Dear Father Christmas,

Willow told me that perhaps I should write a letter to help me with my feelings. So I shall try.

I had hoped we would be together now. I wanted to go to Colorado with her. Everyone deserves snow at Christmas. Alright, what I really wanted to do was make love to her by a fireplace.

Oh God, I miss her. My darling Jenny. It was so nice to have another adult to talk to. A kindred spirit. I can't look at one of those dread machines without seeing her.

I guess I'm supposed to ask you for something. All I want is for you to tell her that I love her and that I hope she is at rest. Yes, I want her back here with me, but that is not what fate has for us. I've actually sat inside a magic circle, the summoning spell in front of me, just to see her spirit again. But I know it is better to let her rest.

Also tell her that she has changed me more than anyone, except perhaps Ethan. She managed to undo some of the damage he did, no small task. She was just begining to show me what real love is.

And one more thing. Please give me the strength to forgive, for Buffy's sake and my own.

Thank you,
Rupert