| 4 weeks ago, Phil Spector told a British journalist that he was "relatively insane" and that he was battling mental struggles. "I would say I'm probably relatively insane, to an extent," Spector told author Mick Brown, who called the interview Spector's first in 25 years. "I take medication for schizophrenia, but I wouldn't say I'm schizophrenic. But I have a bipolar personality, which is strange. I'm my own worst enemy." Spector also stated that his mother and father were cousins, and that he is just now coming to grips with that fact. Spector came off as very sad in the interview. "People tell me they idolize me, want to be like me, but I tell them, 'Trust me, you don't want my life, because it hasn't been a very pleasant life.' I've been a very tortured soul. I have not been at peace with myself. I have not been happy." "I am trying to get my life reasonable. I'm not going to ever be happy. Happiness isn't on, because happiness is temporary. Unhappiness is temporary. Ecstasy is temporary. Orgasm is temporary. Everything is temporary. But being reasonable is an approach. And being reasonable with yourself, it's very difficult, very difficult to be reasonable." Spector credited his daughter with bringing him out of his 22 year retirement by taking him to a Starsailor show and pushing him to produce tracks for the band. Spector also claimed that he was having talks with the Vines and Coldplay about producing for them in the future. Spector said the following about a strange period in his life where he basically never left his house. "I wasn't well enough to function as a regular part of society, so I didn't. I was different, so I had to make my own world. And it made life complicated for me, but it made it justifiable. 'Oh, that's the reason they hate my f---ing guts. I look strange, I act strange, I make these strange records, so there's a reason to hate my guts.' Because I felt hated. Even when the music became big, I never felt like I fitted in. I never did all the drugs and the parties. I didn't feel comfortable. I always preferred the studio. Going out was always the big ordeal. Too hard. It was like being in front of an audience." |
| PHIL SPECTOR CLAIMED TO BE RELATIVELY INSANE |
| SOURCE: MTV |