People come and go
saying things that break me
making me curl up tight
trying to hide away
from the life around me
trying to die slowly
no one seems to care
so I just fade away...

I'm a pathetic human being....

Everyone has pointed that out to me so damn clear...

From yelling....spitting....hitting....abusing...

Yes...yes....abusing both pyshical and verbally....

No one...no one around me cares whether I live or die....

I think most perfer me dead.  Hell I'm one of them...

I remember some of my encounters.....

Austin.

"Whats wrong jackass......Scared that I can break you just like this..."
Snaps his fingers instantly.  "Hmmm ya son bitch....What you gonna do....run
back to mommy and cry....I bet she gives a rat ass about you any how.....You
better come here when I tell you....Don't make me come after you....."  He
hisses at this point while glaring at me. "Don't make me....OR you'll have
hell to pay when I get my hands on your pathetic carcass of an ass...."

Rock.

"What wrong jabroni......can't take the heat?  Hmmm.....don't like someone
fucking up your ass?  Huh?  Don't like someone slapping your candy ass around
like a basket ball......Huh?  Don't you like getting whipped?  Don't you like
me sticking a vibrator up your ass.....and lets not forget about the cock
ring on you.......Oh but you scream every time....Well......even if its in
pain....." He snickers at me.

Vince.

"You think you can just go and EVEN think about sueing me.....ME...VINCENT K
MCMAHON!!!...OH you IDIOT.....you pathetic....incompitent.......WHAT...WHAT
do you think...I guess you don't even think.....You're so .... You're not
even worth my words...." He yells at me.

I don't know what to do....these.....these memorys....haunt me.....haunt my
very exisitence...

***

You make me feel special
you make me smile
you make me look at the world
in another way
you're my savior
you make me feel important
I no longer cry
I no longer fear
because of what you do to me....

I smiled as I saw you walked closer to me.  I giggle as I felt your arms
around me, around my waist, pushing me closer to you....Our bodies grinding
against each other.

I can feel your mouth attacking my neck, I moan with pleasure.  "Oh..." I can
barely say, as I let the feeling of pleasure wash through me.

I can feel your hands roaming my back, even squeezing my butt.  I squeak with
pleasure and pain.  I see you smirk at me.

"You like that don't you..."

I nodded, embarrased at his words.  He smirks again.  "Good....goood......."

Instead of unbottoning my shirt, he ripps it off.....but I just giggle and he
picks me up in his arms, placing me onto the bed gently as he can.  I look
into his big brown eyes.

He smiles so lovingly to me.

You make me feel so speacial....So wanted.  I love you so much....

I see you strip all the way down...even your boxers are gone....I can help it
but stare with wonder at your body.  I love you so much.......

I see you work on striping me down, and with least expecting it...You take me
into your mouth. "Fuck...." I swore as I throw my head back with pleasure and
let you do what you want with me.  I'm yours for the taking.

You lick up and down the sides of my throbbing member.  I shiver with
pleasure and you keep on doing this for a bit while longer....every single
one slower than the first one.  It drives me insane.....makes me want to
scream your name out....wants me...

I loose my thoughts....and then.... I feel you taking me into your mouth.....

Sucking.....and sucking....like your life depended on it.

Yours hands play with my balls.....making me squirm.....

Then what seems as an eternity....I cum into your loving mouth.  you swallow
every bit of me.  Every damn bit.  I smile softly as I feel you crawl up onto
the bed, at my side, taking me into your arms.

I close my eyes and breathe slowly trying to catch my breath.

"Beautiful...."

I look up to you.  "Hmmm?" I ask.

You look back at me.  "You.....you're always beautiful...."

I blush and then I feel your lips onto my own.... Giving me the most
sweetest...most gentless kiss... I look into your eyes....Seeing a sparkle of
liove in them....

I can't believe it...you're all mine....

My Tazz.....

I just smile at you.... and lay my head onto your shoulders.  knowing this is
the place where I feel wanted....safe....special...and most of all...

....loved.