Personal Info

Who exactly am I? That's a good question, one which I don't think I'm qualified to answer yet. But let's see if I can describe myself to you.

Well, as you can probably tell my name is Matt. I was born May 19, 1981, so that makes me 19 years old. I'm a Canadian guy from Vancouver, British Columbia, and still live there, but I'm hoping to move to Toronto in the next year or so. I have just completed my first year of college and enjoyed it about as much as I enjoyed getting my wisdom teeth pulled.. but it's necessary, just like getting the wisdom teeth pulled.

I was born into a Jewish family, but no longer believe it. I don't belong to any particular faith because I've found that people manipulate religion to suit their own personal purposes, and I'd rather follow my own path in life. I don't need a book to tell me that what I am doing is right or wrong, so I've chosen to live my life according to my own code, not according to someone else's. I'm not dissing religion, so don't send me hate mail, but you wanted to know about me, so I'm telling you..

I'm bisexual, but have never had a male/male sexual experience. This homosexual thing is really new to me.. I came out to some friends of mine on the internet. I've posted my coming out post in the journal section, as well as some responces. It was a really difficult thing for me to admit, not to others so much as to myself. I basically "struggled" with it for 2 years, where I tried to hide it, but after talking to someone (his name shall remain anonymous, unless he wishes me to identify him) I realised I actually could admit it to myself and then to  a select group of other people. I was never a homophobic person, so it wasn't the idea of being gay or bisexual that was the problem, I have a bunch of gay/lesbian/bisexual friends, but it was the idea that *I* was bisexual that made things so difficult for me. I've come to accept myself for who and what I am, and hope that others can do the same. Not only accept me, but accept themselves AND accept others. That is one of my goals in life, to change people's preconceived ideas about what someone different than they are is. You CAN'T stereotype, and I want people to someday understand that PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE, it's the inside that matters, NOT the outside.

I wrote the paragraph above this one in February.. I was trying to come to terms with my sexual orientation, but for some reason, I chickened out half way.. so I said I was bisexual. I know that there are a lot of people who ARE infact bisexual, but I myself am not. As hard as it is for me to say this (right now it's hard, hopfully in time it will become easier) I'm gay. The rest of what I wrote however I still believe. Don't judge others until you've judged yourself, and don't be so quick to judge yourself either.. because most of the time, your perception of yourself is wrong, and it takes others to point out things you might never have noticed, or may have noticed but tried to hide.

I decided not to delete the paragraph about my bisexual coming out, because it's still just as relevant today (as I come to terms with being gay) as it was when I was coming to terms with being bisexual.

Date of Birth: May 19, 1981
Hight: 5'11
Weight: 140-150 lbs
Hair: Brown
Eyes: Brown
Favorite Colour: Black
Favorite TV Shows: Xena: Warrior Princess, ER, South Park
Favorite Movies: Fight Club, American History X, Talented Mr. Ripley
Favorite Bands/Musical Groups/Solo Artists: Matthew Good Band, Madonna, Ben Folds Five, REM, Bush, The Beatles
Favorite Plays/Musicals:
Cabaret, Chicago, A Streetcar Named Desire, The Skin of Our Teeth, Kiss of the Spider Woman, La Cage Aux Folles