precisely the right tool at the
right time
This could work. It could. We could make it happen.
The word could. U in the middle of cold. Jammed through the
gutterus. Guts fulla Jell-O. There’s always room for Cosby in the back seat of
a heist. Movies are actually dreams. You insert yourself. You assert yourself.
You insert yourself into
yourself. An attempt you must make. Take steps. Listen to feet. One step.
Another step. Short steps, lengthening. Out of the uterus. Unlike a helicopter.
A helicopter carrying kidneys. Unlike your heart. Unlike your tongue. With its
blades. Like your penis which shoots volcanic ash, now that you are older.
Around the air. Staying up like that. Unlike that. We move unlike a helicopter.
The pilot must not touch. We move more like a mortician at a ball. Just a step
towards the punch where she stands, the surveyor with toothpick speared sausage
samples on a sizzle plate and miniature waffles attached to her skirt. Underfed
wallflowers in the shadows picking. Unilateral disarmament of charm. Towed
along by undertoe. Unlike a steamer. Eyeless as an oyster’s sister. In a nun’s
habit. At the nunnery, in silk, the French Jimmy Carter constructed a hatchery.
We built a bridge to it using our hearts and the money we made at poetry.
Darker clouds foretold an editor’s appearance from the drear behind us. Turbans
we don’t need. We wore them anyway, over our Amway berets. We fall, and catch
ourselves. The pilot’s sandwich. Combine, the tricky sentence. Combine, he used
the word like a farmer. His hair is a brain teaser. Spelling. A woman was
coming, then disappeared. Too much disappearance. Things should stay. Kleenex
ought not be removed from boxes. Vexes and chicken bones out backa the fast
food joint. Things not made of metal should become things. They should act like
things of metal, not move. I was once metal. Very metal. Things should act like
metal, to scare invaders. Or move slowly. To quieten dispassions. Regurgitating
morsels of chocolat, he assumed the air quality of a man in a balloon
crossing himself traversing the Gobi. Make noise when they move cactii. It
should be arthritic. An hour before sunset. The rusted strands of swing sets in
late November. When the playground’s full (of lost Christmas shoppers). Not
worth the effort. Worth thinking about trying. The attempt. The step. This is
perverted. The fall caught and repeated, movement ahead. This is an alternative
music video. The man who mooneyed around saw a woman disappear. She wore black
leather pants that shined. They shone. Her black leather shone. He renamed the
sun “lamp upon Eyeshot’s glory”. Numbers are good when renaming things that
will be stacked. The sun... Ah yes. Everything which occurs visually occurs
within the confines of a stadium. The stadium now has your name. It turns
things not made of metal into objects worthy of numbers. A number makes it slow
down. The number ten stuck between zero and twenty. Standing on the top deck of
the Circle Line, smell the Hudson’s nonsmell. The Hudson’s no-stink of wake,
disturbance, reflection. No ships here. Only stones. Rocks. Boulders. Arranged
on the water. Gulls should skip across the water. Tossed low and sharp, twenty
quick skips, then under. Within each stone there’d be a helicopter cycling. A
boy watching. His words circling. Gaining. Helicopter drone emptying. Adults
vessels. Boys scattering. Girls pointing. Walking on sharks. Letting in dump
trucks reversing. Then the trucks stop. No planes. No copters. No James Bonds.
Stones sink. A runner runs along the water, running towards a mirage helicopter
carrying Mayor Miss America. His heart beats like a helicopter’s blades,
muffled by muscle and skin. The ferris wheel across the river stopped. Flags on
top. Turned out to be a clock. Telling the right time. According to Godot’s
offspring who overpopulate the park. The Statue of Liberty never sees the
sunset. She’s too busy thinking about who
amongst who’s walking up her staircase she’d fuck, according to their
footfalls and chatter. The she answers the question, “Why isn’t this guy worth
talking to?” dismissively. Then she adds baking soda to her fridge. She surveys
her freezer. It locks her to tonight, invites her to tomorrow. Outside the
window her laundry does not blow away in the sunny gale so strong. It’s made of
metal. Metal. Slaves and metal. And sand.
Postscript It’s easy to juggle crows. They stay up
awhile. This could work. We’ll paint over our tattooed fangs with wings. Get a
few shaggy dogs the kids call lions. Name our arms Faith and Hope. Say we were
born in 1891. Point out our graves. Call out our local enemies. There’s nothing
wrong with that. When the bicyclist comes up with a cigarette dangling and asks
for a light, we’ll help him. When he asks the time, we’ll tell him, although an
hour later we’ll realize we told him it was much later than it was. When the
dog runs off with its leash trailing, we’ll watch it catch the squirrel and
leave a tail behind. And the young mothers will push their children in shopping
carts.