I do apologize for the lack of updates on my Sasha, to be honest -between the jobs and holidays it was too busy- and with her being such an amazing cat I had nothing to report! Sasha is still playful, loveable, eating like a little piglet, and having fun with her siblings (including new addition Tobey). You can see from the snap above (that I just took) she manages to jump up on things from time to time when she's having a good day! She had a fabulous xmas full of toys that made her discover her inner kitten and play with abandon. Her tumors are even more numerous (feeling) than ever before so it is a shock to me that she even can move- her belly is hard with the tumors, and some of them do leak freely-which has now become a part of things. At first I was freaked out, and I can be honest - put out that everything she lays on gets ruined... however, you cannot look at that adorable face, knowing what she must be feeling on the inside and stay upset over something as trivial as material things. So, I've opted for the cheap walmart bedding, have throws all over the spots she lays on the furniture and it's just a matter of doing more wash -period. She does put up far more of a fuss than she used to about being picked up - no matter how you do it- so that is an obvious sign her belly does pain her- but she will allow the cuddle hug on occassion and of course puts up with her daily belly check (with a mouth to rival Crystal I might add). As strange as it is, if you just look at her you would never tell she has been dealing with that horrible mammary cancer for years now. And at last check with the vet he said - let her be until she lets you know (by not eating, going off by herself, lethargic etc...) so I STILL wait her out.
I don't know if it's because I decided to have no preventive surgeries done, or the vet gave me a hugely miscalculated diagnosis scenario (but considering his shock she is still kicking about is a indicator he did believe his primary diagnosis of a few months -years back!), or even if it's just her devotion to her family - whatever the reason, she is an inspiration to me, I cannot look at the trials in my life as overwhelming when I look at what she deals with and how she manages to have time for a cute smile or playful romp. Granted now that even I feel time is running thinner, I am fretting more rather than less. I can kid myself that I put it out of my mind and deal with whatever comes, but I have such anxiety when I have to leave for any long amount of time- the "what if" just screams in my head. And pending a trip coming in February I just may have even more grays to cover over it!
Other than that- She's here, she is loved, and she is still my little trooper!
January 13, 2005 >^..^< Webmistress Kit |
