Last Chance

by Jari


My mind is made up, these are going to be it, my last moments on earth.

Trunks, I'm doing this because I love you, and don't want you to die. You have your sister to look after, and besides, my heart couldn't really bear a day apart from you, my love. So...

Please, Trunks, be strong. You're needed, and I'm... expendable. Really. Even my brother has a family to defend-I can't risk either of your lives. This is my decision, and it's just what needs to be done.

Though, I couldn't tell him all that, before I left. If I had, he would never have let me go, and that's no good. My planning would be for naught, as would also my sudden burst of courage. This is too important not to do, too many lives are at stake if I don't.

I don't regret my decision, though I am now wishing I had trained a bit harder during our years of peace... Maybe I wouldn't be sacrificing my life right now, if I had. I know I don't stand a chance against the nuclear missiles... my father and Trunks' father, the strongest men in the entire galaxy... they have already lost against this new technology, though, thankfully, they did save chickyuu. We only need a few more days, then, hopefully Bulma-san's device will be ready. Otherwise... Well, I can't think about that right now.

Before I left, there was something I had wanted to tell him, but I didn't know how. I just knew I couldn't go off without... without knowing if he felt the same way about me. I have been in love with Trunks for a long time, even if I never said so with words. I'm no good at that.

He was only in the next room. I figured I should just go in there and... do it. That's it. I mean, how was I going to go on and sacrifice my life if I didn't even have the guts to tell my closest friend just how I felt? Words shouldn't be as scary as bombs.

One foot in front of the other... I had made it that far, so... Oh my god. He was right there, sitting on my couch. I felt my face brighten into a wide grin as he looked up at me. Shy or not, I was happy. Those blue eyes, if I could have just drowned in them, I remember thinking, then I wouldn't have had to say anything at all. Somehow, though, I managed to find my voice.

"Trunks-kun! You're here." He stood up, and I motioned for us to go outside.

He followed me, though I could tell he hadn't the slightest idea why we couldn't talk about whatever I had on my mind in the living room. I'm not one much to keep secrets, one would think-though Trunks knows me better than that, even if I don't always tell him everything, either. I didn't want to take the chance that Okaasan was within earshot, just in case things did, or didn't, go the way I'd hoped. Besides, I always pictured our first kiss to be outside, alone, under a wide blue sky.

"So... Goten? What's going on?" I smiled again, and the heat of the moment rose to my cheeks. The fleeting remembrance of my secret dream passed as I ventured to take a step forward, towards the tree he had been leaning against, watching me. He was handsome, standing there with that bewildered look on his face. Could it have been that... Trunks seemed... hopeful? I think so. That's what I took as a sign to do what came next: an attempt to make my dreams come true.

No fear. No words.

I took his hands in mine and leaned forward, covering his mouth with my own, not hesitating enough to give him a chance to slip away from my advance. His lips were warm and soft. As I held my breath, I hoped with all my might that he would kiss me back. It would be a shame to spend my last moments knowing my love was unrequited. Then again, I also knew it would be harder still, knowing that he did want me the way I wanted him. So little time... so many impossible adventures that could never be.

My eyes opened when I realized he was kissing me back. My Trunks, he really felt like I do! Just knowing this, made my heart beat faster. As our noses brushed and our toungues tangled, I reached down behind my love and grabbed his behind. It was hard and firm and wonderful to pinch. I decided to leave my hand there, savoring the joy he gave me and the newfound knowledge that this was okay. He loves me!

As my heart soared, I felt him grip me tighter. Though we are both guys, it just didn't matter. In fact, to me, anyway, the fact that we are mad this so much sweeter. For I know, without a doubt, that our love runs deep, else neither of us would have wound up in each other's arms. My mother sure wouldn't approve. The way society is today... we are both taking a huge risk being together.

Well... I'm not. Not really. After all, I plan to die. I'll never have to face the reality of what might have been, nor will I have the joy of Trunks in my arms... To be honest, I felt a twinge of guilt as he moved his lips away from mine to begin tracing my jaw with his teeth with such passion. I was leaving him, though he deserved better. Worse yet, I know he expected to have a future with me, now. I'm such a liar, not telling him, just teasing him like this.

It felt so good to have him in my arms after so much time, so I decided not to let the fact that I was leaving him ruin this moment. After all, this was my last moment alone with Trunks! I wanted to enjoy it, damn it! So, I kissed his ear playfully, nibbling ever so lightly, swallowing my pain. I reveled in the ticklish sensation he was causing, running his fingers through the hair just above my neck, blowing his hot breath in my ear.

My body was quivering in ecstasy. To feel his touch… I'm not completely sure, but I believe he gave me goosebumps-I was tingling all over. Then my groin began to grow hard, if it wasn't hard already. If we didn't stop, sudden burst of courage or not, I knew I'd never be able to leave.

Oh, Enma-sama, please... I want us to have more time together, in the next life. I'd like another chance to share my life with the man I love.

It's just not fair!

I was the one who broke off our kiss. He looked at me in wonder, and I grinned again, as I began to float upwards toward the blue sky above, flashing the v-for-victory sign, and he smiled back at me. My mother had mentioned I had errands to run that day, though... If he couldn't figure out what I was about to do, he was a fool. Why he never followed me, I'll never know. I missed him already.

Good-bye, Trunks. I love you!