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| Monday, May 28, 2002 Time is going by waaaaayyyy too fast! Sheesh! It's like I blink and it's already 4 weeks into the future! Rejoice on Saturday was amazing. There was such an intense aura of the Holy Spirit within the music we played... it was intoxicating. It was tremendously encouraging, the responses I heard from so many people. God has such an amazing way of working inside people's hearts during worship. It's become an undeniable obsession... worshipping Him through music... I was eating corn nuts the other night and it seems I can't really understand why corn nuts are popular. It's not sweet, it's rock-hard, and it makes your breath smell horrendously bad. One of those great mysteries of the universe I suppose... Anyone who is a fan of anime should watch "Inuyasha." The dvd collections have english subtitles on them. I've been listening to a lot of blues lately. Eric Clapton and B.B. King in particular. U2 did a song with B.B. King called "When Love Comes to Town." It's SUCH a good song... very heavy lyrics. Friday, May 24, 2002 Tomorrow is Rejoice... already. Everything is going by so fast, I can't seem to settle my thoughts at all. My guitars are set and ready to go, but am I? I hope so. It's been a major struggle to get here.. but I know I'm not alone. I know I could go up there in full confidence because it's not me who will be in control of that night. I want to fall in love with You... Tuesday, May 22, 2002 So our DSL at my house is all set up and now we have high speed internet access. I call AOL to cancel my subscription and I was talking to the representative person for 20 min. She was offering me some sort of AOL high speed service instead of cancelling my account. 3 months free access or something and she kept asking why would you want pass up a free offer? I kept telling her well I'm not really interested, but you can't cancel my account right now? Then she says well I'm not saying I can't. Sheesh! Talk about persistent... she could but she doesn't want to say she has the ability to do so because she doesn't want me to quit. I've heard some stories about people wanting to quit aol and going through this same process and resorting to getting angry so I was like man.... but she was just doing her job, I didn't want to start going off and say something like "look, I don't care about your stupid services, we're gonna have this conversation again after 3 months even if I did take it so let's just save both of us the time and energy and cancel my stinking account please?!?!?!" I'm sure 99% of the calls she gets ends up in those kinds of results so I tried to be as nice as possible. But then it seems like she was the one that got mad for me cancelling, first she started talking all friendly and then at the end she started getting this huge attitude on me. Sheesh! I remembered something funny during the youth group staff meeting two weeks ago when we were going over Bible study for next week. We were going over all the sons of Jacob and when we got to Gad, I busted out laughing because I was thinking, what if he got hurt from an accident, would Jacob and Leah say "oh my Gad!!!! What happened to you???" Monday, May 21, 2002 Argh!!! I was on 4 days online time on AIM and my comp froze!!! Today I saw Hillsongs' "You Are My World" praise dvd. Man, Darlene Zschech (the main worship pastor) is an amazong woman. She led a 1-2 hour praise set while she was pregnant. I think in the middle stages. Her stomach wasn't like all out sticking out, but you could tell. She has so much energy and passion in her singing and her lyrics send shivers because they are so powerful and real. It would have been an out-of-this-world experience to actually be there... John and I were talking about how heaven would be something like that... so many people of so many backgrounds all gathered in one place singing and worshiping in unison... there's something extraordinarily special about a large number of people all lifting up praises to God together. It's absolutely beautiful. And it's so nice to get lost in the moment and never wanting to get down. I went to Lauren's surprise birthday party tonight and it seemed like I haven't seen the people there for ages. But it's only been like 5 days since I last saw them. That's how long my weekend was. Saturday, it was non-stop activity at church from 2-10pm. Not to mention morning prayer at 6am. Then on Sunday it was church from 10:30 till 5:30. It was kind of sad because I spent so much energy into worship team practices and Bible study on Saturday, and I didn't have any energy left to give on Sunday worship, which was the most important... then after EM worship and staff meeting, I went back to my apartment and went to a Catholic church mass. I had to go to a religious meeting or ceremony that wasn't my religion for my history of religions class and write a paper about it. It was an interesting experience, going to a mass. I would have liked to have gone to something a little more off from Christianity like to a Buddhist temple or something but it needed to be done by Sunday. Quotes from Sunday: Lunch at Rice Things: Mike: I'm getting California rolls and chicken teriyaki. How about you? David JDSN: California rolls, spicy tuna rolls, and crunchy rolls. Mike: Wow, you're on a roll! A quote from 2 weeks ago at bonfire: John: Anyone got a lighter? Mike: No, but I might have a heavier with me... Thursday, May 16, 2002 2 weeks ago pastor David Na was preaching about how the past could be such a major hindrance for a person's progress toward the future. That's been the story of my life for the past 10 or so years. In high school, it was the demons of middle school constantly haunting me. Then in college, it is the demons of high school and whichever previous year it was piling itself on top of what started from the mistakes of middle school. Even the dumb things I did in elementary school I could remember a whole crapload of them quite well. I find myself constantly getting intensely annoyed with the things I did to embarrass myself in any way, dating back to God knows how long ago. Appreciating the present is something I was never too good at. There always seems to be more than enough people who are supposedly so much better off than I am and I would gladly exchange places with. Then I start to look toward an optimistic future and the past comes right along to beat the crap out of me and stop me dead on my tracks. If I were right now a perfect human being living the perfect life, would I be satisfied then? Absolutely not. Will I ever find an exit to this labyrinth of never ending self-criticism? Why is it so difficult to let go of something you would love to get rid of? There's something disturbingly sadistic about all this unwillingness to be free of the past. Maybe I should go into psychotherapy. I dunno. Haha. Quotes of the day: The first two aren't mine, but they were really funny hehe On sushi: Christy: You like to eat fish? Eww.. Theresa: Yeah, but you eat cows... Ewww.. Sooyoung: Gah! (Korean for "go away") Theresa: Cah? (as in cow) I was about to say the exact same thing, and right when I was about to open my mouth to say it, she said it ahahahaha On Sushi Mac (a sushi restaurant in the valley): Christy: Do they serve anything else besides sushi? Theresa: Duh, mac. Sooyoung: Knott's is not closer to Cerritos, it's closer to Garden Grove. Mike: So it's "Knott" closer to Cerritos huh? Wednesday, May 15, 2002 Episode 2 was great. Tuesday, May 14, 2002 It's already almost halfway through May... sheesh! It's like I blink and all of a sudden it's 2 weeks into the future. One would think that since I'm fasting video games till the last weekend of May, I'd be doing all sorts of things to be productive. But oh how easily I am distracted by everything around me that's not studying. Luckily, my midterm that was supposed to be tomorrow got moved to Monday. Which gives me another 5 days to slack off.... hahahaha jk. I better get started by at least Thursday... I haven't been able to sleep well these days. I'm thinking too much. And it's so horrendously hot. And I can't kill time by playing video games at late hours when no one is awake. Usually it takes about 30 minutes of playing and I'll get tired enough to fall asleep. I decided that I was ok enough to go out and play basketball again. It didn't hurt my right ankle too much if I ran with a brace on. So I went out and on the first play of the game I tripped on someone's foot in an awkward way and twisted my left ankle, and there I was on the floor writhing in pain. Again. But this injury wasn't as bad as the previous one. I decided to continue playing after walking off the initial pain. I had plenty of trouble running which made me resort to just jump shots. And I couldn't lift off my aching feet and thus, I was throwing up air balls like there was no tomorrow. Isn't it just a dandy, how things turn out this way. But I could laugh about it. No bid deal.. as long as I don't have to be in those dreaded crutches again... I could still walk, but with considerable pain. On the NBA Playoffs: John: The day the Golden State Warriors make the playoffs, the world wil already have gone through rapture. Mike: Like the Toronto Raptures? (Raptors) Monday, May 13, 2002 hstrymkr: lauryn hill unplugged. hstrymkr: get it. hstrymkr: it will change you. Those were the words of Ricky Ok on Saturday night. I never really got into Lauryn Hill, let alone even knew what songs she wrote. All I knew was that she was a member of the Fugees back in the day. But I put my faith in Ricky and got the cd. He was right. That cd is amazingly nice. The music is good, but her lyrics are intensely dazzling, and the interludes are full of genuine inspiration. I think today's society has developed an interesting respect for honesty. "Keeping it real," so to say. Sooooo, I find myself seeing a lot of so-called "blunt" people who say and do certain controversial things and respond with "Hey, I'm just being honest. Would you rather have me lie about it?" In the simplest and most superficial way to explain it, a guy might find him/self calling a girl ugly or fat. The girl would get offended, but the guy just says hey, you asked me for my opinion, I'm just being honest. A lot of people pride themselves in their ability to be "honest" in any given situation, regardless of who it is they are dealing with. But why do they talk as if honesty is some sort of honorable justification for hurting someone else's feelings? In my opinion, these "blunt" and "honest" people are merely making a pitiful excuse for not thinking before they speak. Well, I have news for you cool people: there's a thing called self-control. You know how easy it is for people to just blurt out whatever they want? Upon evaluating the situation, if I have to end up making up something or give a crappy wishy-washy answer, then so be it, I choose to respect the feelings of others over giving myself a pathetic sense of self-confidence by saying something I know will offend that person. But if a person respects and trusts my thoughts and asks for complete honesty, I will give them exactly that. It'd be foolish of me to answer everything with stuff that people want to hear. To me, honesty requires discernment. If a situation calls for a blunt answer, then that's what needs to be done. And some people need to be talked to in a certain way to get your honest answer through to them, not just a flat out objective statement. But it makes me sick hearing some of the stuff that's said by some people in the name of honesty. Quote of the Day: On camping at the beach: Yun Soo: Well, it's cool and all, but when you wake up in the morning, it gets pretty gross because everything just gets covered in dew. Mike: Well, but it's better than being covered in dew dew... Saturday, May 11, 2002 Sheesh! I've been so tired every night... this is too much for me to handle. It'll only be a matter of time before I just collapse. What to do.... I wonder what it would be like if our hands and feet switched places... hahahahahaha, it's so funny, just conjuring up the mental image.... or if everyone talked out of their butts, like how Jim Carey did it in Ace Ventura. Does that mean we're going to fart and poop from our mouths? HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I've been soooo dog-crazy the past week. I've been looking up dog websites and breeder websites every single night for the past 6-7 days. I want either a golden retriever or a labrador retriever... smart, gentle, cute but but at the same time cool-looking (not the pansy kind of cute) good size (makes a good running companion). Yu-Gi-Oh! is SUCH a good cartoon!! I downloaded every episode they showed so far on my computer. It's SOOOO amazingly nice to live 3 minutes away from church. Quotes of the week: On Yu-Gi-Oh: (this wasn't my quote, but I thought it was pretty funny, but it might be one of those "you had to be there" kind of moments...) Mike: Yeah, it's like an older kids' version of Pokemon. But the emphasis is on the card game itself. They duel by playing the card game. Phil (with a puzzled look): So... you watch cartoon characters... play card games...? At KCM Bonfire: Jinny: They look like fireworks... Mike: Yes, fire works very well. Dan: Hey, there's no cheese in my sandwich. Mike: Oh "cheese" (geez), it's not that big a deal. Tuesday, May 7, 2002 I want to get a dog when I move back home. But I dunno how things will work out with that. Quote of the day: After basketball, Josh and Mike (two big guys) sit between Dan (a relatively little guy) inside my car. This is a different Mike, not me. Josh: Haha, we're gonna sandwich Dan in the back. Mike: Yeah, you could call it a Dan-wich. Monday, May 6, 2002 I had a headache all day from my body being too exhausted from the weekend and not getting enough rest. I was hungry but I didn't really have an appetite to eat anything, so I just made spaghetti and forced myself to eat it. Then I felt sick from that, I ended up throwing away like half of it. What a waste. I've been listening to a whole lot of Eric Clapton in the past week. I taught myself to play Tears in Heaven last night. Pretty neat. It was surprisingly not that hard to play. I feel very refreshingly enriched as a musician after listening to a bunch of Eric Clapton songs I've never heard before. I had a dream while I was taking a nap today. In the dream, Brian McKnight gave me an autographed guitar. I have no idea why. I don't even like Brian McKnight that much. I'd rather dream of getting an autographed guitar from Sarah McLachlan or Bono or Edge. Sigh... will I ever get to meet them in real life? We moved to our new house on Sunday night. It was amazingly nice. I think I'm going to love it when I move home after school ends. Today was just one of those really nasty days. I felt sick and half-alive all day. Everything is a blur to me... if I said anything corny I don't remember it. Saturday, May 4, 2002 Man!!!! This month is going to be quite tough. Today was the first of many super busy May weekends. I literally dropped dead on the church couch after finishing up Bible study. I was so satisfied with what I wrote about corny jokes on the last entry, I put it on its own separate page called "In Defense of the Corny." My ankle still hurts. I think I am going to have it checked out again, the pain should be well gone by now. I hope I didn't tear any muscle... May 5 is "Kids' Day" in Korea. I wonder why America doesn't have a Kids' Day. Well, I suppose everyday is Kids' Day in America. America is the best place to be as a kid. In Korea, most kids are miserable with the pressures their parents put them through. I could have sworn I heard something about a Pets' Day in America being celebrated at some point in a year... but still no Kids' Day. So many days to celebrate so many things in America. Moms and dads, war veterans, national heros, Chris Columbus, some Irish dude named St. Patrick, love, take your kids to work day, coming out of the closet week, sheesh! Might as well celebrate the birthday of the guy who invented the toilet (whoever he/she is). Not that I'm saying holidays are bad, I love national holidays. Anything to miss school. And some people definitely deserve to be recognized for their contibutions to mankind. Quote of the day: On ramen Hanna: I have a friend that pronounces ramen "ray-men." David JDSN: That's weird. Mike: Well, everybody loves "ray-men" (Everybody Loves Raymond). Thursday, May 2, 2002 I can't believe it's may already... sheesh! Just like that a month passes by... and 5 more weeks of school left. How the time passes by... it's just too fast to be able to really cherish every moment like what everyone tells you to do... that statement is just too overrated if you ask me. History midterm today was a breeze. Today was one of those days where everything worked out perfectly in the midst of everything going wrong. I'm feeling a little bit more at peace with the world and the cosmos... I still have no idea how I'm going to deal with all the annoying issues. I feel like I'm running out of ideal pictures of the world I live in and the future ahead of me. Reality sucks. On a brighter note, I saved at least $20 this week because I only ate out twice, on Monday and Wednesday night. I cooked the rest of my meals. I don't have any quotes from today, but here's a few noteworthy things about corny people, as gross as the jokes may be: 1. Corniness is a play on words. You have to constantly be sharp and pick up certain things people say and quickly respond with something that's linked to a particular word or phrase, and connect it with something completely different. All in a matter of seconds - corny jokes are delivered as an immediate response, so you can't leave room for awkward silences while you think of what to say. You can't just be corny because you feel like it. It requires wit and intelligence. Have you ever seen a corny person that was dumb?. 2. Furthermore, because corniness is a play on words, if there's a corny person with you, you know they are listening to what you are saying and giving you a good amount of attention. But NOT for the sake of telling jokes. Corny people are natural listeners. Somebody giving you that kind of attention just for the sake of telling a joke, let alone a corny one, is not even worth the energy. 3. Corny jokes are unpredictable, as long as a conversation is constantly progressing. Corny jokes only work once, so every corny joke is a new one. If you were to tell a corny joke that has already been said before to the listener(s), it just becomes plain stupid. 4. Finally, corny jokes don't put people down. Corny jokes naturally do not offend people. If anything, the joke teller gets made fun of for being corny, but in a playful way. If anyone uses corny jokes to offend people, that person is not using it the right way. But I have never seen that case in my life. |