Water. My dream at my 3 - I'm falling down in water, laying on my back. I feel I can't breath anymore and I feel very scared. Then I see my father's face, but I know he can't rescue me - I smile to him, close my eyes and die... Tears. I used to cry a lot. And I don't want to come back to those days. I killed them with my smile. Fish. I saw sea fish in a shop. Yellow, red, orange, I saw sharks and that blue fish which was very cold and could not breath.. She had temperature - I'm sure! Those days I was very sad and cried a lot.. And I thought I could have fish.. My fish all have died but they swim in my dreams sometimes... Sea. Sitting.. waiting for the pleid and his warm hands.. looking at the sea water.. smiling to the moon... Me. I will be like ocean - deep and wide. Like something what could never be placed in a small box for tomorrow, something what could never be put in a pocket for another time. I will be like water! Water with thousand bubbles of oxygen... I become water NOW!!! 27.10.2002