Getting What You Want

by Karina

 

Chapter 1

The Day Before

 

In this world, there are only two tragedies: one is not getting what you want,

and the other is getting it

Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere’s Fan

 

Nothing is so good as it seems beforehand

George Eliot, Silas Marner

 

 

“Wa di u shay u er in’iting ush to?”  Yusuke asked, his mouth full of food.

Yusuke, Keiko and Botan were seated at a corner booth in Keiko’s ramen house, Yusuke eating a bowl of noodles, which he had immediately exalted to high heaven.  A ceiling fan in the middle of the room made rhythmic whoop-whoop noises, which was the only sound in the room, except for Yusuke’s chewing. 

Outside, through the plate glass window, the noontime sun beat down on the concrete road and on the backs of the passers-by, turning everything into a bustling, human stew.

Botan looked perplexed.  “What did you just say?” she asked Yusuke.

Keiko crossed her arms on her chest.  “He’s asking you what occasion you were inviting us to,” she said, deadpan.

Yusuke swallowed.  “Hey, Keiko, how did you know that?  You’re amazing!”  He grinned widely, revealing a piece of spinach stuck between his two front teeth.  Keiko sweatdropped.

“Wow!” Botan shook her head, astonished.  “How in Reikai did you understand what he said?”

Keiko turned to her.  “It takes a lot of practice, determination and strength of character to understand Yusuke-ese,” Keiko said with mock gravity.  She grinned.  “But seriously, I’ve known Yusuke for so long that it’s a skill that comes naturally.” 

Botan sighed.  It must be nice to know someone as well as that, she reflected.  She thought instantly of Koenma, her boss, friend and…what else?  She didn’t know.  Sometimes she felt that she was his sister, or his mother, or…something else quite different.  Something more special…

Something more special? Yeah, right!  Botan almost snorted.

Keiko looked at Yusuke who was thoroughly enjoying his bowl of noodles, and shook her head.  “Besides, that’s the way he usually talks.  With his mouth full, I mean.”  She shot Yusuke a mind-your-manners look.

Yusuke smiled sheepishly.  “Eherm… but anyway, what were you inviting us to, Botan?”  he said, changing the subject.

“There’s going to be a feast in Reikai on Sunday night,” Botan explained.  “It’s called ‘The Marvelous Miraculous Feast of the Three Hundred Sixty Five Thousandth Moon’.”  She caught her breath, and continued.  “Anyway, it’s supposedly a night in which all of the wishes made in Reikai when the clock strikes twelve will come true for three days.  It happens once every one thousand years.”

Yusuke’s eyes widened.  “Is that true?!” he said excitedly.  Then he frowned.  “And why only three days?  Why not forever?”

Botan shrugged.  “I don’t know.  Enma-sama said something about…about being careful what you wish for.  Something like that.”

“Have your wishes ever come true, Botan?” Keiko wanted to know.

“Well,” Botan began.  “I’ve never actually been to one so I wouldn’t know if it’s true.”  She notices Keiko and Yusuke’s disbelieving looks.  “What are you--?  HEY!!! I’m not that old!” she shouted, placing her hands on her hips.

 “Hehehe,” Keiko laughed nervously, scratching the back of her head.  “I’m not saying that you’re old, of course not!  Um…I was just… wondering if what you’re telling us is true, that’s all.”

“Well… you’ll just have to find out for yourselves,” said Botan mysteriously.  “So are you coming?”

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world,” Yusuke replied.  Maybe I’ll wish for a hundred pepperoni pizzas…or maybe a huge vat filled with chocolate sundae…or maybe…

“The feast is on Sunday, right?” Keiko asked her, interrupting Yusuke’s bacchanalian thoughts.

“Yup.”

“But that’s tomorrow!”

“Well…I…kinda forgot to tell you sooner, with all the preparations going on.”  Botan grinned sheepishly.  “Sorry ‘bout that!”

“But what are we supposed to wear? Is this a formal affair?” asked Keiko.

“Oops! I almost forgot.” Botan rummaged in her pocket.  “I was supposed to give you this.”  She extracted a crumpled piece of black cardboard from her front jeans pocket (she always wore ningen clothes whenever she went to Ningenkai) and handed it to Yusuke and Keiko.

“Everything you need to know is in that invitation.” 

Keiko began smoothing out the invitation card.  Printed on the topmost portion in gold, capital letters were the words ‘THE MARVELOUS MIRACULOUS FEAST OF THE THREE HUNDRED SIXTY FIVE THOUSANDTH MOON’

Also printed in gold letters were the following words:

 

You are cordially invited to The Marvelous Miraculous Feast of the Three Hundred Sixty Five Thousandth Moon (whew!)  It is a night when wishes come true, and it happens only once every millennium.

After much deliberation, you were chosen as one of the few people to attend this momentous occasion, so we hope for your kind attendance.

In other words, this is serious business, baka, so you better show up or else!

 

Yusuke and Keiko facefaulted.

 

The feast begins on the 10th of February, Sunday, 11:00 p.m. and ends after three days.  The wish casting should be done at exactly 12:00 am on the 11th of February.

The participants could wear anything they are comfortable with, but are highly encouraged to wear at least one black-colored article of clothing (In case you were wondering, this has nothing to do with the effectivity of the wish casting.  We just don't want you clashing with the color scheme of the décor or something…)

We also highly encourage you to think well about what you want to wish for.  In the words of the famed poet, Gorgonzola the Omnipotent:

 

Think well about what you wish for

You may regret it soon

And a peach is a peach, a plum is a plum

A kiss ain’t a kiss without some tongue…

So open your mouth

And close your eyes

And give your tongue some exercise!

      

“This poem sounds familiar.  I can’t help but think that I’ve read it somewhere,” Keiko mused.   “And who’s Gorgonzola the Omnipotent?”

Botan grimaced.  “Actually, that’s George’s poem.  He actually thinks the name ‘Gorgonzola the Omnipotent’ is cool.”

“I never knew that that oni was a poet,” Yusuke remarked.  “Come to think of it, I never even knew he could rhyme.”

A VERY heavy fist-sized rock wrapped in brown paper suddenly fell on top of Yusuke’s head (ouch! Where’d that come from?).  Keiko gingerly picked it up and unwrapped it.  She slowly read aloud the message hastily written on the paper.

 

Be careful with your words

I could hear them all the time

For your information

I know very well how to rhyme

 

Gorgonzola the Omnipotent

 

Botan groaned.  “George is kinda in a poetry trip right now.  Now you can’t talk to him unless you rhyme too.”

Keiko surveyed the paper again.  “Still, you have to admire his speed.  Imagine, he thought of this in a few nanoseconds!”

“However,” Botan commented, stroking an imaginary goatee, “his style is a bit stiff.  Not enough flowery words for my taste.”

“But that’s what imparts the HONESTY to his work!  You can just imagine the real George Saotome saying these words.  His work is so,” Keiko thought of the perfect word, “REAL.  So George Saotome.”

“But,” Botan cut in, “you must agree that a poet must find the ideal amalgam of truth AND beauty.  There IS truth in Saotome’s poems, but its presence is at the expense of beauty.  He must incorporate some more gracefulness into…blah, blah, blah…”

“But still, truth still holds more value…”

“What is truth without beauty, anyway?”

“But, I wouldn’t think that…”

“Still, it can be concluded that…” 

Yusuke watched them, dumbstruck, his head turning from Keiko to Botan, Botan to Keiko.  The vein throbbing at his temple was almost as large as the bump on his head (caused by the heavy rock).

Finally, when the girls started comparing George’s poems to Keats, he couldn’t take it anymore.

“WILL YOU PLEASE STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT POETRY?!?  I’M GRAVELY INJURED HERE!”

Keiko and Botan looked at him.

“You must excuse him,” Keiko told Botan.  “He has not been thoroughly immersed in fine literature, thus, his knowledge of the art of verse is disconcertingly banal, to say the least.”

“You are quite correct to think so,” Botan replied.

Yusuke fainted.

 

* * *

 

They spent the next thirty minutes trying to revive Yusuke (Hah! Serves him right, thinks Gorgonzola the Omnipotent from somewhere in Reikai).

When he finally came to, Yusuke muttered something about how he’d like to strangle the next person to talk to him about poetry.  (Hmph, grumbled Gorgonzola the Omnipotent from somewhere in Reikai)

Yusuke shook his head ruefully.  Well, enough about that, he thought, turning his mind to the feast instead.  What should I wish for?  Maybe I should wish for a dozen sirloin steaks…

“Well, so long, guys,” said Botan.  “I gotta go.  Still have to tell the others about the feast.”  She stood up to leave and walked towards the door.

Keiko waved.  “Bye, Botan!  Thanks for inviting us.”

“Yeah, thanks,” Yusuke said absently.  Or maybe I should wish for a hundred juicy hamburgers…or maybe a big bucket filled with fried chicken…or maybe…

 

  * * *

 

Botan made other similar trips to several other people.  The reactions she got ranged from delight (Yukina and Kuwabara), to mild interest (Shizuru and Kurama), to absolute indifference (guess who?).  By the time she was finished, her body was sore and she was dying to get some rest.  The mere thought of a soft bed was irresistible, as she trudged along the hallway leading to her room, already half asleep.

 “But Botan is a nice girl, Koenma –sama!”

George’s (or rather, Gorgonzola the Omnipotent’s) mention of her name, suddenly made her eyes snap open.  She tiptoed to Koenma’s office, where the voices were coming from, and pressed her ear against the door.

From the sound of it, she deduced that Koenma was pacing around the room and that George (Gorgonzola the Omnipotent) was fidgeting.  She could hear the slap of Koenma’s shoes against the floor.  George’s (Gorgonzola the Omnipotent’s) weight was making the floorboards creak audibly.

“I know, but she’s just not suitable…” Koenma’s last words were muffled by George’s (Gorgonzola the Omnipotent’s) fidgeting.

Not suitable?

“Botan’s the best possible person you could choose, Koenma-sama!”  Gorgonzola the Omnipotent insisted.  “She’s kind, and friendly, and…”

“But,” Koenma interrupted, “she’s not intellectual enough.  You know I need someone intellectual.”

A long pause.

Not intellectual enough? Botan raised an eyebrow.

“I’m afraid you’re right Koenma-sama,” came the oni’s disappointed voice.

Not intellectual enough?

Koenma tried to reassure Gorgonzola the Omnipotent.  “Look George, I mean, Gorgonzola.  I have nothing but kind words to say about Botan.  But…”

George interjected. “Then why don’t you…”

Muffled again, darn it! George, stop fidgeting!  Botan pressed her ear harder against the door.

“I’m sure,” she heard the oni say, “that Botan will agree to your proposal.”

Botan’s eyes widened in sheer, unadulterated shock.  Proposal?  PROPOSAL?!! 

“I mean,” the oni continued “I know she’ll be willing to accept. After all, you’ve been friends for quite a while.”

Willing?!  Botan’s eyes were still bulging out of their sockets.  Oh, I don’t know about that…

“I know that,” Koenma replied.  “She’s just not the right person, you know.  When it’s the right person, I’ll know.”

Not the right person?

Not intellectual enough?

“Oh…” Botan mumbled.  She had a blank look on her face.  “Oh…”

“Suit yourself, Koenma-sama,” George muttered.  “Just remember that your father set a deadline for this.  You have to find someone soon.”

Koenma grumbled.  “Don’t pressure me, George.”

“I’m just reminding you of your responsibilities.” 

The creaking of the floorboards grew louder, indicating that George was walking towards the door.  The doorknob rattled as he placed a large, blue hand over it.  Botan noticed these things, but she was too shocked to move away from the door to avoid being discovered.

“And the name,” George paused for effect,  “is Gorgonzola.”

           

* * *

             

“Not intellectual enough.”

“Not the right person.”

Koenma’s voice was ringing in her head.

Botan lay on her bed, tossing and turning, tossing and turning, tossing and turning.

“Not intellectual enough.”

“Not the right person.”

“When it’s the right person, I’ll know..”

“Not intellectual enough.”

“Not the right person.”

“When it’s the right person, I’ll know..”

Botan groaned loudly.  “ARRRGHH!!! Why is this bothering me?!?”

“Botan,” a groggy voice from the other side of the room murmured.  “Do you plan to sleep anytime in the near future?”

Botan was startled.  “You’re still awake, Ayame-chan?”

“Well,” Ayame said impatiently.  Now I am.”

“I’m sorry, Ayame-chan!”

“It’s okay.”  Ayame sighed.  “Just stop making noise and go to sleep, okay?  We’ve got lots to do tomorrow, with the big feast and all.”  She pulled up her blanket and went back to sleep.

But going to sleep was furthest from Botan’s mind.  The loud cacophony of Koenma voices in her head rose to a fever pitch.

“Not intellectual enough.”

“Not the right person.”

“When it’s the right person, I’ll know..”

“Oh look!  I’m so pathetic!”  Bitchy Botan screeched inside her head.  I just got dumped by my boss because I’m such a ditz!!  Ain’t that grand?”

“Be quiet,” Saint Botan chastised in a prudish voice.

But once Bitchy Botan got started, she never wanted to stop.

“She’s nice and all,” Bitchy Botan mimicked Koenma.  “But she’d bore me out of my skull!!!  She’d blab and blab and make absolutely no sense…ugh!  Who’d want to marry someone like that?  I need someone more…  INTELLECTUAL.”

Botan flinched.

St. Botan spoke up.  “He didn’t say anything like that! He said, and I quote,” St. Botan gets a parchment scroll out of her pocket.   “‘But she’s not intellectual enough.  You know I need someone intellectual’, unquote.”  She crossed her arms over her chest and pouted.  “He didn’t say any of that ‘she’d bore me out of my skull’ stuff.  You just made it all up!”

“Who cares about the details?”  A sigh from Bitchy Botan (who’s not the ‘sighing’ type) surprised St. Botan.  “Honey, that was the ESSENCE of what your dear Koenma-sama said.  I simply tell it as it is.  What are YOU anyway, a camcorder?”

“Don’t ‘honey’ me!”

“Ooh! So you DO have some spunk in you, eh?”

St. Botan made a sign of the cross.  “Father, forgive her, for she does not know what she is doing…”

Botan lay awake the whole night, ignoring the voices, and thinking.  Pondering might be a better word.

Why does this affect me so much?

I mean, he’s just my boss…

Hah!  That was a laugh!  He wasn’t just her boss.  He was her friend…maybe even her best friend.

And, of course, there was that other thing.  The thing that makes her think of him more than usual.  The thing that she was afraid to acknowledge.  And yet, strangely, she was also afraid of not acknowledging it. 

Because it seemed to her that if she didn’t acknowledge the feeling soon, if she didn’t admit it to herself and to him, the chance would be gone forever.

And she had a feeling, a very bad feeling, that she would live long enough to experience what forever was like.  Looking at it from this light, a messed-up eternity was all the more frightening.

Maybe…

Maybe I do care…

Botan sighed.

What does it matter anyway?  He doesn’t care about me…

 

* * *

Koenma paced around his room, wondering how he can possibly tell a person that he cared. 

This, of course, was supposing there was a person, and supposing that he cared.

It was all hypothetical, of course.

Ah, Koenma, he thought, who are you kidding, anyway?

Hypothetical.  Yeah, right.

The fact was, he did care.  He had been caring about a certain person for some time now.  In fact, he would have been completely happy caring for her silently. But alas, the clock does not stop for anybody, even for someone as old as he was.  He’d have to confess his feelings to her, and soon.

Koenma has never really had a way with words, or rather, the right words.  He can always say insults or orders to his staff with stunning accuracy, but when it came to saying the right words, he was forever at a loss.  Other things just come out of his mouth.  Still, it must be said that there was no malice behind these words, only the grip of nervousness and chronic hernia.

He eventually graduated from pacing the room to clenching and un-clenching his fists repeatedly.  Still, the same thought echoed in his mind.

How am I going to tell her?  he thought worriedly.  Ordinarily, he wouldn’t have thought of it.  However, ever since he reached the royal “marrying age” on his birthday a few days earlier, Enma Daiou had been dropping hints all over the place.  Conversations with his father have become increasingly peppered with phrases like “heir to the throne” and “the joys of parenthood.”

Why can’t I just be more…romantic or something?  he thought, utterly frustrated.  He thought of hiring a scriptwriter to write lovely words for him to say.  George Saotome – correction, Gorgonzola the Omnipotent – would be bouncing off the walls (literally) should he be hired for the job.  But Koenma finally decided against it.   If he had to read lines from a script, he thought, wouldn’t that make him look insincere?  And besides, he probably won’t be able to say two words of it, even if his life depended on it. 

But it was probably the thought of George – I mean, Gorgonzola the Omnipotent (this is getting a bit tedious) – bouncing off the walls like a big blue rubber ball that made him decide against it.  Was the safety of Reikai worth less than his own personal happiness?  Nope, he didn’t think so. 

So what was he to do?  Was he supposed to stay this way forever, the nagging boss, the workaholic fool, the clumsy almost-suitor?  He couldn’t bear another hundred years of this, much less an eternity.

The clock ticked away.  It was a few seconds to midnight. 10…9…8…7…6… 5… 4… 3…2…1…

Then came an epiphany.  It was so obvious, the solution to his problem, that he wondered why he hadn’t thought of it before.

Starting tomorrow, my life will be very much different, he thought.  He smiled to himself.

He turned out the lights and gradually drifted into a peaceful, deep sleep.

 

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