Joey sat slumped in her chair,
long legs stretched out in front of her and shoulders turned in, an
attempt to block out the
other people in the room. The
teacher's words meant nothing; in fact, they hadn't meant
anything in at
least the last half an hour.
She wanted out.
Joey tucked flyaway strands
of hair behind her ear and turned her head, glancing at the people
around her. Nothing
registered apart from a mass of
faces and colours, and she wiped her eyes, frustrated, the ache in her
head spreading to
her neck and shoulders.
She felt a foot dig into her
calf, and turned sharply, the drone of the Miss Carling's voice
drifting around her.
Joey met Pacey's grin and
scowled.
"Yeah Pace," she hissed. "I
can see that my personal torture is your new occupation."
Pacey cocked his head to the
side, grinning and prodding her again with his foot. "It's that
clear?"
Joey gritted her teeth. "As
glass. Now perhaps you'd like to remove your body part from my leg
before I
personally take it in myself to
shove yours a place where the sun doesn't shine."
Pacey only grinned. "Is that
a promise?"
"No, Pacey, it's a
threat. And my sexual antics take place, preferably with a member of the
same species. So
you're barking up the
wrong tree, pulling the wrong plug, hoping for a little too
much...." She
trailed off, smiling brightly.
Pacey was silent or a moment
and she thought that she'd left him without possible comment.
Yeah, like that
was possible. "Domination," he
murmured. "I like it."
Joey stared at him
disgustedly until she heard a sharp voice pierce through the air. "Miss
Potter?"
"Oh shit," she murmured,
turning quickly in her seat, not quite quickly enough to miss
Pacey's smug,
anticipatory expression. She
smiled cheerfully, the movement straining her face. She cursed herself,
and even more so
Pacey, silently. She looked to
the side and could see Dawson's sympathetic expression.
"Uh, yeah?"
Miss Carling raised one
delicately plucked eyebrow. "Of course there would be a reason for the
fact your back was
turned Josephine?"
Joey sighed. "There's
always a reason, Miss Carling. It's just not always the one you
want to hear." She
winced, seeing the
teacher's face contort in annoyance and anger.
"Deep, Josephine.
Shouldn't you be taking sociology?"
Joey shrugged. "Full class.
And as a senior I take note that priority does not go to
upper-classmen. I suppose
morality's just much more
of a problem with the younger students." Joey lifted her chin and looked
straight at the
teacher. "And besides, modern
theatre was so clearly my wildly appropriate second choice."
Miss Carling sighed, shaking
her head. "I'm sure we'll make an actress of you yet,
Josephine."
Joey glared at Dawson, who
had his head in his hands, laughing silently. She didn't even want
to imagine
Pacey's expression. She
turned back to the teacher. "I'll take it that's more the
"wow-I-hope-it'll-happen"
kind of sure, as opposed to the clearly less redundant
"the-sun-will-shine" kind of
sure."
Miss Carling looked confused
and Joey sighed, embarrassment and realisation hitting her as she was
faced with the
amused glances of her
classmates. She groaned inwardly.
Finally the teacher regained
her control. "You'll be "taking it" any way you want Miss Potter,
in detention
this evening." Joey rubbed
tiredly at her eyes. "Along with your friend Mr Witter."
Joey lifted her head again
at this last remark, a small amount of pleasure apparent on her face.
"Less of a friend
Miss Carling. More of a cretin
who's inhabiting the body of a...." She paused, searching for
a word.
"Teenage boy. No adjectives
necessary."
Miss Carling scowled at her.
"Well, I'm sure the bond between the two of you will grow and
develop during
the following month."
Joey coughed, a bad feeling
growing from the pit of her stomach. "Uh, I'm seriously hoping
that that's
not a scientifically based
observation."
Miss Carling kept a straight
face. "No, a curriculum-based one."
"Um... what?"
The teacher smiled brightly,
standing to her feet and pulling the books from the table and pushing
them into her
bag. "Your next project Miss
Potter. A paired work detailing one aspect of modern life. Written,
created and performed
solely by members of this
class."
Joey could imagine
Dawson's face without even turning around. She closed her eyes for
a moment, panic and
annoyance only adding to the
throbbing in her head.
"Paired being the operative
work?" she asked wearily.
Miss Carling smiled. "Why of
course. And considering your and Mr Witter's obviously enlightened
conversation a few minutes ago,
creative energy won't be a problem."
"No, I think the problem
lies somewhere outside the "energy" factor altogether."
Miss Carling seemed to take
pleasure in her student's discomfort. "Well I'm sure
it's something
you'll be able to explore
thoroughly since you'll be working together for the next month."
Joey buried her head in her
hands, hearing Pacey groan loudly behind her. "What?" she hissed,
turning back around
to glare at him. "How limited
is your knowledge again? Tell me you didn't see that coming."
He shot her a glance. "I
didn't see that coming."
"Prick," she muttered under
her breath.
"Oh, I was ready for that
one," he murmured. "Control freak."
"Oh really?" she whined
sarcastically. "You mean...shock of all possible shocks, Pacey
"low-down" Witter
thinks I am, and I quote
here, a "control freak"? Please, someone hand me the lithium."
Pacey clucked his tongue.
"Mmmm. "Looks like a certain someone's coming face to face
with the
realities of the
establishment."
Joey glared at him. "Shut
that hole which substitutes for a mouth, Pacey, I've heard
enough."
"Joey!" Miss
Carling's voice was sharp, angry. Joey winced and turned back
around, ducking her head and
hating the sound of soft
laughter around the classroom.
**************************
Joey slammed her locker door
with obvious impatience when she felt a gentle hand against her
shoulder. She turned and
glared, with even less
patience. The young man looked down at her and she smiled.
"Dawson," she said quietly.
"Joey." He placed an arm
around her back and guided her towards the main entrance. "How's
the prodigy
public speaker?"
Joey winced. "Ah,
something's telling me that you're referring to my little
scene in Modern Theatre
this morning."
Dawson raised an eyebrow.
"Joey, in this case the words "little" and "scene" are hardly
synonymous."
Joey shot him a look. "Oh,
Dawson, such the realist...."
He grinned as they walked
through the door and towards a bench on the grass. "True. How are you
coping?"
Joey collapsed onto the
bench and pulled her knees up to her chest. "To which aspect are you
referring?" she asked
tiredly. "Pacey's
ever-current antagonism? My detention? The project? Pacey? Pacey, for
the third and final
time?"
Dawson tried not to smile.
"I think you got it in one, Jo."
Joey gave him a twisted
smile, leaning against his shoulder. "God, Dawson," she said wearily.
"I'm not
looking forward to a month
working with the one who does not work."
"That's the only
reason you're sitting here in ugly anticipation? His workload, or
lack thereof?"
Joey shook her head against
his shoulder. "Nah. I don't know Dawson, but the two of us have
never been the
best of friends."
"Maybe that will change."
"Yeah, Dawson, and maybe
I'll buy that peroxide. Learn, observe and believe: there are some
things that
were never meant to be."
"Joey, I..."
"Dawson. Now would not be
time to grow a brain, okay?"
Dawson sighed. "You know, if
I were a psychiatrist I'd tell you that you're in severe
denial."
Joey winced. "Then there,
Dawson, is the reason they'll never let you on their books. Give
up on the
psychoanalysis. Or at least,
save it for the film stills and editing machine. I, as a subject, am
totally out of bounds."
Dawson grinned. "Sure Joey."
*********************
Pacey shot both Joey and the
Miss Carling a look as the teacher turned her back, walking to the front
of the classroom,
dropping his bag to the floor
and siting down at a desk in the centre of the classroom, next to Joey.
"Late, Pacey?" Miss Carling
called.
Pacey gritted his teeth.
"Yeah, I was taking care of business in the bathroom." Miss Carling
looked at him in
suspicion and he smiled. "Oh
you know," he said offhandedly, "Selling drugs, pimping the girls,
generally corrupting the
school in any way at all
possible."
The teacher looked at Joey
questioningly. "Miss Potter?"
Joey shrugged, smiling
tightly. "Oh, I took care of all "business" this morning."
Miss Carling looked at them
in annoyance and frustration. "You two are far too sarcastic for your
own good."
Pacey shook his head,
sighing. "It's really a tragedy, isn't it?" he said in a
mock-concerned voice.
Miss Carling sighed and gave
up, sitting down at her desk. "Okay, since your apparent "enthusiasm" is
so...overwhelming," she
said dryly, "I'll begin my explanation of the project now and you
can start early."
Joey raised an eyebrow.
"You're so kind. Really." Pacey grinned, turning to her and
shooting her a look. She
returned the smile, albeit
weakly.
"Okay. This project will be
40% of your final grade in this class. And," she added, "a 10% of your
English course."
Joey's head shot up.
"What?" she said flustered, startled.
Miss Carling smiled, pleased
to have caught her attention. "Mr Derren believes that this work will be
extremely
beneficial and act as
significant part of your group and oral work."
"Oh God," Joey whispered,
rubbing her temples. Perhaps modern theatre was a class she could have
handled getting
a bad grade in, but English?
Damn, it mattered too much, and here she was, with Pacey and absolutely
no idea what they
would do.
Pacey shot her a concerned
look but didn't say anything to her. Instead he cleared his
throat. "So,
uh...Miss Carling. What
exactly do we have to do?"
****************************
Pacey walked quietly beside
Joey wondering if she noticed that he was watching her. She didn't
seem to mind, but
the silence wasn't a
factor he'd been anticipating. Antipathy, maybe, caustic wit,
certainly. Silence? He
hadn't thought so.
"Jo?"
"Uh-huh."
Pacey laughed slowly. "Two
syllables with no trace of riposte in sight. Are you feeling okay?"
She smiled gently. "My
brain's experiencing an inordinate amount of calming time.
Not..." She turned
to look at him. "Not every
moment is emotionally charged anymore."
Pacey raised his eyebrows.
"Is Miss Potter finding Capeside's dull monotony a little hard to
handle?"
Joey shook her head. "No,
Pacey. I don't know, things seem....different to how they
were. Calmer,
somehow less tragic." She
smiled wryly. "Somehow less wonderful. It's a limbo that
doesn't feel quite
right. No," she added quickly,
"it's not that it feels wrong. It just feels different."
Pacey was silent for a
moment. "I'm suddenly feeling the downside to my lack of
psychoanalysis"
Joey smiled. "Hey,
it's okay. I didn't want it."
Pacey nodded slowly.
"I'm guessing this has something to do with Tom's departure.
I admit, losing the
other half is a less than
enlightening experience." He winced, thinking of Andie.
"What?" her breath was
short, hurried as she turned to him startled.
Pacey feigned complete calm.
He shrugged noncommittally. "I thought this might be the aftermath of
a..."
He paused, searching for the
words. "Fiery, passionate fling."
Joey winced. "Sure, Pacey.
Make my pathetic existence sound as much like a trashy novel as humanely
possible."
Pacey scowled at her.
"Right, Jo. Placid, tranquil. Definitely the right adjectives to
describe that moment in your
life."
Joey struggled to calm
herself, not wanting to let loose on him, not at the risk of a curious
follow-through that would
have to result in an
explanation. "Maybe not," she said finally.
"So....this is your
post-boyfriend stress relief?"
Joey smiled tiredly. "The
not so-dramatic denouement."
"Yeah?"
She turned, studying him for
a moment. "Yeah." Joey sighed. "Look Pace, at the risk of actually
baring my heart, a
process I really
don't want you on the receiving end of, let me explain. He
left. And you
know...It's not like
I expected him to stay. Truth be told, maybe I was relieved."
He was surprised. "What? You
two looked like you had a great time." He winced. "That was, the times
when I saw
anything other than your
tongues down each other's throats."
Joey blushed, and she
didn't want him to see. It was true, she'd grown up a lot in
the last few years, but
on the precocious teen scale,
Pacey still had the upper hand. And the ability to make her blush.
"Yeah, well, the tongue was
one of his finer features."
It was Pacey's turn to
look a little uncomfortable, and she decided it was definitely
her turn to rub it
in. Absentmindedly she lifted a
hand to shade the sunlight and stopped, staring out at the beach.
"His hands weren't
too bad either. For certain...activities."
Pacey looked positively
ready to throw up, and it was a good thing, she thought. "Activities?"
he asked weakly.
Joey smiled wickedly. "What,
you thought you were the only one who took sexual tutoring as an
extra-curriculum?"
Pacey opened his mouth as if
to say something, a retort, and then stopped himself. He turned away
from her and
looked out towards the beach,
leaning against the railing. "I don't know," he said softly. "I
just didn't
figure you for the..."
Something caught in her
throat as she turned to him. "What?" she asked weakly, for a moment
hating him and
hating herself for the
disappointment she could see in his eyes. "Slut type?"
He turned to her quickly.
No, Jo, I didn't mean..." He could see the anger in her eyes
and he regretted
his comment.
"You took a wrong turn at
stupid," she said softly. "Bad move."
He groaned inwardly.
"I'm sorry Jo, I didn't mean to imply that..."
"No," she cut him off. "You
didn't need to." She paused, looking up at the sky. "I'm
late," she said
softly.
Pacey breathed again,
relieved that she had changed the subject. "Fine, let's head back
then."
She turned to him again, her
eyes wide, cold amusement lying there. "Not that kind of "late", you
idiot. Inform:
you've decided to acquire
a little naivete in your old age?"
"What?" he said, startled.
She was just staring back at him. He thought he was going to fall over.
"You're
pregnant? How did you..."
Joey rolled her eyes. "Well
this is hardly Bethlehem, Pace, and I'm hardly the Madonna. And
here
we're a long way off
pure. How many ways are there?"
"Jesus Christ."
She smiled wryly. "Well no,
but Tom did have a few saintly qualities. Few and far between, maybe,
but they were
there. "
Pacey's eyes were
wide, bright. "God."
Joey sighed. "It's a
little late for the religious sanctification, Pacey."
He was quiet for a moment.
"What are you going to do?"
Joey laughed. "Pacey, I
don't know why I mentioned it. It just slipped. I'm a couple
of days late max; at
least for the moment I have
nothing to worry about. Okay?"
He stared at her. "Okay."
Joey rolled her eyes. "I
need to go now, alright? Think you can handle going from A to B, AKA
here to home, without
attracting too much trouble?"
He raised his eyebrows. "I
think so, Jo."
"Good." She sighed.
"We'll need to work tomorrow. I know it's a Saturday but
we'd better get a
handle on this project."
He groaned aloud. "You mean
study hours are actually possible Friday-through Sunday? It'll be
a first for
me."
She smiled slyly, raising an
eyebrow. "Well, maybe it'll be a night of firsts."
Pacey stared straight back,
unperturbed. He looked down, eyes remaining on her abdomen for a few
seconds, before
rising to her face again. "I
don't think so," he pointed out.
Her face was red, heat
flushing her cheeks at his eyes on her. "Bastard," she muttered.
He smiled. "Of course.
Tomorrow?"
Joey didn't answer for
a moment. "Tomorrow," she said finally. She turned then, pulling her bag
back over her
shoulder and walking towards
her house, leaving him behind her, standing there in silence.