Some Random Prose (September 2005)
The mind is a powerful thing and a terrible thing to taste, waste, think about in haste
I'm not impressed but proud of you, child actress, serene superstar, coked to the eyeballs, no more contracts for kicks, dicks or six figure licks
This is a life, you were not meant to see and
You yes, you and your baby Poor malcontent, what a fun future in the tabloids to look forward to, expose
He looks just like you, but half cast like some sort of fashion accessory
Some sort of shame
Every sort of statement
Mary (Summer 2005)
Are you my Mary, my star of the sea?
I think of you in temptation and crave the nights I wake with you
but alone I start
I nod to sleep impatient, engagement
Invasion of privacy
Incredulous passion
awakens my soul
and I start again
"Days Like These" (2002)
days like these make us sit and think
days like these push us to the brink
days like these make us frown
days like these should paint the town
days like these just have no class
days like these can kiss my ass
every other day is such a breeze
you shouldnt think about days like these....
days like these come once every year
days like these im such a liar
days like these make us sit and curse
days like these make us reimburse
days like these put heads in hands
days like these think of other bands
so everybody does hate days like these
i can handle it so much ease....
days like these dont make a sound
days like these always come round
days like these dont mean a thing
days like these should make me sing
days like these i dont like one bit
days like these i dont give a shit
days like these show the boss is cruel
but in the end its not me thats the fool....
"Playtime" (1994)
the world was mine from the stabilisers i grew
yknow i had every top trump and then so did you
inseperable, loveable and complete tearaways
give us an inch and wed jump down the stairways
your cheeky smile got us into so much trouble
cry when we got hurt and then always see double
wrote so many lines it kept our span of attention
to keep us after the bell we were always in detention
we hung around town and stole bibles from preachers
then sat in class and flicked snot at teachers
sang badly in assembly and not the right words
prayed on the toilet and beat up all the nerds
you love it as much as i did i think you felt the same
wed stand outside the office and youd always take the blame
but kids will be kids and adults must be behaved
until we grow up and everyone will have to be saved
i loved how your swiss heidi pigtails would hang down
i thank you for saving my life, i was sad as a clown
I wake every morning and look forward to playtime
we were the best of friends and that stayed true
you were there for me everyday at the same time
they called you jakki, we all loved you
I dont fit in the swings, im too big for the slide
come off the roundabout well go in and hide
dig me in the ribs and giggle all the way home
cycle round the square to chase the ice cream cone
they only have vanilla, jack what are we to do?
youd run to the shop and buy mint and choc too
andy has the new plastic toy, its already in tatters
but we got each other and thats all that matters
you noticed me when i had no one to care
to hug me when i fell off or to even comb my hair
ten years old dressed in the suit and tie
crying in the church, mother knew, but not, but why?
mummy whos lying over there this week?
in the big white box, please can i have a tiny peek
it wont be long now i must forgive all my curses
you can go out now and play your doctors and nurses
you could comfort anyone whenever they have fears
you just laugh and tell me to stop my tears
I wake every morning and look forward to playtime
we were the best of friends and that stayed true
you were there for me everyday at the same time
they called you jakki, we all loved you
can you come out with me and play?
ive got a new scooter and its barbies last day
lets hide on the church stairs, up towards the steeple
we hang out the window and throw conkers at paople
you bounced down like tigger, teach me tommorrow
if you travelled the world, youd know id follow
do you have to go in or can you stay out all night?
but wholl be left to play with or turn out the light?
you nursed me with toothache and even when i felt sick
and then you punched my bruises and gave them a prick
but i just wanted to say before i hit the sack
i still love you all the way to the moon and back
its now the last verse and barbie is bored
ken has turned gay and lost his d'accord
i wanted to play more but have to go in too
i know if you were here youd tuck me in
but if i was with you, wed commit another sin
I wake every morning and look forward to playtime
we were the best of friends and that stayed true
you were there for me everyday at the same time
they called you jakki, we all loved you
"My Opinion" (1998)
Madness enveloping sorrows supporting the insecure
Sponging from the envious and no one is really sure
Inspiring my mockery mending smashed crockery
Force feeding the comedians make laughing so unkind
Conversing with the mutes and listening to the blind
The cripples in trollies raindrenched broken brollies
Which right way is now wrong? blaming them for the self greed
but youre stealing from the rich and going to the poor to feed
then who becomes bitter an older brothers sitter
Youre now dancing to a funky beat played by a face paint puppeteer
Controlling the elderly thoughts and an ecstatic youthful fear
Blanked by reformers so scaring all performers
adapted from the verse "opposing opinions" by L.Morris
"Self Pity" (1998)
as the sorrow comes from each and every city
i feel nauseous from the smell of your self pity
sick of your look at reflections
as i deny you your attentions
subjection anger of the guilty
my casualties of bitter wars
numb my limbs that open doors
victims of your mindless activity
questions of your constant subjectivity
seven months and im all alone
but somewhere down the line sex and love
i hurt and pluck feathers from a dove
consider results of pathetic doings
souls mindless froings and toings
resolve your feelings by lashing out
you feared it could happen the worst
and just like life your seems would burst
i know you see me to blame
fair enough you think i think the same
but then we needed to talk
locked into myself, want to be free
telling everyone your fears, bar me
one to one... talking... about self pity....
adapted from the verse "emotion sickness" by L.Morris
"Another Pretty Little Ditty" (2000)
inspiration
get myself some
dedication
wanna give
all my heart
get up and
have to start
i can see you coming
youre robbing me blind
making all these promises to me
youre not really that kind
i knew you would come again
youre robbing me blind
fornication
get myself some
hesitation
strike out
every single run
go out and
set the sun
"Wonder" (2001)
red wine glass with chardonnay
isnt new york in californi-yah
CD wont play if its upside down
we live in a city or is it a town
ask me why the chilled soups cold
fallen in love with a car thats sold
nothing to wear in a room full of clothes
tearing my hair to where everything goes
she makes me feel lika another guy
she makes me wonder
she makes me smile
take me out for the day then elope
you buy two TVs to catch every soap
glued to QVC then make every bid
thought pokemon was something chandler did
given free sweats and thought it was kappa
went to the take out for two ayia napa
hard day at the office, has something changed
oh no, not again, my flats rearranged
she makes me feel like another guy
she makes me wonder
she makes me smile
posted another letter without a stamp
walking blindfold around a nudist camp
told me dantes peaks a mountain in wales
during a magic trick that mostly fails
read the joke of the day and the punchline first
and held out my arms everytime you cursed
some girls pet in the road, you held it, watch it die
delivered it home, held back, you wanted to cry
proud i feel and never know why
she makes me wonder
she makes me smile
"Mystery" (2001)
who are you?
total mystery
then someone tells me
carefully
you are she
and she is the one
the one who makes
right turn to wrong
heard its a lie
i know its true
everyone sells me
pictures of you
tell me your name
no price of fame
once in a while
i learn to smile
so its over
youre moving on
all dying to tell me
you are gone
the jurys out
courts adjourned
you take the risk
get your fingers burnt
guilty now
total mystery
youre always leaving
so happily
tearing this paper
can no longer save ya
once in a while
i learn to smile
where are you?
total mystery
crash into my life
exit suddenly
i write long letters
to get no reply
i now realise
you will always lie
i wash my face
and hands of you
sorry honey
but i cant get through
had enough of row
see how i end it now
once in a while
i learn to smile
"Ten Years" (2003)
we used to shoot, used to march
used to iron, used to starch
sleep under trees and dance around fires
hook up with you and work with tyres
our elder brother the dungeon master
king of joypads and always faster
we laughed stood straight in the cold
our programme i see, ten years old
ten years, just ten years
a poor young man, cant you see
couldnt learn to put arms around me
couldnt talk when he gained a brother
wouldnt cry when he lost a mother
clever he was to immerse himself here
in the logic we were always near
taken underwing and into the fold
this poor young victim, ten years old
ten years, just ten years
no leap years, just ten years
smoke with bob then the guy next door
could give you love but theres none instore
then he found true love and all is well?
as far as we know and thats all we can tell
two words in two years, if at all
that aint enough cos i aint that tall
now i can move on, everything i sold
ten years, just ten years
no leap years, just ten years
"Valentine" (2003)
get to see you again
your call lifts my day
wonder when and where
and how much we can play
your season changes but
i will always be here
maybe a little further away
but feeling so near
were cruising the streets
where do we park?
soon be together
only a matter of time
dont shed a tear
my new valentine
tommorrows close
get to curl up with you
and with a nice white
please tell me its true
stroke another line
to pass the time away
the train dashes past
again and everyday
nearly in your arms now
all the way over there
i then never let go
to show you how i care
soon be together
only a matter of time
dont shed a tear
my new valentine
so now my new christmas card
new birthday, whitsuntide
ever want to find me
and want to confide
armand plays to game
fiddling your hair
slow dancing to dido
into your eyes i stare
temptation no more
always want to touch me
not giving up easily
never have to hurt me
soon be together
only a matter of time
dont shed a tear
my new valentine
"Untitled #1" (2003)
i think of you in secret teenage dreams
looking for you everywhere it seems
see you dash for the door and i cant move
like to but dont know what to prove
one day wish that youre all mine
but get knocked down time after time
my bed feels empty
i cannot lie
for its you i miss
please tell me why?
im always waiting for green light clues
as youre changing into summer shoes
see me drown as i watch you fall
and how i cant face the way you walk
i thank you for time we share in haste
and the hours for you that i had paced
wake eventually and make half a coffee
then give it all up and offer me toffee
ol blue eyes is back to teach my dance
spend hours with me so give me a chance
so songbird tell me where do we go to?
cause now i never wanna spend time without you
"Untitled #2" (2003)
i am first born of purity
secondly of desperation
smell of caught longing
sweet candid separation
put out caustic signals
have her follow you home
catching up and whispers
in some familiar tone
hate being single
too much stress
no undress
theres no success
did you know?
im not impressed
candles can burn like ice
just one light of hope
give me sense of expression
to show me i cant cope
believe what you read
but always between the lines
when you want come find me
be waiting in the pines
what about me
you cant stand
only put here
to lend a hand
"I Slept with the Devil" (2001)
she calls on me
and walks on by
i have dreams
and see someone die
wake over again
im no longer free
shes got me now
how long will it be?
dont count on me
i slept with the devil
dont count on me
i slept with the devil
blind i cant see
i slept with the devil
given up now
i lost all heart
no more energy
to make a new start
driving me crazy
i thought i was there
am i forgiving ?
should i really care
dont count on me
i slept with the devil
dont count on me
i slept with the devil
blind i cant see
i slept with the devil
devil, devil
i slept with the devil
"Fathers Day" (2002)
i weigh up the pros and cons
and its gonna go ahead
but just without me
ill still be in bed
things just have to be this way
i have no regrets to give
wondered about each other
but you did know where i live
picked them up from nursery
i was tall as the sky
never had to know when
fathers day came by
one day you told me
not to trust a soul
be true to yourself
and acheive every goal
now youve moved on
to strike another light
put up your dukes
but lost the fight
never had a reason
never asked why
never told when
fathers day came by
never had a reason
never asked why
never told when
fathers day came by
"Untitled #3" (2003)
how does she manage to play so loud?
my mind only looks like some black cloud
come and play in my habitat
never in my space that you are sat
you are arent you, you are going away
im sorry darling its her i cannot stay
scared to work , afraid to play
do you know what to do, how can i help?
if only you knew how to take me
push the needle in and see when i yelp
wait and watch, make the first move
why is it me that feels he has to prove?
awake in the morning, twitching cold
dress up in wild clothes and curl up tight
cant remember what i was thinking
early on that vented cold summers night
come and see me, is that wanting much?
the perfect remedy is just feel your touch
look at me and i can see you crying
speak to me and see me sighing
hold and touch me now my dear
i spend all day shaking with fear