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by Reiko-chan
PART X
Koenma trudged on wearily towards their cottage,
his feet feeling like lead. So far, Yuki was still sleeping. It was really a
relief to find her finally conscious after he went to the Fates. And now that
she is comfortably settled, what would he tell her? How could he explain his
week-long absence? How could he even tell her goodbye?
Taking a mouthful of air, he slid the door open.
But to his surprise he found Yuki standing by the window, her back to him. When
she heard the door open, she turned around only to see him standing uncertainly,
eyeing her with worry and at the same time with relief upon finding her fully
awake.
Without a word, Yuki ran and flung herself to
him. Koenma momentarily lost his balance as he stumbled backwards.
"Yuki-"
"Shh.." she murmured burying her face
in his chest. "Just hold me, kudasai?"
With that Koenma closed his eyes as his arms
wounded around her small body. He pressed her more to him, her dainty form a
perfect fit against his. They just stood there holding each other, his face
buried in her sweet-smelling hair. She, listening contentedly at the beat of his
heart.
"Ai shiteru." Yuki said after a moment,
her face still buried against his chest.
Koenma took a deep breath upon hearing the
sweetest words. God, how he missed her! How he missed holding her, touching
her-- With that he slowly pulled her face up to his, his fingers settling under
her chin.
Yuki stared deeply into his eyes, she tried
smiling but to no avail. Just looking at how he is staring at her made her want
to cry. She saw love in them with hurt and... goodbye.
Gomen ne..." she began softly, a tear
falling.
Koenma shook his head as he wiped the tear away.
Another one fell and then another one until it came down faster... they now both
know what to do. It was understanding and hated acceptance that brought those
tears in her eyes.
"Forgive me?" he asked softly. "I
am the worst husband there is and..."
"Iie, iie." She shook her head. Then
she smiled through her tears."You have to do what you have to do, ne?"
"Oh Yuki-"
He quickly pulled her to him, embracing her with
all his might. He then burst into tears as he held her tighter against him.
"Ai shiteru." He murmured softly.
"I believe you." She replied. "The
beating of you heart tells me so."
Koenma closed his eyes as he savored the feel of
her for the last time. He felt her arms go around him tighter, heavy sobs
wracking her body.
<Please, can't we stay like
this forever... >
Then to her surprise she felt warmth all over
her. She opened her eyes only to see a bright light radiating inside the
cottage. She turned her face to his, her eyes becoming wider.
Koenma now stood before her in
his shining glory. The Jr. mark slowly materializing on his forehead. Everything
about him became brighter that she had to cover her eyes to shield them from the
blinding light. The brilliance of a demigod now surfaced beneath the simple fold
of his human form.
"Open your eyes, Yuki." Came his soft
voice. "Don't be afraid."
She slowly opened her eyes. Strangely, she
realized that her sense of vision had finally adjusted to the blinding radiance
before her. She felt her cheeks burn as she found herself looking at the most
beautiful creature she has ever seen.
Then to her complete astonishment she felt
herself being pulled. She gave a sharp gasp as she felt something soft against
her lips. The gasp then turned to a soft moan as Koenma's lips moved against
her, coaxing her to respond.
Koenma pressed her tighter against him as he felt
her shy response. He gave out a soft groan of pleasure as his lips entwined with
hers in a sensuous dance, her lips moving with rhythmic passion against
his,making him feel desire and longing and at the same time making him feel love
and torment. The tormenting thought of kissing
her, feeling her against him for the last time filled him with so much pain.
He then broke the kiss slowly and stared at her
face. He looked at her, his gaze so intense, his eyes memorizing every form. He
tried his best carving the beautiful image in his mind for this will be the last
time.
<The last time... >
She returned the same loving gaze, her tears
falling from her eyes down to her lips, kissing her, a salty replacement for
his. She waited for the promise of seeing each other again but nothing came out
of his lips.
"Goodbye, Yuki." He said. "I love
you."
Then giving her one last look. He turned around
as the portal slowly materialized in front of her. She stood there unable to
move, unable to speak. Then something inside her snapped. She suddenly felt her
feet hastily running up to him, her arms throwing itself around his waist.
Koenma stopped momentarily and closed his eyes.
He prayed that she wouldn't ask him to stay because if she does, then God help
him- he will stay. He remained his back to her, trying his best not to turn
around and face her, afraid that her sad, pretty face would make him change his
mind.
"I lied." She softly said.
"Please..."
Koenma hardened his heart as he gently freed
himself from her arms. Without turning back, he slowly walked into the portal.
His heart bursting with so much grief.
Yuki then fell to her knees as she witnessed his
figure slowly disappearing from her sight. She then wounded her arms around her
body, sorrow enveloping her as she cried helplessly, her tears falling to the
floor like clear crystal gems.
"... don't go." She finished softly as
the light slowly disappeared before her.