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My mental suffering experiences |
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When I was seventeen I began to experience halucinations. I thought people were watching me and stalking me. We moved but the voices came to follow me. I then had a period of recovery but then went bad again when I had a relapse. I thought God was talking to me and I would halucinate about devils coming to do bad things to me. My nightmares were returning and I couldn't sleep peacefully. For two years I suffered so till the psychiatrist and my mother forced me to tell the truth. I am now on a much higher dosage being on Risperdal before hand which didn't work for me. |
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I still hear voices sometimes, especially when I haven't been sleeping well or eating well. I have gained a bit more weight than I use to be, now I am around 58 kilograms. I don't like it but it's better than being 53 kilos and seeing demons. |
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I hate being schizophrenic but have grown to live with it. Maybe one day they'll find a cure. But I don't know. All I can do is pray to God I guess. |
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Saint Michael was who I prayed to continuously in the hope that he would pray for me to the God almighty and save me from my demons. Later I found out that Saint Dymphna is the patron saint for mental illness. I keep a picture and a prayer card in my wallet so whenever I'm outside and start getting paranoid, I whip it out and pray that little prayer to God. |
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My advice to anyone who has schizophrenia is to let someone know your woes, they could also be helpfull when you start becoming psychotic without admiting it, therefore they'll know the signs and be able to contact your psychiatrist. Someone who understands. I know you'll feel paranoid but it helps to tell someone your problems and hopefully find a way to resolve it. DO NOT STOP TAKING YOUR MEDICATION. |
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I was also forced to tell my professors that I was schizophrenic after having to walk out of a test because I thought Jesus told me to. They became more lenient on me after that and I'm working now, graduating very soon with Honours (I just did a thesis last year). Stress is a big trigger for schizophrenia. So try to not stress yourself. |
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Home |
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My history |
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My life now |
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