chapter 5 Realizing the truth





Colors swirled around me, chasing me, trying to swallow me and hold me still. I ran, ran from the colors, ran from the voices, and ran from him. He was coming after me. The colors were his to control, his to try and take me with.

"Why did you hurt me, Torankusu? I love you."

"Shut up you sick pervert!"

I kept running through the nothingness, out running the colors and out running him. But he was always there. Always.

"How could you, Torankusu? Truchan I love you. I love you."

"SO?" I bellow back. *Who the fuck cares, you sick bastard? I do not love you. I can't.* "I CAN'T!"





I sat up quickly, throwing my covers off me. I was in my room at Capsule Corp. I wasn't being chased by colors or by Goten. I let out a shuttering breath and smiled. "It was all a dream. All of it."

"What was a dream, boy?"

My eyes shot open to see my otousan's angry ones boring into me. He snarled. "You think what happened yesterday was a dream? Do you think you dreamed almost beating your best friend to death?"

I matched his growl. "He is no friend of mine, Tousan. Just as you are not an otousan."

Snarling he approached the bed. "I should strike you because of those words. You do not know what you say."

"I know I no longer respect you. How could you throw away Kassan for him."

My otousan's face paled and I let out a short bitter laugh. "Oh I know, Tousan. I know that you fuck Gokuu and throw it in Kassan's face every time you can. You are some piece of work, Vejita."

There was a low growl belonging to someone else and I twisted my head towards the other corner. Gokuu stood there, his teeth bared. "You are some piece of work, bakayarou. You almost killed my son."

I mirrored the expression. "He didn't deserve to live. He was corrupted by the two of you and was trying to get to me."

"He finally told you, then."

I turned back to my otousan. "Hai. And I was simply trying to correct him."

My otousan laughed. "Boy don't you realize? Don't you see what you have done?"

I shook my head. "No but I am sure you will enlighten me."

"You nearly killed your soul mate, boy. You nearly killed the one being you are meant to be with for all time. How can you not recognize that?"

I growled in anger, fighting what his words stirred in me. *I am not like them. I am not!* "I don't know what you are talking about."

Gokuu, in a softer voice than before, said, "Torankusu, we can both here your soul screaming in pain. Can you not hear that yourself?"

I tried to shut out his words, but they reached me. I was in pain. I was in so much pain that every breath hurt, every movement was a struggle. I wanted to collapse, to fall into the arms of the only person I knew could bring my comfort. But I was too damn stubborn to admit that. I guess, in that respect, I am exactly like my father. Before I could say anything, my otousan put a hand on my shoulder. I jumped, not even realizing he had gotten that close.

"Boy do you think that you are the only one who has had a problem accepting a relationship? Don't you think I fought my bonding to Kakarotto, Gokuu?"

I stared at him in shock. He never called Gokuu by his earth name. My best friend's otousan came to stand next to my own and wrapped an arm around him. I suddenly saw them in a different light. Did my otousan react this exact same way? Did he curse Gokuu until the strong saiyajin made him realize what he truly felt.

"But I realized he truth, boy," my father continued. "I realized that I loved him and had been bonded to him forever, ever since I met him. That was my anger towards him. That's where all my hate sprang from. I was just too blind to recognize the signs until it was almost too late."

His intense eyes were locked on mine and I suddenly found that I could no longer look in them. I felt like scum. I could I not see that the two men standing before me loved each other - loved each other more than Kassan and Tousan ever had. It just seemed so right. Gokuu and Vejita were perfect for each other. Was Goten indeed perfect for me?

"I almost killed him, Torankusu." My otousan's voice was soft and grief ridden. I stared at my hands. "I would never have forgiven myself if I had been successful. And I will not allow you to make the same mistakes I did. You love this boy. Don't screw it up."

I glanced back at them. "But Kassan..."

My otousan narrowed his eyes. "I will deal with Buruma. No one will stand in the way of your happiness."

My eyes clouded over as I realized something I never had before. Deep inside my otousan, buried deep beneath all his defenses, there was a kind and loving man. There was a man who cared about the ones he loved. There was an otousan who care about his son.

I swallowed hard. "Thank you, Tousan. Where is he?"

Gokuu smiled. "Goten is downstairs in the third guestroom. He is expecting you."

I looked at them and smiled. "Thank you both. I - I am sorry for what I said earlier."

My otousan smiled - the first real smile I had ever seen on his face - and ruffled my hair. I could not help laughing. Tousan was acting so strange! "Fine boy. Now go and make this right."

I nodded and climbed out of the bed, leaving the room and its two occupants behind. As I left, I heard Gokuu ask, "Do you think they'll be okay?"

"We are okay, koi. If we can make it, so can they."

I smiled and walked down the stairs, preparing to make things right between Goten and me. I knew it was not going to be easy, but I was going to have to do it.

"I am so sorry for what I did, Goten. So, so, sorry."

*Kami please let me make it up to him.*