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The Writer's Life
by  marriah,  17th May 2001.   


As a writer, I can only convey that which is true.

I am a writer. I am not one who writes. There is a difference. I do not define myself by what I do. We may say that a person who digs ditches is a ditch digger, and then associate an entire identity to him as a member of that profession. Similarly, we may say that a person who drives cabs is a cab driver, and then associate identity characteristics with that profession. But writing is not something I do. It is not a hobby, a game, a profession, or a struggle. It is what I am.

This means that I cannot write something without having what I write transform my entire emotional, intellectual, and physical environment on the spot, the instant I write it. This profoundly limits me as other writers are not limited. I cannot write fiction because I cannot create fake characters. I cannot create fake situations. I can only contemplate that which is real, and bring myself to mentally and emotionally inhabit someone – either a person or personality type – that is very real. I cannot write that which does not correspond to my present state of mind. I have no versatility as most writers have. I cannot write poetry, science fiction, horror and romance without mentally and emotionally living through the events that I create. Conversely, I cannot understand something that I have physically, emotionally, psychologically experienced until I write about it. Thus, I experience perpetual delayed reaction to all of life. All moments are frozen in time to me until I begin to integrate them through words. Then I experience them piece by piece.

This limitation in "the moment" gives me the seeds for much greater freedom outside of that moment. I can pour myself into another person’s mind and soul by breaking them down with my thoughts and words, and then reconstructing myself as them. Similarly, I can deconstruct myself and then recreate a new personality in a single evening. I can carefully observe passersby or the interactions of friends and family, and by breaking their motions down to the smallest pieces and reconstructing them, I can understand them more fully than they understand themselves. In my "lonely" hours in solitude, I can play many different roles and reenact what I have observed.

This makes me slow to act, slow to know, slow to think, and slow to live. But, everyone moves around much faster than me, making authentic interaction with them close to impossible unless they take the time to sit down and listen to what I have to share. Thus, writing is what saves me from a life of loneliness as I am forced to put into words for some unknown audience what I have seen, thought, and experienced. But, as I live through my writing, I experience greater richness than some people will ever know, because everything is more real than real to me. All thoughts, feelings, experiences, memories, can be frozen, perfectly recalled and experienced again as I approach them from different angles. Some people go through life and never stop to notice anything. Others stop to notice and then forget. I leave fragments of myself everywhere, and carry fragments of everything else around in me so that I am perpetually stopped. I am a worm that stretches itself into infinity without breaking, or regenerates upon snapping, and ends up facing itself on the other side, forming a perfect circle.

I am that circle, of flowing water, that needs a slick river bed to stay clean and fresh as it swirls round and round. If others stop by, I welcome them to go for a swim and get carried away by my current. But do not fear. I put them right back where they started so that they can continue on their journey, just a bit wiser than before. My cleansing waters purify them, as they do me.

I hold in the palm of my hand an oracle, that knows the future by studying the present and the past, bestowing insight onto all those who are troubled. By integrating myself with everything around me, I see the intrinsic nature of all things. Thus I know their value and their direction.

The words that I write do not cause joy, pain, or suffering. They reflect it. They allow the reader a clear looking glass so that he too can look through and see what I see, know what I know. They integrate the reader with the writer’s soul, mind, and heart, creating a bridge between all things so that the infinite circle becomes a sphere and all is connected. I don’t play with words, putting them in odd, crazy, original and cute combinations to inspire glee. I polish a mirror made of letters that, like a series of connecting mirrors in a cave, captures the sunlight from a small opening and magnifies it a thousand fold so that the dark passages are brilliantly illuminated and bathed in light. The darkness causes fear because it is the unknown. But the writer knows the systems that are hidden, waiting to be known, because he first experienced them, or knows them well enough to love them. He has tunneled and excavated, so that the intricacies of the world are revealed to all, thus eliminating fear. The writer’s message: I bring love and hope, because once you see what I have seen, I am sure that the world will be reborn as I have been.

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tjodray 17 May 2001 Absolutely sensational Strongly Agree Great Style Standing Ovation
ritawrites 18 May 2001 Absolutely sensational Strongly Agree Don't touch it! Standing Ovation
I agree with so much here.
robertsloan2 18 May 2001 Excellent Neutral Great Style Sensational
Interesting viewpoint. You have a rich inner life and a strong voice that's your own. I generally enjoy the company of reflective people but I had to laugh at the point you admitted that you don't take leaps of imagination into romance, horror, science fiction. Fall in love, then you'll write a romance. You write after the fact, you write from your own experience interpretively. I can't give you a technique to open the doors of imagination and suspect instead that yours soars intensely toward the immediate. But romance as a genre isn't necessarily as far from the everyday as the weird flights of fancy I take at times. I put Neutral only because there's nothing to agree or disagree with there: it is a vivid, evocative self portrait you've written. You sound as if you have a very joyous life swimming the wordstream. I respect that. - Robert A. Sloan, author of Raven Dance
charles-travel-tales 30 Jul 2001 Excellent Agree Great Style n/a
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The writer’s message: I bring love and hope, because once you see what I have seen, I am sure that the world will be reborn as I have been.


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