Background information-
[Luke has just finished his internship at a Boston hospital. He is
taking time off to decide which hospital he wants to practice in. He and
Annie have kept in touch with occasional calls and visits, but both are too
busy to have the close relationship of old. On a whim, Luke decides to visit
Winnerow and Fanny. Annie is also in Winnerow, taking a break from her fast
moving career as an artist. (Luke is unaware of this)
Intending to surprise his mother with a visit, Luke checks into a hotel
and walks to Hasbrouck House. As he enters the property he sees Annie
sitting in the gazebo, seemingly lost in memories.]
Luke Casteel Jr.-
She was sitting on her usual side of the gazebo, looking only slightly
different from the girl I had loved for most of my life. She sat with her
eyes closed, she seemed to be reliving a memory, her lips were moving but no
words were said. It seemed like time had both sped up and slowed down. I
felt decades older, but younger and more vulnerable than ever. Everything
seemed to stop, the wind even stopped making her hair dance with its gusts,
she was frozen in the moment. It was so perfect, so poetic, so wonderful
that I left Luke Casteel standing in the trees and stepped into the world I
loved and hated.
"The years may come and go," I began, my eyes shining, "and time, like
the magical maze we've dreamt about, might separate us. But never fear my
ability to solve the puzzle and find you wherever you might be..." I
whispered, sliding into my place on the bench. "And I have," I added, a
small smile forming on my lips.
"Luke," she said breathlessly, her eyes opening slowly, "it really is
you!" she said excitedly. Noticing my look of confusion she added, "I was
just thinking about a story you told me once. After we went to the beauty
parlor one day. You said that you sat right where you're sitting now and you
imagined that I was here beside you... And, suddenly, I *was* here- and I
told you...that I would get better- and come back here...and that's when you
saw this," she whispered, pulling a familiar looking faded pink ribbon from
her pocket.
"You kept it?" I questioned, my heart fluttering. The look in her eyes
told me that he had indeed kept it, and intended to for many years. "I
missed it," I finally said, looking into her heavenly blue eyes.
"I think it missed you too," she whispered, leaning closer to me.
"Really?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. I reached into my pocket and
pulled out a blue satin ribbon. "Do you remember this one? They tied it in
your hair-"
"At the beauty parlor," she finished. "And you came in and saw me with
my normal hair color, and your eyes lit up..." She recalled, her eyes
glowing with the memory, "You said-"
"You look so very beautiful." We stood up at the same time, moving
together as if we were magnetically drawn. "You look...so very beautiful," I
breathed, kissing her cheek and inhaling the sweet scent of her hair. She
sighed a little, looking as if she had wanted me to kiss her full on her
lips.
I pulled back, returning to my seat. Turning away, I pretended to study
the house and gardens. I hadn't really seen Annie for so long, but it seemed
like we had been together forever. Time doesn't exist for us, I realized, a
cynical smile reaching my mouth. "Annie...I..." I began, turning back to her
with an embarrassed expression.
"Its all right Luke..." she started.
We were replaying another moment, one I didn't treasure. History didn't
have to repeat itself! "No Annie 'it' is not all right." I said slowly,
entwining my fingers with hers.
She sat down beside me, laying her head on my shoulder. "I know," she
started brokenly, "I just want it to be so bad." She took a shaky breath,
"True, ten years have passed, and I've been lonely without you, but I never
have been truly alone, Luke. You've been with me every second..."
She revived feelings that had lain dormant for so long. She memorized
and recited the role I had written for her so many years ago. "Every
second...of every minute, of every hour, of every day, of every week..." I
trailed off. "Its been hard, not seeing you every day. I write you letters,
even though I end up not sending them to you... There just isn't anything I
can say, nothing can make the pain go away. But, over time I've learned that
I don't have to be with you physically to be near you. And- that helps. It
just seems like every time I begin to feel that I can move on...something
happens. And- I realize that I don't want to forget you, forget us... Annie,
you fill me up inside, you are me, you are my soul..."
you are my soul
you are my soul
you are my soul
The words seemed to resonate through the gazebo. "Oh Luke...Its been so
long since I heard our kind of talk," she murmured, putting her hands on the
sides of my face and moving it towards hers. My wall of resolve was being
demolished, brick by brick. Our lips met, sending a jolt of electricity
through me. I was the first to pull away.
"Annie, this is wrong. I feel like...I've ruined your life." I
whispered.
"No Luke, you are my life," she murmured.
"Annie, hear me out," I said quickly, putting my hand up. "We can never
be together. Don't you see... Its happening again. Our passion is so strong
that it can become ignited by doing the smallest things. One touch, one
look, one...kiss. There's still a chance that you could find someone, and I
wont stand in the way of that. Annie, I'm only happy when you're happy. I
would live a thousand years in pain if it would free you from me. I cant do
this to you-to myself. You're killing me Annie," I moaned, "and I love you
for it." I finished, my voice cracking, unshed tears finally falling. "I
don't want to run away, but I cant take it. I cant take seeing you
everyday...and loving you...and knowing I cant have you. The only place we
can be together is in this world, and this world isn't real."
"Do we have to be real Luke?" She whispered, tears running down her
cheeks.
I kneeled in front of her grasping both her hands in mine "Yes Annie, we
have to be real, people need us. We need each other. Our love... its golden,
you remember the poem, don't you?
Natures first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower,
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay."
I choked out the poem, almost overcome by emotion. "We were golden for
so long, Annie. We had the best kind of love- sweet, pure. But it cant last,
I can only be happy with you in my dreams. You and I both know that, even
though we may say otherwise. Nothing gold can stay." I murmured, "I cant
stay."
A new wave of tears overcame her. Leaning forward, I kissed her
fiercely, one last time. I removed the pale pink ribbon from her lap and
replaced it with my blue one before turning away.
The wind blew against me, trying to pull me back to our fantasy land.
The pink ribbon slithered out of my grip, heading back to the gazebo.
Suddenly, the breeze stopped. I bent to pick up the memento. Annie's voice
carried across the distance, "I'll be here Luke," she cried.
"And so will I," I whispered, knowing in my heart that she heard. So
will I Annie, so will I.