatre and licked the tears that where falling down his face. Quatre brought up both his knees and hit Heero directly in his side. Heero rolled off the side of the bed holding his side while Quatre hopelessly tried to free his hands from the handcuffs. Heero got off the floor and slammed his elbow into Quatre's stomach. A smile lit up Heero's face as he watched Quatre twist his arms trying to ball up his body.
"Just like I said. Tonight
I gonna fuck an angel."