I was so excited to go home so as to be able to relax and free my mind from all the worries, responsibilities and tasks given to me resulting to tough pressure. When I got home, I was so happy to see the faces of my two children, it makes me wanna embrace my daughter Martha or carry my youngest, Aaron and just give him my tender hug. I greeted and kissed them both but when I started changing, my son would just cry out loud up to the top of his voice. Wonder why? He could not wait for me to carry him and baby-sit him, because that's what he always want when he sees me. It's actually very sweet and loving, but when you were from all the hassles and deadlines at work, sometimes it's agitating.
He started whining by crying so loud ordering me to pick him up as soon as possible from his nanny, Grace. But that's OK, that's what strengthens me most, my children's love. It makes me wanna go on with life despite pressure and trials.
My son is actually used with me playing with him after I take a shower as soon as I'm done with my dinner, while my daughter is used to watching with me on TV whatever we feel like watching at that time. Aaron wants tickles, hugs and kisses all the time, those are our regular rituals as soon as I get into my pajamas. He really demands for me or his Dad or his Sister to pay attention to what he says all the time, or else he'll end up screaming at you.
It was Thursday night, it's a day that all our clothes for the week are being ironed. It's actually a day where we need to fix our closet and I do all of that until my daughter has finally able to do and manage her own closet by herself since she just turned 10 last August, praise God! Naturally, I need to fix them as I do every Thursday nights after work. I fixed my husband's, sorting them piece by piece as well as mine. Aaron would just jump and scream and making me look at him and pay attention to what he does, this is actually a hectic day for him also, making his Mom pay attention to him in every way possible. So he goes on top of my shoulders, grab my head while I was arranging the clothes, bite me, etc. He still do not know the meaning of responsibilities in the first place so who cares? "I need my Mom right now regardless of what she does, period."
Well I just thought, as usual... That's my baby's human nature. My husband is still out looking for car sellers at this point to look for his earnings, so I gotta do this on my own. Besides, I enjoy being with my kids alone. I just have to really do this at once because I'm also very eager to play with my son since I was out the whole day working. This is my only chance for this day, to be able to compensate for the hours I wasn't with him. It breaks my heart everytime I leave him awake and cries to me begging me not to leave him. I would prefer leaving him while he's still sleeping and would just kiss him goodbye. Everytime I do this, I always wonder, Lord, when will I have the chance to be with my children the whole day while they're still growing. I don't want to be a housewife though, but business on my own would really be awesome, managing my own time, do important chores at home and arrange clients' appointments on the phone at home too so I can take a closer look on my two year old baby. A really great idea.
However, things do not seem to be what you always want them to be. What you don't have is always what you want. This is so common for most of us. But life must go on, being a woman of God teaches you to be more patient, understanding and trusting to Him. I thought, that's OK Lord, I'm just hanging on. I know that life will be perfect and blessed so long as I trust in You. For he has promised that He will give you the desires of your heart, says in Psalms 37:3-4, "3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. 4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart..." Trials will somehow manage to exist despite the shield of God, but He has an awesome purpose for this why He sometimes allow things to happen to us, to enhance our faith and character. James 1:2-3 reveals, "2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; 3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience." He has a perfect time for all His plans for us, only He knows and all we have to do is have faith in Him. God will never let us down. If we love God, He loves us more. If we are faithful to Him, he is more faithful than ever. We can never out give God, He is so awesome and an ever loving Father.
If you see how I love my children, the love of God for me and you is far deeper than that. We can demand on Him with whatever we want for us, just like what Aaron did to me while I was fixing the closet. I wanted to give him what he wants right away but then I need to finish something important too and this teaches him to hang on to me and be hopeful, there is a time I have allotted for his request as you see in this story. God is more than willing to do it for you but there is a perfect time for each requests that you ask of Him.God's plans will always be perfect. God reveals them to us through His spirit, no one knows God's thoughts except God's own Spirit. "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him..." (1 Corinthians 2:9, NLT) So let us just hang on to God's promise.
By: Maya Guzman Santos
