what submission means to me,  by angel brat

        i am a submissive woman it is who i am.. i do not submit from weakness nor out of fear.. i do it from my very soul it is only a part of who i am but it is a very strong part.. i am not submissive to all only to the ONE i have deemed worthy to kneel before. i submit willingly and totally to Him. what does that mean?  ok.. it means i allow Him to make choices for me to guide me and teach me... to rule over me so to speak... why do i want to do this? smiles... because it makes me happy.. i like to have a stronger willed Man who can take care of me.. i am not weak nor am i inadiquit i am very able of taking care of myself and have for along time... but in turning this over to Him it is with a trust that i know He will do what is best for me.. make the right choices for me... and never hurt me... it is not something to be done lightly or for awhile.. it has to be long term and done with alot of thinking and  concideration...i submit my will to that of His... serving is a wonderful experience.. one that fullfills needs in me.. to take care of and to offer my love, help and support,  my body, mind and heart to Him. It is not always a sexual thing it has greater mental impacts with me.. i love that feeling of being controlled..The ways i find to serve Him are all different.. some sexually some not.. some emotionally some not...He helps me find new levels of who i am ... helping me to understand the needs and desires as they arise within me.. helping me to fullfil fantasies and dreams...to do this  i need an unwavering trust in Him as solid as steel...He helps build this by always being true and constant in who He is...He isnt a braggart nor a bully.. He is calm and wise and devoted to our journey... one by the way that has no end only little stoping places to reflect back and see where i am going and where i have been...He helps me keep my vocus and  to test my limits (and i have a few they are personal to Him and i so i will skip over mentioning them here)and i help Him by opening up and telling Him honestly what i think and what i feel, if He doesnt act upon that  then i must trust Him enough to know He feels i am not ready for what ever it is...after all i trust Him enough to believe He knows me better than i know myself... so what submission means to me is unconditional love and  unwavering trust and great inner strength.. it takes alot of strength to submit to another person... but even on bended knees a submissive shines above alot...smiles...it isnt always easy being a submissive.. and at times very confussing... but it has always worked out in time for me... the path i have choosen hasnt been the easiest by far and at times it seemed very dangerous and full of peril...  rocky to say the least i have stumbled and i have fallen but i always remained  true to my self and what i wanted... and at times i wasnt aware of what it was i was after only i had a  feeling... so i followed that feeling and kept getting back up...through the tears and fears and the mistakes i struggled and clawed my way to my top where i am now happy healthy and quite sane... grins... i am a submissive woman hear me  beg...grins a silly lil grin now...
                                                      Desiderata
                                          (something desired as essential)


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism. 
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, 1927. © Robert L. Bell
please read the following and keep the words in mind.. i have and they have helped me  kept my feet on a small path and have lessened the pain of a few falls..it is a very old writing one that the hippies adopted back in the day.