| Guess you could say there is, that so called msytery in a woman. I chose to give my heart away to the vowels of marriage again. No white gown again, no purity was there to give, only me and my two girls. I wed in a lovely white and pink dress, my two girls as ring holder, flower girl. Such young lives was still there for us all, I only 24, he the same. Life was good for the most part, he was a very loving person, raised the girls. We built our dream castle together, after years of hard work. A little, was repeated from when I left (flashbacks) home the first time. The was no abuse, but he had a hard time at first, getting close to girls. Only fault found about him, was he would raise his voice at us too often. For the youngest, he is all she knows as her dad, other did not like it so well. One thing that has always bothered me, is we have no child together. I was no longer able to bare a child, he knew of this when we married. Another thing that stayed in my mind, he said do not leave after girls are gone. Well, I did not loving him so much til, the day he walked out on me. Did so at a time when I needed him most, I became depressed and moody. He was just not strong enough to handle such a thing, then came the divorce. I went through it all over again, the anger, hurt, the loneliness set in. I gave this man 28yrs of my life, as I write this at 5yrs later. Most of these years I have sat an cried my' heart out, so lost and alone. I have struggled just to keep my head above water, doing without. Material things are not so important anymore, human touch is. I have forgave him, but will never forget, taking it to my grave. ~Such A Fool I Was Again~ (The Years After Will Continue) |
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| 1969-1997 (c) B.Armstrong- Mar, 2004 |
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